by Claire Adams
“Not here,” he grunted. “Come with me.”
Erik grabbed my hand and led me to his room. The door had barely shut behind us and I was grappling with his t-shirt and pulling it over his head. My hands pressed up against his bare skin like it was a medicine I desperately needed. I couldn’t get enough of him. I wanted more. So much more of him.
His hands quickly pulled my scrub top off and unhooked my bra. The release of my breasts made him pause as he looked at them in admiration before he brought his lips to meet my nipple and pulled it into his mouth. Yes, I wanted his lips on my nipples. I wanted his lips all over my body.
I didn’t care that we were in his small room on the unit. In that moment, all I could think about was how much pleasure I felt as his body and mine touched.
I let out a primal groan at the pleasure his mouth was giving me. My hands wrapped into his hair as I closed my eyes in utter enjoyment of the moment. He moved to the other breast, and I felt his hands as they pulled on the strings to my scrubs and started to press them down toward my knees.
Yes. Yes. Yes.
I wanted this. Everything in my body wanted Erik, and there were no other thoughts in my head. I had to feel him. I had to feel how hard he was for me, so I reached to his pants and pulled them down.
My need for him grew and I found myself falling to my knees and pulling his erect body into my mouth. Its size was pleasant, and I heard him moaning with each stroke of my lips.
Of course, I had some amazing tricks available with the tongue piercing, but I didn’t need to use them. He was already overflowing with excitement, and I just wanted to enjoy every second of it.
Within seconds, his body had released precum, telling me he was ready to explode. It had been over a month since he’d had a woman, much longer since I’d been with a man. His body needed a quick release, and I could only think about giving it to him.
My lips wrapped firmly around him and I thrust deep over his body. My hands braced on his hips as I moved and took him in deeper and deeper. I wanted him to get the release. I needed to feel that pleasure as he gave in, but I held my tongue at a gentle angle so my silver piercing didn’t glide against him just yet. I knew if it touched the tip of his hardness, Erik would be undone within moments.
“Cassidy, stop…I’m going…” he started to say through breathless words.
But I wasn’t stopping. I continued until he pressed his hands against the door and let out a deep throaty groan of desire as his body released the weeks of tension that was built up. That was what I had been waiting for. I wanted to see him finally give in to his release.
In one swift motion, Erik grabbed me, pulled me up off the ground, and pressed me onto his bed. He was like a wild animal as his eyes looked at me and devoured my naked body as I laid there waiting for him to take me. I was dripping with desire for him as he pressed my thighs apart and climbed over me.
His warm skin pressed against me as I let my hands move up and down his muscular frame. I felt myself relax as I guided his body into me. His hips moved slowly, and his lips moved to my neck as he started to thrust with my motions. Our bodies felt perfect together as we pulsed and thrust in a rhythmic motion.
For the longest time, I had convinced myself I didn’t miss having a man in my bed, but as Erik moved on top of me, I knew I had been lying to myself. I missed it very much.
My body filled with excitement and I felt my muscles tensing around him as his thrusts drew harder and harder. I willed my orgasm to stop as I tilted my hips down. I wanted more of him. I wanted longer with his body pressed against mine. Whatever I had to do, I would not let myself give in to the pleasure quickly building in my body; I needed just a little bit longer.
Thoughts raced through my head as I tried not to let my body give in to my desires just yet. I wondered if someone would catch us, and my eyes darted to the door. The idea that I was doing this with a patient hadn’t really sunk in yet because my need for Erik was so intense.
His lips moved vigorously from one side of my neck to the other before he pressed them against my mouth as his thrusts continued. His hands grabbed a hold of my hips and forced them up toward him and with that movement, I started to become undone. His hands held my hips so close to him that I had no choice but to submit to the rush that started to come over me.
Harder and harder he moved, and I met the movements with my desire. Soon, I felt my body tensing up, and I latched my arms around his back, urging him to thrust even harder. I wanted him – all of him – inside of me. There was no holding myself back any longer. I had to let him finish me off.
When my body finally released, it was an intense orgasm that I couldn’t control. My moans were only muffled by his mouth around mine as I thrust my hips against his and felt my whole body giving in to his. The release was like nothing I had felt in years, and I didn’t want it to stop. I could have let the rumbling go on for hours because it felt so absolutely perfect.
“Cassidy,” a voice called from the other side of the door. “Cassidy?” the voice said again as it moved down the hall.
“Shit,” I said as I jumped up and pulled my scrubs on quickly. “I’m screwed.”
I didn’t know who was out there. It could have been Susan, or just one of the other patients, but I knew I needed to be out at the nurses’ station and I wasn’t supposed to be in a patient’s room. I really wasn’t supposed to have been having sex with a patient in their room, either.
“Literally.” Erik laughed as he got dressed.
“It’s not funny,” I scolded him.
“I know,” he said as he grabbed me and kissed me one last time before pulling the door open and releasing me into the day area.
“Hey, Brianna,” I said as I saw her walking down the hall. “Sorry, I was just getting Erik some water.”
Brianna didn’t look like she believed a single word that I was saying to her. She stood there with a sheepish smile on her face as she looked at me and then his room. I felt like she knew what was going on. She looked like a woman who was smart enough to figure out why I had been in Erik’s room and why my hair looked all tussled and my face was flushed with excitement.
But luckily, she didn’t press the subject and continued on to ask what she needed from me. I’m sure I would have tried to make a story up to say what was going on, but I was a horrible liar, so I was very grateful she didn’t need my explanation.
“Could I call my husband again? I know the phones are supposed to be off limits this late, but I just need to talk to him.”
“Sure,” I said with a bit of relief. “When I’m working, you don’t have to ask. I think you guys should get to talk to your family whenever you’d like. Just as long as your family is all right with you calling at this hour.”
“Yeah, I’m just calling my husband’s cell phone. If he’s asleep, he won’t hear it. I just wanted to talk to him one last time, and I couldn’t get to sleep.”
“Yep, go ahead and give him a call,” I said as I walked away.
I certainly couldn’t deny her request. I moved behind the counter and noticed I had my scrub shirt on inside out. I tried to play it off until Brianna finished her call and went back to her room, then I snuck into the back room and switched it.
As I stood looking at myself in the mirror, it was beyond obvious that something else had been going on in Erik’s room. My hair had half fallen out of the ponytail it was in. My shirt had been inside out, and my cheeks were flushed from the excitement. I was grateful that Brianna hadn’t decided to question me more about what had happened. I would have certainly been fired if I had been caught.
Erik peeked his head out of his room and looked around before shrugging his shoulders as if asking who had been out there calling for me. I shooed him back into his room. As he closed the door, he pressed two fingers up to his lips like he was kissing them and then blew it my way. It was not what I had expected from him, but I smiled and waved for him to shut the door.
BILLIONAIRE IN REHAB
PART IV
Chapter Eighteen
Erik
For the first time in as very long time, I had made love to a woman who I actually had feelings for.
I liked it. I wanted her again. For a moment, I wanted to just check myself out of the facility, run over to her house, and make love to her constantly for the next week. But I couldn’t do that. Cassidy wouldn’t have been excited to see me if I left treatment, she would be pissed.
It was exciting to have something with a girl who also wanted to be sober. I seriously doubted I would find many girls like that on the West Coast in the party atmosphere I lived in. I didn’t sleep much that night, although I did eventually fall asleep from total exhaustion.
I was actually a little relieved when Cassidy didn’t work the next day. As much as I wanted to see her, I wanted to finish up my plan for my father and brother, and I had to call my old partner Spencer to have some help with the logistics of everything.
“Hey, Spencer,” I said when he answered his phone.
“Well, well, well, if it isn’t my kickass, sober friend,” he said with enthusiasm. “How the heck are things going?”
“Really good. I’m getting healthy, making plans for the future. I think this is probably the best thing I’ve ever done for myself.”
“I’m really glad, Erik. This isn’t just about work, you know. You’re my best friend. I can’t have you keeling over and leaving me with all these hot single girls alone,” he joked.
“So, tell me more about this movie studio deal,” I asked as we talked some more.
Spencer went on and on about all the benefits of getting into business with the new studio. Even though he had given me details before, I hadn’t really listened to him much. This time, I was clear headed and felt ready to really analyze the situation.
It was a wonder that I had ever been able to make decisions while I was drinking and using drugs. But most of my use had escalated after I sold my company. In my early days of business, weekend drinking was my only main issue.
I gave Spencer all the details of what I wanted done with my family, and he promised to make it happen. There weren’t many people in the world who I would have trusted with access to my money, but he was one of them. Spencer was more fiscally responsible with his money than I could ever imagine being.
After my phone call, I went to groups, did the homework Jarrod had assigned, and in general felt like I was kicking ass at this whole treatment thing. It had started to feel like my normal routine and I was getting comfortable.
Groups no longer stressed me out. I knew what I wanted to get out of them, and for the first time, I had started to really think about attending AA meetings when I got home. Even though I wasn’t a religious man, I had started to rely on the input and support of others and could really see how that would help me as I remained sober.
It was a great day, and I liked that Cassidy wasn’t around, although I couldn’t wait to see her again. What we had started was unusual and taboo, but I didn’t care. There was something powerful between us, and for whatever reason, we had been brought together.
I was more focused than I had been even in the previous week. Now, I was only a few short weeks away from going home and I had to work as much as I could to take advantage of my time there. Some of my work came from working out in the gym, though, and not just sitting in groups.
The weights and treadmill were a great way of blowing off steam, and I started to see how people became addicted to working out. There was a definite high that came with getting your heart rate up. It was like the effect of a drug, but with no down side. Instead of causing harm to your body, working out was actually making me stronger and healthier. I loved every second of it.
When Cassidy showed up for work the following day, I felt like a teenager. She smiled at me, and I couldn’t help but smile back. We kept our distance and didn’t stop to talk much during the first half of the day. I knew she had work to do; she knew I had work of my own to do. But just seeing her and how she looked at me had me thinking back to that night in my bed.
I wish it had lasted longer. I wished we would have been able to spend the entire night making love. But having her for the time I did was good enough for the moment.
“Come here,” I whispered as I walked back toward my room from group and she came out of the back storage room.
I reached for her and pulled her into a small doorway of the hallway. My hand pressed against her hip as I pulled her close to me. Instantly, my whole body was aroused and wanting her naked in bed again. I couldn’t help myself as I leaned in and let my lips touch hers quickly before I released her to go about her work.
“That’s it?” she teased.
“For now,” I replied.
It was true, it was only a taste of all I wanted to do with her again and again. But after our moment together, I felt renewed and like I had been given a jolt of adrenaline that would get me through the rest of the day.
She hurried off back to work, and I went on to my room. My thoughts were filled with her and only her. If there was ever a woman who could match me in wit and sarcasm, it certainly was Cassidy. Not to mention she was damn beautiful, too.
The way her red hair had draped down onto the bed as I climbed on top of her – oh, I would never forget that sight as long as I lived. Her porcelain clear skin, the curve of her breasts, even the scent of her naked body below me was etched into my memory like a dream.
Later that day, as Cassidy got ready to leave, I thought about grabbing her to pull her into my room. It was too daring, though, and I couldn’t risk getting her in trouble. Instead, I watched as she walked away and turned for a brief moment to look at me. That was it; right there in that moment, I knew I was head over heels for this woman.
“Be careful,” Brianna said quietly as she came up behind me.
“What?”
“Be careful with your addictions.”
“What do you mean?” I really had no idea what she was talking about.
I was being careful with my addictions. I had been working the program really hard, and if Brianna couldn’t see that by all the groups I was going to, I didn’t know what to tell her. I had things under control.
Brianna walked with me to a couple of chairs off from the main room. She sat down, and I could tell she had something she wanted to share with me. She was a nice girl and had certainly been through a lot, so I humored her and sat with her for a minute. Part of my treatment wasn’t just working on myself, it was learning to be kinder to others and helping them, too.
“About two years ago, I stopped drinking while I was pregnant. I always stopped when I was pregnant, but this time I was much further into my addiction and I had a rough time. Of course, I couldn’t admit that to anyone, so I had to find something to busy myself with. I started going to the gym every morning. They had free daycare.” She laughed. “Free daycare to a stay-at-home mom is really all I needed.”
“Sounds like a good gym.”
“Yes, it was. But I started going for longer and longer. Soon, I was there for three hours a day. I was running, using the elliptical, pretty much every cardio machine possible. But as my time got longer and longer, I started lifting weights. There was this cute guy who made my heart skip a beat every time he was there.”
I wasn’t really sure what this story had to do with me. I wasn’t a young, married mother. I had really just gotten into working out. Nothing about this story seemed to resonate with me.
“Soon, we were coordinating when to work out together. I gave him my number. We talked outside of the gym.”
“Uh oh,” I replied.
I was starting to see where her story was going, but how did it really have anything to do with me?
“Yeah, I had an affair with him. I got wrapped up in the adrenaline I felt when I was at the gym. But when that wasn’t enough, I moved on to him. When that wasn’t enough, I went back to drinking.”
“That sucks.”
“I saw you t
wo the other night. I get it. She’s a beautiful woman and really nice. You are both adults. So, don’t worry, I’m not going to say a word. But don’t lose yourself in this. And don’t cause any trouble for her. I know you don’t see it yet, but she’s a high to you and you’ll keep searching out that high and losing yourself until you get a hold of all your treatment skills.”
Brianna was wiser than I thought she would be for someone just getting started in her treatment. But I got it. I heard what she was saying, and I took it all in. I did love the feeling I got when I was around Cassidy, and yes, it was a high. I knew it.
But I wasn’t going to give up my treatment, it was exactly the opposite. I felt like if I did well in my treatment, it was the best way to move forward with Cassidy.
“I appreciate your advice,” I said to Brianna and gave her a hug.
“Keep a clear head. This battle is just getting started.”
“Thanks, I will.”
She was right on a real and true level. I had to keep a clear head. I had to keep focused for my future and not just that moment. As much as I intended to keep things going with Cassidy, I wouldn’t let her get in trouble or myself get lost in the process.
As I made my way back to my room and shut the door behind me, I vividly remembered Cassidy as she slid down to the ground and took me in her mouth. There was no way I was going to give up whatever it was I had going with her. Just thinking about her again had me hard and that didn’t happen with other women in my life.
But I knew I wouldn’t forget about Cassidy like I did other women I had slept with. Even if nothing ever developed between us, I was sure that she would always be a vivid memory in my mind.
Chapter Nineteen
Cassidy
My palms were drenched in sweat by the time I arrived at work the next day. I was nervous to see Erik again. My nervousness came because I was afraid he would pull me aside again and I would get caught.