by J. Kenner
"Evan ..."
"Shhh."
He moved away, and a moment later I felt that pressure there again, only this time it wasn't his finger. Something hard and lubed, and Evan's voice was telling me to relax, to trust him, to surrender, and I breathed deep and let him slide the thing inside me. "Have you ever had a plug before?"
"No."
"It will feel amazing when I fuck you. And pretty damn intense when I spank you, too."
I closed my eyes and bent over in unconscious invitation.
Evan's gentle laughter brushed over me. "You like that," he said, as I felt my cheeks heat with a blush.
"I like everything you do to me," I said, because it was the truth, and I didn't want him to hold back. Not now. Not ever.
"Bend over more," he said. "As far as you can with your hands tied."
I complied, then held my breath as something hard and flat smacked my rear once, then again, then one more time before Evan stopped and pressed his hands to my flesh, rubbing at the sting, soothing it, turning the pain into pleasure, and the pleasure into the intensity of a need made all the more piquant by the addition of the plug, which, with each spank, seemed to tease me that much more.
"Oh, baby," he said. "I don't want to stop."
"Then don't."
"I have to. I can't wait. I have to have you. You're pink and wet and ready, and I can see how much you want it. I do, too. I have to fuck you, Lina. I don't think I can go another minute without being inside you."
I felt dizzy from his words, only barely aware of him behind me telling me to spread my legs. My ass tingled, and that only added to the sensation as he moved closer behind me. One hand cupped my breast, then spread me wide so that he could thrust inside me, deeper and deeper as I bent over, looking down at the city lights below as Evan lost himself inside me.
He slid his hand around and teased my clit, mimicking the rhythm of his thrusts, and as I looked out over the city below--as I felt every tiny particle that made up Angelina Raine spin and buzz and fire--I knew that I was nothing more than sensation. Nothing other than the embodiment of surrender. Whatever he wanted from me, he could have, if only he would give me this sensation, this joy. This permission to surrender in absolute safety and protection.
Because there was nowhere else for me than Evan's arms.
And as I exploded out over the Chicago lights, I knew that no matter what happened, I would always belong to this man.
The walk-through with Neely was scheduled for Saturday, and I spent that entire morning alternating between fear and excitement. I had to change shirts twice because I was sweating so much under my arms, and I finally dragged Evan into the shower and made him fuck me blind, just so that I could get what was coming off my mind.
It worked, but only until we were dressed again.
"Thank goodness the appointment's early," I said, glancing at the time on my phone. "If we had to wait until this afternoon, I don't think I could stand it." I glared at Evan. "How are you so calm, anyway?"
"Years of practice," he said. "And I only look calm. A little bit of nervous energy is good before a job. It keeps you careful."
"Then I'm the most careful person on the planet right now."
He pulled me close and kissed me deep. "It's going to go fine. Remember, you're working with a very experienced team."
"Which makes me the weak link."
"Which makes you the energetic new blood." His phone dinged, and he glanced at it. "They're in front of the building," he said. "Let's go."
We met Cole and Tyler in the BAS Security van, and drove together to Victor Neely's Winnetka house. He greeted us at the door, gushed in a too-polite, too-obsequious way over what a wonderful man my uncle was, and led us up to the gallery.
I caught Evan's eye as we climbed the stairs and saw that his reaction was the same as mine--neither one of us liked the guy, and for a second I wished we could just blow this whole thing off. After all, if this thing went as planned, he'd end up with the real Creature Notebook and we'd have a fake.
It hardly seemed fair.
We reached the gallery and stepped inside once Neely disengaged the security system. "It's a wonderful space," I said, as Evan detached himself to go with the lanky security captain who'd accompanied us to the gallery. Cole and Tyler stepped inside and started scoping out the area, asking Neely questions about size and security and claiming that all the information was for insurance purposes.
Neely answered everything without hesitating, and when I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket as per our plan, I told Neely that I'd like to discuss the placement of the food and drinks in relation to the movement of the guests. "I was thinking we could set up a cocktail station over here," I said, pulling him around toward a wall lined with framed pages from various historical manuscripts. My back was to the wall so that I was facing the interior of the gallery, and Neely was facing me, his back to Cole.
"We can keep the food and drink around the edge of the room," I said. "That should help traffic flow."
"Whatever you want," he said easily--and quickly. Too quick, actually, because it had only been twenty seconds. He was about to turn around, and if he did, he'd see Cole with his hand inside the supposedly locked case, and then we would all be screwed.
Tyler met my eyes, and in that split second, I knew that it was all on me--and even though I had no conscious thought about how to get us the hell out of this mess, I was still in motion. I took a step forward, pretended to trip, and grabbed hold of Neely's arm as I went down to the ground, losing my shoe in the process and scraping my knee on the rough wooden floor.
"I'm so sorry," I said, as he stopped his turn and immediately bent down to fuss over me. "The heels on these shoes, they're--"
"Not at all," he said. "Don't apologize, please. Are you okay?" His back was to Cole again, and I winced a little, keeping his attention on me even though more than thirty seconds had passed, but from my on-the-floor vantage point, I could no longer see what was going on.
Then Cole and Tyler were behind Neely, and Neely was helping me up, and Cole and Tyler were asking if I was okay, and everyone was heading out of the gallery, with me and Cole and Tyler thanking Neely for his time, and Neely apologizing profusely and promising to make sure that the floors weren't waxed the night of the gala so as to make it easier for women to navigate in heels.
"Oh my god," I said when we returned to the van. I threw myself into Evan's arms. "Holy shit, holy fuck, oh my god."
I was about to start the rant all over again when Evan soundly and firmly closed his mouth over mine.
The kiss was long and deep and if he was trying to calm me, he missed the mark entirely. "That was insane," I said.
"You did great," Evan said.
"Seriously," Cole said. "You saved my ass."
"Well, it's an ass worth saving," I said, and Tyler laughed.
"I'm so wired," I said, feeling jumpy and bouncy and certain I would explode if I couldn't do something to release all this nervous energy. "This is crazy," I said. "It's like I'm hopped up on gallons of caffeine. Is it always such a high, or is this extra kick from our close call?"
"It doesn't matter," Evan said. "Because this is the last time you're doing anything like this."
I laughed aloud. "True enough," I said. "I don't need to steal ancient notebooks to feel this way." I grabbed his collar and pulled him close. "I have you for that."
"Oh, hell," Tyler said. "They're at it again. Just shoot me now."
Evan flipped him the bird, then caught me in a long, slow kiss that illustrated my point. Yeah, I thought. Who needed larceny when I had this man?
"Do we want to grab some lunch?" Tyler asked, and I wanted to scream in frustration and disbelief. I mean, honestly, how could he be so calm?
"Sure," Cole said.
"No," I said. I turned and stared Evan down. "And you don't either."
"Apparently I have a prior engagement," Evan said, his voice filled with humor.
I saw
Cole and Tyler's knowing smirks and I really didn't care. I intended to jump Evan Black the moment we were out of this van--and I really didn't care who knew it.
"You're sure you don't want lunch," Evan said as soon as we were alone on his boat. "I think I have a frozen pizza I could heat up."
"Don't you even tease me," I said. "I don't want pizza. I don't want food. I just want you. Right here. Right now."
"Right here?" he said, looking at the dining table.
"Hell yes." I unbuttoned my blouse and peeled it off, then tugged off the camisole I wore underneath. Evan was watching me, his expression amused, which only fired me up even more. I'd show him amused.
I unzipped my skirt and dropped it along with my panties, then hopped up onto the table.
"You are serious," he said, but the amusement that had been in his voice earlier was replaced now with heat.
"Please," I said. "I think I'm desperate."
"I think I like you desperate," he said, unfastening his jeans as he approached me. He stepped out of them, then moved between my legs. I was breathing hard, anticipating the feel of him inside me. Wanting this wild, hard moment. And, yes, wanting it now.
He dropped to his knees then, frustrating me, but only until he hooked my legs over his shoulder and then buried his tongue inside me. I cried out, my fingers twisting tight in his hair, as he licked and sucked and then--without any warning at all--he stopped and stood.
And before I had time to protest or anticipate what was coming, he was right in front of me, pulling me close, positioning his cock so that he could slam hard and fast into me.
I arched back, crying out, my body craving more. Deeper. Harder. "Yes," I cried, alternating with cries of "Harder, Evan, please, deeper. Oh, god, yes."
I pressed against him, meeting him thrust for thrust, completely wild and wanton, totally exhilarated. And when the orgasm took me away, all I could do was cling tight to this man who had made me feel everything and all at once.
He pulled back, taking me with him, and we tumbled to the carpeted ground. "We should move," I said, after we'd laid there for a moment.
"To hell with that," he said, pulling me tighter against him.
I snuggled close, my emotions close to the surface. My desire to get even closer to him palpable.
"It's the same, you know," I finally said, my voice breathy.
"What is?"
"The kind of rush I felt today at Neely's. The kind of rush I got when I shoplifted. It's the same as the way I feel when you're inside me." I propped myself up to see him better. "You make me feel alive, Evan. You make me feel like me." It was true. I could be myself with Evan. No secrets. No holding back. I'd never understood what it meant to be free until I was in his arms. "Do I make you feel that way, too?" I asked. He gave me such a gift simply by being himself, and right then I wanted more than anything to know that I did the same for him. That I could give him a gift of such profound pleasure, too.
"Do you make me feel that way?" he said. "God, Lina, don't you know? You are the biggest rush of my life. The biggest thrill. The wildest ride. You are everything I always wanted, and everything I thought I didn't deserve. You are exceptional. You are beautiful. You are mine. And I love you."
I blinked, then realized that I was crying. "Could you say that again, please?"
His grin spread wide. "I love you," he said as he slid down my body trailing kisses over bare flesh. "Would you like me to show you just how much?"
I laid back, my arms and legs wide, my body completely open to him. "Yes," I said, grinning happily. "Very much, yes."
twenty-one
We drove out to Evanston the next morning to have Sunday brunch with Ivy. I ate too much, played too hard in the sun, and spent the drive back feeling sleepy and satisfied.
"I need to take care of some things at Destiny," Evan said. "Do you mind?"
"Of course not. I can pack while you're gone. But I'm still fixing you dinner tonight, right? My plane leaves at eight in the morning, so I really want the night with you."
"You got it," he said. "Your return flight's on Wednesday?"
I nodded. I'd decided that I needed to tell my parents my decision in person. And since I felt more comfortable on familiar territory, I wanted to go this week while they were staying in our California house.
"I'll be back by seven," Evan promised as he dropped me at the condo. I changed into jeans and a T-shirt, then took a taxi to Fox & Obel and returned with two full shopping bags. More food than we needed, I was sure, but I wanted everything to be perfect.
I'd just set one of the bags down so that I could punch the elevator call button when Kevin stepped into the lobby.
"Let me get that for you," he said, picking up the bag.
"It's fine. I have it." I grabbed the bag up. "What do you want, Kevin?"
"We need to talk."
"I don't think we have anything to talk about."
He pulled out his badge. "Yeah," he said. "We do."
"I--oh." A wave of fear shot through me. Did he know about Neely? Did he know about the manuscript? I worked to keep my voice steady. "What's this about?"
"Your boyfriend," he said, his voice hard. "Let's talk upstairs."
I nodded, mute, then followed him onto the elevator. In the condo, I headed straight for the kitchen, hoping to use that time to gather myself, but when I came back to the living room, I didn't feel gathered at all. I sat stiffly in a chair, stared at him, and told him to cut to the chase.
"I can nail the bastards," he said without preamble.
"Who?"
"Don't even pretend not to understand me," he said. "Evan Black, Tyler Sharp, and Cole August." He spat each name, and my heart twisted a little with each one.
"Nail them?" I asked, trying to sound a little bored and a lot confident. "For what exactly?"
"For violating the Mann Act," he said, his words chilling me.
I wanted to tell him that I didn't have a clue what the Mann Act was, but that would be a lie. My father had been on too many task forces, and he'd spent too many hours talking with my mother about using the Mann Act to combat white slavery.
"What exactly are you suggesting?" I asked icily.
"Those fuckers are transporting prostitutes. They're bringing women across state lines for the purpose of sex. And I have a feeling that once we open the door and dig a little deeper, we'll learn that it's even more insidious than that. White slavery. Drugs. All sorts of shit. They're in deep, Angie. And the longer you stay tied to them, the deeper you sink, too."
I felt light-headed, and realized that I'd been shaking my head almost from the moment he'd started talking. "Why are you telling me this?"
"Because you need to know," he said. "And because you're going to help me."
"No." I stood up. "You're wrong. There is no way Evan is tied up in something like that, and I am not going to help you harass him."
"Sit down," he said sharply.
I sat.
"I have a few witnesses who are willing to talk, but I need more."
Witnesses. The word seemed to pulse red in the air. This couldn't be true, so how could he have witnesses?
I realized he'd continued talking. "What?" I blinked at him. "Back up. What?"
"I said I need you, too. You're going to wear a wire."
"The hell I am."
"You're going to talk with your boyfriend," he continued, as if I hadn't said a word. "You're going to get him to admit to you what he's doing--and then you'll see that I'm right."
"You're not," I said. I would never believe that Jahn's knights were into that kind of shit.
Kevin kept talking as if I hadn't said a word. "And the reason that I know you're going to do this is because it all ties back to you. You're dating him, right? That has you mixed up in this mess, too. Not a good place to be, Angie. And it's definitely not a good place for your father to be," he added, the words sending a chill up my spine. "Not when he's making a bid for the vice presidency. The press gets h
old of something like this, and it won't be pretty."
"You unimaginable bastard."
"I'm not the bastard. Evan is. Him and his friends." He stood up. "I'll be back tomorrow. I want your answer then. And, Angie," he said, "it had better be yes."
I stayed in the chair as he let himself out, and I was still there hours later when Evan arrived. I didn't even hear Peterson let him in. I didn't even realize he was in the condo until he sat on the edge of the coffee table in front of me.
I'd drawn a blanket around me, but even beneath the flannel, I was cold and numb.
"Are you sick?" Evan asked, leaning in to press a warm hand against my forehead.
I shook my head. "They want me to wear a wire," I said, and I watched his shoulders droop with understanding.
"Kevin," he said. "That goddamn little prick."
"He says you're into prostitution. That you're violating the Mann Act. That I have to watch you--to spy on you. And he says that if I don't, my father's going to get dragged into this."
He slid off the table to kneel in front of me, his expression gentle. "Baby," he said. "We can fix this."
I shook my head, then met his eyes. "This could destroy my dad."
He looked at my warily. "What are you doing, Lina?"
"What I have to," I said. "What I can."
"Tell me."
"I'm going to California, just like I planned. And I'm going to call Kevin on the way and tell him you dumped me and that I'm moving to Washington just like I planned. And that means that putting a wire on me wouldn't do him any good. He'll leave my father alone, and if you and the guys can get Destiny cleaned up fast enough, then I bet he'll leave you alone, too."
"Lina, shit." He ran his hands through his hair, and his eyes looked wild and desperate. I kind of envied him that. I only felt numb.
"Sweetheart, listen to me." He took my hands and squeezed them tight. "You're not being punished. This isn't a case of the bad shit happening after you go a little wild. You don't have to pay penance. We can work it out."
I leaned forward and kissed him. "I love you," I said. "And I know it's not punishment. I do, really." I pressed my palm to his cheek. "You of all people should get it."
"What are you talking about?"
"It's like what you did for your mom and Ivy. You made huge sacrifices for them, and you did it because you loved them. Well, I love you. I love my dad. And I can't live with the thought of knowing that I didn't do everything in my power to keep both of you safe."