by Sarra Cannon
“I had to check in at the office and got slapped with some paperwork while I was there. By the time I called, your phone was punting me straight to voicemail so I got Mable to tell me which cases she pulled for you.” His gaze touched on the container. “You weren’t at the quarry looking for Burke, so I drove out here.”
“I turned off my phone.” Fae hearing being what it was, I preferred scouting situations without the risk of a poorly timed ring or buzz. It was a habit I had picked up from him, actually.
“No one else has gotten a house call from this guy. Whoever we’re after knows you’re a death-touched fae now.” He hesitated. “He’s probably following you around hoping you’ll drop someone else.”
I grimaced. Great. My own personal scavenger.
“Until we draw a bead on this guy, I don’t want you following up on any leads without backup, okay?”
“Sure.” As long as he kept off Mom’s lawn. “No problem.”
“Grab my hand.” He stuck out his arm. “I’ll pull you out.”
“I don’t need your help.” I kept wading toward the closest edge. “It’s not that deep.”
“Suit yourself.” He released his grip. A second later his soles smacked the ground.
With no one to watch me humiliate myself, I belly-flopped onto the sticky cans to give my body as much surface as possible, then wriggled my way forward until my fingertips brushed warm metal. I pulled myself up the side of the container and swung one leg over its lip and then the other.
When I let go and fell, instead of hitting pavement, I hit a very warm body.
“Watch that last step.” Shaw pressed me against his chest. “It’s a doozy.”
I squirmed, which got me exactly nowhere. “Put me down.”
“All you had to do was ask.” He set me on my feet, his hand sliding through my hair. “Hold still and let me...” He flashed a metal tab with a few black strands dangling from it. “There we go.” He glanced around the vacant parking lot. “So, you’re here for Mathew Davis.”
I didn’t like the glint in his eye when I nodded a confirmation.
“A case brought me out two years ago.” He shook his head. “A hob died here.”
Nothing for it, I had to ask. “How?”
“Davis’s version of the story was the guy fell into the compacter. The hob’s wife saw it happen, and she’s the one who called the conclave. She said Davis pushed the guy. They’d been playing that weird-ass form of hobgoblin polo, and Davis’s mount—her husband—stumbled over a mallet handle and they face planted. Davis lost the match and, according to her, took the loss out on her husband.”
I frowned. “That wasn’t in his file.”
“Davis was cleared of all charges.” Shaw seemed unsurprised. “According to his file, he has no priors. But two guys I worked with at the time had each been out here for minor disturbances.”
That meant I could kiss my easy money goodbye. “I appreciate the heads-up.”
The straightforward approach had ended with me tossed out on my ass in front of Shaw, who had taught me better, which made the incident ten times more humiliating. Time to reevaluate.
The edge of his lips curved in anticipation of a smile. “I can help, if you want.”
“That’s all right.” I dusted myself off. “I can take it from here.”
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I took it all right. Three more times I entered the building and three more times the hobs booted me out the door. By the time I stomped across the parking lot to where Shaw sat in the bright cab of his mammoth truck, the fingers on my left hand were itching. When I reached him, he silenced his radio.
He scanned me head to toe. “You’re hurt.”
I touched my busted top lip, wincing like an idiot. Of course it hurt. Davis had headbutted me, and the wound was taking its sweet time mending. Must be some kind of allergic reaction to hobgoblin.
“It will heal.” The scrapes and bruises were already mending. “That is one mean little bastard.”
Shaw propped his elbow in his open window and set his chin on his palm. “My offer still stands.”
“Good.” My shoulders slumped, knowing I wouldn’t have to ask outright. “I appreciate it.”
“I’ll help. I’ll even let you keep the bounty…” he opened his door and joined me on the asphalt, “…if you agree to have dinner with me.”
“No dice.” I backed away slowly. “We just agreed—”
“It’s not like that.” He held up his hands, palms out. “Nothing romantic. Just business.”
“Oh.” I squared my shoulders. “In that case, sure, I can do dinner.”
He strolled past me, hands in his pockets, grin on his face as he headed for the recycling center.
Shaw called over his shoulder, “Do you remember the first thing I told you about incubi?”
I didn’t have to think about it. “They’ll say anything to get in my pants.”
The scent of patchouli drifted in his wake. “Exactly.”
Chapter 9
Whistles and catcalls blasted us as Shaw and I entered the recycling center. I cocked an eyebrow at him, but Shaw had gone bye-bye. Tendrils of mist clouded his pupils until his eyes were white voids. His complexion paled. Veins in his face and neck grew more pronounced, pulsing bright blue beneath his skin. The hand nearest me quivered while bone-white claws sprouted from the tips of his fingers.
A shiver of anticipation tingled through my limbs. Somehow it was a comfort seeing handsome Shaw appearing every bit as monstrous as I sometimes felt on the inside. He looked too normal, too perfect, and I was relieved to be reminded he wasn’t. Not at all. He was pure fae, pure trouble…pure temptation.
The first time I saw him like this, bare and real, I asked him out afterward.
Of course, I had been thirteen at the time. He let me down easy by promising we would revisit the topic once I was legal. He had been trying to make me feel better by proving I wasn’t alone in my otherness. Compared to his chilling transformation, the runes gradually creeping up my arm were only a minor tell that I wasn’t one hundred percent human, no matter how much I once wished I was.
Davis kept his back turned until he made his goal then faced us with his makeshift bat raised.
“This is the last time, girlie.” He paused while his gaze swept over Shaw. “You look familiar.”
A low rumble of sound from Shaw filled the sudden quiet. “You made her bleed.”
I’m not sure which of us was more stunned—Davis or me. I’m betting me. I bled all the time. It was an occupational hazard.
“I asked her nicely to come back later.” Davis’s throat flexed. “You ought to teach her—”
“If you finish with my place,” I snarled, “I’m going to peel your hide like a moldy banana.”
Shaw’s lips curved in my direction. It wasn’t a pretty smile. It was tinged with hunger and made me desperate to cross my legs or invest in a full-body chastity belt. A chastity suit? Was that a thing?
His attention riveted on Davis. “Apologize.”
Davis folded his twiggy arms across his barrel chest. “I won’t.”
A gentle breeze teased flyaway hairs into my eyes. The earthy scent it carried made water pool in my mouth. When the lure hooked the other hobs, cheers for Shaw grew deafening. Davis swiped his mouth with the back of his arm. His chest pumped harder, his nostrils flaring as he inflated his lungs.
“Shaw.” I reached for him. “It’s not a big deal. Let’s slap a restraining Word on him and go.”
Forget handcuffs. Not only were some fae allergic to metals other than iron, they were a pain to keep on hand. It was smarter to use one of the conclave-sanctioned binding Words to subdue unruly suspects than risk lawsuits later. Fae may not be human, but they sure loved the mortal court system.
Where I touched Shaw’s arm, those fingertips sizzled. I jerked back and flung my hand until the skin regenerated. This was not good. This was an incubus in meltdown. Grinding my teeth, I grabbed him.
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“Can I talk to you outside?” The smell of burning flesh turned my stomach.
Shaw glanced down where we touched, and the fire in his flesh extinguished. “I— Sure.”
I looped my arm through his, half dragging him from the building. Partway to the nearest exit, I shot a warning glare at Davis. “You’ve got five minutes. Say your goodbyes and make your arrangements.”
“Five minutes.” He bobbed his head while keeping an eye on Shaw. “That’ll do.”
Damn skippy it would.
Once outside, I ushered Shaw toward his truck and backed him against the rear fender.
“What the hell was that?” I pinned his shoulder. “I’ll tell you what it wasn’t—helpful.”
“Sorry.” His eyes were clearing. “I wasn’t myself back there.”
“Is something…?” I wasn’t sure how to phrase it, if I had the right to ask. “Are you okay?”
His hand reached up to cover mine. “I’m hungry, that’s all.”
“You’re hungry?” He used to last days between feedings. “You just fed.”
His color returned as his jaw took on a stubborn set.
I exhaled through my teeth. Not my problem. His diet was his issue.
“Go eat.” I stepped back. “I’ll wrap up here.” I remembered his offer to let me keep the full bounty. “I’ll keep your name off the paperwork.”
“I appreciate it.” He ducked his head. “About dinner…?”
“Sure.” If I gave Davis much longer, he might catch a second wind. “Why not?”
Behind me I heard Shaw climb into his truck and slam the door. The engine turned over, and he sat there idling. I didn’t look back, didn’t check and didn’t ask why he hadn’t peeled out of the parking lot.
While Davis was feeling compliant, I went inside and read him his rights, which he recited along with me. Why, no. That never gets old. I bound him from inflicting harm or escaping then I shoved him into my car.
Not for the first time, I wished the conclave would assign us take-home cars so my personal vehicle wasn’t subjected to bare butt cheeks. I used to tuck blankets over the rear bench seat, but all that accomplished was letting suspects know how gross I found the prospect of their various body parts contacting the fabric. Once they realized that, they made a point of rubbing themselves all over the seat. Now I just let it go. Dripping blood, weeping pus or otherwise leaking bodily fluids? Great. Hop on in and sit on down.
Amazing how little they cared about wrecking my property if I gave the impression I didn’t care either. Shutting the door behind Davis, I blocked out all thoughts except those of the bonus I was about to receive. There would be too few zeroes to compensate for this, but I needed the cash.
Lately, even after taking so many crap cases, I always owed more than I made.
I mean, I could tell Mom the truth. That when I hit eighteen and accepted conclave employment, the support payments to her for raising a magically gifted minor had stopped. But she had a newly minted bank note for her car, and she loved it. Losing that income meant she lost the mini Cooper.
I could last a while longer, a few more payments at least.
Mom lost everything when the conclave swooped in and cleaned up my mess. Her home, her career, her friends—her whole life—gone. Her part-time gig at the local animal shelter wouldn’t come close to paying her rent or her loan. Since I got her into this mess, the least I could do was keep those support payments going to her, even if they were deducted from my paycheck.
With Mai as a roomie and Mable willing to assign me high-risk cases, I made ends meet for us both. It might not always be enough, but it worked for now. I would worry about later when it got here.
Chapter 10
After leaving Mable with Davis and a jar of avocado honey, I received my second bonus check in as many days to deposit at the bank. Flush with green, I felt zero guilt when I grabbed a pizza from Marco’s for dinner. The man was a saint for keeping fae hours even though his restaurant was located on the human side of town. His wife was a banshee, which explained his soft spot for things that went bump late at night and craved hot pie after midnight.
Usually I resisted the temptation to splurge—I had learned the hard way it was either feast or famine with this job—but after my crap day I needed some three-cheese therapy.
At my building, I rode the elevator to my second-floor apartment with the pizza balanced on one forearm and the six pack of ginger beer I almost tasted dangling from the fingers of my other hand. I sneezed as a wisp of scent tickled my nose and brought a flush to my cheeks. Too many fresh smells overlapped for me to get a clear read, but the hairs on the back of my neck lifted.
The elevator doors parted, revealing my hallway…and the incubus waiting by my door.
I scanned the hallway then joined him cautiously. “What are you doing here?”
His shoulder rested against the doorframe, his hair wet and slicked back. His jeans and shirt smelled of the laundry detergent I used while we were dating. Still used, actually. Shaw wearing my scent woke some primal part of me I wish had been left to lie.
His gaze touched on my food. “You said yes to dinner.”
I had, hadn’t I?
Note to self: Make better life choices.
“I got the files you emailed.” I nudged him out of the way. “I haven’t gone over them yet.”
A somber note entered his voice. “This isn’t about that.”
I studied him. “If this is about us, dinner is cancelled and your check will be in the mail tomorrow along with an amendment to my statement corroborated by Davis.”
Shaw clamped his wide palm on the back of his neck. “This is serious, Thierry.”
“Fine.” I passed him the beer to free up a hand while I dug the keys out of my pants pocket. “Ten minutes.”
“Share your pizza,” he offered, “and I’ll pay for it.”
“You can talk and eat that fast?” I accepted his nod as a challenge. “Deal.”
Bent over the greasy box, he inhaled. “Pepperoni and onion?”
“With three cheeses.” I twisted my key. “Come on in.”
Shaw stood on the threshold with an odd expression in place.
“I give up.” I swept my gaze around the room. “What are we looking at?”
“Nothing.” He stepped inside and turned a slow circle. “I like what you’ve done with the place.”
Our mismatched furnishings consisted of cherry blossom hand-me-downs from Mai’s sisters and cow skull accents from Mom’s Gothic Western period. Our theme was a little something I called love blossoms in the desert.
“It’s home.” I led him toward the couch and unloaded the pizza from his arms onto the coffee table. I set the ginger beer on top to make sure he didn’t start without me then went to scrub the hob cooties off my hands in the sink. “Mai will be home soon. If you want to keep this private, you better start talking.”
He plopped onto the couch, opened a bottle of beer with his keychain and set it on a coaster two feet down the table. “Fair enough.”
He didn’t make another peep while I dried my hands and grabbed extra paper towels and two plates. I dropped onto the cushion beside him, moved the case of beer and plated us two slices each. One look at his grave expression, and I forced the open beer on him. He looked like he could use a drink, even if this brand was nonalcoholic.
Fae like us rarely drank the hard stuff. Lowered inhibitions mixed with our lethal powers made for a dangerous cocktail. I murmured appreciatively when he cracked one open for me. Sometimes it was nice having a man around the house. Or his bottle opener at least.
“When I left,” he began in a subdued voice, “it wasn’t for the reason you think.”
I bit into a slice, not regretting the charge for extra toppings at all. “Oh?”
He sat there holding the bottle, peeling the damp label with his thumb. “I’m dying.”
A shocked gasp sucked the pizza down my throat, and I choked until my eyes wa
tered and coughed up the murderous slice of pepperoni clogging my windpipe. “What?” I wheezed.
Concern knitted his brow like he hadn’t just dropped a bomb on my head and watched it explode, but he didn’t say the words again.
“You can’t…” Turned out I couldn’t say them either. “You’re only what—fifty or sixty years old?”
“Seventy-two,” he corrected.
Chills walked on mouse feet up my spine. “What’s wrong?”
“I had sex with someone.”
I didn’t like where this was heading.
“She…fed from me while I was feeding from her.”
I shifted uncomfortably. “Fed how?”
“Green light.” He continued the methodical peeling of the label. “Palm to my chest.”
Memories of that night washed over me, flushing my skin and shortening my breath.
Shaw loomed over me, his hips wedged between mine. I traced the hard curve of his right pectoral with my fingertip before placing my left palm over his racing heart. He slid inside me, growling my name, holding me so tight I couldn’t breathe, and then he shouted. Not in pleasure, not in pain, but in horror.
That night desire had ignited my magic. I don’t know why or what was different that time from all the others. All I know is instead of sliding off him, my power latched on and fed. Fear I would drink him down, panic that my grim history was repeating, was enough to save him.
That time.
There wasn’t a next time. Answers were hard to come by, and I was too scared sex with me would kill him. Turned out I worried for nothing. I found him a week later playing naked Twister with five harpy sisters. He hadn’t even locked the door. Who cheats on their girlfriend without locking the door?
The next day I paid a local human witch to spell a leather glove with a Word. No more accidents for me. Not with Shaw or anyone else. The witch had enough fae blood in her family tree to give its branches a little zing but was so far removed she was mortal. I could have used a fae, but they live for centuries, and I took comfort knowing my secrets would die with her.
Sick to my core, I whispered, “I’m sorry.”