“I’m waiting for an appointment,” I said.
“Here?” she asked.
I nodded. “Work-study assignment,” I said.
She started to laugh, a bitter, sad laugh. I’d heard that laugh before. “You have got to be kidding me,” she said.
Nothing significant at all (Alex)
I was late when I got to the Arts and Sciences building, and ran up the six flights of steps to the third floor, knowing the elevator would take forever. I checked my phone. It was three o’clock. I needed to get there right now.
I counted down the room numbers, finally reaching a dark hall. The light was out at the end of the hall, casting the area in not quite darkness. There it was, room 301. Next to the door, a student sat, his head resting on his fist, face turned away from me. He was reading a book.
I took a breath. His hair reminded me of Dylan’s, but shorter, of course. That, and his arms were… well, very muscular, and he was tanned. This guy looked like someone out of a catalog. Not that I went fainting over guys with big biceps, but seriously, a girl can look, right?
As I approached though, I felt my heart begin to thump in my chest. Because the closer I got, the more he looked like Dylan. But what would he be doing here? Dylan, who had broken my heart, then disappeared as if he’d never existed, his email deleted, Facebook page closed, Skype account gone. Dylan, who had erased himself from my life all because of a stupid conversation that shouldn’t have happened.
I slowed down. It couldn’t be. It just… couldn’t be.
He took a breath and shifted position slightly, and I gasped. Because sitting in front of me was the boy who’d broken my heart. Quietly, I said, “Oh, my God.”
He jumped to his feet. Or rather tried to. He got about halfway up, and a look of excruciating pain swept across his face and he fell down, hard. I almost cried out, as he tried to force his way back up. I started forward to help, and he said his first words to me in six months: “Don’t touch me.”
Typical. I had to stuff down the hurt that threatened to burst to the surface.
He looked… different. Indefinably different. We hadn’t seen each other face to face in almost two years, not since the summer before my senior year in high school. He’d filled out, of course. In all the right places. His arms, which I vividly remembered being held in, had doubled in size. The sleeves of his tee shirt looked like they were going to burst. I guess the Army does that for you. His eyes were still the same piercing blue. For a second I met them, then looked away. I didn’t want to get trapped in those eyes. And damn it, he still smelled the same. A hint of smoke and fresh ground coffee. Sometimes when I walked into a coffee shop in New York, I’d get an overwhelming sensation that he was there, just from the smell. Sometimes memory sucks.
“Dylan,” I said. “What are you doing here?”
“I’m waiting for an appointment.”
“Here?” I asked. That was crazy.
He shrugged. “Work-study assignment.”
No. No way.
“Wait a minute… are you saying you’re in school here?”
He nodded.
“What happened to the Army?” I asked.
He shrugged, looked away, then gestured toward the cane.
“So of all the schools you could have chosen, you came here? To the same place as me?”
Anger swept over his face. “I didn’t come here for you, Alex. I came here because it was the best school I could get in to. I came here for me.”
“What, did you think you could just show up and sweep me back into your arms after ignoring me for the last six months? After erasing me from your life?”
He narrowed his eyes, looked at me directly. In a cold voice, he said, “Actually, I was hoping I just wouldn’t run into you.”
I stifled a sob. I was not going to let him get to me. I spat back, “Well, looks like we both had some bad luck. Because I’m here for my work-study assignment, too.”
His eyes widened. “You’re going to be working for Forrester?”
“Is he the so-called author in residence?”
He nodded.
“Oh, God,” I said. “I’m going to be sick.”
“Thanks. It’s great to see you too, Alex.”
I almost shouted at him, but a jovial voice down the hall called to us. “Hello! You two must be my new research assistants!”
A ridiculous looking man, trying way too hard to look like an author with a capital A, walked toward us. He wore a tweed jacket, with leather patches on the elbows, and corduroy pants. He couldn’t have been much older than thirty-five, but he wore reading glasses perched halfway up his nose.
“Well, hello,” he said. “I’m Max Forrester.”
“Alex Thompson,” I said. I glanced at Dylan. He was glaring at me.
“Dylan Paris,” he said.
“Come in, Alex and Dylan. My apologies for being late. Sometimes I get lost in the throes of creation and forget the time.”
Forrester’s back was already to me as he unlocked his door. I rolled my eyes. Lost in the throes of creation, indeed. You could smell the whiskey on his breath from fifteen feet away. Smelled like he’d gotten lost in the nearest watering hole.
Dylan waved me ahead of him. He was leaning heavily on the cane. What happened to him? I walked in behind Forrester, and Dylan followed me, limping.
“Sit down, you two, sit down. Can I get you some tea? Water? Or something with a little more, um… life?”
“No thanks,” Dylan said, grimacing as he eased himself into his seat. Once seated, he leaned his cane against the wall. His expression was unreadable.
“I’ll take some water,” I said, just to contradict him.
Forrester filled up a small glass with water at a tiny sink in the back of the office and brought it to me. My eyes narrowed a little when I got a look at the glass. It was filthy. Eww. And there was something oily floating on top of the water.
I pretended to take a sip, then set it on the edge of the desk.
“Well, let’s get down to business,” Forrester said. “Do you two know each other?”
“No,” I said, forcefully, just as Dylan said, “Yes.”
Forrester liked that. A smile lit up on his face, then he said, “I bet there’s a story there.”
“You’d be wrong,” I replied. I glanced at Dylan, and said, “Nothing significant at all.”
Dylan blinked, and he darted his eyes away from me.
Good. Part of me wanted to hurt him just as badly as he had hurt me.
Unfortunately, Forrester picked up on it. He said, very slowly, “I trust there won’t be a problem.”
“No, no problem,” I said.
“No, sir,” Dylan responded, his voice cool.
“Well then,” Forrester said. “That’s good. So, let me tell you what you’ll be doing. I’m here for a year, and I’m working on a novel. Historical fiction, centered around the draft riots here in New York during the Civil War. Are you familiar with them?”
I shook my head, but Dylan said, “Yes. Sad story… some of it turned to lynch mobs.”
Forrester nodded, enthusiastically. “That’s right. Miss Thompson… the story is this. In July 1863, there was a series of riots here in the city. Mostly poor and working-class Irish, protesting because the rich could buy exemption from the draft. The protests turned ugly, then violent. A lot of people were killed.”
“They burned down the orphanage,” Dylan said. What a brown-noser.
“That’s right, Dylan! The colored orphanage burned to the ground. A dozen or more black men were lynched during the riots.”
“So…” I said. “What exactly will we be doing to help?”
“Well, you see, Columbia has a mass of historical material about the riots. Much of it primary sources. As I work on my outline and the actual manuscript, your job will be to help me with the details. The historical context, the source material, all of the information I’ll need to get the story just right.”
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�That’s… incredible,” Dylan said. “No offense, Doctor Forrester, but this is way better than I expected as a work-study assignment.”
Oh, God. This was going to be one long year.
CHAPTER TWO
I felt like an impostor (Dylan)
The last time I saw Alex… or at least her image on Skype… I took my laptop and smashed it. When that didn’t do sufficient damage, I took it outside the tent, out to the edge of the camp, and fired a thirty-round magazine through it. Needless to say, that attracted some unwanted attention.
Sergeant Colton convinced the old man not to court-martial me. I did, however, get confined to the barracks for thirty days, a moot point since we were in the middle of the boonies in Afghanistan, and extra duty, which was most definitely not moot, since that mostly meant filling sandbags.
In any event, it didn’t matter much, because the next day I was in the passenger seat of our hummer when we rode over a bomb, and I didn’t need a computer much for a while after that. I got smashed up pretty bad, and got my best friend killed.
Point is, Alex always evoked, um, strong emotions, from the very first time I laid eyes on her.
We met almost three years ago: my senior year in high school and her junior year. And to be blunt: it changed my life, in ways I can’t really measure.
But to understand that, you have to understand how we got there in the first place. For me, it’s kind of a backup problem. As in, for each part of the story, you have to back up to an earlier part. I was at Columbia because I got blown up, and I got blown up because I volunteered for the Infantry when I enlisted in the Army, and that happened because of the first time she broke up with me, which was… you get the point. So to have this make any sense at all to you, I have to work my way back to high school.
I was a lousy student, but I’m not stupid. I can add, and when my mom kicked me out of the house, I had to add minimum wage to minimum wage, and it didn’t come up to nearly enough to pay rent on an apartment, much less rent and something crazy like food. Plus, the guys I was hanging out with… let’s just say, they weren’t shining lights of humanity.
So I cleaned up my act. I quit drinking. Quit smoking dope. I still smoke cigarettes, but everybody’s gotta have one vice. And I went back to high school. Problem was, I was behind, way behind. When I registered for school again, I went to see the principal of my high school and explained my situation.
The first question he asked me was, “Where are your parents?”
I sighed. “I’m sort of homeless at the moment,” I replied. “But that’s not permanent. Look… I don’t want to involve them in me going back to school. I guess I need to prove to my mom that I can do this on my own. Maybe I need to prove it to myself, too.”
He understood. And backed me, all the way. And much to my surprise (and my mother’s) I got nearly straight As.
At the end of the year, he called me into his office.
“Listen,” he said. “I want to tell you about a program we’ve got. Every year, the city sends half a dozen students as part of a national program to visit several other countries. Sort of an ambassador, exchange program. You’ve been nominated.”
I was in shock. Me?
“Isn’t that for the smart kids who didn’t get in trouble?” I asked.
“You are one of the smart kids, Dylan.”
I noted he didn’t address the trouble part.
“Look, Dylan, all I’m saying is… it’s a hell of an educational opportunity. I think you should apply.”
“Okay,” I said, not really believing it. “What do I do?”
“Write an essay. Here’s the application packet. Explain in your essay why you should have the opportunity.”
I took the packet home and read over it. To be honest, I was terrified. Seriously. I came from a blue-collar family, with a drunk for a dad, a recovering drunk for a mom, and well… I was a screw-up. I’d be competing with kids with 4.0 grade point averages, kids who were planning to go to Harvard and Yale and other places I couldn’t dream of. But, I wrote the essay. I wrote about growing up with drunks, and becoming one myself. I wrote about putting myself back into school, and catching up with my class. I wrote about how important getting an education was, from the point of view of someone who’d worked the stupid no-skill minimum-wage jobs just to keep myself in food while I was in between homes.
And you know what? Somehow, I got accepted into the program. Next thing I knew, I’d been selected as one of half a dozen kids from Atlanta who would be traveling to Israel for two months.
And that is how I met Alex.
The first time I saw her was right before we left for Israel. I guess there were about forty of us, sitting in a big room at Hunter College on Staten Island. She was clear across the room from me, and that first sight of her is etched in my memory forever. Long brown hair, parted in the middle and flowing down her back. Green eyes that caught me from across the room. Slightly olive skin, full lips. I’m not exaggerating to say that she was the most beautiful woman I’d ever seen. She was so far out of my league that I didn’t even bother to approach her. The fact was, all of these kids were out of my league. Some of them downright brilliant, all of them studious, hard-working kids who had busted their asses for the chance to take part in this program. Frankly, I felt like an impostor.
Not that that was going to stop me from going. When we got on the plane for Tel Aviv the next morning, by lucky chance that would change my life, I ended up seated next to the beautiful green -eyed girl I’d watched the night before.
“Hi,” I said. “I’m Dylan.”
“Alex,” she responded.
Alex. I rolled the name around in my head. I liked it.
“Where are you from, Alex?”
“San Francisco,” she said.
“Really? Wow. I’m from Atlanta, Georgia. Never been out west.”
She smiled, and I did my best to remain nonchalant. Which was difficult. Really difficult, because her eyes were just… entrancing. It was like getting drunk, but the good kind, with no hangover.
“This was my first trip east, actually,” she said.
“Tell me about yourself, Alex.”
She sat back. “That’s a pretty open-ended question.”
“I guess. Let me start over. I’m Dylan, and I have lousy social skills. I’d like to get to know you by asking stupid questions. How’s that?”
She giggled, and I almost died.
“Tell you what,” she said. “I’ll ask a question. Then you ask one. Then I’ll ask one. Got it? They have to be specific. And you can’t lie.”
I tried my best to look wounded. “Do I look like someone who would lie?”
“Silly. Your questions are supposed to be about me.”
This time I laughed. “All right. Hmm… you’re from San Francisco… Do you ever ride on those silly street cars?”
“Never,” she said. “Those are for tourists.”
“Ahh,” I said. “Figures. Your turn.”
“Okay… Hmm… what’s your favorite subject in school?”
I had to think about that one for a second. “Well … it used to be drama, but I’m not taking any electives any more. I’d have to answer English. I love writing.”
“Really? What do you write?”
“That’s two questions. It’s my turn.”
“Oh,” she said. She grinned. “Fair enough. Your turn.”
I tried to think of a good question, but it was hard. For one thing, she kept looking at me, and those eyes! Plus, I kept smelling a hint of strawberry. Why the hell did she smell like strawberries? Was it her hair? Whatever it was, it was tantalizing. This girl scared the hell out of me.
“What’s your favorite memory?”
She sat back and thought, then a beautiful, huge smile came across her face.
“Easy,” she said. “When I was ten, we were living in Moscow. And my father let me go for the first time to an official function. It was… glamorous. All the men and women were i
n ball gowns and tuxedos, and my mom took me out and got me fitted for my own gown. When the dancing started, my father took me out and danced with me.”
“Moscow? Holy shit! What were you doing there?”
“My dad was Foreign Service. And no fair, that’s an extra question.”
Her dad was in the Foreign Service, she said casually. Holy shit. Way out of my league.
“Oh, rats, sorry. Okay… you get two questions.”
“All right… What scares you more than anything else in the world?”
You do, I almost said.
I took a deep breath, then I said, honestly, “Ending up like my dad. He was a drunk.”
Her face took on a look of… sadness? Pity? I didn’t want pity. She changed the subject.
“What’s the best thing you’ve ever done?” she asked.
“The best thing? Hmm…” I had to think for a bit. I slowly mulled it over, then said, “I was homeless for a while. Dropped out of school. Anyway, sometimes I didn’t know where I was going to sleep, or get something to eat. One night I was riding on MARTA… that’s our subway… just back and forth, trying to get some sleep on the train before they shut down for the night. They shut down the train at 2 a.m., and I was stuck downtown, and I ran into a family. All of them were homeless, like me. Parents, two kids. The dad had lost his job. And I was working, and had a little bit of money. So I treated them to dinner at Waffle House. It wasn’t much… maybe twenty dollars. But you could tell the kids hadn’t been eating much at all. They were so… grateful.”
I squeezed my eyes shut. Those kids were… overwhelming. Overwhelming in their need, and in their love for their parents, and… just overwhelming.
Alex looked at me like I was from Mars. “You were homeless?” she asked, very quietly.
“No, that was already two questions. My turn.” I thought, then blurted out, “Why do you smell like strawberries?”
She blushed, a deep red. Oh. My. God. Why did I ask that? Idiot!
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