After the movie I just sat. The house gave me the creeps. There were no pictures up and no personal details at all. It occurred to me that this was only his city house and he might have a real place up in Westchester or New Jersey or Long Island. Maybe he never came here at all. Maybe he rented this place out. Maybe he’d bloody sold it. Maybe this was his girl’s place. I put in another film. This one was about Vietnam, where it also rained a lot.
I was only about halfway through that when I heard the front gate. I switched off the telly and sat composed in the big leather living-room chair, ready with Boris’s nifty wee Glock.
Sunshine came in with a brown bag full of shopping. He was heading for the kitchen, but he saw me from the hall and dropped the bag. I motioned for him to come in. He thought for a moment about making a run for it, but the door behind him was closed and I was pointing the gun straight at him. He was wearing a leather jacket and blue jeans, something I’d never seen him wear before (previously he was always a suit-and-tie man). He was more or less the same, greasy comb-over longer, maybe, but he looked well, tanned, content. Scared shitless at the sight of me, though. He came towards me and started to speak, but I put my finger to my lips. I held the gun against his head while I frisked him. He was clean, and I told him to sit on the floor with his hands on his neck. He began to blubber and explain, but I told him not to speak.
I ripped a page from the notebook beside the phone and gave it to him with a pen.
Write down Darkey’s address there for me, I said.
Listen, Michael, please, you don’t understand.
One more word, Sunshine, and I’ll blow the top of your fucking head off, get me?
He nodded and picked up the paper and pen. He wrote an address. I picked up the paper and looked at it. It was in Peekskill, New York.
I take the commuter rail up there, right? I asked conversationally.
Yeah, Sunshine said, still dry-heaving, though he’d calmed down a bit now.
Look, Sunshine, I’m not going to draw this out longer than necessary. Just tell me, you had a couple of guys on me and—
No, no, I don’t know what you’re talk—
Sunshine, don’t start. Now, how many are there looking for me?
He swallowed and tried to compose himself. He knew I’d seen them. There was no point debating it.
Four.
Do they know where I live?
Roughly.
What do you mean?
We found you, Michael. I found you. Somewhere in the 190s. Jesus, we would have had you tonight or tomorrow or the next day. Soon. A couple of days, that’s all we needed. We wouldn’t have killed you, though, don’t think that. You gotta know I would have had them bring you to me. I like you, Michael. I’m glad you got out. I would have given you money to leave town. That was the plan. Pick you up. Bring you over. Darkey’s not here, he would never have to know. I bring you to me and give you cash to leave forever. I like you, I owe you, Michael, I’d never hurt you.
What make were their cars?
What?
Was one of them a black Lincoln?
Er, no, no one I know has a black Lincoln.
What were their cars?
A Ford and a Chevy.
How did you find me, Sunshine?
I’d been hearing rumors, for about a week now.
How, what exactly?
When you killed Big Bob, you woke up a couple of local people. Some old geezer saw a Cadillac pull away. He knows everyone on the street, doesn’t know anyone that has a Cadillac. Cream-colored Cadillac. Young guy with a beard. Pretty distinctive.
What else?
Uh, well, you know, if you take the time to go through the police reports, you’ll find that a cream-colored Cadillac was stolen not too far from the Four Provinces the night Bob was hit. Someone had followed him from the Four P. See? And that it turned up again in the 190s. Who’d want to hit Big Bob? Like I say, I was hearing rumors. I showed the old geezer your picture. It might be you. Christ, I was so pleased. I figured you were alive. Come back. Hooked up with somebody to get us. Russians, maybe. I don’t know. But you were alive. Not hurt, clear from Mexico.
Did you tell Darkey?
I didn’t tell him anything. Michael, I wouldn’t, and besides, Darkey left with Bridget. They’re going to the Bahamas for a few weeks. I’m running the show.
When does he come back?
December, December early, I think. I can check. Jesus. We could clean him out while he’s away. Clean him out, Michael. You and me, Sunshine said, licking his lips from nerves, not anticipation.
How exactly did you find me, Sunshine? Who else knows?
It’s like I’ve said, Michael, I’m not lying. Cadillac. Around the 190s. You could have taken the subway from there, but I didn’t think so. Who thinks to dump their car and take the subway? You don’t, do you? Not after killing someone. You just want to toss your gun and wash your hands.
Should have had you advising me, Sunshine.
You should have, he said, looking at me, smiling, sweating.
He was keen to talk, talking was his whole life; his quick brains and quicker mouth would save him now.
What was the next move? I asked.
You were around there, but where? Where exactly? If you dump your car, you’ll walk at most twenty blocks. I reckoned between the 170s and 200th. I put four men on it from downtown. I was arranging it. Two teams of two. I take it you saw them. Fucking amateurs. Jesus. I was bloody arranging it. You’re a goddamn jinx. A bad fucking penny. I mean, Christ, couldn’t you just have fucking been cool. I mean, just this once. I mean, Jesus, Michael, please. I would have picked you up, all would have been well. Would have given you cash to go away, no guns.
So it’s just two other guys, Darkey doesn’t know.
No. Jesus, if you just had waited. I would have had them bring you to me. No guns. It would have worked out for the best.
I guess I’m unlucky.
Luck, nothing to do with it, he said, blinking, wiping the sweat off his lip.
And I had to admit it was nice to talk to Sunshine after all this time. I liked his take on things. He was clever. It relaxed me.
Aye. It’s depressing, though, Sunshine, for a guy who’s trying to be incog-bloody-nito there’s an awful lot of people who know where I am, I said, ruefully.
Sunshine grinned.
Yes. You’re trouble. I was always worried a bit about you, Michael. Always.
Why?
Well, your references were good from Belfast and you were in the army and you were no thief. But you were always a bit too smart-mouthed. Too smart for Scotchy. You were the brains and he was the—
Don’t talk about him, I said, menacingly.
Sunshine was quick on the uptake and grinned sheepishly and changed tack.
Yeah, but you were too fast and smart, still are.
Is that why Mexico happened? I asked.
No. Not at all. You know why Mexico happened.
Darkey.
Darkey. And I was opposed. You know, I really liked you, Michael. I warned you to stay away from Bridget. Jesus, man, what were you thinking? I trusted you.
I trusted you.
No, I really liked you. You were here three quarters of a year, you were good and reliable, and you weren’t a thieving bastard like Scotchy, so Darkey and I were happy.
Mention Scotchy again and I’ll fucking plug you, Sunshine, I said.
Yeah, ok. Look, I’m very sorry about what happened. You have no idea. I was against it. You were a great worker.
Until.
Until.
How long did you know?
About what?
About Bridget.
I knew that week. Me, who is normally on top of things.
Aye. Whose plan was Mexico? It must have been yours.
No, not at all. It was Darkey. Darkey, the whole thing. I said no. I said no way. I said send him back to Ireland with a good talking-to, maybe a quiet kicking.
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p; He was much calmer now and I preferred that. He was really thinking he could reason with me. I was cool, I seemed reasonable.
And, Jesus, Sunshine, you sacrificed the whole crew for me. Four good men and a hundred thousand dollars. Incredible. I mean, it was brilliant. Darkey could never have come up with something like that. Brilliant. You must have had contacts with the peelers down there—
Michael, you’ve got it all wrong, I—Sunshine interrupted.
I cut him off.
Sunshine, please. We both know how it was.
He nodded and sighed. Was he resigning himself? No, not Sunshine, he took an intake of breath and began again:
Michael, you’ve got to believe me, it was Darkey. Mr. Duffy had contacts with the Mexican police. Cancún police, big tourist area, big drug area. Darkey’s plan. The Mexicans get four convictions, and they keep the money. All Darkey, nothing to do with me.
And Bob sets it up, gets out, and we get ten years. Bridget marries Darkey and suspects nothing. Darkey wouldn’t sacrifice a whole crew for me. Really, Sunshine, you were very clever.
Michael, I opposed it the whole way. I said to Darkey, We’ll send him back to Ireland.
And I suppose if it fucked up and Bob got lifted too, it wouldn’t matter, it was only Bob, right?
Michael, why aren’t you listening? I knew it was madness. I said to Darkey, This is completely nuts.
Aye.
You’re not going to kill me, Michael? Sunshine asked, suddenly serious.
I have to. I’m sorry. Even if I did believe you, it wouldn’t matter, I made a promise.
With who?
The jungle.
Cryptic bastard to the last, Sunshine said. He was kneeling on the floor with his hands still on his neck. He leaned forward and started to sob. Gasping with it. Getting hysterical. His hands dropped from his neck, he was getting up, coming over. Hyperventilating.
Do you want to get it over with then, you fucker? he screamed, coming so close I had to step back.
Ok, I said.
He put up his palms and looked at me panic-stricken. He was going to beg, and it would be terrible. He started to cry frantically and dropped back to his knees.
Please, Michael, I have five hundred thousand dollars saved, more in a—
I put my hand up to stop him. He was prostrate before me, his hands together, girning his face off. Breathy, gasping, choking it out. Vomiting with fear. I could smell the fear on him. His bald head, puke on his weak chin and the sleeve of his outstretched arm. His dark eyes filled with tears. No one said this was going to be easy.
Michael, you’re a good guy, I know you’re a good guy. I’ll disappear, you’ll never hear from me, for good. Jesus, five hundred thousand, think of it. Darkey has a million, more, we could get it. Millions. Come on, Michael, I know you’re a good guy. I know it. I know it. You’re a good man.
I shook my head.
Sunshine, I’m not going to draw this out. Tell Scotchy I was asking for him.
What?
You heard, I said, and before he could say anything more, I shot him in the heart.
12: METRO-NORTH
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t had rained in the morning and then it had snowed and then it had sleeted and then, as if exhausting all possible combinations of the three, the precipitation petered itself out and stopped. The sky was gray and the sun could only make brief, faded cameo appearances where the clouds thinned. Irish weather, not really like New York at all. Cold, too cold for snow, a weatherman said. It was December.
Last December, I’d come here. It didn’t seem like a year ago. It seemed longer.
I thought of Nan. I hadn’t thought of her in many months. I’d sent her some money in February and I’d spoken to her a few times, the last occasion in the spring. Nan didn’t have a phone, so it was a complicated process of calling the neighbors and then having them go over and getting her and her getting all flustered and coming over and so on. Still, it was no excuse.
In Belfast it would be three o’clock in the afternoon, getting dark. If I called now I’d be admitting that I was alive, but I supposed they all knew that anyway.
I didn’t want to call, though. The hassle of it, and every conversation usually degenerated into crossed purposes or farce. Also, I was in no mood to placate Nan’s neighbors with lies about my life in America.
I dressed as warmly as I could and exited the building. I scoped about for a Chevy or a Lincoln or any other cars I didn’t like the look of. But it was clean. Really, I should have moved to Hoboken or somewhere, but I liked this place, the bridge view, and besides, I was always cautious.
I took the train to Fairway. The one in the seventies. There’s one now where we used to take people and give them a hiding, down at the Hudson. A place I thought Darkey and Scotchy were going to take me and shoot me one night a long time ago. A night when Rachel Narkiss was in my life and could have been a major part of a different existence. Such things were not to be.
Fairway was packed full of Christmas shoppers, but I braved it, bought some potato bread, soda bread, black pudding, and sausages. It wasn’t the real Irish stuff, but there was no way I could go near any Irish neighborhoods to get the imports. If I needed a fix of the Old Sod, I figured an Ulster fry might help. I took the supplies home and I fired up the old grill and cooked myself one, and it was quite good. Of course, I cooked it in vegetable oil, not dripping or lard, but still.
I exercised in the afternoon for an hour and then did yoga and meditated for another two hours. I slept. I woke and saw the George Washington Bridge light up. I watched the cars move on the decks, and when I was bored and tired, I slept again.
It was another day and gray.
I got up, stretched and meditated for a half hour. I stretched again and did some exercises. I ran on the machine and when I was sweating and exhausted, I showered.
But none of it was any good. Bloody Belfast was still nagging at me.
I opened the fridge. There was still some potato bread left. I wondered if I made another fry, would it cure me. I got out a pan, ripped open the packet of potato bread, and at the smell finally cracked, picked up the phone, and dialed the number.
Mrs. Higgins was in her eighties and slightly scatterbrained and deaf, and it took me a minute or two to explain the nature of my call.
Mrs. Higgins, please, it’s Mike Forsythe, you remember Mikey, here calling from America. America. I wonder if you wouldn’t mind getting Nan for me, please, if she’s around.
Mrs. Higgins said that she was around, explaining that she could see her through the back window hanging out her washing. Mrs. Higgins said that at the moment Nan was talking to Mrs. Martin. I remembered Mrs. Martin: she was a frightening woman who had a soft spot for Nan, but who scared the crap out of me and most of the rest of the parish. Among a number of suspects, it might have been her that grassed me out to the DHSS about working that one bloody time.
She’s a bad woman, that Audrey Martin, a bad one, Mrs. Higgins was saying.
Yes, now please, would you mind at all, getting Nan for me, I asked with great patience.
I heard Mrs. Higgins put the phone down and shout across the garden. Mrs. Higgins was also about to do her washing, and before mentioning the long-distance phone call, I could hear her scold the other two for hanging out their washing with the rain about to come on. This was the wrong thing to say, since for the next several minutes they got into a heated discussion and talked with a professional eye about the prospect of foul weather. Mrs. Higgins’s and Mrs. Martin’s loud voices managed to enter the telephone receiver and carry all the way under the Atlantic to America. This was typical, and I knew the process of getting Nan would take some time. I cursed myself for calling. I put them all on the speakerphone. I put some oil in the frying pan and heated it and waited for Mrs. Higgins to get to the point in hand. Apparently, the Pentlands’ dog was barking, which could only mean hail, and the rotted cabbage leaves were still closed, so Nan reckoned the rain wouldn’t come u
ntil after lunch. Mrs. Martin divined signs in the movement of the birds and concurred with Nan’s prediction. Mrs. Higgins, however, had been watching TV. The BBC was claiming that it had been raining all night and, in fact, was raining right now in Belfast on top of all three of them and although the sky was overcast, it was dry, and she had to admit that there wasn’t much physical evidence to prove this extraordinary statement.
Mrs. Martin started yelling at children playing on the fence two houses down. Mrs. Martin’s voice was booming and loud and might just have carried across the Atlantic without any need for a cable. I shuddered. For reasons that never really came to light at trial, during a jumble sale in the Gospel Hall, Mrs. Martin had brained her husband with a fire iron. She’d gotten a suspended sentence at the district court in Newtonabbey, though it was agreed that had she not been so big and intimidating, and had not the magistrate come from just two streets over, she would have done six months. The weans must have keeked their whips when she yelled at them, and I managed to laugh a wee bit. There was the sound of panicked squeals and flight and then a brief discussion among the women about the youth of today.
The youth of today must have got the wheels turning, for finally Mrs. Higgins remembered about the phone call and told Nan to hurry because it was coming all the way from America.
I heard Nan come up the path and then come breathlessly on the phone, all excited.
Hello, Nan.
She caught her breath.
Michael, I might have thought you were dead. I’m very angry with you. I haven’t heard from you. Your drunken eejit of a da was over and when he asked about you and I said I hadn’t heard in months, I could see even he was worried.
I’m sorry, Nan, you know what it’s like.
I suppose you’re not coming home for Christmas?
No.
Aye. Audrey Martin said that now you wouldn’t be.
Mrs. Martin?
Aye.
I don’t trust her, Nan. I think she grassed me to the dole about that picture in the Belfast Telegraph.
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