Ryder smiles. Leaning in, he kisses Xander, who seems to be feeling a bit more comfortable, because he threads his fingers into Ryder's hair and pulls him in for a more passionate kiss. Ryder rolls them so that he’s on top again. Xander reaches between them and unbuttons Ryder's jeans then rolls them over so that he can pull off Ryder's jeans and briefs.
Xander kisses along Ryder's jaw, up to his ear. “Can I do you first?” he whispers, tilting his hips forward. Their cocks are pressed together between their bodies, so when Xander moves on top of him, they rub against each other.
“Yeah,” Ryder moans, gripping Xander's ass and pulling him forward again. “There's lube and condoms in the nightstand.”
Xander stares at Ryder for a few seconds, contemplation written all over his face.
“If you’re not ready…” Ryder starts but is interrupted.
“Ohh, I’m ready,” Xander corrects him, unabashedly. “Do you think we need condoms?” he then asks, his voice a little nervous this time. “I mean, I’ve never been with anyone…”
Ryder smiles from ear to ear. “I know you haven’t, but I’d still like to go get tested together before we make that big decision,” he adds gently.
Xander nods. “You’re right. I was thinking with the wrong head.” He shrugs and laughs.
He rises up on his knees then reaches over to the nightstand drawer and grabs the lube and a strip of condoms. He sheathes himself then pours some into his hand and works it over his hard cock. Then he pours more into his hand and rubs it around Ryder's hole. Xander slips his finger into Ryder and slowly works it in and out. Ryder closes his eyes, a pleasurable moan escaping his lips.
“For being a virgin, you sure seem to know what you’re doing.” Ryder grins and cracks an eye open to look at Xander.
“I've watched A LOT of gay porn.” Xander smiles wide, showing off his sexy dimples. Xander hasn't smiled like that in a long time.
“Well, I can't wait to see what you've learned.” Ryder chuckles.
Xander removes his finger then lays his body back down on Ryder. He kisses Ryder hard. “Shut up, you're making me nervous again,” he breathes against Ryder's lips.
“Sorry, sorry, just do me.” Ryder smiles and wiggles under him.
Ryder can feel Xander's heart pounding against his own chest. Yeah, he must be really nervous, so Ryder kisses him softly on the lips. Xander reaches down between them and positions himself at Ryder's opening then drops his forehead to Ryder's.
“Is this really happening right now?” Xander whispers in a shaky voice.
Ryder reaches up and grasps the sides of Xander's head. “Yes, now stop thinking and just do it.”
Ryder gasps as Xander slowly pushes his way in. Ryder has forgotten how much he likes being with a guy. He starts to think that maybe he prefers dicks to chicks. Women are just too needy for him. He wants simple. Men are simple - easy to get along with, not overly emotional, and he can take them as hard and fast as he wants. But this thing with Xander might be a turning point for him - no more bi, completely gay.
“Oh my god, Ryder...it's so tight! I don't think I can move.” Xander pants once he’s completely in.
“You can, Xander, you can,” Ryder encourages.
Xander buries his face in Ryder's neck. Ryder wraps his arms around him and holds him tightly as he slowly pulls out then pushes back in. He groans low in his throat and starts moving a little faster.
“Oh, fuck yeah, Xan, faster,” Ryder pleads.
Xander complies and pumps faster. Ryder then pushes at him until Xander is up on his knees.
“Watch it. Watch yourself enter me and do whatever feels good for you,” Ryder instructs.
Ryder then tucks one hand behind his head and uses the other to jerk himself off while Xander fucks him.
Xander is a natural. He has Ryder coming all over his stomach in a matter of minutes. It takes Xander a little longer, since he already came once from the blowjob, but when he does come, Ryder can’t get over how gorgeous he looks. He’s glistening with sweat, his face is flushed, and all of his muscles are bulging from the intense workout he just had.
Xander collapses onto his stomach next to Ryder, both of them struggling to pull in air. “I'm not a virgin anymore, Ryder,” he drawls.
Ryder laughs. “No, man, you’re not. Now your ass, on the other hand, is still a virgin.”
“But you're gonna take care of that, aren't you?” Xander asks, his voice low and husky.
“Hell yeah I am, whenever you're ready,” Ryder says then smacks Xander's ass, which is still face up.
“Fuck it, hop on,” Xander mutters.
Ryder lets out a bark of laughter and cleans his jizz off his stomach before he gets up and straddles Xander's backside. Ryder bends over and kisses Xander's shoulder.
“I gotta warn you that it might be uncomfortable at first, but that feeling goes away. I promise,” he says and smoothes a hand over Xander's hair.
“Okay.” Xander smiles over his shoulder, then turns slightly to kiss Ryder on the mouth.
Ryder is hard already just from the anticipation. He hasn't had sex in almost six months, so this is much needed. He rolls on one of the condoms left from the strip, then uses the lube on himself, and puts some on Xander’s puckered hole. He spreads Xander's cheeks apart then watches as he slips in a finger. Xander tenses but then eases up after Ryder begins to move his finger in and out. When Xander’s body relaxes and appears to be comfortable accepting his finger, Ryder lubes up a second finger and inserts it along with the first. As Xander’s body acclimates to the intrusion, Ryder begins stretching with his two fingers, widening out the hole. Ryder is having trouble controlling himself at the sight of Xander’s tight virgin ass, and the fact that he keeps wiggling it around.
Ryder can't wait any longer. He positions his rock solid cock, spreads Xander’s glorious ass apart, and then pushes his way in. Xander thought Ryder's ass was tight? It’s nothing compared to a virgin asshole. Ryder rocks back and forth, going deeper inch by inch each time. The noises coming from Xander are of pain and discomfort, not pleasure.
“Hold on, Xan, it'll get better,” Ryder promises.
Ryder finally gets all the way in and it’s smooth sailing from there. On the first full thrust, Xander cries out…this time in pleasure. Ryder grips Xander’s hips and lets his head fall back as he pumps into him.
“Oh, fuck yes.” Ryder pants.
“Ryder, let me up on my knees,” Xander begs.
After changing positions slightly, Xander is up on his hands and knees, while Ryder screws him from behind. Ryder reaches around with both hands, one cupping Xander's balls, while the other jerks him off. Xander shakes his head.
“I don't think I have anything left,” Xander moans.
“Even if you don't ejaculate, you'll still orgasm,” Ryder tells him and keeps going.
This time they both come together, and for Ryder, it’s mind blowing. They both collapse onto the bed. Ryder rolls off Xander, both of them completely spent. Ryder is on his back, staring up at the ceiling. Never has sex with a guy been so amazing. He definitely can't see himself having sex with a woman again. Or even another man for that matter. Is it because of what he and Xander did was so out of this world that he couldn't imagine sleeping with anyone else? Or is it something deeper, more meaningful? He needs to let his sexual high wear off before he makes any life altering decisions.
“Let's take a shower then a nap,” Ryder says and rolls out of bed.
“I can't move,” Xander says, his voice muffled by the pillow his face is smashed into.
Ryder chuckles and walks around to the other side of the bed. He gives Xander's ass a sharp slap, and Xander yelps and rubs his cheek as he rolls over. Ryder holds out a hand for him and he takes it as he pulls him up out of bed and against him.
Ryder kisses Xander softly on the lips, but Xander pulls his head back slightly. “Ry?” he starts, hesitantly.
“Yeah, babe?” Ryder answers, eyebrows r
aised in question.
“What does this mean?” Xander asks quietly.
“What do you want?” Ryder asks, stroking the side of his face.
“I've wanted to be with you for so long. I can't let you go now that I have you,” Xander says softly, his blue eyes meeting Ryder's brown ones.
“So you want a relationship?” Ryder murmurs.
Xander scrunches his face in worry. “Too much for you?” Xander replies.
Ryder shakes his head. “Sounds perfect,” he whispers then kisses Xander.
They wrap their arms around each other and press their bodies together, needing to be as close as possible. Ryder never expected this to turn into a relationship when he made the decision to make a move on Xander in the kitchen, but he’s happy with how it’s turning out.
Chapter 16
Vance and Melina walk in the front door at around 3:00 pm. Tripp and Anna are in the living room. Tripp has his knee brace back on and is using a new pair of crutches. Luckily, he didn't do any more damage to his knee. Dayne is in the kitchen blending up a smoothie to drink.
“Hey, man. How’s the jaw?” Vance asks Dayne and claps him on the shoulder.
Dayne shrugs. “Okay. They say I should be good to go in a couple of months.”
“Man, that sucks. I feel for ya.” Vance sighs. “Have you seen Ryder or Xander since you've been home?”
Dayne shakes his head. “Nope, but their cars are here. I'm sure they're around somewhere,” Dayne says as he pours his smoothie into a glass and sticks a straw in it. “I swear to god, if I get my hands on Damien, I'm gonna break his fucking jaw so badly that it'll have to be wired shut for a year,” Dayne snaps angrily and snatches his glass off the counter.
Vance makes a noise of agreement then heads for the stairs. He just wants to make sure that both Xander and Ryder are alive. Xander's room is first. Vance walks in to a surprisingly empty room. If Xander isn't downstairs somewhere, this is usually where he is. Okay, onto Ryder's room.
Vance doesn't bother knocking, he isn't going to see Ryder doing anything he hasn’t already seen. As Vance walks in, Ryder is coming out of his bathroom, rubbing a towel over his hair.
“Hey, Ryder. Have you seen Xan...der...” Vance says just as Xander emerges from Ryder's bathroom, a towel around his waist.
Ryder slowly pulls the towel down his face until his eyes are showing. Xander is frozen just outside of the bathroom doorway, looking utterly pale. Vance blinks at them a few times.
“Whoa,” Vance blurts and shakes his head, trying to clear it. “What am I seeing here?”
“Don't be stupid, Vance. You know what you're seeing,” Ryder snaps and wraps the towel around his waist.
Vance flinches. “Wow...fuck...were you going to tell me?”
“It just happened, Vance, like two hours ago. I swear,” Xander says quickly.
“You know I would’ve told you if it had happened before today. We don't have secrets between us,” Ryder says a little more gently this time.
Vance nods. “Yeah, I'm just...shit...so are you two together then?”
Ryder and Xander exchange a glance. “Yeah,” they say in unison.
Vance rocks back on his heels. Holy shit. His brother and one of his best friends are lovers. God this is weird. He only found out a few months ago that his brother was gay. He knew about Ryder being bi, but never really saw him with a dude. He's only ever brought chicks back to the house.
“Vance…” Xander says, his pleading tone bringing Vance's eyes to his. “Are you okay with this?”
Vance swallows hard and nods slowly. “I’m cool. I just need to digest it all. I'll let you guys get dressed,” Vance says blandly and rushes out of the room.
Vance's head is spinning as he races down the steps. He keeps telling himself that it’s fine, that he’s cool with Ryder and Xander being a couple. It’s knowing that they just slept together that’s throwing Vance for a loop.
“Vance!” he hears Xander call after him.
Vance has just stepped into the living room when Xander grabs his elbow and spins him around. Melina, Anna, Tripp, and Dayne, who are all sitting around the living room, look up to see what’s going on. Xander’s expression is of anger and betrayal.
“You said that you didn't care that I’m gay!” Xander snaps.
“I don't.” Vance frowns.
“Well, obviously you do if you need to ‘digest’ what you just saw.” Xander accuses angrily.
Ryder walks into the living room, hands shoved into his jean pockets. Vance looks at him. “What happens when you wanna be with a woman again? You just gonna ditch my brother?” Vance rants.
“Whoa, what?” Dayne exclaims and shoots up from the chair he is sitting on.
Ryder ignores him and looks at Vance. “That’s not gonna happen,” he says quietly but firmly.
“How do you know?” Vance scoffs.
“Because...women just don't do it for me anymore,” Ryder replies honestly.
“What? Did you figure this out before or after sleeping with my brother?” Vance snaps.
“Vance,” Xander warns.
“No, you shut up, Xander. I wasn't talking to you.” Vance points at him then turns his attention back to Ryder, waiting for him to answer.
“Before, asshole. And it’s really none of your goddamn business. I don't go around asking you what's gonna happen when you want to be with another woman. You just gonna ditch Melina?” Ryder barks.
Vance’s jaw clenches along with his fists. “Watch it, Ryder,” he growls through clenched teeth.
“Fuck you, Vance. I don't even know what you’re so pissed off about. Xander's a big boy; he can make decisions for himself,” Ryder says and crosses his arms over his chest.
“Oh really?” Vance snorts and turns to Xander. “If you're such a big boy, when are you gonna tell mom and dad that you're gay, huh? When are you gonna be a man and tell our parents that you have a boyfriend?” The devastated look on Xander's face is enough to snap Vance out of his anger. “Shit...Xan, I'm sorry…” he says softly, but Xander cuts him off.
“Don't...don't say that you're sorry when you're not. I just can't believe that I let myself think that you’re really okay with this, with me being gay.” Xander lets out a bitter laugh. “Don't I feel like an asshole.” Xander turns and heads for the living room doorway, where Ryder is still standing.
Ryder grabs his arm and says his name gently, but Xander wrenches himself away and runs up the stairs. Ryder turns an angry gaze back to Vance. “I hope you're fucking happy,” he snaps.
They all wince when Xander's bedroom door slams shut.
“Can I get an explanation here?” Dayne exclaims. “What the fuck just happened?”
“I'll tell you what happened,” Ryder snaps and glares at Vance. “Van, here, walked into my room just as Xander and I were coming out of the shower. And for being someone who is okay with his brother being gay, he sure is having a hard time actually dealing with it when he sees it with his own eyes. Or maybe he just doesn’t think that I’m good enough for him.”
Vance sighs and pinches the bridge of his nose. He’s getting a headache. “I am okay with you two being gay...”
“Really? So what is it then? Am I not good enough for your brother?” Ryder asks.
“No! Of course you are! I just...Fuck! I was stunned, okay? I just never expected to see you or Xander with a man, much less with each other!” Vance rakes a hand through his hair. “I never really thought about Xander actually having sex...with a guy...let alone you...couldn't you have talked to me about it first?”
“Talked to you about it first? Seriously, Vance? What would you have liked me to say? ‘Uh, hey, Van. I've been thinking about fucking your brother. What do you think?’ Come on, man. Don't be ridiculous.”
“I didn't know that you even looked at my brother in that way, Ryder.”
“I’ve always thought that he was attractive, but it wasn't until I found out that he’s gay that I started to let
myself feel anything more. I never thought a relationship would come out of it, but it's something we both want. You’re just going to have to accept it,” Ryder says softly. “Anyone else have something they want to say? Do it now…” he demands.
Tripp, Anna, Dayne, and Melina don’t dare say a peep. They all just shake their heads no.
“Perfect,” Ryder states with finality. As far as he’s concerned, the subject is closed. He then turns and heads up the stairs.
“So, Ryder and Xander are a couple?” Dayne interjects once Ryder is out of earshot.
Vance takes a deep breath then lets it out slowly. “Looks like it,” he huffs.
“Wow, never saw that one coming,” Dayne says, shocked and confused.
A week has passed since the whole Ryder/Xander blowup, and Xander is doing everything in his power to avoid Vance. He won't stay in a room if Vance walks in, and he won't eat dinner at the table with everyone. Vance really fucked up and he’s paying the price. He was able to patch things up with Ryder the next day, but Xander still wants nothing to do with him.
Vance is walking down the steps when he hears Ryder and Xander talking in the living room. He’s going to talk to Xander, even if he has to tackle him and hold him down to do it. Vance stops in the doorway to the living room when he sees them. They are standing in the middle of the room with Xander's back to Vance. Xander blocks Ryder’s view of him, but Vance can see that Ryder is gripping the sides of Xander's head.
“Xan, you gotta talk to him,” Ryder says softly.
“I can't, not after what he said,” Xander says quietly.
“He was in shock, Xander. He didn't mean to hurt you,” Ryder soothes, smoothing his hand down the back of Xander's head and neck.
Vance has never seen Ryder so tender with someone before. Not even the women he has brought home. But then again, he probably never really cared about them. Vance knows that Ryder cares about Xander, how can he not? He's known him his whole life. When you know someone that long, you tend to develop feelings for them – platonic or otherwise.
“What is he shocked about? Does he expect me to be a virgin forever and never bring a boyfriend around him?” Xander exclaims.
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