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A MOMENT OF SILENCE
Some thing is in the water,
Some thing is in the food.
Some thing is in the atmosphere,
Some thing changed the mood.
Some one stole the feeling,
Some one flipped the beat.
There’s meanness in the cold air,
And anger in the heat.
Now the souls are empty,
The strength gone from our stance.
Now most hearts are vacant,
And feet no longer dance.
Knees won’t bend for prayer,
I can’t breathe this air.
No one even cares,
Or remembers what was here.
Some thing is now nothing,
And ugly is extra bold.
Beauty has been stripped away
And only lies are told.
We need more than A Moment of Silence,
A year to just reflect
A time to become sincerely humble,
A truth worthy to live, believe and protect.
By Sister Souljah
1. MY SECOND WIFE
She is closer to me than my shadow. She’s as precious as the sky. In my almost empty Brooklyn apartment, my second wife, Chiasa, aimed and then fired sharpened knives into the corked wall. I had taken everything out of this place, but the cork seemed permanent to my project bedroom. It had served as my target practice for seven years and unlike me and my family, it did not want to leave.
“Go stand over there for me,” she said sweetly. As she locked her silver-gray eyes into mine, I looked at her and said nothing. My smile broke out naturally. “Don’t smile at me,” she said with a straight face. “Every time it’s time for us to fight you flash that smile.”
She must not have figured out that she brought that smile out of me, and so much more. It was because of my love for her that I held onto the keys to this place, where I wouldn’t even allow my mother, Umma; my first wife, Akemi; or my sister, Naja to ever again step foot.
I walked to the corked wall like she wanted. I leaned back, my hands in my Girbaud jean pockets. She narrowed her eyes and hurled a knife at me. It cut through the still stale air that was typical in the projects and sliced through my fitted. I didn’t flinch. She saw that, and inside of seven seconds she outlined my head and shoulders with eight knives rapidly fired by her quick and accurate combination of eyes and fingers.
“You going to kill me, with my own knives?” I asked her. She walked towards me slowly until only noses separated her and me. She pulled each knife down from the cork.
“Now you do me,” she said, handing me the knives. Her breasts pressed against my chest, and her unusually long lashes brushed against mine. The last thing on my mind was taking aim at her with a weapon, and she knew it.
Chiasa, my second wife, is a badass, a flawless-skinned, pretty-faced, thick-haired, doe-eyed, ballerina-bodied, ninjutsu-trained warrior. Pretty and precise, she is disciplined to the extreme, same as me. Yet, she is the only one alive who could move me off point, cause me to temporarily lose my balance and have to check myself. The unusual combination of her deep fiery soul, her soft-spoken manner, her sharp mind, her vibrant energy and exquisite body, topped off by the intensity of her loyalty, moved me continuously and I couldn’t keep off of her.
It had gotten to the point where she sometimes had me questioning things and matters I had never questioned myself about before. Boldly, she had become a Muslim woman at age sixteen. She accepted Islam on her own, without me asking her to do it or having to recite her any truths from the Holy Quran. She reads the Quran for herself, loves each sura she studies and each ayat she learns. She uses every word in the book to challenge herself to become more beautiful in her wisdom and her deeds. For her to love the faith like any Muslim born on Islamic land and raised with the Muslim example and lifestyle surrounding her made her irresistible to me.
When anyone in her family tried to reverse Chiasa’s mind, she would politely and calmly reveal her angles of thought and her contentment. Once, one of her aunts said in front of her whole family, “A Muslim man can only have more than one wife if he can treat them all equally. No man can treat two, three, four women equally, so that means he can really only have one wife. You’re supposed to be smart enough to figure it out. It’s like a riddle,” her aunt said.
Chiasa answered softly, correcting her aunt’s interpretation . . . “Treat us each ‘fairly.’ No woman wants to be treated ‘equal’ to another, because we are each different. We each enjoy our man in our own way. We each have our own thoughts, likes, dislikes, and hobbies. I don’t want my husband to do the exact ‘equal’ thing he does with his first wife with me; or to give me the exact ‘equal’ gifts he gave her. Why would I want that? I just want him to love me how I, Chiasa, want to be loved. Us sharing the things that are unique to what we feel when we are together. I want us to enjoy and make each other feel good, because we believe the same things. I want us to learn, earn, and fight together, to be safe, secure, and happy. This is more than enough for me.”
Those words she spoke shut her one aunt up for some time. And, I know she meant it. When we first settled into our new home in Queens, the house that Umma and I purchased with the money that we both earned through our company, Umma Designs, Chiasa chose the smallest bedroom for herself. She set her bedding on the floor, the way she was most comfortable. She lined up her books, mounted her swords, folded her clothes, set up her oils, potions, and creams, brushes, hairpins, and combs, and told me, “You are definitely welcome. Come whenever you want to see me. You know I’m from a military family. I am an expert at waiting.”
Her words put me at ease. I was always one hundred that I could protect and provide for and love her. I never wavered on that. But she made me certain that although we have a teenage marriage and she is my second wife, who left behind her parents, her country, and her action-packed life of excitement, she had no regrets and that I made her happy. It felt good that even over time she had zero doubt.
Now she was touching my nine-millimeter. I had laid it on the kitchen counter away from both of us, and towards the wall. We were in my Brooklyn ’hood, my old apartment. So of course I kept it close. Her clear-polished, clipped, and curved nails and pretty fingers on the black steel aroused me. But the way she held it revealed she didn’t have no experience with the piece. Chiasa is a bow-and-arrow kind of girl, not to be taken lightly. She could fire something into you, to rock you into a temporary sleep or send you all the way to heaven. Perfect vision, when she fires, she met her mark whether it was your brain, your heart, or your family jewels. And she wasn’t above poisoning her arrow tip before positioning it just right in her target’s jugular. Her target would be coughing up blood, his own veins exploding then choking him.
“How come you prefer guns?” she asked me, playfully. But I could tell she really wanted to know. She wanted to know and feel everything about me. And her inquiries were always subtle and sweet. The way she went about it would have me so open, I’d be telling her something I never shared with no one else. She mixed her curiosity and intellect with her seductions, and it was a powerful potion. I knew what she was really asking me, because I know he
r and her mind. She was thinking, to a ninjutsu warrior, a gun is a weakness, a type of excuse not to use your hands and mind to the furthest degree, to confront any enemy and solve the problem . . . any problem.
“The gun is the bottom line,” I told her. “The Japanese don’t need them.” Japan is the country that my second wife is from. She’s African and Japanese, an exotic combination. I plucked her from a pretty place, a popular park in Tokyo that was filled with green fields, flowers, and an alluring forest. In that forest there was only one house. Chiasa lived there with only her grandfather, the park ranger.
“There’s peace in your neighborhood and in your country,” I told her. “Brooklyn brings the noise. Over here there’s certain times and situations where even the swiftest mind and hands move too slow.”
“This block is not so bad looking. I like all the art on the bricks,” she said, referring to the ’hood graffiti. “And it’s kind of cool how they’re setting up for that block party outside today. The music is loud but it sounds nice, and the people seem like they could become our friends,” she said cheerfully. “I bet if you didn’t suspect them,” she said softly, “and trusted in them a little bit more . . .”
I interrupted her. “Don’t sleep. These people will easily give a reasonable man a reason to use his trigger finger.”
I know that men and women were both created by Allah from one same soul. Yet I also know that men and women are different. Chiasa, the woman, is friendly, loving, emotion filled, and hopeful. Besides, she’s foreign to my Brooklyn ’hood, or any ’hood for that matter. She’s a capable female fighter, but she’s also innocent and naïve and likely to underestimate evil. She and I are married, similar in some ways and in deep love. But I am a man born and trained to observe, detect, and perceive all potential threats. To defend, guard, protect or attack, and eliminate all real enemies who don’t understand any language other than the ratta-tat-tat or the boom of my “milly.” I have killed before, for these same reasons. Chiasa has competed in sword fighting and martial arts and won. She has fought, poisoned, injured, and intercepted some enemies in real-life conflict, but she has never killed.
Now that she is my wife, she won’t have to. I’m here for the sole purpose of protecting and providing for and loving my women, and in the future, for raising my sons to do the same for their women and families, Insha’Allah.
“Guns seem messy,” she continued her soft expressions while caressing the steel. “They make too much noise.” She held it now, with both hands. “The silent kill is superior,” she said.
“I have a silencer,” I told her. “I don’t leave it lying around. If you get snagged with it, you do seven extra years—separate from gun possession charges.”
“Seven years,” she said. “That’s too long . . . and separate from the other charges . . . that’s too much.” She retreated to silence for some seconds, returning the gun to its position on the counter and pulling back her palms. Then her eyes shifted from the gloom of that thought.
“You know what I want?” she asked, her eyes searching me now to see if I was giving her question real thought, and if I was sharp enough to guess. I was listening carefully now. I wanted to know all of her wants, everything she wanted right now and even in the future. I would be the one who was getting it for her, eliminating her need to need another human beside me, even her father.
“A crossbow, have you seen one? It’s cleverly designed, a quiet, thorough, neater, cleaner weapon, but still super deadly . . .” She sounded like she was describing herself.
“What would you do with that?” I asked her.
“Run out into the woods,” she said. Now she held her pretty arms in position as though she was firing her crossbow. “I’d climb a mountain, track down the bad guys, monsters and witches or avenge anyone who tried to take what I love.”
She approached me, then pressed her thick, moist and warm lips onto mine.
My tongue moving over her tongue, our heads tilted, and there was only our breathing, sucking, and sincerity mixing with our silence. Her black silk yukata dress was easily released. She knew when she put it on this morning, as we trekked and trained over here to Brooklyn, what we came to do. My place in the projects was more of a hut than a palace. It definitely wasn’t the nature-filled, beautifully blossoming gardens and forest where she had lived. This was an all cemented place that couldn’t compare to the wilderness that she and I had traveled through together, or to eventually climbing over the mountains of Hokkaido, as we fell in love. I knew her soul still craved all of that adventure we had shared, but I also knew that my hut in the projects was where I am right now, and as long as I am anywhere she would willingly and voluntarily choose to be right beside me.
Bare backs and bare butts, we were both in the living room now on the warm hard floor, sitting in the spotlight from the powerful sun. Our sauna was natural. The living room windows were shut tight. Chiasa began gently rocking her pretty thighs from side to side, releasing her subtle scent. I watched, wanted to make her wait, while observing her dark brown nipples swelling on her golden breasts. I knew she wouldn’t like me staying still and staring because this was her exclusive time with me alone and she cherished it. She started kicking me playfully. Only our feet fought. I cheated, grabbing hold of her right ankle and dragging her. She began laughing but still tried to leap up with her left. Off-balance, she fell. I broke her fall and now our bodies were entangled. I reached back and snatched from off the floor the cloth belt from her yukata.
“Oh no you don’t!” She raised her voice playfully at what she smartly suspected she had coming. We tussled. I won. Her hands were now tied behind her back. She liked it. I flipped her, then licked her left nipple, then her right. I pulled back.
“Don’t stop,” she whispered. I knew her nipples were super sensitive. I began sucking one nipple and not the other. I moved my hand down her curves and rested it on her waist. “Stop playing,” she begged. I moved my hand between her thighs and she moaned. I pushed my thickest finger inside and her pussy walls locked around it tightly and thumped rhythmically. When I began kissing her she was breathing hard but still tried to launch a sneak attack and flip me with her feet. I’m smiling.
“Don’t smile at me!” she said, trying to mount me because I hadn’t mounted her. We wrestled. My stiff-as-steel joint didn’t give a fuck about the game I was playing. In moments I was deep inside of her, pushing and thrashing and the feeling was so extreme.
“I love you,” her lips passionately pushed out causing me to fuck her the way I knew she needed to be fucked in that moment. We were moving, and feeling and changing positions and postures. Warmer than warm, our emotions were heavy like that and only our breathing was heavier.
Our mutual deep attraction, our mutual deep admiration, our mutual deep love, loyalty, and deep affection . . . our mutual faith, feelings, and friendship all exploded and I came pouring into her. She was quiet now, still shaking from her own eruption. She turned on her side to face me. So I faced her, watching her slide her slim finger in the sheen of my sweat.
“One of us should open that window,” she said. Her silky Japanese hairstyle turned into a long, wild African bush, me digging it either way because it’s all her. Checking her out I eased up, reminding her that “We are both naked.” She sat up.
“I know,” she said sweetly. I kissed her, just pushed my lips against hers. Her now relaxed nipples turned into Kalamata olives. In less than one second we were both swelling again and she leapt at me. Her hips spread in my lap and I touched her up until I was doing sit-ups between her thighs. Chiasa, my second wife, was no longer the unknowing virgin I had first met. She was swinging those hips, completely comfortable with our naked bodies. She craved that friction and would have an outburst when her feeling reached an unbearable high. Her voice echoed in my mostly empty apartment where she and I needed to be alone to get wild and dive all the way into our thing.
Her second shaking, and I was sure she wasn’t done. Athleti
c and competitive, she has endurance. Yet in her eyes I saw a complete surrendering to me, from a sixteen-years-young feline fighter unaccustomed to surrendering.
“How come I love you so much?” she asked me intensely as if she needed to have an answer from herself. “I love you more than Konichi,” she said.
Konichi is her American mare, a horse her father bought her, which she left behind in Japan after I married her.
“You love me more than your beast?” I smiled, saying it out loud so she could hear how it translated in my ear. She laughed a little too, then stopped smiling.
“I love you more than my mother,” she said, pushing each word out from her heart. The air thickened and the room fell silent, even with the music from the streets thumping outside our closed windows. We both knew she meant it. She’d never say anything she didn’t mean. And for words that strong and heavy, silence was my only response. She knew I couldn’t wrap my mind around ever considering the depth of my love for my mother, Umma. Nor had I ever, or would I ever, or could I ever compare my love for Umma to my love for any other human.
Still, her magnetic confession moved me and I was making love to her now with an even deeper feeling than fucking. So deep it felt like a high-pitched sound. So high it could cause all eardrums to pop, then bleed. A feeling so meaningful it could push life into existence and hurl the two lovers ten years into the future within seconds. I tugged her clitoris and made her cum so hard she gasped and exhaled some sounds I had only ever heard in the jungle of South Sudan, word.
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