by Dark Angel
Fuck, what am I doing?
If I don't want to get caught, maybe I need to worry more about what I’m up to. I slide my fingers into my mouth, releasing her nipple with a wet pop. I change into different trousers, the same style so not even the wandering syllabus seeker should know what’s transpired, and I head toward the door. Emmaline fixes her own clothes and stumbles toward the door.
If I could eat her pussy that she came hard enough to walk like that, I can’t imagine what truly letting loose on her could be like. The idea makes me fucking weak for a moment. I want to taste every inch of that girl.
“Thank you, Ethan,” Emmaline turns to say. “Reality is sweeter than fantasy,” she says as she walks out the door.
Fuck, that girl could wrap me all around her and I’d never see the sky again. I’d never give a fuck. She’s too damn sexy; I want to watch her leave. I’m holding my lecture notes in front of me like I’m a college student, trying to hide my throbbing erection. I want this load deep inside Emmaline’s pussy but we both have class.
And if I had some damn sense, I’d stop myself from starting something I shouldn’t be doing. Fuck, I don’t have any sense or control with her. And I goddamn like it.
Emmaline
My brain and my body don’t quite recover from the jilt of not having Ethan’s mouth, Ethan’s hands, all over me like they were in his office. This is the part where reason and common sense are supposed to interfere with my insanity, but, like, I’m just in a daze today. The memory of his touch ghosts over my body, haunting me to the point where I’m possessed with thoughts only of his touch and the pleasure it brings.
No man (or woman for that matter) has ever put their mouth on my breasts, much less my pussy, and that sensation has me amazed that my legs can even get me to my next class.
I remember how Ethan clearly knew about my next class coming up. Sure, he says everything in that self-assured voice, but Ethan knew I had a class soon, it wasn’t just bravado.
Judging by how hard I came and that gut instinct I have about him, there’s no way that man bluffs. He doesn’t have to.
I know having an affair with Ethan is wrong. I’ve been ignoring that fact as hard as I can and I’m shocked by how glazed over the idea still is in my brain. This is against university rules! I mean, I’m the kind of girl who would normally go into cardiac arrest at breaking the rules. Like, I used to be a good girl…but now I know how damn fun being a bad girl is. That’s so childish of me, like I needed to screw my head on right after the idiotic stupor I left myself in when I was in Ethan’s office ... and I need to think about the real consequences of my action. Any minute now the war my common sense is losing has to change tides, right?
Now I know that Delia and I have to talk. Like there’s just no way that I can keep this all inside. I have to talk to someone I can trust about this. My head won’t stay level and I need advice. Delia’s a jokester but after she gets over the shock of me breaking bad, then she’s sure to offer up some salient advice.
I snap the lid on my Zebra midliners and find that when I look over my page of pastel highlights, I’ve actually done a good job on reviewing my Calculus II notes. I can’t put the ability to pass the class I worked so hard to get into, into a ‘plus’ column for screwing around with my teacher though.
So what if I’m keeping pace with in-class lectures?
How on earth can I think that coming onto Ethan was okay? I mean, he was so ready to wrap his arms around me and bury his face between my thighs.
The painful thought that he must do this with lots of students does occur to me, but even if that’s true, he did only have eyes for me in class.
God, that probably makes me the dumbest girl in the world.
I whip out my phone. “Siri,” I groan to the phone even though I’m holding down the home button. Habit. I’m a stubborn, methodical person who does things the way they always do.
Well, until now!
“Text Delia,” I tell my phone.
“What would you to say to Delia?” my phone asks.
“Meet me at my dorm, or yours. Girl talk, stat,” I say and release my home button. Siri of course doesn’t pick up what I’m saying because I’m frustrated and that would've been too easy. I swipe her away and text Delia.
She messages back right away that she’s going to meet me in five. Guess she’s out of class already. Goodness, maybe it's good that Ethan seems to know my schedule, because I’m already forgetting Delia’s and maybe mine is next!
My brain feels like it is stuffed full of clouds. Or cotton candy.
Whatever they stuff your brains with when you become obsessed with your professor. It ain’t more brains, or sense…wow, I can’t even think of a smart thing to say now!
I shove my hands in pockets, walking quickly and avoiding people until I get to my room.
I don’t feel guilty or shameful about what I did, and that’s kind of the problem. Like, I want to be a rule following kind of girl, like I always have been.
But I also can’t imagine not giving my virginity to Ethan. I want him inside me — not just his fingers or his tongue. I’m more focused on that than anything. That’s going to ruin my sanity and my GPA!
Delia’s waiting at the door — when my roommate is back, she doesn’t just barge in. Lindsay is cool, but Lindsay isn’t her best friend. If Lindsay is in the room, then Delia and I can go for coffee. This is not the kind of conversation that I can do with company. What I find really strange is that I don’t seem to feel weird planning to discuss this with Delia. I mean, an affair with my teacher should be something I want to keep top secret, and she’s definitely the only person that I’m willing to tell, but I also don’t like keeping the secret.
And something that I probably should've thought about sooner — my mother — creeps into mine. The next time she calls me will probably be tomorrow, and that’s so not a conversation I could have with her. She can sniff anything out over the phone. We’re close. And I don’t normally hide things from her.
“Are you okay?” Delia says quietly when she sees me.
I appreciate her hushed tone. When I look at her, a big, stupid grin spreads over my face! “Yes, it isn’t bad. Well, it kind of is. But, like, if Lindsay is in the room we’ve got to go so like—“
“Slow down, Em, you’re gonna hyperventilate or something. Ya sound a little crazy. Wait,” Delia says and her eyes get so wide it's like they doubled. “Girl, did you meet a guy?”
“Yeah, and not just online or in class…” I say, crooking my head to the side as I open the door. Lindsay left a note on the board on the door, on the inside. ‘Library till 3, promise to be quiet.’
“Yay, privacy, now tell me why you’re talking in riddles,” Delia says, her eyes getting a mad glint in them that actually makes me giggle.
“I’m coming to you because I need advice, Delia, I did something crazy…with Ethan,” I say, and I stop to watch her face.
The light of recognition on her face mixes with confusion. “Wait, you bagged the hot teacher? Giiiiiiiiiirl!”
“Well, he … he fingered me in his office today, and went down on me,” I just spill the beans like that.
Delia’s face is priceless. “Goddamn girl he ate your pussy in his damn OFFICE!” she practically shouts the last part. “Shit, sorry, damn, oh my God,” Delia says. Her face is confused but she’s grinning. “Damn, I though I was the bad one. Good job girl. Good damn job. So did you see his cock? Is it huge, God I bet it's huge…”
Delia stops and looks at me.
I don’t know what the look on my face says, but my head is spinning. “I can’t stop thinking about him. I want to sleep with him so damn bad. I know it's against the university rules, but oh my God!” I make a frustrated sound. “What the hell am I supposed to do? I can’t focus on anything!”
“And you tried masturbating?” Delia says, her voice kind. She’s trying to help. She’s not making this a joke.
God, I love her and I don’t
know what I’d do without her.
“That’s why I overslept and missed coffee the other day…I think that just leads to more obsession,” I admit.
Delia’s eyes widen and she cocks her head to the side. “Well, you should just fuck him and get it out of your system. I mean, you’ve never had sex before, and that’ probably making it all that more dramatic in your head. You’ll be able to focus when you drain the oves, or whatever, girl. You have to worry about other stuff!” Delia pats my back. “We all go a little cock crazy from time to time. Get it out of your system, tell me all about it, you’ll be good.” Delia laughs. “Girl, it's a buyer’s market for you right now. You’re probably, like, the hottest you’ll ever be, and you can bag that fine teacher no problem…I say go for it. And tell me everything.”
I laugh, too, and I feel so much better. I’ve been with Delia through breakups and relationship trauma. She’s been around the block enough to give me advice, and not only does what she’s saying make sense, it's something I want to anyway.
We all love advice that tells us what we want to hear. In fact, sometimes that’s all we hear…
“But, wait, girl, seriously,” Delia says. “How the hell did this happen?”
“I was jogging and I ran into Ethan — literally, ran into his perfect damn body,” I say, my eyes rolling back in my head remembering how he felt. “And these guys were saying gross shit to me. One tried to attack me, and I ran into Ethan. I…I think Ethan beat the shit out of him, honestly.”
I look at Delia. She’s impressed. “Girl, good on him. Lucky he was there, and badass that he knocked the shit out of that asshole. I get so sick of that shit.”
“Yeah, me too. And…Delia, fuck,” I groan out. “When I touch him I lose all my sense.”
Delia pats my shoulder. “That’s because you got it bad. I’ve been there.” Delia shoots me a smile and I return it.
I feel much better having talked this out, and I want to just take her advice and try and get Ethan out of my system, but I also don’t know if that’s wise. At least I feel ready to take action — whatever that action may be, rather than wallowing.
I hug Delia. “Thanks so much. I really needed this.”
She kisses me on the forehead. “Of course, girl. We look out for each other.”
And Delia is so right. I can always count on her. Makes me feel bad about masturbating my way out of one of our coffee dates, but I bore no ill will when Delia made out with a boyfriend too long and missed one before. Shit happens.
You gotta do what you gotta do, right?
Emmaline
“You’re very fortunate, Miss Travers, to be in Dr. Wesley’s section,” Mrs. Simone repeats for, perhaps, the third time since I came to see her. The registrar is annoyed that I’m ungrateful.
What am I supposed to say? Sorry, I can’t be in this class because either I need to get away from him because I want to bang him, or I need to get out of his class so I can bang him? While both seem like totally valid reasons, I don’t think that I’m going to be able to pull one of those out for Mrs. Simone.
“Why would you want to change out of a class with a professor that’s foremost in his field, in your major?” Mrs. Simone gives me her best stern look.
Normally I’d feel the need to stick around for more chastisement; normally, I’d be able to simply tell the truth.
Today?
Today I have no fucking patience for this.
“Why would I expect you to simply tell me there are no other sections available when you could purport to be allowed in my business instead?” I barely recognize myself when those words come out of my mouth, holy shit. I don’t know if I should be horrified or proud, but my body is walking me out of the registration office anyway so that’s a problem for another day.
Because today’s problem is figuring out what the hell I should do.
I have to go back to class, and that’s the option I was trying to avoid. As it is, I don't want to be late, so I pick up my pace. My nonathletic sneakers have taken a real beating, but I’m grateful for their worn soles because my flats are in terrible shape right now. Even still, the pavement is harsher than normal as I hightail to Ethan’s class.
I sit in the already crowded lecture hall and let myself look. I mean, really look and drink Ethan in. The stadium seating means that he’s on a stage for me, like this, and I can see head to toe what a formidable, delectable man he really is. Fuck, a girl could lose her GPA, her mind, her scholarships over a man like this…and this girl might be me.
Today’s lecture begins with him writing a single word on the board.
GRATUITOUS.
Well, shit.
That’s so not the word that I want to watch him sprawl over the board. When Ethan turns around of course I don’t know whether to look at the strong muscles moving beneath his jacket or the gorgeous shape of his ass.
“When details are gratuitous, they detract, rather than add, to a work of writing,” Ethan begins.
I inhale. Sure thing. I start taking notes.
“For a quality piece of writing, you always want to direct your readers. Lead them to where you want them to be.”
Fuck.
I know that’s a bit of a reach…but I swear I see that little smirk Ethan made between my legs. Making me cum. That’s enough to make me shiver in my seat. But he doesn’t mean anything about us, he’s giving an English lecture for class.
“Too many distractions in writing prevent the climax, which destroys the purpose of all play in the writing,” Ethan continues and I have a hard time focusing on what he’s saying.
I know climax is a funny little word we hear in English, and now I just can’t un-hear his words or the way that they make my skin remember his mouth on me.
“All writing must climax. You build to it with delicate touches. Forceful touches. Give them what they need, and make it impossible for them to not come with you,” Ethan lectures. His voice is so smooth that I almost feel his lips as much as I hear their words.
I mean every damned word he's saying is more than just about the extra words he’s discussing.
“…Strong nouns can work harder than you expect if you conjure the right things in your audience’s imagination…”
Yeah.
I can’t focus on anything he’s saying for the value to my writing. He’s giving solid advice, and I’m trying to write it down. But Ethan is making my body burn for him.
Ugh, Delia did tell me what I wanted to hear. I change my mind about listening, thinking I’m doing the right thing, and that registrar just blows me off. So now I’m blowing off my good sense.
I start taking notes again. I’m antsy but I know that I’m waiting for Ethan after class and I can pay at least an ounce of attention.
The lecture continues to be both insightful, and just as loaded. I swear, from Ethan’s lips flows a delectable strain of poison that makes me turn to jelly just listening to him.
When the lecture is over, it's a real credit to the interesting quality of his advice that for a few seconds, I’m disappointed.
Then, I’m tingly. I know that I’m going to see Ethan, up close. I pack up my notes and I walk down, waiting for the throng of people with actual questions or hopes to get into Ethan’s trousers.
That cock is mine.
Yeah, that’s a hell of a thought for a little virgin girl like myself, but I look at my peers and think, no. I’m going to ride that cock and get it out of my system and be done with all this stress.
Or will I be done with it? There’s a nagging thought in my mind and I’m pushing it away.
Ethan and I are alone again. The air gets hotter. My mouth runs dry.
“Emmaline,” Ethan says.
His voice saying my name makes me shut my eyes for a second and breathe in that feeling. When I open my eyes, I see him looking at me with such intensity that my pussy is weeping in my thong.
“Can we meet to talk, somewhere outside of school?” I ask, my eyes regarding his o
ffice with a knowing little wink.
“Why?” Ethan says, drawing closer to me, his voice deepening.
“Do you want the answer to that, or do you want me?” I say, breathless. My nipples are rock hard, pressing harshly against my shirt. I try to breathe and I’m so caught up in Ethan I'm dizzy.
“Come to my house,” Ethan says. He leans close to me, tucking my hair behind my ear. He whispers his address to me. He pulls back and looks at me. “This evening.”
Emmaline
The low thrum of excitement builds inside me, and I feel like I could float right now — I’m so high. I might start skipping back to my dorm room.
My phone buzzes. Mom.
“Hello?” I answer.
“Honeeeeey!” My mom trills. “I’m in the city, surprise!”
Wow, so that is a surprise. I feel a little guilty, but I’m actually let down that my mom is here. I know that’s why she’s calling me, and normally I would be very excited and trying to figure out how to rearrange my study plans so that I’d be able to spend time with her. Now I’m just feeling woozy at these two worlds colliding.
Ethan wanted her first, after all. God, am I the consolation prize? I so don’t need that in my life. He’s never made me feel that way. Ethan has never made me feel anything but good.
“…get to your dorm so we can do lunch, babe!” My mother’s voice breaks through my thoughts.
I snap back to the present. “Oh, yeah, I’ll be there in just a moment.”
“I was just doing some shopping and I wanted to be able to catch up with you. You sounded so down last time we talked, can’t have that!” My mom’s cheery tone tells me that she’s been hitting the shopping hard.
I’m still a scholarship student but Mom and Dad have been making huge strides in their earnings. Mom is having the time of her life buying everything she used to only see in magazines. She’s not materialistic to a fault, but we all appreciate a good shiny thing now and then and I don’t fault her.