by Tessa Elaine
“Good morning beautiful.” He whispers.
I turn over in his arms to face him and my breath catches at how handsome he is. His hair is a mess from sleep, his eyes are soft and lazy. The sleepy look has never looked sexier on a man.
“Morning, how did you sleep?”
“Never better darlin’.”
I hum in agreement and bury my face in his chest taking in his masculine smell. Breathing deep, I hear him chuckle.
“Are you smelling me, Elena?”
“No” I look up and he has that smirk and one brow raised in question. “Okay, maybe,” I admit.
He just laughs and rolls us over so I'm lying on top of him. We just lay there enjoying the warmth of our bodies pressed together. My head rest on his chest while I trace a line from his neck to his shoulder, he's running his fingers up and down my spine caressing my skin so gently.
“Can we just stay like this forever?” I whisper, not wanting to break this spell we are under.
Can we really have this? Lucas and I together finally? I can only hope for the best, but I have to commit to making this work. This will take both of us going all in. I can't half ass this with Lucas, he means too much to me not to give him all of me.
“I would love nothing more, but I give it one week before your roommate or my sister are breaking down this door.” We both laugh because he's not wrong. Sarah and Aubrey would probably team up on us.
“You're right.”
“Do you have any plans today?” he asks.
“Nope, I'm all yours.” I tell him kissing his chest and making my way up to his neck.
“I love hearing that, all mine. The best thing I’ve ever heard.” I smile as I kiss him all over and he presses his dick right where I want it.
“Baby, I want you to ride me so I can watch you come.” God, what those words do to me. We never got around to putting clothes back on last night. I sit up straddling his hips, leaning forward so I can line his hard length with my pussy. I rub the head of his cock back and forth, coating him in my wetness. His eyes roll back and his head falls back in pleasure.
“Lucas baby.” He opens his eyes and looks at me.
“Yes, darlin’?”
“I want to ride you bare again.” I tell him, hoping he won't panic. The only thing I see on his face is desire and love. That's all the permission I need. I sit up a little more and ease down his shaft nice and slow. The growl that leaves his throat has my walls clenching around his dick.
“Fuck Elena, you are so tight.” I spend the next hour riding Lucas until we both come undone.
Tired morning sex might be my favorite. I don't even bother getting dressed, I just toss on Lucas shirt and go without panties. He slips on his boxers and jeans and we make our way to the kitchen.
“Sit,” I tell him. “I'll make coffee and French toast.”
He listens and takes a seat at the table facing me. It's just a small two-person table and chairs Aubrey and I found at a flea market. It works for the small space. I start the coffee and go right to making the French toast.
I can feel his eyes burning a hole right through me. I look over my shoulder and damn near catch on fire from the look he's giving me. I give him a wink and turn back to making breakfast. I jump when he slides his arms around my waist and rest his chin on my shoulder. His mouth is right next to my ear.
“You keep that shit up and I will be having breakfast in your bed, between your legs.” He slaps my ass and walks to the coffee pot. I'm instantly wet. This man has a way of keeping me in a permanent state of arousal. He pours us both a cup of coffee and sits back in his chair to continue to watch me. I finish up placing both plates on the table and go to take my seat, but Lucas has other plans for me. He reaches over grabs my hand and pulls me into his lap.
“We can't eat like this.” I tell him laughing and leaning back into his chest. I'm enjoying all this attention and loving that he can't keep his hands off of me.
“The hell we can't” He pulls my plate to us and starts feeding me and then himself. This man is unbelievable, how did I get so lucky? It took so much loss and bullshit to get here, but we finally made it. We are in the middle of laughing and kissing the syrup off each other’s lips when the front door opens. Aubrey walks into the apartment in the same clothes she had on last night. Her eyes go wide when she sees us.
“Walk of shame?” I ask before she can say anything about what she walked in on.
“There's no shame in my game.” Aubrey says and Lucas is shaking, silently laughing behind me.
“I'm not the one with the freshly fucked look, having sexy naked breakfast with the hot cowboy stripper.”
“Aubrey!” I scold her, that girl has no filter.
“Don't Aubrey me, you never told me Lucas was this hot.” She looks him over and I kind of want to slap her.
“Keep your eyes to yourself you little slut,” I tell her.
“Fine, does he have a brother?”
“Ladies, I'm right here. And I'm not a stripper.” Lucas says, and I just kiss him and feed him more French toast.
“I know baby.”
“Well aren't you two disgustingly sweet.” I just roll my eyes at her.
“Don't you have somewhere else to be?” I ask her trying to give her the hint that it's time to go.
“No, I don't. I have the whole day off.”
“Lucky me.” I say sarcastically.
“So, Lucas, is there a brother?” Aubrey asks again.
“Um, yes?” He looks at me when he answers.
“Yeah Aubrey, he has a brother, a younger brother.” I tell her with a smirk on my face. Lucas younger brother will be 21 soon and I don't think Aubrey goes for younger guys. Especially ones that still live at home. Don't get me wrong Logan is a sweet guy and he's hot as hell, but it's a big turn off to still be living in your parent’s basement.
“How much younger?” She asks cautiously.
“He’s almost 21,” Lucas tells her.
“Age doesn't matter if he looks like you, as long as he's legal!” I crack up at that and Lucas looks at me like he's wondering if she's for real.
“Bigger” I tell her and her eyes look Lucas over again and then look back at me.
“Bigger?” She repeats my words. When I nod, Lucas finally catches on and grabs my by the waist.
“Really? Bigger?” He says, as he stands with me and tosses me over his shoulder.
“Lucas, I don't have any panties on!” I yell at him, but he doesn't give a shit. He just pulls my shirt down and holds on to it with the arm that's holding my legs. He smacks my ass and I yelp. “Lucas Wayne!”
“Excuse us Aubrey, I need to teach my girl who's bigger.” My pussy clenches from the smack on my ass, but my stomach flutters at hearing him call me his girl.
I look back at Aubrey to see what she's thinking, but she is in a daze. Probably thinking of a bigger Lucas. We make it back to my room in no time and I bounce once when he throws me on the bed. I can't read the expression on his face and that makes me nervous.
“Lucas baby, I didn't mean it the way you're taking it.” I say as I climb off the other side of the bed. Trying to put some space between us until I feel him out.
“Darlin’, how am I supposed to take you calling my brother bigger?”
“I wasn't talking about his dick.” I say and his eyebrows shot up. Oh shit. He starts to walk around the bed toward me.
“Lucas, baby?” I say but he just keeps coming.
“I don't like you talking about my brother and his dick, Elena. I think I'm going to spank your ass and then feed you my cock, you won't be able to talk about my brother with your mouth full.” Holy shit, I have never seen this side of Lucas, I love it. His words have me trembling with need, his deep voice sends a shiver down my spine. He is so fucking hot right now. Yes, please feed me your cock, my inner slut is doing her happy dance and so am I. I'm still moving away from him.
“Elena, are you running from me?”
“No,”
I tell him.
“Then what are you doing?” He asks
“Making you work for it.” I take off for the door, but he's on me before I can get it open. Grabbing me by the waist and pulling back to the bed. He sits down on the edge of the bed and bends me over his lap.
“Lucas, don't you dare!” I yell at him. He lifts my shirt to my waist and runs his hands over my ass caressing and feeling his way down my thighs.
“You are not to speak of my brother being bigger.” Smack. His hand comes down on my ass, I bit my lip holding back the moan that wants to escape.
“You are not allowed to mention his dick.” Smack. The sting of pain mixed with pleasure has me soaked. This time I can't hold it in. I don't even recognize the sound coming out of my mouth, I moan his name so loud I'm sure Aubrey hears me.
“Do you understand?” Smack.
“Oh God” I call out.
“Answer me, Elena.” Smack.
“Fuck, yes I understand.” He pulls my shirt down and I can feel the heat coming off my ass, I know it has to be as red as my face is right now. He helps me stand in front of him and then tells me what he wants next.
“On your knees darlin’.” I don't pause for a second, I just drop to my knees in front of him.
In one smooth motion he stands removing his jeans and his boxer. His dick is hard and pointing at me like I'm the only one that can give him what he needs. My head is swimming with the urge to take him in my mouth. I lick my lips as I watch him stroke himself from the base to the tip really slow. When his hand smooths back down his shaft his arousal leaks out and I need to taste him.
“Open your mouth, baby.” I do as I'm told. He runs the tip around my lips, and I stick my tongue out. He groans and runs his hand back up his shaft. I lean forward to take him in, but he only lets me take the head of his cock. I circle him with my tongue licking the slit to taste more of him, I can't get enough.
This man has a way of bringing out a side of me I never knew I had.
When he finally lets me take all of him I pull him to the back of my throat. I look up to see his head thrown back and his hands are clenched at his side, he looks like he's losing control and that just makes me wetter. Using my fingers, I roll his balls around in my hands and he finally cracks. His hands fly to my head, fingers digging into my hair, but he doesn't take over he lets me go at my own pace. I can tell he's getting close, his breathing is ragged and his legs are shaking.
Having this much power over a man like Lucas is intoxicating.
“Fuck, Elena, baby you have to stop.” He pulls me to my feet and I lick my lips still tasting him.
“You are really good at that.”
He pulls my shirt over my head and his mouth crashes down on mine. Firm, demanding and I give way easily. His hands are everywhere, like he's trying to touch all of me before it's over. When he has fucked my mouth thoroughly with his tongue he pulls back leaving my whole body shaking for more.
“Lean over the bed with your elbows down and your ass in the air.” I walk over to the bed doing exactly that.
Looking over my shoulder I give a little shake and ask, “Like this?”
“Fuck!” Is all he can say.
He comes up behind me running his fingers through my wetness to see if I'm ready, I'm more than ready. When he takes his dick and runs it up and down my pussy my knees almost give out. I might cum just from him teasing me.
He stops at my center and leans over me so his mouth is at ear. “I'm going to fuck you, Elena, hard.” God that sounds amazing.
“Yes, Lucas. Please.” I beg.
He slams into me and I cum almost instantly. His calloused hands grip my waist and pushes into me again and again, every stroke firing my core. It doesn't take long until I'm grasping the edge of release for the second time. He's pushing me to another mind-blowing orgasm and I don't think I can take anymore.
“Cum for me, baby. Now.” And just like that I'm gone. I squeeze him so hard he yells my name filling me with his warm seed. Until I’m shuddering under him my finger digging into the sheets and I might fall on my face. He pulls out slowly and crawls into bed holding me to his chest.
“I love you so much, baby. How did I get this lucky?” He whispers in my ear.
“I’m the lucky one and I love you too.” I whisper back. I need a nap after that round, that was amazing. I might make him mad more often if that's what comes after.
Makeup sex is my new favorite and then morning sex, that's my last thought before I fall asleep.
I wake up unsure of what time it is, but the sun is going down. Shit, we must have slept the day away. I reach over to wake Lucas up and don't feel anything. I sit up panicking, he wouldn't leave, would he? I climb out of bed and grab some clothes, dressing as fast as I can. I could really use a shower, but that will have to wait. I'm scared he took off, I couldn't blame him, I did it twice.
I make my way down the hall and hear laughter, when I get to the living room I see Lucas and Aubrey at the table laughing. Lucas looks up and instantly gets serious. He must see the alarm on my face because he stands and walks to me.
“What's wrong, darlin’?” he asks when he gets to me rubbing his hands up and down my arms.
“Was it another nightmare?” Aubrey asks. Lucas looks from me to her and then back at me, waiting for an answer.
“It's just I thought...” I start to say, but stop feeling foolish about my insecurities.
“Thought what darlin’?” he asked pulling me into his arms I relax a little feeling safe.
“I thought you left,” I whisper so only he can hear. He rubs my back and kisses the top of my head in a comforting way.
“Elena, I'm sorry baby. I just didn't want to wake you, you looked so peaceful. I'm not going anywhere, you are stuck with me.” I hear the smile in his voice and that makes me feel a little better.
“Now, tell me about these nightmares.” I hear Aubrey getting up from the table and walking to her room to give us some privacy.
Thanks hooker I say in my head. I was trying to avoid this conversation, I didn't want him to see how messed up I am.
Lucas walks us both to the couch sitting and pulling me into his lap. I'm glad he's keeping me close, this will be easier with him to hold on to. I sigh and lay my head on his shoulder, he doesn't push he just waits patiently for me to gather my thoughts.
I'm not sure where to start, but I know I have to tell him. If there is one person I can talk to about my nightmares it is Lucas. He is always there when I need him the most.
“Every year when my birthday gets closer I get these horrible nightmares. They use to start one or two weeks before, but this year they started a month before the day.” I can't say it, but he knows what day, “and they're worse this year, I think it has something to do with going back...” I trail off.
He’s silent for a second before he whispers “To me?”
“No” I answer quickly “Not you, the ranch, Eureka. The only time I didn't have these awful nightmares was when I was asleep in your arms. You're the only person in my life that makes me feel safe. Makes me think I can be okay someday, that I can have my happiness back.” My eyes fill with tears and I hold on to Lucas for dear life.
“Was that the reason I found you in the shower at the Inn? The nightmares?” He asks and I take a deep breath and slowly let it out, trying to push through this.
“Yes, that was the worst one I have ever had. It was like I relived that whole night. I woke up and instantly got sick, I was trying to stop the panic when I climbed in the shower. Once I got in there I couldn't stop crying, then you found me. I was so embarrassed...”
He doesn't let me finish, he pulls my head from his chest and presses his lips to mine.
“I wish you would have told me,” he says between each kiss. “There is nothing to be embarrassed about, darlin’.” He pulls back to see my face “What you went through is awful, and then to relive it every year in your dreams is unfair. You are the strongest person I know, Elena
. To relive this every year and still keep it together the way you do.”
He's wrong, I’m not strong. I don't keep it together, I can barely make it from one day to the next. My “fake it till you make it” motto seems to be working. I can lie to everyone else around me telling them I’m fine, but I can't lie to Lucas. He deserves so much better than that and if he's going all in he needs to know what he's getting himself into.
“That's where you're wrong, Lucas. I'm not strong, I can barely make it a week without a panic attack. I had to see a therapist every week and I just recently started seeing him every month. And the day of my birthday, the day of the anniversary I lock myself in my room and cry myself to sleep. Sometimes I can't make it half the day before I have to take a sleeping pill so I can sleep the day away.”
I can't look at him the whole time I tell him my darkest moments, telling him just how weak I am, how pathetic. He won’t want to deal with this every year. My epic meltdowns, my multiple panic attacks, every year to have your birthday be the worst day of your life. Lucas surprises me, but he really shouldn't because I know how amazing he is.
“That's what makes you so strong. You finished school, found a great job, great friends, and you have a home. You have your life together even after the tragedy you’ve gone through. Baby, you will never spend another birthday going through this alone. If you will let me we will spend them together for the rest of our lives. I will never leave you.” I kiss him all over his face as the tears fall from my eyes, this man is too good to be true.
“You're sure?” I ask, needing him to tell me again.
“Yes, I'm sure, I can't live without you in my life. I want you to be mine forever, but if I could only have you as a friend I would take what I could get.”
“We have always been more than friends. I couldn't handle just being friends and watching you fall in love with someone else.” I confess.
“I could never be in love with anyone else. You are it for me, Elena.” We sit on the couch kissing and holding on to each other until the sun has gone down and the moon is high in the sky. He breaks our little bubble with more things we need to talk about. I know it needs to be discussed, but couldn't we just make out like a couple of teenagers?