When Kit did it, Luna felt comfort, but judging from the expression on Ariana’s face, she wasn’t feeling comfort.
The meaning behind his words went right over Luna’s head, but it was clear that Ariana knew, and whatever it was had her swallowing, fear renewed.
But Luna couldn’t bring herself to be upset on her behalf. “I think we’re done here.”
She didn’t know why, but as she and Skorpion left, Luna didn’t think Ariana would ever leave that room again.
“What are you doing?” Kit asked, his voice gentle, but curious.
His call was a welcome distraction as she did her best to put Ariana out of her mind.
“I’m finding a name for Fang.”
He was silent for so long that she was afraid he wouldn’t say anything at all. “You know you don’t have to do this. You know I’ll have an answer soon enough.”
“I can handle this,” she murmured for only him to hear.
“Undoubtedly, but you don’t have to handle it alone. You don’t have to face her alone.”
Luna hadn’t mentioned her visit with Ariana, but she wasn’t surprised he knew she hadn’t gone to Carmen yet. “But I do. It’s something I should have done a long time ago.”
In almost eight years, she hadn’t gone back to try to find her family, nor did she particularly want to after the truth came out.
The desire had always been there to go back to them—she had wanted nothing more at the time.
But, something had always held her back from asking to go to them. It wasn’t fear of not finding them—Kit could find anyone—yet, she couldn’t identify what had held her back.
Was it this?
Had a part of her known all along?
She had never voiced her doubts because even she hadn’t believed it was possible, but a part of her had wondered about the day she had been left behind when her parents and sister had gone off.
It might have been because Fang and the others had been teaching her how to survive in the world she was training to be a part of, but something had made her uneasy about everything that had happened.
“I won’t stand in your way,” Kit said, drawing her back to the present. “But while you’re there, have Skorpion stay with you. Where you’re going … I don’t want to take any chances.”
That was because Carmen was currently being held in a secure facility until she was transferred. Luna didn’t know, nor care, how Uilleam and Kit had managed to pull it off, but a part of her was a bit nervous walking into a government sanctioned building and expecting to walk back out again once she finished.
“I can handle it.”
“I know,” he responded before hanging up.
Now, it was up to her.
The place they arrived at was nothing like she was expecting.
There was no nondescript building with a covert wall that didn’t actually resemble one. Instead, she found an apartment building that might have looked normal in appearance, but when agents dressed as joggers passed them—trying to covertly check who they were—it was obvious that this was not normal housing.
“I hate feds,” Skorpion muttered to himself as he walked two steps behind Luna, his hands tucked into his pockets.
In glowing red letters along the top of the building was ‘Amsterdam,’ and from what Luna could see, there were only seven floors.
Carmen would be on the highest floor in the last room according to Uilleam’s contact.
If there was any attempt at escape, he would have both Luna and Skorpion arrested, and they were only allowed ten minutes alone with her unsupervised before they had to leave.
She had ten minutes to get what they came for—she just had to make it count.
No one spoke to them as they entered the building, and just as Uilleam had told her, it seemed the agents were making a concentrated effort not to look at them at all.
Once again, she had underestimated Uilleam’s reach.
Boarding the elevator, Luna nodded to the man standing inside offering a fake smile before pressing the button for their floor.
One chance was all she had because after this, she wouldn’t see Carmen again, and that wasn’t just because of a feeling she had. It was already set into motion.
By the time the elevator came to a stop, the doors slowly slid open, unveiling the hallway where two armed guards stood on opposite sides of the door.
Seeing them, the guards each turned and faced the wall.
To be the Kingmaker for a day …
Seconds later, the key was shoved into the lock, and the door was opened.
“It’s about time you’ve arrived with my lunch,” Carmen said, standing over by the windows. Turning, she added, “I’m starving.”
A rush of adrenaline hit Luna at the sound of Carmen’s voice. She had heard it so many times over the years, but never this close. Never in the same room together.
She was no longer in her silk gowns that had become a staple piece in her wardrobe since she became a madame and trafficker. Now, she was in a pair of faded jeans and a T-shirt with a logo for a waterpark of some kind. Definitely not her own clothes.
But more than anything, Luna didn’t see the monster she had become.
She just saw her mother.
For a single heartbeat, Carmen didn’t recognize her. Her gaze had already flitted over Skorpion appreciatively before shifting to Luna. She had been about to dismiss her as nothing more than a girl, until she took that second glance.
Until she blinked, then blinked again.
Until her mouth fell open and disbelief lit up her face.
“You—”
But whatever Carmen thought to say died on her lips.
Luna knew what she was thinking though—she was supposed to be dead.
“So he was telling the truth after all. Elias said the Kingmaker had kept you alive, but I didn’t believe it.”
“Maybe you should have, but that’s not for me to argue with you. I came here because you have information on the men Elias had kidnap me, and I want it.”
But Carmen didn’t seem to hear the question. “And I imagine that this was because of him too, the disloyal bastard.”
Now, it was Luna’s turn to scoff. “When could you have possibly thought either one of them were loyal to you?”
“Because I paid them to be.”
“No, Kit was threatened and the Kingmaker—”
“Kit?” Carmen asked, tilting her head. “Funny that he’s been working with me for so long, and I’m only just now learning his name. Even more curious is the fact that you know it … Oh, I see. It’s not really because of them that I’m here, is it? It’s because of you.”
“We all make our own choices,” Luna said, “but our choices have consequences.”
Her interest turned to anger as she surged across the room. “He should have killed you when I ordered him to.”
“You should have made sure I was dead.”
Luna could have let Kit handle this, spare herself the reality of who her mother was and preserve the image she had of her from when she was a child, but she wanted to see this. She needed this.
She wanted to see the look on Carmen’s face.
“I’ll know better once I’m free of this place.”
“You won’t ever be free of this place,” Luna told her. “The Kingmaker will make sure of it. And if he was able to keep me a secret for as long as he did, not to mention where you are now, you can imagine what he’ll do when he’s determined.”
Carmen swallowed, turning away. “You want something, or you wouldn’t be here. I hope it’s not for some kind of apology.”
Skorpion snorted. “If Nix doesn’t take a crack at you, I sure as shit will.”
“I want the name of the man Elias hired.”
Carmen smirked. “The one who tried to kill you? Word travels fast, even in here. What would make you think I have the name?”
“You’ve worked with Elias for years. Before you went to the Kingmaker,
I’m sure you went to Elias first. Who was the man he suggested?”
It was a calculated guess, but then again, if Elias was anything like Uilleam, he would have gladly shown what he was capable of when asked to present it.
Carmen held her head up. “What do I get in return?”
“He’ll die before he can kill you.”
Carmen made a rude noise in the back of her throat as she waved her hand. “He can’t get to me in here.”
“It doesn’t matter if it’s today or three years from now, but since you made sure your one phone call went to a lawyer who happily spread the news of what you thought Elias had done, he’s going to send someone after you. The question is how much do you value your own life?”
“I won’t serve a day in prison,” Carmen said adamantly.
“You probably won’t,” Luna agreed, “but you won’t live very long either.”
Carmen knew she was right—she could see the anger growing again, anger that she would have to give Luna what she wanted if she wanted to survive.
“Gavin Rossi.”
She had what she needed … yet Luna hesitated.
“Answer one question for me.”
“Luna,” Skorpion cut in with a slight shake of his head. “Don’t do this to yourself.”
But Carmen looked intrigued. “Ask your question.”
“Did you ever love me?”
Maybe later, she would regret asking that question, but now? Now, she wanted to know.
Her answer was immediate. “I loved you as much as I loved your father, your sister, and even Caesar.”
“So you loved what we could do for you?”
Carmen laughed lightly. “That’s all anyone is ever good for.”
Skorpion didn’t allow her to stay any longer, grabbing her arm and practically dragging her from the room, and Luna was glad for it.
Because despite the look of indifference on her face, Luna was desperately close to tears.
“You all rright?” Skorpion asked, driving them away.
Luna nodded, calling Kit. “Hey, I have a name.”
The job was done.
And so was she.
Chapter Eighteen
Fang
In the dead of night, the silence echoed.
Such suffocating, debilitating silence.
Fang fucking despised it.
He hated the void it created, allowing haunting memories that plagued him continuously to run through his mind on a constant reel, but as quickly as he was drowning in them, he drew in a sharp breath, his thoughts becoming clear once more.
Opening his eyes, it all came rushing back in—the image of Aidra’s panicked eyes as she struggled in the water … the feel of the ground dropping out from under him when he realized there was nothing he could do to save her …
Fang had always hated feeling helpless, and in that moment, that was all he had been.
Inhaling for calm, he pushed the thoughts away as he focused on the present and the reason why he was currently sitting in the low-lit basement of a house on a pig farm in the middle of fucking nowhere.
California wasn’t as easy for him to navigate as New York. Back home, he had contacts he could have called to get rid of any evidence he may have left behind, but out here, he had to use what was available.
And since he was in a bind, this was the quickest thing he could come up with.
Thinking of the pigs upstairs, Fang’s gaze finally moved to the man he’d dropped on the wooden table some minutes prior. It was a workman’s table, one that was thick enough to hold significant weight. And because he had been in a bit of a dark mood when he arrived, Fang had driven thick, iron nails through the man’s hands.
The closest to his God he would ever get.
To ensure he couldn’t fight with his legs either, Fang had taken a mallet and hobbled him.
It was the little things that made his black heart happy.
Fang didn’t care to know the man’s name—it wouldn’t change that he was going to die soon.
Collecting names was a custom his brothers had never understood about him. They didn’t understand why he cared what his victims’ names were, but he liked to know them to remind himself that they weren’t just targets or pictures in a file—a reminder they were just as human as he was.
But this one?
No, Fang wanted the disconnect. He wanted to treat him like he was nothing more than an animal because he was going to fucking butcher him like one.
“Come now, eyes open,” Fang said as he slapped the man a couple of times in the face, but when he didn’t get a reaction, he used his fist.
That was enough to get him up, groaning in pain.
“Who—who are—”
Fang sighed with a shake of his head. “Is that really going to make a difference? You knowing my name? You won’t live long enough to give a shit, I promise you.”
Watery eyes swung to Fang, darting over him from head to toe. “This about t-that girl?”
Fang smiled, revealing the gleaming metal that covered his canines as he reclaimed his seat.
That unnerved the man enough to make him stammer out, “I-I didn’t have a c-choice. Elias would have my kids killed, I—”
His heartbeat thundering in his own ears, Fang shoved out of his chair and crossed the short distance to the table before he grabbed the man by the jaw and put his finger to his lips. “Shh, stop your crying. I haven’t even started with you yet.” Only once the man had stopped his whimpering did Fang say, “I don’t give a shit about what he might have done—you should be worried about what I’m going to do to you now.”
“Please. I-I can tell you where to find him! I’ll tell you anything you want to know. Please!”
“You know,” Fang said as he released his hold, tapping the tabletop with sore knuckles. “That just doesn’t sound like enough.”
The man wisely stopped talking, though his eyes did all the begging as they darted around the room, desperate to find a way to escape, at least until he saw his own legs. Then his cry was al little more desperate.
Huh … maybe he should have made it hurt worse.
“Aidra,” Fang said softly as he pulled one of the blades he kept holstered at his belt free. “That girl, her name was Aidra.”
Just the sound of her name, even as he was the one who said it …
Fang blinked, and when he opened his eyes again, he’d severed two of the man’s fingers.
Oops.
“Shit, sorry.” He slapped his hand against his forehead before dropping his weapon. “Sometimes, I get ahead of myself. Where was I?”
But the man was too busy crying and whimpering to offer much of a response.
“Alright, let’s calm down,” Fang said irritably. “It was only two fingers.”
Maybe it was the adrenaline, or the pain, but whatever it was had the man looking at Fang as though he were the one that had lost his mind—like he was insane.
Fang wasn’t sure if he was wrong, but he also wasn’t sure if he should be offended.
He felt too … calm.
Dragging his chair over, Fang sat on it backward, resting his elbows on the top of it. “Where was I—right. She was a proud little thing, my Aidra. I could understand why, though, after all the shit she went through. Her parents were killed in front of her, her little brother decapitated—that would fuck with the best of us, no? Since you seem to care about family and all.”
Fang waited for the man to give a shaky nod before continuing. “We all have our issues, so I can understand why she was closed off, even if it annoyed the hell out of me.”
His gaze seized on the rivulets of blood as they dripped off the side of the table, landing in a shallow puddle on the floor.
“It took a long fucking time before she was willing to let me in, but once she did …” Fang trailed off as he smiled absently, remembering the good times he and Aidra had shared.
The way she used to get excited about the smallest thing when he got h
er alone. She had an image to uphold around Nix and the others, but when she was with him, she let that wall down and smiled more, laughed more, and offered him her love and happiness without expecting anything in return.
Fang’s voice was softer as he said, “She hated the idea of me taking care of her—of anyone taking care of her. I could have bought her the fucking world, but she wouldn’t have accepted it because she would have wanted to get it for herself.”
“I was just following orders,” the man said in a rush, as though he were afraid of what Fang might do now that he’d spoken without permission.
“That’s the worst, isn’t it?” Fang asked as he got to his feet, moving his chair out of the way. “Now, you have to answer for a wrong someone else ordered you to make.”
“I can tell you where to find him!” the man repeated a second time, as though Fang would change his mind about what he planned to do.
“I’ll find him on my own, thanks. For now, I’ll settle for you.”
There was an assortment of tools all around the darkened room, the stuff of a killer’s dreams.
As he surveyed the space, trying to make a decision, Fang brushed the front of his jeans in an unconscious movement, counting down in his head.
It was reflexive, a ritual he’d taught himself long ago before his first assignment.
Focus the mind.
Clear the thoughts.
“Tell me something,” Fang said as he grabbed a hatchet from the wall. “Did she say anything before you pulled that fucking lever? Did she?”
One look at his face told him that she had, and though it turned Fang’s stomach to think about, that nausea climbing higher in his throat, he had to know.
“What did she say?” Fang asked, distantly hearing the crack in his voice, despising the weakness.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I didn’t—”
“Her pride would have stopped her from begging you—not even with her fucking life on the line. She still wouldn’t have begged.”
“Christophe. She asked for someone named Christophe,” the man confessed, on a broken sob.
It was the last thing Fang expected him to say.
It was a name from a distant past, one that Fang rarely went by anymore—even his brothers answered only to the names they’d been given once they joined the Lotus Society.
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