There was no hesitation in her, no second thoughts. She wanted this, wanted him, and had for years and years.
His cock was thick and long, with a bullet head that pearled moisture when she ran her thumb across the engorged slit. He groaned and intensified the rhythm.
An early orgasm slapped through her without warning, bright, brittle, and glittering with the pleasure that vised her muscles and left her shaking. She cried out and clutched at him, wordless and needy as her body pulsed around his fingers.
“Fuck, that’s hot,” he rasped against her lips. Then, his voice going commanding, he said, “Do it again.”
“I…” she began, but then trailed off when he eased away to scatter kisses down her throat. Then he moved lower, bending and kneeling in front of her.
He stroked his hands down her legs, first the outsides and then the insides, urging them apart and angling her body so her spine pressed against the smooth curve of the cave wall. With a smooth and unexpected move, he hooked one of her legs over his shoulder, opening her, laying her vulnerable.
“Wait.” She tried to pull away. “Let me…” The protest died on her lips as he turned his head and pressed his lips to her inner thigh.
“No, let me,” he said against her skin. “Just let me.” And he kissed her again, brushing his lips up her inner thigh and then inward to draw his tongue along the center of her in a long, heated lick that had a moan rolling from her, had her head falling back against the stone and her body going limp in sudden, unfamiliar submission.
Oh, gods, yes, she thought as he bent his head. He kissed her more deeply, more intimately, and slipped his hands around her once more, questing until his fingers found her, entered her again.
There was pressure and pleasure, a fullness that seemed somehow so much more intense than it did when she was alone. Helpless to do otherwise, driven by her body’s needs now, she arched into his mouth, rocked against his fingers, and cried out. As he drove her up toward the next peak, she started shaking. Not just because of arousal, though that was part of it, but because she didn’t know what was coming next, or what any of it meant. She was lost in the moment, unable to care about anything other than the orgasm that gathered within her and the lover who was bowed down before her.
She held his head against her, worked herself against his mouth, totally taken within the maelstrom of sensations. And as the inner knots tightened around his fingers and tongue, all she could think was, Thank the gods.
Then he moved away, leaving her to cry out in frustration, then hiss in approval as he moved back up her body, heavy and solid, letting her feel every inch of him. He rose over her and she gloried in the heavy press of his body into hers, and the glide of his hard cock along her slick folds. Excitement built; she wanted him inside her, wanted to be pounded into, hollowed out. She wanted to sink her teeth into him and mark him as her own. Instead, she turned her face into his throat and whispered, “Now. Please, oh, please, now.”
“Hell, yeah, now,” he growled in return.
There was no fumbling with protection or questions, no need with a mage. He just poised himself and nudged within, the press of his cock head so intense she bowed against him, her eyes falling shut once more.
A moment of pressure was followed by a twinge as her body stretched to accept his girth. Then he slid deep in one sure thrust that parted her flesh, filling her, and setting off red-gold sparks wherever he touched.
Magic, she thought, and dragged her nails across his shoulders and down along his sides, fingers flexing as he withdrew and thrust again, impossibly deep. She made a low noise at the back of her throat, part purr, part growl, and he groaned in response and thrust again. Her body matched his as they found their tempo, and she was gripped by the sensations, acutely aware of the contrast between his skin and her own, the delicious friction, the heat, and the push-pull of their bodies.
Then he shifted to align their palms and twine their fingers together, and everything got sharper, deeper, more real. She bit her lip to will back the sudden swell of tenderness, and the tears that prickled behind her closed eyelids, not sure whether the move was an automatic one, impelled by the sex magic seeking more of itself, or whether he had formed the link on purpose, seeking that connection with her.
The bond was there, though, stringing her muscles tight and making her arch beneath him and suck in a hot-feeling breath that contained their mingled scents. Her body moved faster beneath his, urging him on, and he growled low in his chest and answered her, setting a tempo that made her feel like they were racing together across the desert.
“Yes. Oh, yes. Gods.” She broke the connection, letting it be about the moment and the sex as she gripped his tense forearms where he was braced above her. Her senses turned inward, concentrating on the place where they joined. Her body tightened around his driving hardness, pulsing, not under her control anymore. Pleasure shifted, coiled, and kindled a warm, tingling fire in her belly. “Please!”
He groaned and dropped down to gather her against him, wrapping his arms around her and pressing them together in an embrace that was suddenly far too intimate. He wasn’t just inside her anymore; he was holding her, surrounding her, whispering her name in a ragged gasp that brought a surge of tenderness, a sense that yes, this was it. This was what she had been waiting to find.
Panic lit up inside her. Even without the blood-link, it was too much, too huge, too—
“Gods, Cara!” He surged against her, shuddering, and the friction of his full-body press brought an ecstasy that swept away her doubts and fears and left her helpless to do anything but join him in the rise and plunge of bodies, the wild abandon of racing together toward the crest.
She tried to keep up with him, but her muscles tensed as her body locked itself in a breathless, tingling moment. She couldn’t breathe, couldn’t move, couldn’t do anything but cry out in a chain of, “Yes, yes, oh, gods, yes!”
And then he slipped a hand between them, touched her where their bodies joined, and her body ignited. Sparks flared and fireworks detonated as he hammered home a few more times. Then he seated himself to the hilt and locked his arms around her in a shuddering, bucking release that set off a series of implosions within her.
The orgasm left her gasping beneath him, her arms and legs wrapped around him, locked there tightly. And then, as it faded, she stayed right there, wanting the moment to last and last. She loved the feeling of him against her—his heavy weight, the heave of his hot breathing, the knowledge that he was just as wiped out as she was.
They had had each other thoroughly, wonderfully. And she wouldn’t change a second of it. Not here, not now.
No regrets.
“Gods. That was… Hm.” He shifted against her, stretching and easing off to one side. “Sorry. Crushing you.”
She nuzzled the side of his sweat-slicked neck. “Yeah, but in a good way.” But even as she said it, her instincts stirred. That was the kind of thing lovers said to each other, and therein lay danger. This was a onetime thing, a necessary release. Though if that was what it felt like to share sex magic as a mismatched pair, she could see why the magi were all about their destined mates. More, she could see why humans could get hooked on the fireworks and forget about the rest—at least for a while. Not her, though. She had gone into this with her eyes wide-open and full knowledge of what she was doing, and who with, and now it was time to pull back… even if part of her was humming an awestruck note.
Yes, she’d had sex with Sven, fulfilling more than a few of her pent-up, overwrought fantasies from long ago. And yes, it had been amazing, more so than even those fantasies—or anything else she’d experienced since then—had led her to hope. Fireworks, hell. That had been nuclear. But it didn’t change anything.
And if she told herself that enough times, she might even start believing it.
Easing away from him and playing it as cool as she could manage, she tipped her head toward the sealed-shut cave entrance. “Guess that wasn’t what the
gods were waiting for, after all.”
A flicker of recognition said he’d made the connection too, knowing that the other sacred chamber had required not just a near-death experience but also the sexual consummation that completed the Godkeeper spell. But he shook his head. “That wasn’t what this was about, Cara. At all.”
Something shifted in her chest, but she didn’t let herself acknowledge the part of her that wanted to say, Then what was it about? She knew the answer, after all. It was just that silly, eternally seventeen-year-old part of herself that wanted it to be something more. “I know,” she said softly, “and believe me, I’m not trying to make a joke out of this. But we don’t need to dissect it either. It was… I can’t… Hell.” She blew out a frustrated breath. “Let’s just get dressed and find a way out of here.” Not meeting his eyes anymore, she reached for her shirt. “We’ve got bigger problems than—”
She froze at the sight of a stark black glyph on her inner right forearm.
And. Her. Heart. Stopped.
Oh, gods. Oh, no. Oh, gods, no. The litany beat in her blood as horror hammered through her, chased by pain. She must’ve made some noise, because Sven whipped around and got big, as if ready to defend her from a dozen hellhounds. But there was nothing to fight except the reality of a coyote’s-head glyph enclosed in a round-edged square, with the double dot representing “2” above it, to indicate that the wearer was a coyote with a familiar. Or, in this case, the servant to one.
“Fuck.” He lifted shocked eyes to hers. “I didn’t mean…” He trailed off, no doubt because there wasn’t anything to say.
“It wasn’t you. It was the nahwal.” Because although it was certainly possible that the blood-link or the sex could have reawakened the servant-master bond between them, her gut said it was the nahwal’s doing. Sven hadn’t wanted her—or anyone—as his servant. His ancestors, though, would want things lined up according to tradition. Bastards, she thought, her arm starting to ache.
“You broke it before,” he said after a moment. “Maybe you can do it again.”
“It took months, and I was sick as a dog.” Her voice threatened to crack but she wouldn’t let it. If anything, the mark was a necessary reminder that they were still the same people they’d been before. The vision hadn’t changed anything, and neither had the sex. Or, rather, something had changed, and not for the better. Aj winikin, she thought bitterly. Son of a bitch. If that was the nahwal’s gift, the creature could damn well have it back. “Screw it,” she said, forcing her chin up and her spine straight. “It’s just a mark. It can’t make me do anything I don’t want to do.” That was her story, and she was sticking to it. But where she might’ve been halfway to convincing herself that the sex hadn’t changed anything, there was no way she could say the same about this.
“Cara—”
“Don’t,” she said quickly. She didn’t want to talk about it right now. She wanted to be out and moving, wanted to fill her lungs with the fresh night air. The cave walls pressed suddenly in on her, though this time they weren’t moving; the claustrophobia came straight from her soul. “Please… can we just get out of here?”
He looked at her for a long moment, then nodded and turned away.
They dressed in silence and headed for the stone slab that covered the cave entrance, their boots squishing in the shallow, muddy river that was all that was left of the flash flood. Even though she knew it was the nature of the magic and the chamber, the difference between before and after made it feel like days had passed, rather than just a few hours.
They paused side by side at the entrance, where the stone suddenly seemed very solid, very heavy. Pressing her palm to it and finding it cool and faintly slimy, she glanced over at him. “You can open it, right?”
He copied her move so their hands were side by side, his bigger and more tanned, hers narrow and fine boned, with one thumbnail bitten down. “Yeah,” he said. “I can open it.”
She didn’t ask how he could be sure, or why his magic would work now when it hadn’t before. Instead, new nerves kindled as her mind skipped ahead to what they might find on the other side. What had Zane and Lora done after leaving the cave? She didn’t think they would have hurt any of the winikin—not when they meant to lead them instead—and she didn’t think they could hurt the magi. But that was about the only thing she thought Zane incapable of at this point.
Letting out a slow, steadying breath, she nodded. “Okay, then. Let’s do this. Open sesame.”
He hesitated, though, and the pause drew out long enough that she glanced over. His face was drawn, his eyes fixed on the stone slab like he was X-raying his way through it and not liking what he saw.
Tension coiled within her. “Is there a problem out there?”
“There’s a problem, but it’s not out there. It’s in here.… With us.” He brought his other hand up, so he was pressing both palms on the stone slab, as if to shove it out of the way. Instead, he let his head rest for a moment between his outstretched arms.
Us… The word tugged at her, as did the strain in his big, lean body, which let her know that as an honorable man—and he was that, in his own way—he was having trouble with the idea of her as a one-cave stand. “Don’t do this,” she said softly. “There’s no ‘us.’ I’m taking the mark out with me, but the rest of it stays here. It has to.”
He raised his head and pinned her with stormy eyes that held a yearning heat that set off warning bells even as part of her leaped with excitement. “What if I don’t want it to stay here?” he asked softly.
Her heart stutter-stepped and the breath went thin in her lungs. She told herself to shut him down, walk away, do something—anything—to keep him from making this more complicated than it already was. Instead, knowing she was teetering on the verge of a huge mistake, she said, “What do you want?”
There was a pause, and the moment hung in the balance. He won’t say it, she told herself. He means it another way. Because there was no way in hell he was going to say—
“You, Cara.” His expression was stark, his hands braced against the stone as if it were the only thing holding him in place. “I want you. I want to know that what we just had wasn’t just a onetime thing. I want to be with you for real… and I have for a very long time.”
She tried to find a rational, logical response. All she could come up with was: “Bullshit.”
One corner of his mouth twitched. “It started that last summer, even before we kissed. It wasn’t so bad when I stayed on the move, but when we wound up stuck here together at Skywatch, I couldn’t outrun it anymore. I had to send you away. And then when you came back… Shit. It hit me like a godsdamned sledgehammer seeing you get out of that Hummer, all slick and dangerous, like a badass version of the girl I used to know. But at the same time you’re still you—you’re tough, brave, resourceful, and you’ve got the biggest heart of anyone I’ve ever met. I want that. I want you, Cara.” He kept his hands jammed against the stone slab as if afraid that if he moved he would reach for her, and he wasn’t sure what her reaction would be.
She wasn’t sure either. What was she supposed to think? To say? She couldn’t breathe, couldn’t string two words together, couldn’t do anything but stare at him. “Then why…” she began, then faltered. But although the question went unfinished, it vibrated in the air between them, just as sex magic had an hour before. Why didn’t you say something? Why weren’t you ever around?
“Your father warned me off.”
“My…” She couldn’t keep going. The oxygen had suddenly been sucked from her lungs, and not because she didn’t believe him, but because she did. She could practically see it, could all but write the script.
Carlos never would’ve allowed anything to happen between her and Sven—a winikin and a mage. And not just because of tradition, but because she’d never measured up.
Sven lowered his arms and turned to lean against the stone. He let his head fall back against the solid slab and looked up, though she didn
’t know if he was seeing the animals or memories. “That was why I was all hell-bent on riding out without talking to you or your mom that day. He said he’d seen the direction I was looking, and told me to stay the hell away, that you were just a teenager and it was up to me to be the grown-up.”
And that too had the ring of truth, though she suspected there had been more to it than that. The breath whistled in her lungs as she tried to wrap her brain around this new information, tried to slot it into what she knew, or thought she’d known. Not about her father—she’d long ago stopped trying to fix things there—but about Sven. She’d spent big chunks of the past few years telling herself not to dwell on ancient history, but now it was there in her head, replaying that summer in such detail that she knew she hadn’t forgotten the past, after all. Now, though, the memories shifted and shivered, trying to realign themselves.
“That’s why you didn’t come back to visit after that summer?” she asked in a voice that didn’t sound much like her own.
He hesitated. “I wish I could say that was the only reason.”
Disappointment kicked, warning her that a small, stupid spark of hope had kindled inside her. Don’t go there, she chided, even though it was already too late. But at the same time it was ridiculous to think even for a second that she’d been the reason for his wandering. She might have been a catalyst, but ranging free was bred into him, bone and soul.
“I haven’t been a teenager for a long time.” It came out sounding far more choked up than she wanted to admit to being. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Carlos is still your father. Even before I knew that he’d saved my life the night of the massacre, I knew I owed him for keeping me and raising me like he did. He’d never really asked me for anything before that day, so I did my damnedest to give it to him all those years, not realizing that it wasn’t just about you being his daughter; it was about me being a mage.”
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