"My sister cried for a week."
"I thought I was her favorite." He winks. "Don't tease me like this, Jess. You're going to wound my fragile ego."
"Would you get a tattoo of a woman's name?"
"No." He leans towards me. "You have any tattoos?"
"None."
"Mine, I felt them, here—" He presses his palm against his chest, over his heart. "Knew I needed them. Felt it in my soul."
"You didn't feel your ex in your soul?"
"Never." His eyes cloud with something I can't place. His gaze goes to the grass, his brow furrowing with concentration. Then he's looking at me again. "You know all this gossip because your sister is a fan?"
"Yeah."
He raises a brow, assessing the veracity of my claim. He must believe me because he nods. "You want to make her jealous?"
"We're not on speaking terms."
"Why?"
"That's personal." My stomach tenses. I want to stop thinking about her. I want my old life to feel like it's three thousand miles away.
He pulls his phone from his pocket. "You don't need to speak to her for this. You just need to trust me."
I scan his face for a clue to his intention but he's still a mystery.
"Jess, Jess, Jess." Pete shakes his head in mock outrage. "You seem like such a nice girl, but I see it in your eyes. You want to make her green with envy."
"Maybe."
"Do you trust me?" he unlocks his phone and opens the camera app.
I don't know him. I shouldn't trust him as much as I do.
The intensity in his eyes spurs me on.
I nod. "Yes."
Pete turns the phone to selfie mode and angles it towards us. His other hand goes behind my neck. This time, he's not delicate. He's not holding back. His fingers dig into my hair. They press against the back of my head as he pulls me into a kiss. His lips brush mine. Then his lips are parting, and mine are parting too.
His tongue slides into my mouth.
Then he's pulling back. It's only a taste. A hint.
It's not enough. I need more.
He looks into my eyes. "Here." His fingers go to my temples, curl around the edges of my glasses. He pulls them off and sets them on the ground behind him. Then his eyes are back on mine, staring into mine.
My eyelids press together. Yes. More. Now. Please. I need this tall, dark, handsome stranger erasing every worry in my brain. I need his lips on me, his hands on me, his cock...
One thing at a time.
He pulls me into his lap. My knees plant outside his hips. They're muddy instantly, but I don't care. For once, I don't care about consequences. Only about how intoxicating Pete is.
He presses his palm between my shoulder blades. Heat floods the spot. Then his lips are on mine, his tongue is sliding around mine, and I'm hot everywhere. I clutch at his shoulders. My fingers dig into the cotton fabric of his t-shirt.
I was with Nathan for three years. We kissed a lot. And there were guys before—boyfriends in high school.
It was never like this.
Never close to this.
I'm panting and desperate when Pete releases me. His hands go to his sides. He leaves his phone on the ground. All of his attention is on me. The intensity of his deep brown eyes makes my thighs shake.
If that's how he kisses...
Having sex with him might actually kill me.
He brushes a stray hair behind my ear. "You want her even more jealous?"
Invite me back to your place. Hell, invite me to the backseat of your car. To the bathroom at that coffee shop. Tell me to skip work and spend the night coming with you. Anything. Anywhere.
I nod. Yes. I need this, need to forget everything except our bodies for a while.
If he doesn't ask, I will.
He stares into my eyes. "Play my girlfriend."
CHAPTER FOUR
Play my girlfriend.
The sun is still shining. The breeze is still blowing. The air is still warm.
And Pete's eyes are still intense and impenetrable.
Play his girlfriend... that's ridiculous.
"You don't need anyone to play your girlfriend." I grab my glasses and shift off of him, suddenly apathetic to staining my dress with dirt or grass. There. I stare back at him as I slide my frames on. "You're rich, famous, and handsome. You could find a girlfriend in thirty seconds flat."
"I don't want a relationship."
Okay... "Why not hire a professional?"
His expression gets intense. "I'll make it worth your while."
My head is spinning. I try to tell myself to run a million miles away but my legs won't move. "What would it even mean? How would I play your girlfriend?"
"We tell everyone we started dating a few weeks ago, that we're just now making it official. I'll take care of everything you need. You'll come with me to all the events where I have to make an appearance."
I try to think up a response as he pushes himself to his feet. Nothing comes. God, he's so tall. I rise to meet him. Even in my wedges, I have to look up at him.
He moves close enough to whisper. Instantly, my senses are overwhelmed. All the nerves in my body make the same demand for his lips.
His breath warms my ear. "Tell me what you want, and I'll make it happen."
My thoughts crash together. Every night, I fall asleep worried about how I'll pay for law school. Then there's rent, food, transportation.
There's no way I'm going to find this kind of money elsewhere.
It would be stupid to refuse. Taking advantage of him is selfish, but don't I deserve a chance to be selfish for once in my life? He's offering. I can say yes.
I try to push the words to my mouth. If you pay my tuition. But my stomach clenches up. I can't take his money.
My knees go weak. It's a struggle to take a step backwards. "I don't know. I need to sleep on it." I need to figure out some better way to make school work. Something besides lying.
After ten years of lying for Dad, I barely know who I am. I finally have a semblance of a backbone. I can't throw that away.
"Your glasses." He motions to the optical shop.
"I, uh, I'll get them later. I need to get home and change for work."
"I'll give you a ride."
His eyes fill with vulnerability. Then he blinks and it's gone.
What the hell does he need me playing his girlfriend for?
I want to know. I want to know everything about him. Maybe there's some way to agree to this. To make it fair for both of us.
I'll try to figure it out. After my thoughts settle down.
I take another step backwards. "I'm in the mood to walk. Alone."
He nods with understanding.
I turn and get the hell out of there as fast as I can.
***
Two hours into my shift, I sneak into the back room to check my loan status on my cell.
I stare at the screen as the page reloads.
Damn. Pending.
It might not go through.
My stomach drops. I don't know what I'll do if I have to wait another year for law school. That will prove Nathan right. Prove to my mom that I'm another stupid woman who let a guy get in the way of her dreams.
If I'd studied harder, got better grades, I could have gotten a better scholarship.
For a second, I consider asking Dad for money. He makes a good living. But that would come with strings. I'd have to be the person he wants me to be. I'd have to go back to lying to hide his drinking.
I slide my phone into my pocket and take a few deep breaths. I've always wanted to be a lawyer. I don't want to keep waiting for my life to start.
I need to find a way to pay for school. And I'd love to spend more time with Pete. But how is lying for him different than lying for Dad?
Where the hell will I be in all that?
"Jess." Rick's voice booms through the backroom. He's irritated.
Great. I brush a few stray hairs behind my ears and make my way to Rick.
He's standing behind the bar, pouring a Moscow mule into a copper mug. His eyes are fixed on a pretty redhead. Not the one from last night. A new one.
Guy has a type. I'll give him that much.
His gaze stays on her chest as he talks to me. "Your boyfriend is here. He needs to buy a drink or get lost."
My boyfriend? "I don't have a boyfriend."
"Don't lie, sweetie, you're not the first waitress to have a quickie in the backroom. I don't care. It's slow. Chat if you want. As long as he buys a drink." Rick nods to a table in the corner.
Pete is sitting there, his eyes fixed on me.
I offer Rick my best customer service smile. "Of course, sir." It is my job to sell drinks. "Did you assign the Friday shift yet?"
"Yeah, gave it to Christina. She needs the cash."
"I need the cash too," I say.
"You'll get the next one." He motions to Pete. "Now, Jess."
Okay, there's no arguing with Rick when he's in I'm taking this woman home mode.
Pete is sitting in a black vinyl booth. It matches him—black t-shirt, black skinny jeans, black converse. Hell, he's even wearing black eyeliner.
It should be a crime, looking that good in eyeliner.
It should be a crime, looking that good, period.
His lips curl into a smile. The joy spills over his expression. His cheeks crinkle. His eyes brighten. There's even something different about his posture—more relaxed.
"You're staring," he teases.
My stomach flutters. "You're wearing eyeliner. It looks good." The guys I know back home wouldn't be caught dead in eyeliner. They're missing out, really. He looks fucking yummy.
"Stage makeup," he says.
"So you don't wear it normally?"
"Sometimes." He looks up at me. "You okay, Jess? You're bright red."
I let out a nervous laugh. "You must have steady hands. That line is even." Okay, so I want an excuse for why I'm staring at his dark eyes. They're inviting, deep. I want to drink them in.
He cocks a brow. "That's what you're thinking of my hands doing?"
The flush in my cheeks spreads to my chest as I think of his hands doing something much more exciting.
He shakes his head with mock outrage. "Jess, we covered this. If you're gonna imagine me touching you, you need to describe it to me."
"Uhhh." I swallow hard. "Rick, my boss. He thinks you're my boyfriend."
Pete stares at me like he's looking for meaning in my eyes. "Convenient you're already selling that story."
"No, I haven't decided."
He nods.
"But uh... he wants you to order a drink or leave."
"Whiskey, rocks."
"Well or call?"
He names an expensive brand. I motion just a minute then check all my tables on the way to my bar.
Rick is protective about the top shelf stuff. I repeat the request to him instead of pouring it myself. For once, he looks at me. He nods his approval of my supposed boyfriend.
Pete's eyes are still fixed on me. He's frustratingly unreadable, especially from a distance.
It's almost like he's checking me out.
Not almost. He is. When I adjust my much too tight skirt, his lips part with a sigh of desire.
I'm pear shaped to the extreme—not a lot of boob, very much in the way of butt. Usually, I'm self-conscious about my round bottom but the way he's staring makes me feel utterly perfect.
"Drinks up." Rick nudges me. His attention goes back to the pretty woman who is flirting with him.
With my most confident posture, I bring the drink to Pete.
He nods a thank you, takes a sip, and sets the beverage down. He motions to the plastic case on the table. "Your glasses."
"Thanks." I reach for them. "I should go."
"Try them first. Want to make sure they fit."
"In case I decide I never want to see you again?"
His voice is steady, even. "Would be a shame if you decided that before I got to hear you come."
My cheeks flush. I look to his expression for a sign he's playing with me, but there's nothing but desire in his eyes.
I want to say yes to his offer. I want more time around him. But is it really worth going back to lying to the world?
Pete motions to the booth. "Sit down."
Given the way Rick is flirting, I have plenty of time before I have to do another pass around the bar.
I sit close enough my knee brushes Pete's. The fabric of his jeans is rough against my bare skin. It sends shivers up my spine.
He turns so we're face to face. His fingers brush my temples as he pulls my glasses off. "You have beautiful eyes."
"Thank you." I swallow hard. There's something intoxicating about him. I want to soak it up.
He opens the case, takes out my new glasses and unfolds them. His eyes fix on mine as he slides my new glasses on.
His touch is gentle, caring, like we're old lovers instead of near strangers.
His fingertips brush my chin on their way to his lap.
This is a better prescription. I can see more details in his face. The flecks of honey in his dark eyes. The strong line of his jaw. The soft curve of his upper lip.
"You're staring," he says.
"Checking my new prescription."
He laughs, cocking his brow like he finds my claim implausible. "What's the verdict?"
His expression shifts, serious. He's not asking about the glasses. He's asking about the offer.
Right now, staring into his eyes, I want to say yes more than I want anything.
It's dangerous, how desperate I am to wipe his pain away.
I take a deep breath. I can't afford to say no. Even if I'm not sure I can live with saying yes. "I'm thinking about it."
I stare back into his eyes. They're vulnerable. Why does he need this lie? It doesn't make any sense. He's handsome enough he could find a girlfriend in thirty seconds flat, even without the whole wealthy celebrity thing going on. Even without the whole clearly a sex God thing going on.
I drop my voice to a whisper. "I need the money."
"You're starting law school in the fall."
I nod. "My scholarship only covers half my tuition. I'm trying for loans for the other half plus living expenses, but so far, I haven't had any luck."
He stares back with understanding.
Still my stomach clenches. "I don't want to take advantage of your situation."
"I have more money than I'll ever need."
"I don't want to lie to people."
"You like me."
I nod.
"I like you. It's not a lie. More of an exaggeration."
"It's a lie." I push myself back. My fingertips dig into my thighs. "Don't argue semantics with a lawyer to be. We'll be at it all night."
His lips curl into a half smile. "You don't want to go at it all night with me?"
Mmm. That flutter builds below my stomach. I do. But not enough to concede his point. I keep my voice low. "It is a lie."
"Yeah. But it won't hurt anyone."
"How do you know?"
He says nothing. That vulnerability flares in his eyes. He blinks and it's gone.
I can't decide until I have all the information. I press my palms together. "Why do you need a girlfriend?"
"Fame bullshit."
"That's not an explanation."
"It's complicated. A lot of egos that need stroking."
My cheeks flush. "You're trying to make me blush."
"You blush easy. I don't have to try hard."
My stomach flutters. "You're doing it again."
He smiles. "Yeah. I like a responsive woman."
God, how I want to be responsive with him. "You're a tease, aren't you?"
"Yeah. Should I keep going?"
I shake my head and check Rick's position again. He's still flirting.
If I agree to Pete's offer, I can quit this job. I can eat salmon for dinner every night. I can buy more cacti for m
y mini garden. Hell, I can even buy an air conditioner for my apartment.
It's tempting.
Is there really anything worse than missing out on law school?
"I get that you don't know me. That I don't know you. How about we ask each other a few questions," he says.
"Okay." That's reasonable. "You can go first."
"What's your favorite book?"
"Really? That's your question?"
He nods. "Want to make sure I still like you as my girlfriend."
"Isn't it pretend?"
"Guy's got to have standards."
I laugh. "And what book deems me unworthy?"
He smiles. "Can't tell you before you answer."
"The Hunger Games by a landslide. You?"
"Jurassic Park."
"Dinosaurs and man not knowing his own limitations. Not bad. Popcorn but not bad."
He cocks a brow. "Oh and The Hunger Games isn't popcorn?"
"Insult Katniss again and you're getting an instant no."
His laugh lights up his face. My heart sings. God damn, that's a nice laugh.
"You have your own standards." He smiles. "I appreciate that."
Mmm. Such a nice smile. I bite my lip, trying to get my thoughts to rearrange themselves into something I can work with. "You don't seem like you do things other people want."
"Not usually."
"So tell me the truth. Why do you need a fake girlfriend?"
His expression softens. It's earnest. He's thinking. He's going to tell me.
"It's complicated. Basically, my manager likes to throw his weight around. This is his current project. He's threatening to bury our next album if I don't agree."
"Oh."
"You won't be taking advantage. You can find money a million places. I can't find anyone like you."
"You barely know me."
"I know enough."
"Hey!" The guy at the next table over waves. "Aren't you in some band?"
Pete frowns. He shakes his head. "No."
The guy shrugs it off and goes back to his conversation.
Pete turns to me, his expression softening again.
He leans in close enough to whisper. "Whatever you decide, come to the show. I want to feel you come on my hand."
CHAPTER FIVE
The music pours onto the crowded sidewalk. It's not Sinful Serenade. It's another band, one that is all over the Los Angeles alternative rock radio station, KROQ.
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