by Mary Balogh
Last year, when the old scandal had threatened to rear its head again, Flavian had discovered where her and Agnes’s mother now lived and had called upon her. She had married the man with whom she had fled that night and they lived quite close to London. Agnes had chosen not to pursue the acquaintance, though she had told Dora about Flavian’s meeting with her.
The duke’s offer to invite her mother to their wedding had been the final straw for Dora when her mind had already been in a hopeless whirl. Good heavens, one minute she had been relaxing in her sitting room, too weary even to read, and thirty minutes later she was betrothed and discussing plans for her wedding in St. George’s, Hanover Square in London—with the Duke of Stanbrook.
Had she really had the effrontery to ask him to leave her house? Perhaps today he would consider his offer null and void. There was a note awaiting her on the tray in the hall when she returned home after the lesson. Her name was written on the outside in a firm and confident hand that was unmistakably masculine.
“A servant from Middlebury brought it,” Mrs. Henry said as she came out of the kitchen, wiping her hands on her apron. She hovered in the hall for a few moments, probably in the hope that Dora would open the note there and divulge its contents.
“You need not bring me coffee this morning, Mrs. Henry,” Dora said. “Mrs. Perlman was kind enough to send some in to the music room.”
She took the note into the sitting room and opened it without even sitting down or removing her bonnet and pelisse.
Her eyes moved first to the signature. Stanbrook, he had written in the same bold hand. She unconsciously held her breath as her eyes moved up the page. But he was not after all rescinding his offer—and how silly of her to fear that he might. The offer had been made and accepted, and no gentleman would withdraw from such a commitment. He had written that he understood she was to come to the house during the afternoon to give Vincent a lesson on the harp. He would do himself the honor, then, of coming to fetch her after luncheon. That was all. There was nothing of a personal nature.
But there did not need to be. He was her betrothed. They were engaged to be married. The truth of it struck her as though she were only now fully realizing it. She was going to be married. Soon. She was going to be a duchess.
She folded the note neatly and took it upstairs with her. She changed into older clothes, armed herself with her gardening tools and gloves, and strode out into the back garden to wage war on the weeds that had dared encroach upon her property. Gardening had always soothed the most turbulent of her emotions, and none were more turbulent than the ones that had raged within her yesterday and still did today.
The weeds did not stand a chance against her.
4
Dora was dressed neatly again and ready to go soon after luncheon since the duke had not stated exactly when he would come for her. Normally she would not leave for Middlebury for another hour and a half, but she did not want to be caught unprepared.
Today was worse than yesterday in some ways. Today she expected him. And today her stomach—and her brain—churned dizzyingly and quite out of her control, partly with excitement, partly with a fearful sort of awe. He was a duke. The only higher ranks were king and prince.
The gardening had soothed her for a while before luncheon, but she could not go back outside now. She seated herself at the pianoforte in the sitting room instead. It was a battered old instrument, which had been ancient even when she was a girl, long before she brought it with her to her cottage nine years ago. But she did not feel deprived for not having a worthier instrument. She loved the mellow tone of this one. She even loved the two tricky notes, one black, one white, which no amount of coaxing and fiddling with and adjusting by piano tuners could quite induce to behave as the other keys did. They felt a bit like old friends. This pianoforte had seen her through all the joys and sorrows, all the upheavals and tedium of several decades. In all that time it had never—or almost never—failed to bring her joy and to soothe away any trouble of her soul. She sometimes felt that she would not have survived without music and her pianoforte.
The Duke of Stanbrook must have knocked on the outer door. Mrs. Henry must have opened it and then tapped on the sitting room door before admitting him. He would scarcely have walked straight in as though he owned the cottage, even if he was betrothed to its owner. But the first indication Dora had of his arrival was an awareness of something large and dark at the edge of her vision where there had been no such object before. Her hands fell still on the keys and she turned her head slowly. He was standing just inside the door, where he had stood for a while yesterday.
“I beg your pardon,” they said simultaneously.
He bowed. “I must say,” he continued, “that it was extremely clever of me to choose a wife who can fill my home with music for the rest of my days.”
He was doing what she remembered his doing last year when she was seated beside him at dinner prior to playing for the guests at Middlebury. He was smiling with his eyes and saying something that would set her at her ease. And she remembered the most vivid impression she had had of him that evening and during the subsequent days, that he had not only smiling eyes but also kind eyes. One did not expect kindness from a man of his lofty rank. One expected aloofness, even haughtiness of manner.
It was his eyes and what they suggested about him that had caused her to dream of him while he was still at Middlebury and after he left, though dream was the key word. In reality he had seemed universes beyond her reach. His was merely the kindness of condescension, she had told herself more than once.
He had the loveliest eyes of anyone she had ever known.
“I did not hear you arrive,” she said, getting to her feet. “But I am ready. Are we walking?” But they must be. She surely could not have been so deeply absorbed in her playing that she had missed the sound of a carriage stopping outside her gate.
“Will you mind?” he asked her as she put on the bonnet she had set ready on a chair with her shawl. “The lovely weather is still holding, and it seems a pity to waste it.”
“I do not mind,” she assured him, draping the shawl about her shoulders. “I walk everywhere.” She would have longer to spend with him if they walked. And she would have the rest of her life to spend with him after they married.
Oh, my. Oh, goodness. Suddenly she felt almost giddy with the pleasure of it all.
It occurred to Dora as they left the cottage and stepped out through her garden gate onto the village street that the arrival of the Duke of Stanbrook here yesterday would not have gone unnoticed. Word would surely have spread to every inhabitant before the day was over, as word of anything remotely unusual always did in a small community. She would be willing to bet that by now half the village knew he had returned today and that more than a few people fortunate enough to live or have their businesses on this street were watching discreetly from behind their window curtains for his emergence from her cottage. Now they were witness to the sight of Dora proceeding along the street in the direction of the gates into Middlebury Park, her hand drawn through the duke’s arm.
She would not have been quite human if she had not felt a certain enjoyment at these realizations. Speculation would be rife for the rest of the day. Mrs. Jones, the vicar’s wife, perhaps not purely by chance, was standing at her garden gate talking across it with Mrs. Henchley, the butcher’s wife. They both turned and smiled and curtsied and commented on the lovely weather and looked significantly at Dora. The duke touched the brim of his tall hat with one hand, wished them a good afternoon, and agreed that yes, summer appeared to have come early this year. They would regale the rest of the village for what remained of the day with an embroidered account of the encounter, Dora guessed with an inward smile of fondness for her neighbors.
She and the duke turned between the gates into the private park about Middlebury but did not remain for long on the main driveway. Instead, the d
uke turned them to their left to walk among the trees that bordered the southern wall of the park, and there was an instant impression of peace and seclusion. The light of the sun was muted by the branches and the canopy of green leaves overhead. There were the lovely smells of earth and greenery, something Dora had never noticed in her many walks along the driveway.
It struck her suddenly, just as though one of the shafts of sunlight penetrating the trees had shone directly into her mind, that she was happy. It was a strange realization, perhaps, for she had lived most her life with the conscious determination to be contented with her life. She had never allowed herself to dwell upon any of the factors that might have made her unhappy. But she knew in these moments, as they enjoyed their surroundings in a companionable silence, that she had never known true happiness until now.
She felt it with an inner bubbling of exuberant joy. All her dreams were suddenly, unexpectedly coming true, even if it was happening twenty years later than she had once hoped. That did not matter, though. Nothing mattered but the fact that it was happening at last. It was happening now. She wondered how the duke would react if she removed her hand from his arm and twirled about, her arms stretched to the sides, her face turned up to the distant sky, song and laughter on her lips. She smiled at the bizarre image of herself the thought provoked and lowered her chin so that he would not see beyond her bonnet brim.
But something needed to be addressed before they went any farther.
“I would rather we did not invite my mother to the wedding,” she said abruptly.
“Then we will not.” He set a hand over hers on his arm and looked down at her. “You must provide me with a list of the people you do wish to invite, Miss Debbins, and I will put it into my secretary’s capable hands with my own list the moment I return to London within the next couple of days.”
So soon? The next couple of days?
“I wish to arrange for the first banns to be read next Sunday,” he explained, “if, that is, I am not rushing you too much. But having conceived the idea of marrying, and having secured your consent to my offer, I am now all impatience to have the deed done.”
Could he possibly know how sweet those words sounded to her ears?
“I will make a list when I return home,” she said. “It will be a very short one, though.”
“Then you must tell me,” he said, “whether you wish my list to be equally short. I really do not care how small or how large our wedding is, provided only that you and I are there with the requisite number of witnesses to make all legal.”
“Oh,” she said, and was conscious of a certain disappointment.
Perhaps he saw it in her face.
“But if you have no strong preference either way,” he continued, “may I reinforce a suggestion I made yesterday? You told me then that you could not possibly be a duchess. Until you said that, I had thought only of persuading you that perhaps you would care to marry me. I had forgotten that I must also convince you to marry that formidable being, the Duke of Stanbrook. I suppose I take him for granted because he has been with me for a long time. But though I hope we will spend most of our married life at Penderris, there will undoubtedly be times when I must be in London, and I most certainly would not wish to leave you behind in the country. You also told me yesterday that you have never been to London or mingled with the ton. Perhaps the best time to do both is now during the month leading up to our wedding and during the wedding itself—the grand wedding, that is. Will you come to London, if not with me during the next day or two, at least soon after? Your sister and Flavian are still there. So are most of the other Survivors, and I fully expect that Sophia and Vincent will return there too. Let them all introduce you about town. Let me do likewise as soon as our betrothal has been officially announced. Let me organize a betrothal party.”
They had stopped walking and she had drawn her arm free of his. He stood looking down at her, his hands clasped at his back, kindness and concern in his eyes.
“Oh,” she said again.
“But it is a mere suggestion,” he said. “I am your servant, Miss Debbins. All will be as you wish.”
Dora was strongly tempted to take the coward’s way out and choose the quietest of weddings in London after all—or even perhaps a wedding here at the church where Agnes had married Flavian last year. But . . .
London?
During the Season?
As the betrothed of the Duke of Stanbrook and the sister-in-law of Viscount Ponsonby and the friend of the Earl of Berwick, who was now also a duke, and Baron Trentham and Sir Benedict Harper and Viscount Darleigh and the Countess of Hardford?
It was the stuff of which dreams were made. It was the stuff of which fairy tales were made.
“There is no need to be frightened,” he said.
“Oh, I am not frightened,” she assured him. “A little overwhelmed, perhaps—again. But you are quite right. If I am to be your wife, then I needs must be your duchess too. Besides, I have always thought it must be lovely to attend the theater in London, to stroll in Hyde Park, to waltz at a real ball. Am I too old for that?”
His smile had turned to real amusement. “Do you have the rheumatics in both knees, Miss Debbins?”
“No!” She was a little shocked at his open reference to her knees.
“Neither do I,” he said. “Perhaps we can contrive to waltz together in some dark corner of some dark ballroom without making too much of a spectacle of ourselves.”
She beamed at him.
“Let us change course,” he suggested, offering his arm again, “or we will end up in the meadow on the far side of the lake. We will stroll on this side instead and then take the path up to the house. Vincent will be quite wrathful if I keep you out beyond the time allotted for his lesson.”
“Is it possible?” she asked. “For Lord Darleigh to be wrathful, that is?”
“I malign him,” he admitted with a smile.
Dora had never walked by the lake, though she had seen it from a distance. Nor had she walked on the railed path from the house to the lake, which Lady Darleigh had had constructed after her marriage so that her blind husband could move more freely about the park without always having to be led. It was the viscountess too who had made inquiries about the possibility of training a sheepdog to guide him and give him even more freedom of movement. And she had had the wilderness walk in the hills behind the house reconstructed so that he could walk there in relative safely. She had had it planted with several aromatic trees and flowers to delight his other senses.
“Have you ever been across to the island?” Dora asked, nodding toward it as they strolled beside the lake. “Agnes told me that the little temple folly at its center is very beautiful inside. The stained glass windows make the light quite magical,” she said.
“I have only ever admired it from the bank here,” he admitted. “It is a delight we will experience together on our next visit to Middlebury—as man and wife.”
Dora’s stomach felt as if it had performed a complete somersault. She was not sure that even yet she was fully believing in this future to which she had agreed. She scarcely dared trust in such happiness.
“Penderris Hall is by the sea,” he told her. “Did you know that? There are steep cliffs bordering the park on the south and golden sands below and an overall beauty that is quite wild in comparison with what you see around you here. I hope you will not find it bleak.”
“I do not expect to do so,” she said. “It will be home.”
Home. Yet she had never seen it. She had never set foot in Cornwall or in Devonshire. Or in Wales, though she was not far from it here in Gloucestershire. And she remembered that his wife had died on those cliffs to which he had referred. Someone had told her, perhaps Agnes. The duchess had thrown herself over not long after losing her only son, their only son, during the wars.
What must it have been like for th
e duke, losing them both like that? How had he retained his sanity?
Dora was struck fully with the realization that she would be his second wife. He would be coming to her encumbered by years and years of memories of a family life with another woman and a child. He would be coming burdened by the memory of the terrible tragedies that had taken them both from him within a few months. Was it any wonder that he had no romantic love or passion to offer her? She could not possibly replace his first wife in his affections.
Well, of course she could not. She would not want to even if it were possible. Theirs would be a different type of relationship altogether. It was comfort and companionship he wanted from her. He had been quite honest about that, and she must not forget it. He wanted someone to help hold the loneliness at bay.
Well, and so did she. They could do that for each other. She could be his companion and friend, and he could be hers. She had music to offer too—in exchange for all the material goods and luxuries he would provide. She smiled when she recalled what he had said to her earlier about his cleverness in choosing a wife who could play for him.
She was not going to get depressed about what she could not have from her marriage. Gracious heaven, at this time yesterday she had fully expected that she would live out her life here at Inglebrook as a spinster. Yet now she was betrothed.
They turned onto the path up to the house.
“You are a peaceful companion, Miss Debbins,” the duke said. “You do not seem to feel the need to fill every silent moment with words.”
“Oh, dear,” she said, “is that a polite way of saying that I have no conversation?”
“If it were,” he said, “then I would be condemning myself too since I have been equally silent during much of our walk. I almost wish we had had time to keep going through the trees to stroll in the meadow and sit in the summerhouse. But I must, alas, behave responsibly and deliver you on time for your lesson.”