“Finally.” They were stopped in front of the house, and Gloria was already standing up, getting ready to step down from the wagon. “I didn’t think we’d ever get here.”
John William reached out a hand and grasped Gloria’s arm.
“Gloria,” his voice choked on the word. “Let me—”
“I can manage just fine, thank you,” Gloria said, wrenching her arm from his grasp. She reached a foot down to step on a wheel spoke, but when she swung the rest of her body around, a portion of her skirt was caught in the seat spring, and a resounding ripping sound accompanied a large tear in the fabric.
“Oh, no,” she said at first. Then, when she saw the extent of the damage, she let forth a stream of curses.
“Don’t talk like that. It makes you sound like a—” By the time he got to the end of the sentence, he was on the ground looking at her.
“Like a what?” Gloria’s hands were planted firmly on her hips. “Like a whore?”
“I’ve never called you that.”
“But you haven’t forgotten that’s what I am,” Gloria said. “You can dress me up and take me to church, but that’s not going to change what I am inside, is it?”
“Have I ever,” John William said, measuring his words, “ever treated you like a, like a …”
“Whore!” Gloria opened her arms wide and screamed the word. “You can’t even say it, can you? You can’t face that part of me.”
“That’s not how I see you.”
“Of course it is.”
He had never in his life raised a hand to a woman, but now he grabbed Gloria’s shoulders and turned her so that her back was pinned to the wagon. He released his grip and planted both palms on the wagon bed, hemming her in. She need only duck under his arm to escape, but by sheer will he forced her to stay and meet his gaze.
“Do you really want to know how I see you?” he asked. He took her silence as consent to hear an answer. “I see you, God help me, as the mother of my children.”
“Child,” Gloria said. The spite behind the word shocked him.
“No, Gloria, children. Katherine was the mother of my child. But I’ve come to think of Danny as my own, and I’ve seen how you’ve taken to Kate. And for the life of me I can’t imagine them without you.”
“You make it sound like something horrible.”
“No, Gloria, you make it sound like something horrible. Every day you talk about leavin’. I can tell that every time one of ’em takes a bite of food you’re countin’ the days till you can go. And now, today, you’re talkin’ about dumpin’ Adele Fuller on me. Well, maybe I don’t want Adele Fuller.”
He took three full breaths before his next words tumbled out.
“Maybe I want you.”
For just one heartbeat, he expected her to melt into a smile and throw herself against him. He loosened the tension in his arms in anticipation of an embrace. But Gloria remained steel.
“You don’t want me. You told me, back in Silver Peak, that you wouldn’t need me forever. That you wouldn’t want me for a wife.”
“And you’re clingin’ to that? That was months ago, Gloria.”
“So I’m good enough now?”
“I don’t know.” John William ripped his hat off his head and ran his fingers through his hair. “No one’s ever good enough for anything. We just do the best we can.”
Just then the blue door flew open and Maureen emerged with a fussy Kate on her hip.
“Back so soon?” she said, jostling the baby. “You must not have stayed for dinner.”
“No,” they said simultaneously.
Thankful for the diversion, John William turned away from Gloria and took his daughter into his arms.
“Well, then,” Maureen said, looking from one to the other. “I’ll fix us something.”
“I’m not hungry,” Gloria mumbled. She breezed past Maureen and disappeared inside. John William tried not to look at the exposed petticoat peeking through the torn skirt, but his eyes would not obey.
Maureen caught him looking, and a mischievous grin spread across her face.
“You two have a quarrel?” she asked.
“You might say that.”
“What about?”
He sighed, tried to think of an explanation, and decided to go with the truth.
“Adele Fuller,” he said.
Maureen laughed. “Hoo, boy. Nothing like a redhead to light a fire under a woman, is there?”
John William gave her a sideways scowl.
“I think it’s a good thing we got the harvest coming on,” she said. “You look like you’ll need something to occupy your mind.”
“My mind is fine,” he said. He looked through the kitchen window and saw Gloria slathering a slice of bread with blackberry preserves. Not hungry, he thought, smiling.
“She’s a beautiful woman, isn’t she?” Maureen said.
“She is at that.”
“But sometimes she seems almost … well, like a child.”
“She’s scared.”
“Yes, I suppose that’s it. Tell me, about this bargain between the two of you. Do you really think she’ll leave?”
“I didn’t think so until today.”
“And just when did you decide you wanted her to stay with you?”
He held his daughter close and searched for an answer. Kate had ten grubby fingers tangled in his beard. She tugged and giggled and tugged some more, and his mind flashed back to that first night, the chilled, lifeless little body he had carried into that tiny warm cabin.
“The moment she held Kate, I suppose,” he said. “Is that awful?”
“Awful? Why would it be awful?”
“Because Katherine, Kate’s mother, she was just … had just …”
“And you were doing what you had to do for your child. There’s no shame in that.”
Until that moment, John William hadn’t realized just how much shame he felt, leaving his dead wife in the early dawn, handing their child over to this woman Katherine held in such disdain.
“Now let me ask you this,” Maureen said. “When did you fall in love with her?”
“I’m not—”
“Now there’s no shame in that, either. I know I loved her the first time I met her. She gets to your heart, doesn’t she?”
“I guess you could say that.” John William took another glance through the kitchen window where a seemingly satisfied Gloria licked the remnants of jam off her fingers. “But I’ve prayed for God to guard my heart. My thoughts.”
“And it’s a good thing you did, all that time alone together, just the two of you in the middle of nowhere half the time.”
“You know I never, never touched her.”
“I know, son,” Maureen said. “But things have changed, haven’t they?”
“Not so much.”
“It’s all right, John. It’s only natural. She’s a beautiful woman, she’s mothering your child. God brought you together for a reason.”
“She’s not seekin’ God’s will.”
“Maybe not. But she is seeking God, don’t you think?”
“I don’t know,” he said. “Sometimes I think she realizes how lost she is, and other times she just seems so bitter.”
“Not bitter. Scared.”
“But I’ve tried to tell her. Tried to protect her and make her feel safe.”
“I know you have, John.” Maureen reached up to put a hand on John William’s shoulder. “But be patient with her. Let her come to God. Then she’ll come to you.”
They stood there for a moment, the three of them connected. He’d been watching Gloria through the window this whole time, but she just now returned his gaze. He smiled and took up Kate’s hand to offer a little wave. Gloria blew a little kiss to Kate, then met John William’s eyes and stuck out her tongue before standing up and flouncing away from the table.
John William laughed. “Maureen? You asked when I fell in love with her?”
“Yes.”
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sp; “I think just now.”
This he gives you, this he gives you,
’Tis the Spirit’s glimm’ring beam;
This he gives you, this he gives you,
’Tis the Spirit’s glimm’ring beam.
19
The first day of harvest started long before dawn. Maureen was putting a third pan of biscuits into the oven when Gloria, bleary-eyed, came into the kitchen to help her.
“You get on over and start stirring that gravy,” Maureen said, directing Gloria to a large saucepan on the stove.
“You’re trusting me to make gravy?”
“No, I’m trusting you to stir gravy,” Maureen said. “And mind you don’t let it scorch, or you’ll have a bunch of angry workers on your hands.”
The crew showed up at dawn. Six men and a young boy piled out of the back of a wagon hungry for Maureen’s famous biscuits ’n’ gravy.
“Now you all just hold your britches,” Maureen said, walking out to the front yard to greet them. “Get out your cups. Breakfast’ll be up soon.”
The men stood in a line, mugs held out ready for a steaming cup of coffee. Maureen made her way down the line, greeting each man in turn.
“Ron, good to see you again. This your son? Looks just like you, don’t he … Bill, looks like you’ve put on a few pounds … Sam, now didn’t I tell you that woman would be no good?”
Each man shifted his feet, muttered a reply.
“Norman, have you had a doctor look at that? Lonnie, you just get more and more handsome … Big Phil, I’m still using Anne’s cream pie recipe.”
Gloria watched all of this through the kitchen window, fascinated by Maureen’s transformation. Normally sedate, almost matronly, she became flirtatious and coy. The men continued to shuffle and blush until finally one of them—Lonnie, she thought—reached out to take Maureen’s hand.
“Won’t seem right workin’ these fields without Ed,” he said. “He was a good man.”
“Yes, he was,” Maureen said.
“This new man, you sure he ain’t just after your land?”
Maureen laughed and gave him a nudge in his ribs. “Lon, I know he’s just after my land.”
“Aw, Maureen, you know what I’m talkin’ about. He ain’t just takin’ it out from under you.”
“Don’t you worry,” Maureen said. “We hit on a fair price. Some he’s paid cash, the rest he’s working off. He gets a working farm, I get to stay on a bit and have help while I’m staying. I love this place, Lon. Ed and I worked hard here. Trust me, I wouldn’t hand it over to just anybody. John William MacGregan’s a good man.”
Just then, John William came around the corner from the barn.
“Speak of the devil,” Gloria muttered to herself, forgetting to stir the gravy.
He strode across the yard, seeming taller, stronger than Gloria ever remembered. He clapped his hands together and rubbed them in apparent anticipation of the day’s work ahead. She heard him holler “Mornin’!” to the crowd before making his way down the line of workers, offering each a hearty handshake. When he got to Maureen, he engulfed her in a brawny hug and planted a kiss on her gray curls.
“Let’s get to work!” His voice boomed into the morning, and the men raised their cups in agreement.
“Let’s have breakfast first,” Maureen said, earning an even louder cheer. She turned and looked straight at Gloria through the kitchen window. “Gloria, bring on the biscuits! John, you go on in and get the gravy. That skillet’s heavy.”
The gravy!
Gloria turned her attention back to the stove and used the wooden spoon to break apart the skin that had formed on the top. Then she dipped it into the creamy mass, gingerly touching the bottom, testing for the soft sign of scorching.
“Gloria?” It was the first he’d spoken to her since their argument yesterday after church. “I’ll take that outside now.”
She whirled around to face him, and smiled at what she saw.
“You trimmed it,” she said.
“Yes.” He brought his hand up to his newly trimmed beard. It was cut close to his face, each line and contour clearly visible. “But I didn’t cut the hair.”
“So I see.”
His hair was pulled back and secured with a strip of leather at the nape of his neck. His ears, bulging and disfigured, were clearly visible. She noticed that he seemed to make an effort not to bring his hand up to cover them.
“The gravy?”
“What?”
“Maureen asked me to take the gravy outside. You’re to bring the biscuits.”
“Oh, yes. Of course.”
They stood there in the half-dark, oven-warmed kitchen. The last time they spoke, he said he wanted her. She wondered if he still did. His gaze was unsettling, her breath uneven, and the gravy was blopping, sending splatters to sizzle on the hot stove.
“The gravy,” they said simultaneously.
She handed him a tea towel to wrap around the hot handle, and he reached around her to lift the pan off the stove. She stepped aside before his arm could brush against her.
“I’ll be right out with the biscuits,” she said. “Tell Maureen I’ll put more coffee on.”
Try as she might, Gloria could not ignore the hired hands’ appreciative looks as Maureen introduced her to them one by one. Even though no one said more than, “Nice to meet you, ma’am,” each pair of eyes peered out from under a sweat-stained hat brim and lingered just a little too long on her face. She declined to shake hands after the one named Sam deposited a sweaty glaze.
The oldest of the bunch, Big Phil, was a portly man with a ruddy face and a ready laugh. He took one look at Gloria, then one look at John William and said, “Now, MacGregan, I swear. I don’t see how a man with a mug as ugly as yours could get himself a beauty like this. Just don’t seem right.”
“Maybe he hasn’t quite got me yet,” Gloria said, smiling slyly. “After all, we’re new here. I had no idea I’d have so many choices.”
The men let out a hearty laugh, and Big Phil grabbed Gloria around the waist and planted a meaty kiss on her cheek.
“You’d better hold on to this one, MacGregan,” he said. “Reminds me of my wife. She’s a spunky one, too.”
“Yes,” John William said. “I’m truly blessed.”
“It’s like they say,” Maureen said, “there’s a lid for every pot.”
“Well, this lid’s going inside,” Gloria said. “I’ve got a baby calling me.”
John William marveled at the power of the reaper, pulled by a team of horses, as its blades cut the wheat stalk close to the ground. Ed Brewster bought the machine after his most profitable harvest, an investment Maureen had said was long overdue. Two of the men, Big Phil and Lonnie, owned their own reapers even though Big Phil didn’t have a crop to bring in, and Lonnie didn’t even own land. Each would collect a rental fee on top of the pay for their labor. John William had to convince Maureen to lay out the extra cost. But with three machines and five men—well, four men and one strong boy—working to bind the stalks, he figured they would be able to harvest nearly fifteen acres a day. With just over three hundred acres—half of Maureen’s section—he expected it wouldn’t take more than three weeks to get the whole crop in.
This harvest was a far cry from the fieldwork he’d done beside his father, a hired hand much like the men he employed today. He remembered endless days of swinging a sickle and stooping to gather bundles of wheat. Now it was near noon, and already he and his team had done what would have been a full day’s work in his childhood.
“We gonna take a break soon, boss?” Big Phil’s good-natured voice called from behind.
“Don’t call me that,” John William said over his shoulder. “You all know more about this than I do.” He shielded his eyes and looked up toward the sun that sat in the full center of the sky. “I expect the women will be bringing dinner out soon.”
He was right. Within minutes he heard Maureen’s voice, clear and sweet, carrying across the
fields.
“Sing to the Lord of harvest
sing songs of love and praise
with joyful hearts and voices
your alleluias raise.”
She was pushing a small handcart through the newly formed paths left by the reapers. Gloria followed, carrying Kate on one hip and Danny in a sling wrapped around her back. Her face was hidden within the tunnel of the sunbonnet, and he found himself wishing she would push it back and refresh him with one of her smiles.
Maureen broke off her song to announce “Dinner’s on!” and a hearty cheer erupted from the men.
The contents of the cart were covered by a threadbare quilt that John William snapped in the air and laid in a place of newly cleared land. Then he took Kate out of Gloria’s arms and lifted her to a giggly height before bringing her back down for a nuzzling nose rub.
“Men,” he said with pride, “this is my little princess Katherine Celestia MacGregan. We call her Kate.”
Big Phil removed his hat, took her tiny hand and bent low over it, planting a solemn kiss.
“And if you’ll take her, sir,” John William said, handing Kate over to Big Phil, “I’ll introduce you to my son.” He lifted Danny out of the sling, untangled Gloria’s thick braid from his grasp, and took him through the same ritual of big lifts and soft kisses.
“And this is Danny, my son,” he said. “Think we can put him to work today?”
Baby Danny giggled, then everybody else did, too. The men took turns passing the babies from hand to hand, each offering a special greeting, except for Ron’s son who busied himself pouring water from a barrel into a galvanized tub for the horses.
Meanwhile, Maureen and Gloria set out the noontime meal. There were three loaves of bread cut into hearty slices and a cool crockery bowl of butter. Half a round of cheese was given over to Lonnie to slice into chunks. A basket of apples appeared, and each man dove for one to bite into, except for Ron’s son who decided he’d rather give his to the horses, if that was all right with everybody. There was a jar of pickled beets and onions, and when it was empty, the men poured shallow puddles of brine to sop up with the bread. Four jugs of gingered water were passed from man to man, each drinking his fill.
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