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by Sylvia Plath


  Storming the hilltop.

  Then, from the barred yard, the children

  Smell the melt of shoe-blacking,

  Their faces turning, wordless and slow,

  Their eyes opening

  On a wonderful thing——

  Six round black hats in the grass and a lozenge of wood,

  And a naked mouth, red and awkward.

  For a minute the sky pours into the hole like plasma.

  There is no hope, it is given up.

  Gulliver

  Over your body the clouds go

  High, high and icily

  And a little flat, as if they

  Floated on a glass that was invisible.

  Unlike swans,

  Having no reflections;

  Unlike you,

  With no strings attached.

  All cool, all blue. Unlike you

  You, there on your back,

  Eyes to the sky.

  The spider-men have caught you,

  Winding and twining their petty fetters,

  Their bribes

  So many silks.

  How they hate you.

  They converse in the valley of your fingers, they are inchworms.

  They would have you sleep in their cabinets,

  This toe and that toe, a relic.

  Step off!

  Step off seven leagues, like those distances

  That revolve in Crivelli, untouchable.

  Let this eye be an eagle,

  The shadow of his lip, an abyss.

  Getting There

  How far is it?

  How far is it now?

  The gigantic gorilla interior

  Of the wheels move, they appal me

  The terrible brains

  Of Krupp, black muzzles

  Revolving, the sound

  Punching out Absence! like cannon.

  It is Russia I have to get across, it is some war or other.

  I am dragging my body

  Quietly through the straw of the boxcars.

  Now is the time for bribery.

  What do wheels eat, these wheels

  Fixed to their arcs like gods,

  The silver leash of the will

  Inexorable. And their pride!

  All the gods know is destinations.

  I am a letter in this slot

  I fly to a name, two eyes.

  Will there be fire, will there be bread?

  Here there is such mud.

  It is a trainstop, the nurses

  Undergoing the faucet water, its veils, veils in a nunnery,

  Touching their wounded,

  The men the blood still pumps forward,

  Legs, arms piled outside

  The tent of unending cries

  A hospital of dolls.

  And the men, what is left of the men

  Pumped ahead by these pistons, this blood

  Into the next mile,

  The next hour

  Dynasty of broken arrows!

  How far is it?

  There is mud on my feet,

  Thick, red and slipping. It is Adams side,

  This earth I rise from, and I in agony.

  I cannot undo myself, and the train is steaming.

  Steaming and breathing, its teeth

  Ready to roll, like a devils.

  There is a minute at the end of it

  A minute, a dewdrop.

  How far is it?

  It is so small

  The place I am getting to, why are there these obstacles

  The body of this woman,

  Charred skirts and deathmask

  Mourned by religious figures, by garlanded children.

  And now detonations

  Thunder and guns.

  The fires between us.

  Is there no still place

  Turning and turning in the middle air,

  Untouched and untouchable.

  The train is dragging itself, it is screaming

  An animal

  Insane for the destination,

  The bloodspot,

  The face at the end of the flare.

  I shall bury the wounded like pupas,

  I shall count and bury the dead.

  Let their souls writhe in a dew,

  Incense in my track.

  The carriages rock, they are cradles.

  And I, stepping from this skin

  Of old bandages, boredoms, old faces

  Step to you from the black car of Lethe,

  Pure as a baby.

  Medusa

  Off that landspit of stony mouth-plugs,

  Eyes rolled by white sticks,

  Ears cupping the seas incoherences,

  You house your unnerving headGod-ball,

  Lens of mercies,

  Your stooges

  Plying their wild cells in my keels shadow,

  Pushing by like hearts,

  Red stigmata at the very center,

  Riding the rip tide to the nearest point of departure,

  Dragging their Jesus hair.

  Did I escape, I wonder?

  My mind winds to you,

  Old barnacled umbilicus, Atlantic cable,

  Keeping itself, it seems, in a state of miraculous repair.

  In any case, you are always there,

  Tremulous breath at the end of my line,

  Curve of water upleaping

  To my water rod, dazzling and grateful,

  Touching and sucking.

  I didnt call you.

  I didnt call you at all.

  Nevertheless, nevertheless

  You steamed to me over the sea,

  Fat and red, a placenta

  Paralyzing the kicking lovers.

  Cobra light

  Squeezing the breath from the blood bells

  Of the fuchsia. I could draw no breath,

  Dead and moneyless,

  Overexposed, like an X ray.

  Who do you think you are?

  A Communion wafer? Blubbery Mary?

  I shall take no bite of your body,

  Bottle in which I live,

  Ghastly Vatican.

  I am sick to death of hot salt.

  Green as eunuchs, your wishes

  Hiss at my sins.

  Off, off, eely tentacle!

  There is nothing between us.

  Purdah

  Jade

  Stone of the side,

  The agonized

  Side of green Adam, I

  Smile, cross-legged,

  Enigmatical,

  Shifting my clarities.

  So valuable.

  How the sun polishes this shoulder!

  And should

  The moon, my

  Indefatigable cousin

  Rise, with her cancerous pallors,

  Dragging trees

  Little bushy polyps,

  Little nets,

  My visibilities hide.

  I gleam like a mirror.

  At this facet the bridegroom arrives,

  Lord of the mirrors.

  It is himself he guides

  In among these silk

  Screens, these rustling appurtenances.

  I breathe, and the mouth

  Veil stirs its curtain.

  My eye

  Veil is

  A concatenation of rainbows.

  I am his.

  Even in his

  Absence, I

  Revolve in my

  Sheath of impossibles,

  Priceless and quiet

  Among these parakeets, macaws.

  O chatterers

  Attendants of the eyelash!

  I shall unloose

  One feather, like the peacock.

  Attendants of the lip!

  I shall unloose

  One note

  Shattering

  The chandelier

  Of air that all day plies

  Its crystals,

  A million ignorants.

  Attendants!
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  Attendants!

  And at his next step

  I shall unloose

  I shall unloose

  From the small jeweled

  Doll he guards like a heart

  The lioness,

  The shriek in the bath,

  The cloak of holes.

  The Moon and the Yew Tree

  This is the light of the mind, cold and planetary.

  The trees of the mind are black. The light is blue.

  The grasses unload their griefs on my feet as if I were God,

  Prickling my ankles and murmuring of their humility.

  Fumey, spiritous mists inhabit this place

  Separated from my house by a row of headstones.

  I simply cannot see where there is to get to.

  The moon is no door. It is a face in its own right,

  White as a knuckle and terribly upset.

  It drags the sea after it like a dark crime; it is quiet

  With the O-gape of complete despair. I live here.

  Twice on Sunday, the bells startle the sky

  Eight great tongues affirming the Resurrection.

  At the end, they soberly bong out their names.

  The yew tree points up. It has a Gothic shape.

  The eyes lift after it and find the moon.

  The moon is my mother. She is not sweet like Mary.

  Her blue garments unloose small bats and owls.

  How I would like to believe in tenderness

  The face of the effigy, gentled by candles,

  Bending, on me in particular, its mild eyes.

  I have fallen a long way. Clouds are flowering

  Blue and mystical over the face of the stars.

  Inside the church, the saints will be all blue,

  Floating on their delicate feet over the cold pews,

  Their hands and faces stiff with holiness.

  The moon sees nothing of this. She is bald and wild.

  And the message of the yew tree is blacknessblackness and silence.

  A Birthday Present

  What is this, behind this veil, is it ugly, is it beautiful?

  It is shimmering, has it breasts, has it edges?

  I am sure it is unique, I am sure it is just what I want.

  When I am quiet at my cooking I feel it looking, I feel it thinking

  ‘Is this the one I am to appear for,

  Is this the elect one, the one with black eye-pits and a scar?

  Measuring the flour, cutting off the surplus,

  Adhering to rules, to rules, to rules.

  Is this the one for the annunciation?

  My god, what a laugh!’

  But it shimmers, it does not stop, and I think it wants me.

  I would not mind if it was bones, or a pearl button.

  I do not want much of a present, anyway, this year.

  After all, I am alive only by accident.

  I would have killed myself gladly that time any possible way.

  Now there are these veils, shimmering like curtains,

  The diaphanous satins of a January window

  White as babies’ bedding and glittering with dead breath. O ivory!

  It must be a tusk there, a ghost-column.

  Can you not see I do not mind what it is.

  Can you not give it to me?

  Do not be ashamed—I do not mind if it is small.

  Do not be mean, I am ready for enormity.

  Let us sit down to it, one on either side, admiring the gleam,

  The glaze, the mirrory variety of it.

  Let us eat our last supper at it, like a hospital plate.

  I know why you will not give it to me,

  You are terrified

  The world will go up in a shriek, and your head with it,

  Bossed, brazen, an antique shield,

  A marvel to your great-grandchildren.

  Do not be afraid, it is not so.

  I will only take it and go aside quietly.

  You will not even hear me opening it, no paper crackle,

  No falling ribbons, no scream at the end.

  I do not think you credit me with this discretion.

  If you only knew how the veils were killing my days.

  To you they are only transparencies, clear air.

  But my god, the clouds are like cotton——

  Armies of them. They are carbon monoxide.

  Sweetly, sweetly I breathe in,

  Filling my veins with invisibles, with the million

  Probable motes that tick the years off my life.

  You are silver-suited for the occasion. O adding machine——

  Is it impossible for you to let something go and have it go whole?

  Must you stamp each piece in purple,

  Must you kill what you can?

  There is this one thing I want today, and only you can give it to me.

  It stands at my window, big as the sky.

  It breathes from my sheets, the cold, dead center

  Where spilt lives congeal and stiffen to history.

  Let it not come by the mail, finger by finger.

  Let it not come by word of mouth, I should be sixty

  By the time the whole of it was delivered, and too numb to use it.

  Only let down the veil, the veil, the veil.

  If it were death

  I would admire the deep gravity of it, its timeless eyes.

  I would know you were serious.

  There would be a nobility then, there would be a birthday.

  And the knife not carve, but enter

  Pure and clean as the cry of a baby,

  And the universe slide from my side.

  Letter in November

  Love, the world

  Suddenly turns, turns color. The streetlight

  Splits through the rats-tail

  Pods of the laburnum at nine in the morning.

  It is the Arctic,

  This little black

  Circle, with its tawn silk grassesbabies hair.

  There is a green in the air,

  Soft, delectable.

  It cushions me lovingly.

  I am flushed and warm.

  I think I may be enormous,

  I am so stupidly happy,

  My Wellingtons

  Squelching and squelching through the beautiful red.

  This is my property.

  Two times a day

  I pace it, sniffing

  The barbarous holly with its viridian

  Scallops, pure iron,

  And the wall of old corpses.

  I love them.

  I love them like history.

  The apples are golden,

  Imagine it

  My seventy trees

  Holding their gold-ruddy balls

  In a thick grey death-soup,

  Their million

  Gold leaves metal and breathless.

  O love, O celibate.

  Nobody but me

  Walks the waist-high wet.

  The irreplaceable

  Golds bleed and deepen, the mouths of Thermopylae.

  Amnesiac

  No use, no use, now, begging Recognize.

  There is nothing to do with such a beautiful blank but smooth it.

  Name, house, car keys,

  The little toy wife

  Erased, sigh, sigh.

  Four babies and a cocker.

  Nurses the size of worms and a minute doctor

  Tuck him in.

  Old happenings

  Peel from his skin.

  Down the drain with all of it!

  Hugging his pillow

  Like the red-headed sister he never dared to touch,

  He dreams of a new one

  Barren, the lot are barren.

  And of another color.

  How theyll travel, travel, travel, scenery

  Sparking off their brother-sister rears,

  A comet tail.

  And money the sperm fluid of it all.<
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  One nurse brings in

  A green drink, one a blue.

  They rise on either side of him like stars.

  The two drinks flame and foam.

 

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