by Jo Nesbo
She joined him. There was an empty glass on the wall.
‘Doesn’t look like we’re meant to eat at this restaurant,’ she said. ‘Any suggestions?’
He shrugged and took a sip from his hip flask. ‘Bar at the Savoy. If you’re not too hungry.’
She pulled her coat around her more tightly. ‘I’m not that hungry, actually. What about showing me around a bit? This is your stamping ground, and I’ve got a car. You could show me the bunkers where you used to spend your time.’
‘Cold and ugly,’ Harry said. ‘Stink of piss and wet ash.’
‘We could smoke,’ she said. ‘And admire the view. Have you got anything better to do?’
A cruise ship, lit up like a Christmas tree, glided slowly and soundlessly through the dark to the town on the fjord beneath them. They were sitting on wet concrete on top of a bunker, but neither Harry nor Kaja felt the cold creeping into their bodies. Kaja sipped at the hip flask Harry had passed her.
‘Red wine in a hip flask?’ she said.
‘That was all that was left in Dad’s cabinet. Just emergency supplies anyway. Favourite male actor?’
‘Your turn to start,’ she said, taking a longer swig.
‘Robert De Niro.’
She pulled a face. Analyze This? Meet the Fockers?’
‘I swore eternal allegiance after Taxi Driver and The Deer Hunter. But, yes, it has been at some cost. What about you?’
‘John Malkovich.’
‘Mm. Good. Why?’
She deliberated. ‘I think it’s the cultivated evil. Not something I like as a human quality, but I love the way he reveals it.’
‘And then he has a feminine mouth.’
‘Is that good?’
‘Yep. All the best actors have feminine mouths. And/or a high-pitched feminine voice. Kevin Spacey, Philip Seymour Hoffman.’ Harry took a cigarette from the pack and offered her one.
‘Only if you light it for me,’ she said. ‘Those boys are not exactly over-masculine.’
‘Mickey Rourke. Woman’s voice. Woman’s mouth. James Woods. Kissable mouth like an obscene rose.’
‘But not a high-pitched voice.’
‘Bleating voice. Sheep. Ewe.’
Kaja laughed and took the lit cigarette. ‘Come on. Macho men in films have deep, hoarse voices. Take Bruce Willis for example.’
‘Yes, take Bruce Willis. Hoarse fits. But deep? Hardly.’ Harry scrunched up his eyes and whispered in falsetto, facing the town: ‘From up here it doesn’t look like you’re in charge of jack shit.’
Kaja burst out laughing; the cigarette shot from her mouth and bounced down the wall and into the thick shrubs sending off sparks.
‘Bad?’
‘Sensationally bad,’ she gasped. ‘Damn, now you’ve made me forget the macho actor with the feminine voice I was going to say.’
Harry rolled his shoulders. ‘You’ll think of it.’
‘Even and I also used to have a place like this,’ Kaja said, taking another cigarette and holding it between thumb and forefinger as if it were a nail she was going to hammer in. ‘Somewhere for ourselves we thought no one else knew, where we could hide and tell each other secrets.’
‘Feel like telling me about it?’
‘About what?’
‘Your brother. What happened?’
‘He died.’
‘I know. I thought you would tell me the rest.’
‘And what is the rest?’
‘Well, why have you canonised him for example?’
‘Have I?’
‘Haven’t you?’
Her searching gaze lingered on him. ‘Wine,’ she said.
Harry passed her the hip flask and she took a greedy swig.
‘He left a note,’ she said. ‘Even was so sensitive and vulnerable. At times he could be all smiles and laughter, it was like he brought the sunshine when he arrived. If you had any problems, they seemed to evaporate when he appeared, like … erm, like dew in the sun. And in the black periods it was the opposite. Everything went quiet around him, a brooding tragedy seemed to hang in the air and you could hear it in his silence. Music in a minor key. Beautiful and terrible at once, do you understand? And yet, some of the sunshine seemed to have been stored in his eyes, because they continued to laugh. It was eerie.’
She shivered.
‘It was during the summer holidays, a sunny day, the kind only Even could make. We were at our summer house in Tjøme, and I had got up and gone straight to the shop to buy strawberries. When I returned breakfast was ready, and Mummy called up to the first floor for Even to come down. But he didn’t answer. We assumed he was sleeping – now and then he had long lie-ins. I went up to fetch something from my room and tapped on his door and called out “strawberries” as I passed. I was still listening for a response when I opened the door to my room. When you go into your own room, you don’t look around, you just look for whatever it is you want, the bedside table where you know your book is, the windowsill or the box of fishing lures. I didn’t see him straight away, only noticed that something about the light was not as it should have been. Then I glanced to the side and at first saw only his bare feet. I knew every centimetre of his feet – he used to pay me a krone to tickle them, he loved that. My first thought was that he was flying, at last he had learned to fly. My gaze continued upwards; he was wearing the pale blue jumper I had knitted for him. He had hung himself from the lamp with an extension cord. He must have waited until I’d gone out, and then come into my room. I wanted to run, but I couldn’t move, my legs were rooted to the floor. So I stood there staring at him, and he was so close, and I called my mother, I did all the things that should have produced a shout, but not a sound would come out of my mouth.’
Kaja bent her head and flicked her cigarette. Took a tremulous breath.
‘I can only remember fragments of the rest. They gave me medicine, to calm me down. When I recovered, three days later, they had already buried him. They said it was just as well I wasn’t there, that the strain might have been too great. I fell ill straight afterwards and was in bed with a fever for long periods over the summer. I’ve always thought it was a bit too hurried, the funeral, as if there were something shameful about the way he had died, don’t you think?’
‘Mm. You said he had written a note?’
Kaja gazed across the fjord. ‘It was on my bedside table. He wrote that he had fallen in love with a girl he could never have, he didn’t want to live any more and asked for forgiveness for all the pain he was inflicting on us, and that he knew we loved him.’
‘Mm.’
‘That came as quite a surprise. Even had never told me there was a girl, and he used to tell me most things. Had it not been for Roar—’
‘Roar?’
‘Yes. I had my first boyfriend that summer. He was so nice and patient, visited me almost every day when I was ill and listened to me talking about Even.’
‘About what an immeasurably wonderful person he had been.’
‘You’ve got it.’
Harry shrugged. ‘I did the same when my mother died. Øystein wasn’t as patient as Roar. He asked me straight out if I was founding a new religion.’
Kaja giggled and sucked on her cigarette. ‘I think Roar eventually felt that the memory of Even was smothering all life as he knew it, including himself. It was a brief relationship.’
‘Mm. But Even was still there.’
She nodded. ‘Behind every single door I opened.’
‘That’s why, isn’t it?’
She nodded again. ‘When I came home from the hospital that summer and had to go to my bedroom, I couldn’t open the door. I simply couldn’t. Because I knew that if I did, he would be hanging there again. And it would be my fault.’
‘It’s always our fault, isn’t it?’
‘Always.’
‘And no one can persuade us that it isn’t – not even we can do that.’ Harry stubbed out his cigarette in the dark. Lit another.
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he cruise ship beneath them had slid into the quay.
A gust of wind whistled through the gun slits, making a hollow, gloomy sound.
‘Why are you crying?’ he asked softly.
‘Because it is my fault,’ she whispered with tears rolling down her cheeks. ‘Everything is my fault. You’ve known all along, haven’t you?’
Harry inhaled. Took out the cigarette and blew on the glow. ‘Not all along.’
‘Since when?’
‘Since I saw Bjørn Holm’s face in the doorway in Holmenveien. Bjørn Holm is a good forensics officer, but no De Niro. And he was genuinely surprised.’
‘Was that all?’
‘It was enough. I knew from his expression that he had no idea I was on to Leike. Therefore he had not seen anything on my computer, and he had not passed it on to Bellman. And if Holm wasn’t the mole, there was only one other person it could have been.’
She nodded and dried her tears. ‘Why didn’t you say anything? Why didn’t you do anything? Why didn’t you behead me?’
‘What would have been the point? I assumed you had a good reason.’
She shook her head and let the tears flow.
‘I don’t know what he promised you,’ Harry said. ‘I would guess a leading position in the new, all-powerful Kripos. And I was right when I said that the guy you were hung up on was married and told you he would leave his wife and kids for your sake, but he never would.’
She sobbed quietly, her neck bent as though it had become too heavy. Like a rain-burdened flower, Harry thought.
‘What I don’t understand is why you wanted to meet me this evening,’ he said, giving his cigarette a disapproving look. Perhaps he should change brand. ‘I thought at first it was because you wanted to tell me you were the mole, but I soon realised it wasn’t. Are we waiting for someone? Is something going to happen? I mean, I’ve been sidelined, what harm can I do to them now?’
She looked at her watch. Sniffled. ‘Can we go back to yours, Harry?’
‘Why? Is someone waiting for us there?’
She nodded.
Harry drained his hip flask.
The door had been broken down. The splinters of wood on the floor suggested it had been levered open with a crowbar. Nothing refined, no attempt to be discreet. Police break-in.
Harry turned on the steps and looked at Kaja who had got out of the car and stood with crossed arms. Then he went inside.
The living room was dark; the only light came from the drinks cabinet, which was open. But it was enough for him to recognise the person sitting in shadow by the window.
‘Bellman,’ Harry said. ‘You’re sitting in my father’s armchair.’
‘I took the liberty,’ Bellman said. ‘Since the sofa had a particular smell. Even the dog shied away.’
‘May I offer you something?’ Harry nodded towards the cabinet and sat down on the sofa. ‘Or did you find something for yourself?’
Harry could discern Bellman shaking his head. ‘Not me. But the dog did.’
‘Mm. I take it as read that you have a search warrant, but I am curious about the grounds given.’
‘An anonymous tip-off about you having smuggled drugs into the country via an innocent third party and the possibility that it was here.’
‘And it was?’
‘The sniffer dogs found something, a ball of some yellowish-brown substance wrapped in silver foil. Doesn’t look like the usual sort of thing we confiscate in this country, so for the moment it’s not clear what we’re dealing with. But we’re considering having it analysed.’
‘Considering?’
‘It might be opium, or it might be a lump of plasticine or clay. It depends.’
‘Depends on what?’
‘On you, Harry. And me.’
‘Really?’
‘If you agree to do us a favour, I might tend to the view that it is plasticine and overlook any tests. A boss has to prioritise his resources, isn’t that so?’
‘You’re the boss. What sort of favour?’
‘You’re a man who doesn’t like beating around the bush, Hole, so let me give it to you straight. I want you to take on the role of scapegoat.’
Harry saw a brown ring of Jim Beam at the bottom of the bottle on the table but resisted the temptation to put it to his lips.
‘We’ve just had to release Tony Leike as he has watertight alibis for at least two of the murders. All we have on him is a phone call to one of the victims. We’ve been a bit forceful with the press. Together with Leike and his future father-in-law they could make things uncomfortable for us. We’ll have to issue a press statement tonight. And it will say that the arrest was undertaken on the basis of the blue chit you, the controversial Harry Hole, wheedled out of the poor sylphlike solicitor at Police HQ. And that this was a solo operation that you, and you alone, organised, and you shoulder all of the responsibility. Kripos smelt a rat after the arrest, intervened and in conversation with Leike clarified the facts. And immediately released him. You will have to join us and sign the press statement, and you will never make a statement about the investigation again, not a word. Understood?’
Harry contemplated the dregs in the bottle a second time. ‘Mm. A tough order. Do you think the press will swallow the story after you were standing with your hands raised, taking the honour for the arrest?’
‘I assumed responsibility, the press statement will say. I saw fronting the arrest as a management responsibility, even though we had misgivings that a policeman might have committed a blunder. But when Harry Hole later insisted on being allowed to take his place at the front, I didn’t stand in his way because he was an experienced inspector and didn’t even work for Kripos.’
‘And my motivation is that if I don’t sign I will be charged with drug smuggling and possession?’
Bellman pressed his fingertips together and rocked back in the chair.
‘Correct. But more important for your motivation is perhaps the fact that I can see to it that you’re held on remand with immediate effect. Shame since I know you would have liked to be at the hospital with your father who, I understand, has little time left. Very sad business.’
Harry leaned back against the sofa. He knew he ought to have been angry. The old – the younger – Harry would have been. But what this Harry wanted most was to bury himself in the sweat- and vomit-stained sofa, close his eyes and hope they would go, sling their hooks, Bellman, Kaja, the shadows by the window. But his brain continued its automatic acquired reasoning.
‘Quite apart from me,’ he heard himself say, ‘why would Leike bear out this version? He knows it was Kripos who arrested him, who questioned him.’
Harry knew the answer before Bellman spelt it out.
‘Because Leike knows that there will always be an unpleasant shadow hanging over someone who has been arrested. Especially unpleasant for someone such as Leike, who at this moment is trying to win the trust of investors, of course. The best way to rid himself of this shadow is to endorse a version that maintains the arrest was down to a loose cannon, an isolated unprofessional element in the police force who ran amok. Agreed?’
Harry nodded.
‘Anyway, as far as the force is concerned …’
‘I am protecting the name of the entire force by assuming all the guilt,’ Harry said.
Bellman smiled. ‘I’ve always held you to be a relatively intelligent man, Hole. Does that mean that we have reached an understanding?’
Harry considered. If Bellman went now he could see whether there really were a few drops of whiskey left in the bottle. He nodded.
‘Here’s the press statement. I want your name there.’ Bellman pushed pen and paper across the coffee table. It was too dark to read. That didn’t matter. Harry signed.
‘Good,’ said Bellman, taking the piece of paper and getting up. The light from a street lamp outside fell onto his face, causing the warpaint to shine. ‘This is best for all of us. Think about it, Harry. And get some rest.’
The victor’s merciful attentions, Harry thought, closing his eyes and feeling Morpheus welcome him into his arms. Then he opened his eyes again, struggled to his feet and followed Bellman down the steps. Kaja was still standing with arms crossed beside her car.
Harry saw Bellman send a nod of acknowledgement to Kaja, who responded with a shrug of the shoulders. Watched him cross the street, get into a car, the same one he had seen in Lyder Sagens gate that evening, watched him start the engine and drive off. Kaja had come to the foot of the steps. Her voice was still thick with tears.
‘Why did you hit Bjørn Holm?’
Harry turned to go in, but she was faster, taking two steps at a time. She came between him and the door and blocked the way. Her breathing was accelerated and hot against his face.
‘You hit him when you knew he was innocent. Why?’
‘Go now, Kaja.’
‘I’m not going!’
Harry looked at her. Knowing it was something he could not explain. How much it had hurt and surprised him when he realised the ramifications. Hurt him enough to make him lash out, punch the astonished, innocent moon-shaped face, the very reflection of his own gullible naivety.
‘What do you want to know?’ he asked and heard the metallic tone, the fury creeping into his voice. ‘I really believed in you, Kaja. So I should congratulate you. Congratulate you on a job well done. Can you go away now?’
He saw the tears well up in her eyes again. Then she stepped aside, and he staggered in and slammed the door behind him. Remained in the hall in the soundless vacuum after the bang, in the good silence, the void, the wonderful nothingness.
47
Fear of the Dark
OLAV HOLE BLINKED INTO THE DARKNESS.
‘Is that you, Harry?’
‘Yes, it’s me.’
‘It’s night, isn’t it?’
‘Yes, it’s night.’
‘How are you?’
‘I’m alive.’
‘Let me put on the light.’
‘No need. I’m going to tell you something.’
‘I recognise the tone. I’m not sure I want to hear.’