by Drew Sera
“That’s right. Just Colin, Matt and Blake. I think Gina’s been here once. And you.”
“I’m flattered. I’m honored that you think enough of me to bring me to your home. You know Colin and Matt like the back of your hand, and you don’t bring them here much but you brought me here and barely know me.”
I let my head lean back on the couch cushions and laughed. Seriously, how could she think that?
“Sorry, sunshine. I don’t mean to laugh, but how can you say that?” I brushed a piece of her hair behind her ear and looked deep in her eyes. “I know some of the most personal, intimate, deepest and darkest things about you that a person can know about someone else.” She nodded and looked down but I caught her chin, kissed her and pulled her back to lean on me. I stroked her arm as I continued.
“I know what’s in the nightmares that wake you up at night, and I know what it takes to chase them away to calm you so you can sleep. I know you love M&M’s, especially the green ones with the blue ones being a close second. I know you look downward when you feel shy. I know you twist and pull at your fingers and say ‘um’ when you’re nervous. I know you’re cautious when in a room full of people, and I know you try to keep track of all of them. I know that you have a huge, giving heart despite everything you’ve been through. I know how to make you smile. I know you like to have your nipples pinched and your clit rubbed on the left side. I know you’ll always prefer cheese pizza. I know you love Converse shoes and that you’re into kink.” I heard her sniffle and knew they were good tears.
“I know you feel safe with Colin and I, and I know you’ll be a wonderful submissive to your Dom because you’ll give him your personal best; all of the time. I know that you crave to be held and hunger for affection. I know your hips are still tender but, you like when I rub lotion over them. I know you’re my sunshine and Colin’s baby. I know you held onto me for dear life that horrible night. I know you worry about not being good enough for a good Dom. I know that Colin cares about you as much as I do. I know when I wink at you; your cheeks get red and your eyes sparkle. I know you’re worried and scared about tomorrow. I know that your left hand is your dominant hand, even though you write with your right hand. I know you come quietly because you’ve been told not to make any noise. I know you love superheroes. I know you’re scared of closets, but you’ll push your fear aside for someone else’s benefit. I know that before Colin and I, sex scared you. You were hurt by it. I know you like having your tummy rubbed when you don’t feel well and that you treat my bicep as a security blanket.” I reached down and wiped away her tears with my thumb and pulled her to sit on my lap so I could look in her eyes.
“I know, that I don’t know, how you got all of these cuts and scars, but I know I’ll find out. I know Colin and I can replenish what Howard took from you. Colin and I can help you find yourself and help you explore the lifestyle.” I smiled at her and pulled a smile through her tears. I pulled her closer so our foreheads were touching.
“I don’t know everything Sydney, but I know that I want to be in your life. And Colin does too.”
She nodded at me and wrapped her arms around my shoulders and hugged me. I held her close and whispered in her ear, “I know more about you than you think, sunshine.”
“You know more than anyone. You are so special to me, Anthony.” She kissed me and my heart swelled with pride. I was important to her. We sat like that for a while and then I wanted to lighten the mood. Tomorrow had the potential to be rough and I wanted tonight to be fun.
I nipped playfully at her lip and held her face in my hands. Her face felt so small in my hands and she felt so breakable. With her chin between my thumb and index finger, I pulled her closer to me until I could feel her warm breath on my lips. I wanted this young woman. My eyes closed as I pressed my lips against hers. I claimed that sweet mouth of hers and let my tongue mingle with hers. I finally pulled my mouth away from hers and smiled when she leaned towards my face for more.
“Sydney, has a man ever made love to you?”
She shook her head. I didn’t push for a verbal response. Her head motion was loud enough. I wondered if she had been a virgin when she met Howard in her twenties. I knew she was involved with Howard at least since she started working for Openin. So that was at least ten or eleven months ago. I could see her having been with him a little longer. Not much though because I don’t know how she’d survive much more. Most likely she wasn’t a virgin when she met him. She’s almost twenty-eight and I was kind of glad that asshole wasn’t her first.
“Sunshine, I’d love to be the first man to make love to you.”
She nodded and began kissing me again. I calmed myself down and told myself over and over that I had to go slow and be extra gentle with her. Colin and I have been with her sexually but we haven’t made love to her. To be honest, I don’t think I’ve ever made love to a woman. It’s all been kinky fucking. Just physical, dominating sex. But each time I’ve sunk into Sydney at Colin’s, I’ve felt something for her.
She reached between our bodies and playfully flicked my nipple. I gazed into her sparkling, flirty eyes. What the fuck was I going to do with this girl? I just shook my head in wonder at her and listened to her gentle, playful laugh.
“Sydney Morgan Burke. What am I going to do with you?”
She looked up at me through her eyelashes.
“I don’t know, Anthony something Graves.”
I picked her up and carried her down the hall to my room all while making out with her. I unzipped her dress on the way. I gently set her on the bed and gazed in her eyes as I took my clothes off slowly. I took them off slowly so it would calm me and keep me from moving too fast. I removed the condom from the pocket of my jeans. I took a few from Colin’s just in case and set the one from my pocket on the nightstand.
Once I was naked, I knelt down and took her shoes off and made a trail of kisses from her left foot going up her leg to her hip. I didn’t touch her pussy but got a whiff of her arousal and drug my tongue from her left hip across her tummy to her right hip. I made a kiss trail from her right hip down to her right foot taking her panties down as I went. She giggled and I felt myself harden. Control Graves, I told myself. Calm and controlled.
I took her by her hands and pulled her to stand up. I kissed her lips while I slid the straps off her shoulders and felt the material brush my skin as it dropped to the floor.
“Sunshine, yellow to slow, red to stop. Understand?”
“Yes, Sir. Anthony.”
Fuel for my fire. I gently pushed her to lie down and I placed soft kisses on her bruised tummy as I made my way down to her pussy. It was intoxicating for me. I gave her slow, soft licks and then treated myself with a long lick from her slit all the way up to her clit. She moaned lightly and began to lift her hips for more. I laughed quietly, and gently pushed her hips back down to the mattress. Painless sex play nearly gives her an orgasm. I leaned over her small frame, holding myself up with my arms, elbows locked, hands resting by her sides. I lowered to take a nipple in my mouth. I massaged the hard pebble with my tongue and felt her waist rise up off the mattress again. I couldn’t help but laugh quietly and calmly as I pushed her hips into the bed. I knelt between her legs and reached for the condom while keeping my eyes on her. I opened the package quietly and rolled the condom down my length and went back to kissing her. I kept myself propped up on my arms and didn’t let my body weight press into her. I couldn’t risk it being a trigger and didn’t want her to feel trapped under me. I wasn’t a light, small guy and worried my 6’2” and 225-pound frame might overwhelm her.
I found a comfortable position on my side and pulled one of her legs over my hip opening her up to me. While I continued to kiss her, I slowly pushed myself into her warm, wet pussy. I stilled, and kept us in that position for a bit. I leaned my head back so I could look at her and make sure she was doing okay. She was smiling and those dark blue eyes of hers consumed mine.
“Okay, sunshine?”
“Yes, Sir.”
I held her against me and rolled us over so I was on my back and she was on top of me. She kept looking at me and held her hands tensely on my shoulders. I took her hands in mine and pushed her up to full sitting position. I began to let go of her hands but she tightened her grip on mine and I saw a hint of nervousness in those eyes. I got it. This was a vulnerable position for her. Holding my hands gave her strength. I smiled and nodded at her letting her know that I understood. I moved slowly with her sitting on top of me and stared at her. I felt like she might very well be an angel. From our positioning, the light from the hallway was shining around her. She was gorgeous as she sat perched on my cock, gripping my hands as we moved slowly together.
Her eyes shut and she began meeting my thrusts. She was close. Her hands flew from mine and grabbed onto my chest. She was digging her nails into my chest and I felt like she threw more gasoline onto my fire. I willed myself to keep calm but with those nails in my skin it was hard. It really turned me on. I set one hand on her hip and let my other one take hold of her nipple. I began rolling it between my fingers and felt her pussy clamp down on me. I couldn’t help but smile at her. Can’t take the kink out of the fragile kitten. She began gripping me a little harder and was grinding down on me more.
“That’s it, sunshine. Grab my cock with your pussy.”
Apparently dirty talk also creates a positive explosion in her. She moved just a few more times and then came quietly. She was starting to bend in the middle and then flattened down against me. It was when her body became parallel to mine that my own orgasm caught me off guard. I held her against me by her butt cheeks while I came.
She was breathing hard and resting against my chest. We stayed like that for a long while until I finally softened and slipped from her, which caused her to laugh softly. I love that sound. I pulled the sheets up around her because I knew she was already getting cold.
Finally I got up just long enough to get a damp cloth to clean her up a bit so she wouldn’t get chapped. I remembered to leave the bathroom light on and shut the door part way. She liked having the light on. I also left the hall light on for her and climbed into bed. She instantly fell in our usual position with her body pressed against me, head on my chest and my arm around her. As we lay quietly, skin-to-skin, all I could think of was how this young woman has changed my outlook on things. I wanted to give her everything and be her everything. I swallowed hard and glanced down at her head resting on my bare chest.
“Davis.”
“What?” She asked sleepily while swirling her fingers in my chest hair.
“Davis. Anthony Davis Graves.”
Sydney propped herself up on an elbow and looked in my eyes. A beautiful smile spread across her face. She told me ever since that day in the courtyard at work when Colin and I gave her our Irons cards that she’s been trying to figure out our middle names.
“I never would have guessed yours was Davis. I thought it might be Daniel or possibly David. But I never thought of Davis.”
I reached up and brushed a few tendrils behind her ears while I gazed into her eyes. She has gorgeous eyes. They’re so caring and when I talk she seems so interested in what I have to say. I gently pulled her downward to put her head on my chest again.
“Anthony, tell me what Colin’s middle name is. Gregory? George?”
“Gage. Colin Gage Everett.”
In her sleepy voice she whispered Colin’s full name and mine. I could feel her smiling against my chest. It was getting late and tomorrow was our appointment with Chris.
“Sleep well, sunshine.” I kissed her forehead and drifted off to sleep.
“No…’lease stop.” I was groggy but was getting jostled around a bit. I felt a hand graze over the wound on my chest from Paul’s whip and jerked awake and looked down. Sydney’s hand. Nightmare. “Fire, ‘lease stop…my…back.”
I sat up and pulled her onto my lap as she was pushing against me a little bit. This was common with her nightmares as she came out of them and separated from the dream state to reality. I expected this reaction each time and let her push at me until she sorted out that she was safe. I stroked her hair and kissed her forehead as I do each time and reminded her she was safe.
“Sunshine, sweetheart. It’s just a bad dream. Relax, sunshine.”
When her eyes opened, it made my chest hurt to see her so scared and hurting. She frowned and looked down at her hand that was pushing against my wound. I looked down and saw it was red and there was some blood. Quickly she removed her hand and started to apologize.
“Sunshine, stop sweetie. Don’t apologize. It’s okay.”
She started looking around the room and I saw a flash of panic. She was a little disoriented still.
“Sweetie, it’s my room. Remember? We went to dinner, had that M&M sundae and came upstairs to my place. It’s my place. Just you and me. You’re safe.”
Her head stopped looking around the room and she nodded. I felt her sag in my arms and then the tears started.
“Shhh, it’s okay.” I quickly glanced around trying to find a throw or a blanket that I knew I didn’t have.
Colin always had them lying around. I’m so clueless. I gathered her in my arms and carried her to the bathroom and pulled a big towel off the rack and draped it around her. I carried her to the kitchen and set her on the counter. Her head hung and the tears continued to fall.
“My back hurts, Anthony.”
She looked up at me with eyes that tore right through me. She kept arching her back trying to reach around to touch where she hurt. She pulled her hand around and looked down. We were both shocked when we saw blood on her fingers. Her breathing immediately sped up and I moved a little quicker than I meant to and pulled the towel off her shoulders. I saw what had happened. One of the places that had been healing up had a scab forming over it. Part of the scab pulled away from the skin and she was bleeding there. Before I tended to that, I knew I had to calm her down.
“Sunshine,” I said; but she was just staring at the blood on her fingers. I took the towel and wiped the blood from her hand. “Eyes.” I waited and she looked up at me.
I explained what happened. She probably moved around during the nightmare and the sheets pulled the scab away. She understood and even smiled a small smile at me. But I could see the shame and guilt on her face.
I went to my bathroom and frantically looked for a bandage. Fuck! I didn’t have any. I grabbed a few tissues and headed back to the kitchen. I pulled some tape from the drawer and began making a bandage. With a pen I drew a smiling sun and held it up for her to see.
“That will work.” She smiled at me and I gently taped it to her back. In the morning, I’d get a proper bandage on her.
I glanced around my vacant looking kitchen and remembered the M&M’s. I pulled open a drawer and took out a small bag of the candy. She smiled and I felt like a hero. I grabbed a bottle of water and the candy in one hand and picked her up and went to the couch.
I was just getting settled with her when she asked, “What’s that yellow thing?” The sock monkey. I reached over and grabbed it off the chair and leaned back on the couch. She was lying between my legs and took some M&M’s from my hand when I set the monkey on her stomach over the makeshift blanket.
“It’s for you. I actually got it the day I went shopping for some clothes for you. While you were in the hospital, Matt told Colin that it would be good for you to have something to hold. So when I went shopping, I saw this and picked it up. I know what you’re thinking; did I forget to give it you? No, I didn’t. You had been hanging onto my arm at night and I was being selfish. I didn’t want you to stop holding onto me for the monkey. So I kept him here.”
“The monkey is definitely cute and soft. But he can’t take care of me like you can.”
I was thrilled to hear her say that. She liked the monkey and held it over her chest. We ate the M&M’s on the couch and then once she had a chance to calm down we went back to the bedroom. I
glanced down at the sheets and saw a little blood from her cut where the scab tore away.
“Sorry about your sheets, Sir. And for hurting your chest wound. I made you bleed.”
“It washes,” I told her so she wouldn’t worry. But then she said something that hit me like a ton of bricks.
“Water washes it all down the drain.”
What disturbed me so much was that she and I both had a lot of experience with washing blood off of us.
We got into bed and I held her close until it was time to get up. I wasn’t able to fall back asleep. It was 4:35 a.m. when we got back in bed and I began letting my head run away with thoughts. I was careless not to have bandages around for her and I didn’t even have a fucking blanket for her. How clueless can I be? If Colin saw the tissue bandage I made and taped to her back he’d slug me for being an idiot. I hadn’t even thought about the ink possibly seeping through from the tissue. What if it gave her an infection? I glanced down at it and slowly peeled it off.
Chapter 15
Tuesday, November 26th
Anthony
Even though I was awake, the alarm clock still startled me. Fuck. I shut it off and kissed her forehead.
“Are you awake, sunshine?”
“Yes, Sir.”
“What’s on your mind, sweetie?”
“I’m nervous about the appointment.”
I exhaled the air I was holding in my lungs. I knew she was afraid to go, but Colin and I were hopeful that it would help.
“Sunshine, I will be with you.”
“I know. Thank you for going with me.”
“I wouldn’t have it any other way. Come on sweetheart, we should get up.”
I placed a call down to the concierge and requested some bandages and ointment as we moved around the bathroom. Of course Sydney told me that she was fine and didn’t need anything. I wasn’t going to let that thing be uncovered as it was. It would just rub against her clothes and get worse. Before we got into the shower, the concierge brought up the bandages and some medicated gel. I took it to the bathroom and waved the bandages in the air. She was smiling so I was still floating in her ocean.