by Alexa Davis
Never have I felt anything like the cold hatred I felt for that woman as she looked to me for sympathy while she described exactly how she violated me. I didn’t want the money she got from the picture and Nick sure as hell doesn’t need it, but it seems the cops don’t allow a person to profit from their crime.
So, these two ladies on my chest are responsible for the state of New York being two million bucks richer, or at least they will be once they convict. I don’t mind that part, I guess. I never cared about the money.
Now, I’m just waiting for Nick to get home.
The night I got here, I was tired and achy. After Amelie left to go do whatever it is people in custody do, I didn’t feel much like leaving my guest room for a few days. Now it’s been a week, though, and I’m starting to get curious.
The beach house was gorgeous with its enormous and open main room, and I would like to tour those hallways and see if there’s any justification for having so many rooms in a vacation home. It’s the penthouse, though, where Nick’s wealth is a bit more apparent.
I pull out my phone and search the internet to see if there’s anything about Nick’s homes. When it comes back with multiple articles, each claiming and inside look at the home of the Nikolai Scipio, any doubt I had left that I was now in a different world evaporates.
Nick’s told me about his different places, but he never went into that much detail. He was always more interested in telling me what’s around the various locales he rests his head than the mansions, penthouses—apparently there’s another one in Seattle—beach homes, and vacation homes themselves.
I’d better start getting used to this if it’s going to become a larger part of my life.
Scrolling through the many articles, I find one about “The New York Penthouse,” and I open the page.
It seems the floor isn’t just a floor; it’s also pressure sensitive and heated. I hadn’t noticed it until I’m reading about it on the internet, but there is an unnaturally natural feel to the temperature of the floor. The article says the pressure sensitivity is a security feature, though I’m less interested in that.
The shower I’ve been using since I got here comes with a few features I had no idea even existed. My personal favorite is how if you touch one area of one wall, just a bit above my shoulder height, an LED menu comes up on the shower glass.
From the menu, you can control anything from the shower pressure or temperature to a stereo with hidden speakers but incredible sound, and even catch a live stream of the inside of Stingray’s board room, though that’s password protected.
That one’s not in the article.
I’m running through the eight different kinds of marble contained in each tile around the hidden pool area—that might have been more a secret if Nick hadn’t shown it to everyone with a video camera and a website—when I hear the sound of footsteps coming down the hall.
“Ellie?” Nick calls, and I slither my way through the hidden door and through the walk-in pantry I first mistook as a prototype minimart. Closing the pantry door behind me, I walk through the palatial kitchen, go down the hall, take a right and come out, finally, in the living room where Nick is hanging up his suit coat.
“Hey, you,” I say. “How was work?”
“Oh, you know,” he says, loosening his tie, “just another day closer to my inevitable banishment and the justifiably angry mob that’s probably going to blame me for some reason when Stingray fires all of them. How was your day?”
“It was okay, I guess,” I answer.
“You didn’t turn the TV on, did you?” he asks. “I’m telling you, the first few days are always the worst, but if it helps at all, there’s some good news.”
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard you say the words good news before,” I smirk. “What happened?”
“Well,” he says, “you remember how I said the whole thing was going to backfire?”
“Yeah,” I answer. It was right before the most disrespectful, yet strangely gratifying thing I’ve ever done.
He says, “Well, it looks like the public is so upset that this happened, they’re blaming it on the board. I don’t even remember the last time anyone in the news talked about a board of directors, but there they are going through each and every one of them, listing possible motives. It’s all hypothetical, so the board can’t do anything about it.”
“I’m glad my humiliating ordeal has been so beneficial for you,” I say.
The smile fades from Nick’s face, and he’s sputtering, “That’s not what I—that’s not the way I intended it. I just meant, you know, it’s a small amount of vindication. Everyone’s on your side. Even the tabloids have shifted their focus away from the picture itself or any statement about you and me to the bastards who—”
“Nick,” I say, “relax. You got more than your fair share of jabs when I first got here. I’m just taking my pound of flesh, cut by cut.”
“We have some stuff to work out, don’t we?” he asks. “Are you ready to go to dinner? We can cancel and eat in if you’d prefer to talk, just you and me.”
“Weren’t we going to meet some of your friends tonight?” I ask.
The last time I met some of Nick’s friends, it was one of the most thrilling experiences of my life. Of course, I hadn’t really begun adjusting to this life, so maybe now I’d be less impressed.
Who am I kidding? I wonder if Ryan Reynolds is going to be there.
So we go to dinner. I’m a little disappointed when we walk up to the table and I don’t recognize anyone, but it’s probably better that way. Now I don’t have to worry so much about making an idiot of myself.
“Ellie, I’d like you to meet Tim Pratchett, he owns Minder Media and can’t hit a golf ball straight to save his life,” Nick says. “And this is his wife Darla, who you may know from the World Health Organization. Tim, Darla, this is Ellie.”
I shake two deceptively important hands and Nick pulls out my chair. Nick and I sit down at the table.
For a while, I’m just sitting there, not quite sure what to say or how to add to a conversation between these people.
Oh, so the last time you saw the President of the United States, he neglected to give you a pen from that historic bill he signed, huh? Well, I recently replaced the front window of the junk shop I own in a place you’ve only heard of because Nick seemingly upset the whole world when he wanted to move his multibillion dollar company there.
Yeah, I know what that’s like.
After a few minutes, though, I realize that when I do speak, nobody looks at me like an idiot or as if I’m missing some massive part of what they’re talking about. No, Tim and Darla speak and act surprisingly like regular people.
Until the food arrives, Nick, Darla, and Tim are just catching up, but as soon as the first fork goes into the first piece of real Japanese Kobe beef, the conversation, strangely, turns to me.
Darla leans forward saying, “I was so distressed when I heard what that cleaning woman did to you.” She says it in a whisper as if there’s anyone at the tables around us who isn’t aware of the scandal.
I’m a part of a scandal. That’s actually kind of cool, except for the obvious.
“Thanks,” I say.
“Yes,” Tim says, “I heard they had that woman arrested, but I say she should have been shot doing something like that, and in your sleep!”
I’m being bucked-up by two of the more important people on the planet. It almost makes up for everything.
“Well, I asked Nick here if that would be a possibility—having her shot—but he told me there’s all kinds of paperwork,” I answer.
They laugh. I’m actually making these people laugh.
“How charming!” Tim says, and while it’s not exactly how I’d characterize my remarks, I’m more than happy to be called charming by this man.
I look over at Nick, who gives me a nod of approval, and in spite of everything, I feel pretty good about myself right now.
Tim says, “I don�
��t know a great deal about what kind of work you do, but if you’re ever interested in changing careers, we could use someone like you on the board at Minder. The people we have now are among the most apathetic, timid masses of quivering flesh in the media business. What we could use is someone with your type of gumption.”
“You know, Tim,” I say, “if I weren’t certain you were just trying to hit on my boyfriend’s pocketbook the long way round, there, I’d consider it.”
Whoa. Oh, please tell me I didn’t just say that. Here we are having a perfectly amicable dinner and that’s what comes out? “Hit on my boyfriend’s pocketbook.” What does that even mean?
The table is silent for a second and Nick places a hand on my upper thigh. The gesture is hidden by the table, but I feel no less exposed.
Then it happens. It starts with Darla, but within a few moments, Tim and even Nick are boisterously guffawing. I smile and squeeze out a few chuckles, but I’m the death row prisoner getting a last minute call from the governor.
Under the table, I find Nick’s hand with my own and give it a squeeze.
Wiping his eyes, Tim says, “Nick, she’s a firecracker. You hang onto her.”
“I plan to,” Nick says and smiles.
The rest of the dinner is me finding not just my confidence, but my ability to feel confident. It’s funny how people draw these imaginary lines between themselves and anyone they see as somehow different, but after sitting down to dinner with the kind of people that are supposed to have everyone peeing their pants, I’m finally starting to feel like there’s somewhere I belong.
When we get home, I’m not thinking about the picture. I’m not thinking about the store or what I’m going to do with it, and I’m not thinking about all the fickle people who find it so easy to hate me. For the first time since that shopping trip on Fifth, I actually feel comfortable in my own skin again.
Nick’s quiet, though.
I go to the kitchen and fix up a couple of drinks and Nick follows me into the kitchen.
“You all right?” I ask after a few minutes pass without a word spoken between us.
“Yeah,” he says. “I don’t know, I guess I just didn’t expect dinner to go the way it did.”
I stop pouring the vodka and look up at him.
“What do you mean?” I ask. “Were you hoping the evening was a disaster?”
“No,” he says, “not at all. I just mean, you know, you were different tonight.”
“I know,” I say, “isn’t it great?”
He says, “I’m glad you got along with Tim and Darla, but—”
“But what?” I ask. “I thought it was a wonderful evening.”
“It was fine,” he says, “it’s just—” His cell phone starts to ring in his pocket. He pulls it out and looks to see who’s calling. “I’m sorry,” he says. “This should just take a minute.”
Whatever’s got his panties all in a bunch, I feel great about the evening.
Nick answers the phone and moseys out of the room while I finish up making what I’ve decided to call a vodka sunrise martini. I was shooting for something else, but mixing drinks isn’t quite my forté.
I’m sipping and cringing when Nick comes back into the kitchen. “That was Marly,” he says, “there’s a problem at the office and I’m going to have to get over there for a little bit. Are you all right here?”
“Yeah,” I tell him. “Me and this place are becoming fast friends.”
Nick leaves and I’m finally able to pour out my drink. All of the flavors would have been okay individually, but together—I don’t even know how it happened, but it tasted like a cat burp.
Blech.
I spend a while looking at the amethyst countertops in one of the bathrooms, but the liquor I did manage to choke down is making me lightheaded.
I’d probably be fine, but the floor in here is a bit disorienting since an article I found guided me to the floor projection control. There’s no reasonable excuse for me to select a live feed from an orbiting satellite for my floor-viewing pleasure, but the Earth is spinning beneath me. Twice.
Fumbling with the controls, I finally give up and crawl out of there. Once there’s a less interesting floor beneath me, my vertigo begins to fade. I’m still lightheaded, though, so after slowly rising to my feet, I find Nick’s bedroom.
We haven’t exactly “reconnected” since I’ve been back, and while sex is unlikely tonight, it’d be nice to feel him sleeping next to me.
I hedge my bet and dress down to my underwear. Slipping under the covers, I feel like I’m lying on a cloud, assuming that cloud was also warm and safe and perfectly supported every inch of my body like a womb. That’s it. The mattress feels like a womb if a womb wasn’t closed off and messy. It’s kind of like what it’d be like sleeping on a cloud in a womb on another cloud.
Maybe I am a little drunk.
As I drift off, my thoughts play over fantastical visions of lavish cocktail parties and all the glorious excess I’ve been telling myself I’m somehow morally above. Tim and Darla would be there, of course. That gentleman from Microsoft, perhaps he’d be there as well. I’m especially interested in his charity work.
I wake up feeling a little silly, the memory of how I drifted off still somehow fresh in my mind. The next moment, the covers on the other half of the bed are being pulled back and Nick is climbing into bed.
It occurs to me Nick might not be where I am. He’s been much more amiable since Amelie and that mess, but when I first got here, he had some things on his mind and we haven’t hashed them all out yet.
In a whisper, he asks, “Are you awake?”
Not knowing how to answer, I say nothing. My back is to him. Still, I feel exposed lying here.
My act of doing nothing apparently does the trick, though, and he settles in not too close, but not too far from me.
“It’s hard, you know,” he says, whispering. “There are some things I’ve wanted to tell you for so long and when I finally work up the courage to say them, you don’t want to hear them. If I don’t say them to you sooner than later, I’m going to go crazy. Maybe this will have to do until you can trust me enough to hear it.”
Could be I’m still dreaming. I open my mouth slightly to see if the motion feels real, but I didn’t brush my teeth before bed. My eyes start watering, the inside of my nose burning. I’m awake all right.
I close my eyes, but only after I close my mouth. Yeah, sex is not an option tonight.
Not feeling the usual dip in the mattress as he moves, I’m nearly startled “awake” when I hear Nick breathing so close to me. My eyes are closed. His lips softly brush against my forehead, and he returns to lie somewhere at least a foot away from me, though it’s impossible to tell with precision just how far.
This bed is fantastic.
“What I wanted to tell you,” he whispers, “is that we didn’t meet in the store. I didn’t just happen to spot you through the window. I know you don’t recognize me and you may not even remember me, but we went to school together for a while back in eighth grade.”
I feel like I should say something, but I can’t move.
He whispers, “At the office, everyone’s heard me say at least one quote from my dad. They’re great for inspiring fear and discipline, but the truth is I hated my dad. It’s easy to turn a threat into advice if you word it right.
“We were always moving and I was an alien to everyone I met. As soon as I’d get to where I almost had the courage to try to reach out and maybe make some friends, dad would get new orders. We were never allowed to argue. Orders are orders, and I get that. Even where I was supposed to get some sense of comfort, or at least belonging, though, was just praying dad wasn’t home. If he was, all I could do was pray he was in a good mood. He wasn’t in a good mood often.
“There was a lot of stuff that I don’t want to talk about from back then, but after a while, everything was just so bleak,” he murmurs. He takes a breath.
Does he know I’m aw
ake?
He whispers, “When we were in school, I knew who you were, or at least I’d seen you, but we hadn’t crossed paths except in the halls between classes. I was so young and it was so stupid, but at that point in my life, it just didn’t seem like there was any point in going on. Things at home kept getting worse and those who did know who I was at Mulholland Junior High were just brutal. Whether it was because I was the new kid or because I never said anything, it didn’t matter. It feels a little stupid thinking about it now, but back then, that was all I saw. Truth is, it was stupid, but you get beaten down in so many ways, you start believing you deserve it.
“That doesn’t matter now, though,” he mutters. “All that’s lead up, but you’re not awake.” He waits a beat. “Are you?”
I’ve already waited too long, so I don’t respond.
“The first time we ever spoke, I had my belt off and I was standing on a milk crate beneath the limb of one of the oak trees way back behind the school. It was already summer and no one was there, I figured it’d be the best place to get some privacy,” he whispers. “I was holding the belt and just starting to thread the end through the buckle before attaching one end to the tree and the other around neck and I heard footsteps coming through the dry leaves.
“When you first saw me, I was sitting on the milk crate, trying to put my belt back through my belt loops,” he stifles laughter. “It didn’t work so well. When you came around that last tree and saw me, you stopped. I figured I was caught, or at very least that whatever was going to happen would only be more reason to climb back up on that crate once you’d gone again.”
My heart is slamming against my ribcage. I remember him, only his name wasn’t Nick or Nikolai or Nicholas or anything like that. The man lying next to me hardly bears any resemblance to that scrawny little kid with the glasses so thick his eyes looked twice as big as normal. Still, when I saw something familiar in his eyes, is that was I was remembering?
“That didn’t happen, though,” he continues. “You just said, ‘Come on,’ and kept on walking through the trees. I didn’t know what else to do, so I stood up, finally got my belt around my waist and followed you. I don’t think I talked once that first time we went for one of those walks, but I didn’t need to. Right from that moment, it was like you and I had grown up together or something, only I’d somehow forgotten everything I knew about you and you had to fill me in again.”