I walk away from the cunt with my order placed and head back to the girl who is my main concern at this moment. The fact that I’ve ever had to hurt her and let her know this bed warmer has ever warmed mine is like an arrow to my heart. I hate that I’ve had to hurt her to get her separated from me. I just hope that someday when she moves on she’ll forget all of this and we can move forward with our friendship. No man or woman will keep her out of my life, including me or her. I will find a way to keep her there. I don’t care how dirty I have to play to do so.
We have a nice outing at Mimi’s as we enjoy our treats and head back to our house. Our house, really Travler I think to myself, don’t go there it’s her house you’re just a temporary resident. As we get back inside we say our pleasantries and make our separate ways into our own rooms. Where I continue to torture myself with all things Kaci as I dream of her sweet body and even sweeter cunt.
Chapter 7
Travler
Six weeks earlier….
It’s been six weeks. Six weeks of hell that I’ve tortured myself living with her. I’ve watched as she’s made her way from bed to bed. Fuck, why am I doing this, why is she doing this. She thinks I don’t know what she does going to those clubs on the weekends. But like the fool I am I follow her, I tell myself it’s for her safety, but honestly, it’s just to torture myself. I keep telling myself the more I can see her with others the more it will put those walls up to keep myself from falling further into her captivity. In all honesty, all it does is make me murderous. If she knew I was following her, I would believe she’s doing this to punish me. What am I saying? This is what I do for the club, I follow people. There’s no way in hell she knows I’m lying in the shadows watching her every move, protecting her from these losers she doesn’t even know. At least she’s having the respect not to bring them back to the house. Either that or she is smart enough not to let them know where she lives.
At least she’s using the brain god graced her beautiful head with. It’s Saturday night and I have followed her to yet another small town in another god forsaken bar. A damn country bar, at that. Fucking cry me a river of beer someone please. My achy breaky heart just can’t take any more of her extracurricular activities. How can I stop her from doing this bullshit? I understand everyone had needs. But every. Fucking. Weekend. I know why she’s doing this, and I can’t help but feel guilty ‘cause it’s all my fault. Approximately six weeks ago, to the date I couldn’t take it anymore and I needed relief. Being tortured with the love of your life within’ arms reach but not touchable is pure agony. I went to the clubhouse to get a Babe to take care of the issue I had. I thought Kaci was at a meeting and wouldn’t return for hours, what should have been a safe haven for me ended up her chamber of doom. She walked into the clubhouse right as my release came roaring from my mouth. I still hadn’t realized she was there. And wouldn’t even know she was till much later that evening when I walked into my own hell.
A blowjob wasn’t enough to ease the ache she had settled into my balls from the mere presence of her alone could ignite within me. I’ve stayed away from Lips as promised instead choosing Cindy to let go of the stress with. I grabbed her and took her to my room. If I hadn’t been so focused on myself I would’ve noticed the heartbreak and grief stricken look on my girl’s face.
Kaci
I did it! I landed a multi-million-dollar deal. I will be set for life, in turn my sister Kassi will never have to worry about her schooling or getting her business up and running after her school is completed. I run in the clubhouse excited to share the news with Travler who’s been my biggest supporter for this deal. He’s sat up nights listening to me pitch marketing ideas. He’s even put his ideas into this. I stop dead in my tracks at what I see upon entry. Travler, he’s leaned against the back wall with Cindy on her knees giving him a blowjob. His head is thrown back in bliss. Fuck. I thought we were making headway. I thought he was getting over this thing about not having a relationship with me. What. The. Fuck. Is. Wrong. With. Me?
Why can’t I get past this bastard? Is it always going to be like this for me? I refuse to be this pathetic little bitch sitting on the sidelines watching while her man is serviced by some slut! Fuck him and his superior ass. As I watch him grab a hold of her hand and lead her back toward his bunk room I come to a decision right there and then. It’s time for me to play, fuck settling down. I’m young, I tried, I truly did. I wanted to be good when I came home. Wanted to be a woman who he could see himself with, not the woman who does for herself. Well, he can stay with the babes, I’m gonna go find me a good time of my own.
I’m no man’s fool!
Chapter 8
Kaci
That night I hit my first bar meeting Jackson who happens to be a professional MMA fighter in town meeting with a sponsor. Let me tell you he is the embodiment of what a man is supposed to be. Muscles in all the right places, tatts that can make a girl drool and want to draw over them with her tongue. And that was just what was visual with his clothing in place. We had a good time at the bar he was at with the sponsor who brought him out for a good time in our little town. We danced, drank and made out. He was a blast and I decided I wanted a taste of what was under those clothes as well. What can I say? I followed him back to his hotel room at the Hyatt Regency. And it was all glitz and glamour. Fancy room, fancy furniture, fancy drinks and a hot male specimen all at my fingertips.
He lets me strip him of his clothing and lays back while allowing me to trace his entire body with my tongue as I had been imagining doing throughout the night. I took my time over his tattoos memorizing them eventually spending some time with that eight pack with that tight V, leading me to the forbidden zone. Jackson did a lot of hissing and moaning until I grabbed that huge thing he called a cock and tried sucking the entire length into my mouth. Which was an impossible feat, meaning I had to use my hand to cover what my mouth couldn’t. His taste is addicting, salty and musty…all male.
Bobbing my head up and down on his cock is a huge turn on for me. I can feel myself grow wet with every pass of my tongue and mouth. I run my hand down my pants and slip my fingers into my panties rubbing them against my clit to remove some of the growing need I have. Jackson sees this and it must be huge turn on for him since he decides to start talking. “Fuck yes baby, rub that clit and get yourself nice and wet so my dick slides right into your tight cunt when the time comes. I’m gonna fuck you so hard you won’t remember anything but me for the next week.” I love me a dirty talker. I can’t reciprocate since my mouth is currently full of one of the biggest cocks I’ve ever had.
Just as suddenly as I had those thoughts he grabs me and throws me through the air and onto the bed. Yes, I said threw me through the air. This man is a brute and I fucking love it! “Gonna manhandle me there, Jackson? Make sure you make it worth it if you decide to honey.” The smirk he gives me implies he intends to do just that. Suddenly I find myself missing all my clothes. How that happened without me having realized it I cannot tell you, but by god I’m ready for the delivery I’ve been anticipating since I laid eyes on his cock. And deliver he does.
Travler
I walk out of my room a couple hours later and don’t even make it to the main room before my brother grabs me and hauls my ass to his bunk. I try to release myself from his grip but as pissed as he seems to be I decide to just let him have his way. Beating the fuck outta my brother is not one of my favorite past times. It’s easier just to give in and get whatever his malfunction is over with. He literally slams me into his room shutting the door behind him forcefully and then begins screaming at me.
“What the fuck is going on between you and Kaci? And don’t give me no bullshit story either Travler! You do not wanna fuck with me on this.” And boy taking in Tumbler’s face for the first time is see he is furious.
“What the fuck are you talkin’ about man?” At this point in the conversation I’m confused as to why he is even questioning me on this.
“This better
be good since you find yourself in my business.” I’m getting angry now.
“You wanna know just how good this is Trav? It’s so fuckin’ good that Kaci actually allowed herself to look humiliated and had tears streakin’ down her face as you took Cindy back to your room. This of course is after she witnessed that spectacular display of a blowjob you received for all of us to view you fuckin’ moron. She couldn’t have gotten herself out of her fast enough. Now she’s not answering anyone’s calls and she’s not home. Any clue where she could be, you giant ass?”
“What. Do. You. Mean? She had a meeting, she wasn’t supposed to be here!” My hand goes to my hair immediately feeling the pressure of what Tumbler’s just put on my shoulders. I try to pull the image from my head of what she must’ve witnessed. Why do I keep doing this to her? To us? I don’t stand by and listen to anymore, I shove my brother from in front of the door and run out. I leave the clubhouse as quick as my bike can take me in search of my girl. I can’t stand the thought of her hurting somewhere alone.
Chapter 9
Travler
I ride around town for what must’ve been hours. Finally spotting her walkin’ out of the Hyatt holding some motherfucker’s hand. He walks her to her car and gives her a kiss that has me wishing for a quick death. I feel as if I’ve been sacked in the chest by a fist intent on taking my life, my last breath which is exactly what witnessing that kiss feels like. My breath has left my body. This is what I’ve wanted thought, right? I want her to find happiness, I’ve begged for it nightly when I wake from dreams of her body bringing mine to the brink of ecstasy. Someone take some bleach to my eyes or gouge them out, I will never un-see what has been seen tonight.
Travler
Present…
I’m currently sitting on the edge of my bed at Kaci’s debating my life. Can I keep doing this to myself, to her? This can’t keep happening like this, some type of resolution needs to come to pass. I make a decision that may change my life for either the better or worse, only time will tell. All I know is I can’t take the pain that aches in my chest at watching her with every damn Tom, Dick and Harry that crosses her path. I’ve only allowed myself to be with Cindy that one time, the one time that broke my girl and me for the final time. Me to the point of no woman will do it for me, and her where it’s every man but me. This has to give, either we end our friendship or I learn to let her in. The chance of losing her forever has me willing to take that chance.
Later that evening finds Kaci and I sitting on the couch watching yet another movie, dinner had and beer in hands. “Kaci, think we can out this on pause and have us a talk?” I ask her nervous as fuck at what the end of this night will be for us.
“Sure Travler, let me grab us another beer and you take care of the movie.” I swear I can feel sweat dripping from my forehead as I am anticipating this conversation. It feels like only seconds later she sets a beer down in front of me and is ready for our conversation. Here goes nothin’.
“I can’t do this anymore.”
Kaci
Swear to God I’m going to beat this motherfucker’s ass. What can’t he do anymore? I’ve finally given up chasing him. What more does he want from me? We’ve settled into a different type of relationship the last six weeks. He’s turned into the best friend I’ve ever had. He already pulled any future of us away from me, if he takes the friendship I’ve come to depend on from him I swear the guys are going to be fishing for body parts to bury. He’s my support system, I tell him everything. I never worry about if he’ll judge me for what I say or how I act. What the hell is he up to?
“What the hell do you mean you can’t do this anymore Travler?” I practically scream at him. “Don’t do this, don’t take your friendship from me. I won’t survive it!” I end on a shout.
“No babe! He expresses very loudly. “That’s not what I mean at all. I would never, ever leave your life. Someone would have to pry my dead cold body out of your life before I’d ever abandon you like that.” He’s practically panicking as he says this to me. “I mean I can’t watch you with other men anymore and pretend like I support you with it. It tears me into pieces every single time. I can’t pretend like you mean nothin’ beyond friendship to me anymore. It’s literally takin’ days off from my life. I thin…I think I may love you.” I gasp, what does he mean me might love me.
“You either love me or you don’t Travler, there is no thinking involved in love.”
“I don’t know what love feels like Kaci. All I know is I can’t breathe when you’re not around. My mind drifts to you, what you’re doin’? Are you okay? Do you need anythin’. Do you need me? All of it, it’s a never-ending cycle in my mind baby.” He rushes out in one breath.
“If we do this Travler, there is no take backs. I can’t have you one day just to have you turn around and run from me. You must trust me; you have to let me in to love you and show you what love is. You deserve to be loved baby.” He buries his head in his hands and I can’t help but worry about what is rushing through his mind. “Talk to me Travler. What are you thinking? Please don’t leave me worried over here.” He lifts his head and I see the remains of what should be tears but he’s doing a good job holding them back from falling.
“Tumblers the only one who’s ever loved me in my entire lifetime, baby. I’m just tryin’ to absorb what you’ve just said to me. I’m not tryin’ to be quiet here, I’m speechless.” I’m captivated by the thought that no one has loved this amazing man.
“Trav, you’ve been loved for a long time, you just never opened up your eyes long enough to notice. I’ve been here loving you the whole time. Open your eyes and see me. See my love. I’m here, now and always.”
“Babe, come here.” He pats his lap indicating that’s exactly where he wants me. I make my way to him hoping that everything I’ve just said is sinking into his thick skull. As soon as I’m close he pulls me into his lap giving me no choice but to follow his directives. I open my mouth to squeak at his antics but before any sound leaves my mouth his is crashing onto mine. And my stars align for the first time in my life.
Chapter 10
Travler
Her taste hits me like a title wave to my senses. Nothin’ has ever tasted so good and refreshin’ runnin’ through my system. Suddenly I know what it is to breathe, the feelin’ of suffocation has suddenly left me. I feel lighter and freer than I ever knew was even possible. The starburst flashes of tingles runnin’ up and down my spine keep me diggin’ in her mouth for more of the feelin’s. Why have I never felt or experienced anything like this before? It’s a feelin’ I refuse to let go of anytime soon. If this is all her she’s never escaping me now that’s for damn sure.
I need to stop and breathe some air into my lungs. “Babe, what the fuck? Do you feel it too?” I hear her gasping bringin’ air into her lungs as fiercely as I am.
“Trav, never have I felt anything as intense as what I just felt with you. What about you?”
“Never” I say into her mouth as I go to claim it once again. This time I hold nothin’ back as I dive into the most delicious taste my buds have ever had the luxury of tasting. This time I’m not the only one holding nothin’ back she’s givin’ me everything within’ her as well and it’s fucking glorious to my senses.
Quickly kissing isn’t enough, I need more. I need more of her. I stand up with her in my arms causing her to cling to me tighter. I swiftly walk us to my room intent on feelin’ more of her. Her body and mine clinging together in passion is what my goal is here. Once I have her, there will be no one else for either one of us. I’m taking a shot in the dark here and I pray with all that is in me that I don’t screw up. She is more than my everything, she is my life and I would literally die without her.
As soon as my feet pass the threshold into my room we quickly start ripping off each other’s clothes. This has been a long time coming, there is nothing slow and sensual in what we’re doing. This is all frenzied and passionate and I wouldn’t have it any other way. In o
ur haste to get each other’s clothing off there are small injuries happening; scraps of fingernails biting each other’s lips in a fight of dominance. I haven’t gotten inside of her luscious body yet and it’s already one of the most intense experiences in my very lonely existence. I don’t even get to completely enjoy her beautiful naked body before I’m throwing her onto the bed in my angst to get what I’m craving. I try to slow down and pursue her but she’s having none of it as she grabs me around my neck with her hands and her legs wrap around my waist pulling me flush with her body.
I finally get control and lay her on her back. Fuck! The view alone is enough to make me want to prematurely come. I started at the base of her neck nipping the flesh there and calming the flame with my tongue after the initial sting. I make a path down her collarbone ‘till I make it to her perfect right breast and take my time licking around her areola teasing her as she’s done to me since the day I met her beautiful ass.
Kaci
I’m dreaming, someone wake me…wait, don’t because if I’m dreaming I never want to wake. Travler is willing to try with me and I couldn’t be more excited and terrified all at the same time. I don’t want to lose him, and if I screw this up somehow that’s exactly what’s going to happen. Let it be known though that I will walk through fire before I let him leave me. Mmmm…he’s teasing my right breast and I swear I feel it down in my toes. It’s like there’s some type of magnetic pull from one end of my body to the other. I can feel it all over. Every touch, caress, nip, lick and pinch. “Trav, hurry up! Stop playing around, I want to feel you inside of me. We can tease each other and get to know each other’s bodies next time. Don’t you think the last six years or so has been enough foreplay leading up to now? My motor’s running and I’m rearing to go already. Please baby, give my body what it needs and desires from yours.”
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