“Why don’t you use the term husband? You always say lifemate.”
“In my language, in my people’s world, we refer to our other half as lifemate. Unlike the Jaguar, we mate for life and beyond. Not for momentary pleasure. We consider the art of making love and keeping our mate happy to be a lifelong commitment.”
There was something very wicked in his voice, almost a challenge. She had the feeling he was smiling. Antonietta decided discretion was the better part of valor. “So you have a nephew, too.” She was all too aware of his fingers stroking her skin. His thumb slid over her inner wrist. She had no idea how sensitive a wrist could be. Her insides instantly melted.
“Yes, Eleanor managed to carry a son. Benjamin. Benj was—is—a miracle to all of us. He is shaping up quite nicely, and we are all very proud of him. My family is of the crafts. Benj prefers to work with gemstones just as I always have. I would love to take you to the caves where you could pick a gem from the walls of the cavern.” There was a note of longing in his voice.
“I would love to go to a cave with you. Do you still make jewelry?”
“I have plans to begin again, now that I have found you. Looking at you sitting there with your hair spilling around you and the firelight dancing over your breasts, you inspire me. I would make a necklace of fire and ice to lay around your throat.”
His tone created a very real sensation of cool gems on her skin, so much so that she reached to touch her throat, expecting to find a necklace of gold, diamonds, and rubies. “I would love to have something you designed.”
“I will make you something beautiful to go with your skin and hair. It would be such a pleasure for me.”
“Your nephew makes jewelry?” Antonietta loved feeling his eyes on her. She didn’t need sight to know he was watching her. She was past embarrassment. She wanted his gaze on her. She wanted him to feel ravenous hunger for her. She was feeling it for him. It was even becoming difficult to keep her mind on the conversation. She was too busy thinking of straddling him right there in the chair in front of the fireplace.
“My understanding is he has begun to work as an apprentice. I have not seen him in some time. But Eleanor also has young Josef, and he is another story altogether. His birth mother was quite old when she had him, and she died within an hour of his birth. Eleanor and Vlad immediately offered to take him. Deidre, Vlad’s sister, and her lifemate, Tienn, were chosen at first to watch over him, but Deidre lost so many children Tienn was afraid it would prove to be too much if the baby did not survive. It is very hard on the parents when they lose so many children. Many of our children do not survive beyond the first few months.”
“I couldn’t imagine losing Margurite and she isn’t even my child,” Antonietta said. “How sad for your sister and sister-in-law. So many people have children who really don’t want them, and yet so many want them that can’t have them.”
“What about you? Do you want children?”
She shrugged. “There was a time I dreamt of having children. I think most women do, Byron, but I had responsibilities, and my career was taking off. I didn’t find a man who appealed to me as a lifetime partner and, although I considered raising a child on my own, I decided it would be cheating the child. I often go on tours, I’m in demand when one of my operas is chosen, and I am always involved in my family’s business. It leaves little time for a child.”
“I see.”
For some reason Antonietta immediately felt defensive. It was a silly reaction, when his words held no inflection whatsoever, but she had the feeling he was misinterpreting things she said. Over the years, she had learned to live without sight, judging reactions by voices and even tension in the air, but she couldn’t do that with Byron, and it made her feel vulnerable and off balance. She pulled her hand out of his, aware he could feel her pulse jumping in her wrist. “Do you? That would be a miracle, when few people have a clue what my life has been like.”
“But then I am not most people, am I?” There was the merest trace of mocking amusement in his voice.
“No, you’re not,” she agreed. “You are someone very special. If you are not Jaguar and you are not quite human, what are you? What exactly? And don’t just put me off with some strange answer that doesn’t make sense.”
“I am Carpathian, of the mountains in that region. My people are as old as time and we are of the earth. You have your legends of vampires and werewolves and jaguars, and we belong to that realm.” He answered honestly in the way of lifemates. His gaze didn’t leave her face, judging her expression there in the darkness.
“I know you’re different, Byron. It’s funny, I can accept the thought of Jaguars so easily, but a werewolf or vampire seems preposterous.” She laughed softly at herself. “Why would that be? Why would my mind so easily accept one as reality but refuse to give the possibility of credence to the other?”
“A Carpathian is neither werewolf nor vampire. We are a species of people near extinction and fighting for our place in the world.”
She turned his words over carefully in her mind, examining them for signs of a hidden meaning. “Are you like either of those species? You must be a shape-shifter just as a Jaguar is. I’ve done a tremendous amount of research on the legends and mythology of the Jaguar people. Can you shift your shape? I can’t. I feel it reaching for me, and I know its somewhere inside of me, but on command, I can’t really do it. I have summoned the power of the creature but never really managed to bring the power out all the way.”
“Yes, I can shift.”
She hadn’t really expected him to admit it. The idea was exhilarating and frightening at the same time. She took a deep breath. “Can you fly?”
“Yes. You know I can. I didn’t erase your memory of it.”
She was in the dark, where she had grown most comfortable, and she waited there for several heartbeats in silence to give her mind time to assimilate what he was telling her. Flying. Her heart soared at the idea of it, even when her human mind set limitations. “That would be such an enormous gift.” Her lashes lifted. She couldn’t see him, but she looked directly at him. “For a gift so wonderful, there must be a terrible price.”
Byron looked at her and wanted to laugh. She was sitting across from him. His lifemate. Her bare skin gleaming in the firelight. His world of color dancing in front of his eyes. His emotions so raw and intense he could barely control them. What price had he paid? Centuries of a bleak existence. A world of gray and despair. The relentless whisper of evil calling to him. The endless minutes and hours and days and years of being truly alone. Her very existence had wiped it all away in a moment.
“I live, Antonietta. I have a way of life, and I live it. It is neither good nor bad to me to be the way I am. I simply am. I accept who I am, and I am proud of my people. We have honor and loyalty and many other traits of strength, but we also have weaknesses just as any race. I cannot walk in the sun. It would harm me. That is why I cannot be with you to guard you through certain hours of the day.” His voice was very matter-of-fact. “I see beauty in the night, it is my world, my existence, and I love it. I want to share my world with you so you are never afraid in it. So you see its beauty for yourself and not just for me.”
Antonietta didn’t know if it was what he said to her or how he said it, but she melted inside. Craved him. Wanted to wrap herself up inside of him, deep in his heart and soul. And she wanted to see his world and experience it. His voice nearly purred when he called the night beautiful. She lived in darkness, and she wanted to see it that way.
Antonietta couldn’t resist the temptation any longer. She simply stood and took the few steps to stand in front of him. Byron didn’t disappoint her. He reached for her just as she imagined he would, his hand sliding up her thigh, caressing the inside of her leg with graceful, expert fingers. Her body responded instantly with a heated liquid welcome, an eager anticipation of the sheer magic waiting for her.
His hands urged her closer, and she went, standing between his legs wh
ile his palm found her wet channel, pressing heavily in exploration. Flashes of light burst behind her eyes, a show of brilliant color, while her body pulsed with pleasure. His finger slipped inside, and her muscles clenched around him.
“When I’m with you, Byron, you make me feel like I can fly with you.” She had to catch his head for balance when her legs threatened to give out. Her hips pushed against his hand, wanting more, wanting him.
Impatient, she simply moved forward, straddling his thighs so that he had no choice but to remove his hand and allow her what she most needed. Her hunger was rising rapidly, almost ravenous, an insatiable appetite that could only be appeased momentarily. She settled her body over his. He was thick and hard and pierced her sheath slowly, filling her, stretching her, until the tight friction was incredible and perfect and everything she wanted.
Her breasts brushed his chest, her hair fell in wild abandon as she began to move with her dancing rhythm, with all the volcanic passion inside of her, waiting for him, waiting for Byron. She rode him hard and fast, slow and leisurely, giving them both exquisite pleasure. She heard sounds. The wind. The beat of her heart. Whispers somewhere far off. She felt everything. The texture of his skin, the shape of his bones, the definition of his muscles, and the endless rush of an orgasm that rocked their world in complete harmony.
“How could she not?” He lifted her chin to kiss her mouth lightly. “They are whispering together.”
“How is it we can hear them, Byron? They’re downstairs. In the conservatory, I think. Why would we be able to hear them? And why don’t they all go to bed and leave me alone?”
“Because,
cara
, you are important to them, and they love you. They are only showing their concern.”
“Well, I wish, just for this one night, they would leave us alone.”
The second set of footsteps, this time undeniably determined, was coming up the stairs. They listened as the door was approached. This time the knock was authoritative. “Antonietta.
Cara mia
, you must open the door for me at once, or I’ll use the master key I’ve collected from Helena and open it. I mean it. I must see that you’re all right. You don’t have to talk to me, but you must allow me into your room. You’re scaring
Nonno
and the children.” Tasha was very firm.
“She’ll open the door, too. Tasha would never bluff. I haven’t a stitch on and the room is… Well, it’s obvious what we’ve been doing.” Antonietta panicked.
Byron waved a hand toward the bathroom. At once there was the sound of running water coming from Antonietta’s private bath. The heady scent of their lovemaking dissipated, to be replaced by the fragrance of her favorite bath salt. Byron bent his head, took his time kissing her thoroughly. “You take a nice, refreshing bath. I know you have been secretly longing for one. I will let Tasha in and keep her occupied until you feel up to facing her.”
Antonietta slipped from his lap. “Well, please put your clothes on. I don’t want her suddenly thinking you’re so hot she has to have you.
Grazie
. You amaze me how thoughtful you are.” It was a measure of how upset she was with her family that she allowed him to handle the details, that she would allow him to meet with her cousin alone while she bathed in the adjoining room.
Byron waited until Antonietta had closed the door to the bath before sauntering over to the door. Another wave of his hand made the bed and clothed him in the way of his people.
He pulled open the door just as Tasha thrust the key in the lock.
Tasha screamed, a cry of shock and horror. Her hand flew to her mouth, her eyes widening. “We all thought you were dead.” Her voice came out a whisper. “Thank the good
Dio
Paul didn’t kill you.”
Byron stepped back courteously to allow her entry. Celt inspected their visitor and turned to follow his mistress into the large bathroom, making it clear he was on the alert. The closed door didn’t present a problem, the borzoi merely turned the knob with his strong jaws and disappeared into the steam.
“Antonietta is taking a bath. I think it will help to calm her and make it easier for her to talk with her family,” Byron volunteered. He followed the borzoi across the room, pulling the door closed to allow Antonietta complete privacy. He was hoping it would give Tasha time to recover. She was so pale he was afraid he might have to deal with an old-fashioned swoon.
“I had no idea you were here, or I wouldn’t have interrupted.” She glanced at him from under long lashes. There was a mixture of weariness and relief in her dark eyes. “Antonietta was devastated over what happened, you know, and she blamed herself for leaving you when you were so injured. Paul doesn’t remember why they left either.”
She sighed and paced away from him, putting distance between them to help recover from the shock. Tasha always found Byron’s presence unsettling, and up close, in her cousin’s bedroom, she found he seemed more powerful than ever. Tasha cleared her throat nervously. “I know I haven’t been very welcoming to you, but it is more than obvious Antonietta cares for you, and if you don’t mind, I’d like to start over.”
Byron regarded her with a raised eyebrow. Her words had been forced out, and there was a small underlying spurt of distaste he caught in her tone. “Why the turnaround? You do not need to pretend with me in order to save Paul from prison. The incident will not be reported to the authorities. You have your cousin to thank for that.”
A small smile tugged unexpectedly at the corners of Tasha’s mouth. “You don’t think much of any of us, do you?”
Byron didn’t answer her but crossed the room to the stained glass window. “Why do you dislike me so much, Tasha?”
She laughed softly, but there was little humor in her tone. “Because you are the first real threat to ever come to us.”
He swung around, frowning at her, his dark eyes puzzled. “I am not a threat to you. You are Antonietta’s cousin. Unless you sought to harm her in some way, I would do my utmost to protect you. Why would you think me a threat?”
She turned her head away from him quickly but not before he caught the sheen of tears shimmering in her eyes. “That’s so like you.” She waved a dismissing hand.
“Tell me.” This time his voice was low and compelling. If she didn’t cooperate with a slight push, he had no problems pushing past the natural barriers in her mind to find her thoughts. As far as he was concerned, Antonietta’s family deserved little consideration.
“Look at me, Byron. You’ve never looked at me. I’m beautiful, my body is absolutely perfect.” There was bitterness in her voice. “That’s all anyone sees when they look at me. They never look past it to see me. And if they did, I’m not talented like Antonietta or brainy like Paul. I can’t have children like Marita. The moment Christopher finds out I’m barren, he’ll get rid of me or take a mistress to have his child. Even if he didn’t, the moment my looks go, and they will eventually, he will abandon me.
Nonno
barely tolerates me, and Paul is too busy feeling sorry for himself. Franco doesn’t notice me because, why bother? I can’t talk about stocks and the business to him.” She picked up her cousin’s perfume bottle and inhaled the fragrance. “I only matter to Antonietta. She can’t see the way I look, and she loves me for myself. Unconditionally. I never even had that from my parents. Of course you’re a threat to me. She’s actually interested in you. Really interested, not some passing whim.”
Tasha did turn to face him then. “I can see you’re a dangerous man, anyone can see it. It’s all over you, yet I know you’d never hurt her. But you’d take her away from us. Is it any wonder I fight for my own survival? Without her, I have no one.” There was no self-pity in her voice, only stark truth.
“I think you are selling yourself short, Tasha. It is true that I have not seen you as a person other than Antonietta’s cousin. I have been rather obsessed with Antonietta since the first moment I laid eyes
on her. I knew immediately she was born for me, my other half.” He smiled at her, a genuine smile. “Please forgive me for not taking the time to know you. Antonietta is my world, and that means anyone in her world is in mine also. I have no intention of doing anything that would make her unhappy, and you are very important to her.”
“You do have a certain charm, I can see why she might have fallen hard.” Tasha made an effort to smile at him, in spite of her feelings.
“And you have many admirable traits you do not seem to regard as assets. You are wonderful with the children. They prefer you to their own mother.”
“I haven’t quite figured out Marita yet,” Tasha admitted. “I think about her a lot and wonder why she isn’t happy. If I had the children and a devoted husband, I wouldn’t need anything else.”
“Not even money?” His eyebrow shot up.
“I’ve always had money, it’s just been a part of my life. I don’t know how not to have it, but it’s never made me happy,” Tasha conceded.
“So your greatest wish is not to have more money?” There was a certain soft note to his voice. A mesmerizing, pure tone.
Tasha tilted her head toward him, her eyes suddenly dreamy. “My greatest wish is to have a child. I want a baby to hold in my arms. Just to love. I would have made a good mother. I would have liked the chance.”
“I have missed much by my ignorance, Tasha. You are a special woman.”
Tasha flashed a tentative smile. “Just for that, I suppose I could call a truce between us.”
“I would very much appreciate that.”
“
Grazie
, for saying I am important to Antonietta.” She looked around the room. “How in the world did you manage to get in here without any of us seeing you? I think that’s one of the reasons everyone is a little afraid of you. No one ever sees you come and go.”
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