Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
About the Author
I dedicate this book with all my heart to the woman who taught me life’s greatest lesson, how to love. I passed that love onto my own children and all those who have crossed my path. Mom Purty, my angel, you are always in my heart and I miss you every day.
Acknowledgments
I have so many people to thank who helped me get this book out. First and foremost, to Ed, Martin, and Megan, I can’t thank you enough for your support and excitement for this new adventure in my life. You fuel me and make me strive to be a better person. I love you!
Julie Sturgeon, my wonderful editor, I love working with you. Your brilliant insights, time, attention to details, and outrageous comments—which keep me in stitches—drive me to be the best writer I can be. And to all the folks at Crimson Romance, from our esteemed leader, Tara Gelsomino, executive editor, to the very creative, brilliant art department to the production team, I can’t thank you enough for giving me my dream.
Great critique partners are a godsend to a writer, and I’m so blessed to have several in my corner. Mary, you have been there from the beginning, every chapter, almost every page. I couldn’t do this without you. To Mary Lou, my beta reader, thank you for finding all the little pickles I have missed. To Kira, you were there when I needed help plotting out the next scene or just to be a sounding board. I can’t thank you enough for your encouraging words and insight into my characters and motivation. To Anna, Janet, Marianne, Katrina, and Leslye, you have given me such wonderful critiques. I’m so honored to be part of such a wonderful critique group. Thank you!
I have to give a shout out to my amazing technical team. To Martin, thank you for helping me understand drone technology and GPS spoofing. You help make the techno jargon clear in my head. To Adam, I can’t thank you enough for answering my endless questions about all things F.B.I. If there are mistakes, it’s all on me. I may have twisted things a little to make it work in the story. To Vickie, thank you first for not hanging up on me. When a strange woman from Maryland calls asking about information on the Texas State Capitol building, you took the time on a late Friday afternoon to answer my many questions. You are a true example of a warm and friendly Texan.
Chapter One
October 2012, Austin, Texas
Just when she thought the day couldn’t get any worse, fate stepped in and placed the jerk in her line of sight.
Special Agent-in-Charge Mac McNeil.
He stood several yards from her, his piercing, hazel eyes locked onto hers. Lexie Trevena stared at the ground, cutting off their connection.
A warm gust of air blew across the cemetery, surrounding her with a hint of freshly mowed grass and the roses from Rico’s coffin. The two scents had always brought a smile to her face, but from this day forward, they would yank her back to this place, this moment.
Taking a shaky breath, Lexie peered into the freshly dug grave inches from her. The crowd behind her began to shift, making their way back up the hill toward the line of cars. Her best friends, Cole Guzman and Marcus Aziz, stood behind her. Cole cleared his throat and eased next to her, taking her hand in his.
“You don’t have to stay. I—”
“The café can survive a little longer without us,” he interrupted.
“You can’t be closed during your busiest time of day. Go. Seriously, I’ll be fine.” Finally glancing over Cole’s shoulder at the sea of mourners, she planted a fake smile on her face. “I’m just waiting until some of the people leave.”
“We’ll take off if you promise to drop by and eat something,” Marcus chimed in.
“Maybe you can just bring me a sandwich at home. I need to be alone for a while. You understand?”
She reached up and kissed Cole on the cheek and repeated the gesture with Marcus. The men’s expressions were so easy to read, and their concern touched her heart. They wanted to make this all better. That was impossible.
“If you change your mind, or if you need one of us, just call, Lexie.” Cole tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear then reached for her hand.
“I’ll be fine. Go before you make me cry.”
They studied her for several moments. Then, with one more quick hug, they strolled up the hill.
Two groundskeepers stood off to her left waiting patiently to lower the coffin into the ground. The thought of Rico’s strong, hard body buried under six feet of Texas clay was hard to digest. As long as she stood rooted to that spot, her nightmare couldn’t turn into her reality.
Mac McNeil slowly worked his way through the crowd of mourners toward her. Instinctively, she twisted away from him. Escape. Before she could make a move, a man whose name she couldn’t recall blocked her path, placing a hand on her arm.
“Mrs. Trevena …”
“Lexie. My name is Lexie.”
“Lexie, I’m so sorry for your loss. Your husband was a good man, a fine agent. He’ll be missed.”
He seemed to want some sort of acknowledgement from her, but she had nothing to give. He finally dropped his hand to his side and left her alone.
He was a good man, a fine agent. He’ll be missed.
Meaningless babble, meant to give her a measure of comfort. How was her broken heart supposed to be consoled by a group of strangers? Most of the crowd was there out of respect and had never even met Rico.
Lexie had no idea how to behave, or what to do or say to the people around her. She couldn’t focus long enough to reason it out. Grief festered into a pool of staggering anger, sending her emotions into a tailspin. It was all so senseless.
The moment Rico told her he was going back undercover, that voice in her head screamed out, no, don’t leave―the sense of dread overwhelming. It was as if her heart knew this day would come, but her pleas, arguments, nothing she said kept him from walking out that door.
Out of complete desperation, Lexie had done the unthinkable. She’d stormed into the office of Rico’s boss and handler, Mac McNeil, and again she tried reason. Every ounce of her temper came out to play that day. Rico was so furious she had gone to his boss, it took him days before he was calm enough to talk to her.
Now the man who’d ordered Rico into that miserable alley off some nameless street in southeast D.C. stood only a few feet away from her, eyeing her with concern, and probably just waiting for her to go ballistic.
There would be no tantrum today, not here. She refused to break down. Rico might not have known the men and women who stood at his grave, but they came from miles around to honor one of their own, one of the fallen. If they could be here, honoring her husband with such strength and respect, then so could she. She would swallow sob after sob until her throat was bone dry, but not one tear would fall onto her cheeks.
Her husband of only twenty months couldn’t be in that oak coffin sitting on the rack. There had to be some mistake.
She hugged her waist as she tried to take control of her emotions. How she wished this horrible day would just evaporate like a bad dream. She could almost hear Rico’s deep, teasing laugh. He would call her his drama princess then kiss her senseless, chasing away her fear.
She couldn’t stand glued to this spot all day like a statue. Move.
Settling her nerves, she took a step back and bumped into a solid wall of man. She didn’t need to turn around to know who stood there. Mac McNeil. His hand came at her elbow until she found her footing in the gravel, then he dropped it to his side.
“If you say you’re sorry for my loss, I swear I’ll give you a nose bleed.”
“Tell me what I can do for you, Lexie.”
“Make this go away. Give me Rico back.”
A wall of silence surrounded them until Mac broke it.
“I can give you a ride home.”
“Got a ride. Someone from the protocol office arranged a limo.”
“I’ll ride with you, see you home.”
Lexie turned to face Mac. His eyes displayed such sadness and grief. He was hurting. Rico and Mac weren’t just colleagues but friends, and in their line of work, that friendship almost made them brothers.
Today, her pain and grief trumped his. Unable to keep the words in her head where they belonged, she whispered, “I hate you, Mac McNeil.”
“I know. Put it aside for now. ”
She scanned the crowd that still mingled. All their eyes were on her, and she couldn’t catch her breath. In fact, she couldn’t remember the last time her lungs weren’t screaming for air. “I can’t …”
“What?”
“I can’t watch them … I don’t want my last memory of Rico to be his coffin lowering into the ground.”
“I’m going to walk you to the car, Lexie.”
Mac placed a hand at her waist, and before she knew what was happening, she was sitting next to him as the limo pulled away from the curb. It wasn’t until she was standing at her door that her focus returned.
“What?” she said, staring at Mac.
“I said, give me your key.”
Lexie pulled the keys from her clutch purse. “I’m fine now. You don’t have to wait.”
“Just give me the key, Lexie.”
One glance at his tight expression and she handed it over. There wasn’t anything left in her to fight with Mac McNeil.
At least it wasn’t hard walking back into the condo. Lexie had moved into the place after Rico went back undercover. Their first apartment was only one room and a small bath. Once she’d found this place, she’d set out to furnish it with items she loved, waiting for the day Rico could add his touch to it. But that day never came. Rico had never set foot into their new home.
As she dropped her purse on the kitchen table, the stress in her shoulder muscles eased a little from the familiar sweet scent of pine from the rosemary that grew on her kitchen counter. The tension instantly returned when she glanced behind her at the man who stood in her doorway. How was she going to get rid of Mac?
Her eyes fell on the organized clutter sprawled over half the table. She had been working on a midterm project when Mac showed up at her door five nights ago and told her about Rico.
Her life at the University of Texas seemed like another lifetime. Her dreams for the future, the strong drive to become an engineer, had drained out of her with Rico’s death. Exams were a couple of weeks away and she didn’t give a damn.
“Thanks for seeing me home,” she tried to dismiss Mac.
“Is there anyone I can call?” His frame continued to block the doorway, but he didn’t enter the apartment. “Your parents, family?”
“Rico was my family.”
“And he asked me to look after you.” He took a step into the room. “Rico never mentioned anything about your parents. Maybe I can call—”
“My father was out of the picture before I was born. My mom and I aren’t close. The less I see of her, the better.” Lexie brushed her hair from her forehead. “My friends, Marcus and Cole, are working. I have plans to meet up with them later. I know you are trying to help, but right now, all I need is time to myself.”
“I can’t leave you alone, Lexie. Rico would have my head. So, tell me, what can I do for you?”
She swallowed another sob, trying to hold on long enough to be alone in her grief. What she should have done was close the door. Instead, her mind reeled with too many questions.
“Tell me how my husband died. What went wrong? You promised me you would have his back.” The space between them seemed to disappear. “How in the hell is this having his back?” Before she could stop herself, the anger bottled inside spilled out all over Mac. She shoved both of her hands into his chest, making him stumble backward. “Tell me how I’m supposed to get through the nightmares of Rico dying alone in some filthy alley. And how do I face waking tomorrow knowing I’ll never hold Rico, never feel him next to me?” Lexie choked down a sob. “If you can do that, then you’re welcome to stay.”
“Rico wasn’t alone. I couldn’t prevent his death, but I held him until—”
“Where was Jason, his partner? Why didn’t he stop it? And don’t try feeding me that shit about how you can’t discuss details of the investigation. He was my husband and I have the right to know how he really died.”
“Lexie, Jason went down first. Rico lunged in front of him and took a bullet in his chest.”
The image of Rico throwing his life away for his partner was part of the tortured dreams she had for months. She’d screamed until she was hoarse, but no one would listen to her.
She couldn’t take pride in the sacrifice he’d made for his partner, the job. Instead, her blood boiled within her veins and she had no idea where to place the anger.
The tears she had held back let loose and she didn’t even attempt to stop them. She was going to hate herself in about five minutes, and maybe for a long time to come, but at that moment, she didn’t care. “Why do you get to have your brother back, and my Rico is in the ground?”
The room grew still, cold. “Would you rather Jason had died alongside Rico? Would that make this easier?”
Her knees trembled. She moved to the sofa in the middle of the room and dropped down, covering her face with her hands. What happened to being the better person today for Rico? Just thinking about what he would say if he were there made her cringe.
“I didn’t mean … Rico considered Jason his brother. That makes him family, my family.” As much as Lexie wanted to avoid facing Mac, she lifted her head and met a pair of cold hazel eyes.
Damn it, she should apologize. In fact, she never should have opened her mouth in the first place. But one glance at Mac’s expression and the words clogged in her throat.
A tap on the door sounded. Without breaking his hard glare, Mac opened the door. A man Lexie never met before stood at her threshold.
“Is this the Trevena residence?”
Mac positioned his body to block the entrance. “How can we help you?”
“I’m Lexie Trevena.” She rose and took a step toward them.
It took an instant to notice the infant carrier the man held in his left hand. The tiny newborn baby slept on as the adults in the room stared at one another. Lexie wiped the tears from her cheeks with the back of her hand. “I don’t believe we’ve met. How can I help you?”
He held out a business card. “I’m Brad Winston with Winston, Botts, and Flores, a law firm headquartered in Dallas. I’m looking for Rico Trevena.”
Mac moved around the man, his eyes on the carrier. “And what’s your business with—”
“Mac,” she said quietly. “I’m Rico’s wife.” She took the business card he still held out and gave it a brief glance. “Mr. Winston. I buried my husband today. How can I help you?”
“Rico Trevena’s dead?” He shook his head and the arrogance in his demeanor seemed to drain out of him. “I’m sorry for your loss. Had I known—”
“What business did you have with Rico? He had a lawyer.”
“I don’t represent Mr. Trevena. Would you mind if I place the infant on your sofa?”
“Of course.” Lexie moved out of his way and said nothing as Winston gently settled the carrier on the center cushion. Mac moved behind Lexie. The tension radiating off him made her jumpy as hell.
The lawyer cleared his throat. “I represent the mother of this baby.” He brushed aside Lexie’s textbooks, cleared a spot on the table, and flipped open the latches on the case. “I don’t know how to say this so I’m just going to spit it out. Rico and my client … well, they … that’s Rico’s child, a little boy. His name is Gabriel Trevena and is two days old.”
Rico’s child? The two words stabbed through Lexie’s heart. “That’s not possible.”
Mac stalked across the room until he was nose to nose
with the lawyer. The man’s eyes never blinked.
“Look, Winston. I don’t know who the hell you are, but you can’t come in here and tarnish a good man’s name and hurt his wife like this. She’s just returned from his funeral, for God’s sake.”
Reaching into the folder, the attorney handed Mac a sheet of paper. He scanned it, and drawing in a deep breath, he shot a stare at Lexie.
“I have the paternity test,” Winston said. “Your friend here will confirm that Gabriel was fathered by your husband. I’m so sorry to have to do this to you, but—”
“What do you want from me?” Lexie choked out.
Mac’s face was easy to read as he looked at the paper. He believed it. She couldn’t catch her breath. The innocent child was living proof that her Rico broke every vow he made to her.
Mac’s arm came around her waist and she jerked away. Her mind screamed get out, everyone get the hell out of my house, but this time, the words wouldn’t come.
“Mrs. Trevena, I don’t mean to hurt you.”
“Then why the hell are you here?”
How Lexie got the question out of her clogged throat was a mystery. At least her words seemed to have some effect. Color drained from the man’s cheeks and his eyes darted toward the door.
“My client is from a very powerful political family. They’re not likely to accept Gabriel because Rico was—”
“Half native Indian and half black? Why, that self-righteous bitch. My husband was good enough to sleep with, but—”
“Mrs. Trevena, my client never wanted children and said her relationship with your husband was a twenty-minute drunken mistake. Rico convinced her to take the pregnancy to term. He was going to raise the child.” He paused and leaned his hip against the table. “I’m sorry to put you through this, especially today. I really had no idea of Rico’s passing, but nothing has changed. If Rico had refused the child, I have instructions to place him with a private state-licensed adoption agency. There are parents on the waiting list for infants.” He replaced the folder and shut the lid of his briefcase.
The room grew still, with only the hum of the refrigerator a few feet away filling the void. Lexie approached the sofa and eased the blanket away from the baby’s face. The lawyer reached for the carrier handle. Before he could lift it, she shoved his hand away. “Wait. Just wait a second.”
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