by Sean Platt
“You know all of this, of course, but I lived through it. What most of you studied, I saw firsthand. Organa was an answer — a group dedicated to turning away. To conscious and conscientious moderation. Humanity constantly drifts toward an easier life, and sometime over the past hundred years, it became more important, for most people, for life to become easier than to respect nature’s way. So when you joined us, you should have been asking yourself, ‘Is it right to stop and accept a more difficult life if it means keeping the balance?’ We have our initiatives, yes, but mostly, until now, in the Organa most of you know, we have simply lived. Or, to play with the words, ‘We have lived simply.’ Organa, at heart, hasn’t been about action. It has been about existence. Self-denial in the pursuit of a better life. We moved away, and some of us came and went into the city, and some of us were more orthodox than others, and some of us occasionally cheated. I know that many of you have handhelds. I don’t care! What matters is that you came here to take steps that others weren’t willing to because you believe that humanity’s default is wrong. You are not here to change the world, but to change yourselves. And that, in time, en masse, may change the world.”
Leo paused to assess the crowd’s mood. He was giving a hyped-up, idealized version of the Organa mission statement. It wasn’t strictly true, even today, that Organa wasn’t trying to subvert the modern world through hacker efforts like Leah’s. But the moment was desperate for drama, so Leo chose his arguments and gave the crowd what they needed. Panic was an emotion, and only emotion was strong enough to conquer emotion. Leo had a place to steer them, but doing so required a sense of unity and of strength. If they were here because they’d once sought self-denial, then denying themselves full doses of Lunis for a little longer should be easier — and congruent with their most closely held identities.
“You didn’t come here to take dust!” said Leo. “Remember that when you fear a shortage. When you begin to fret about not having enough. We are Organa because we believe in conscious choice, not because Organa is a fashion. Dust is part of our culture, but only as an accelerant. A booster. We say, ‘Moondust will show us truths that The Beam cannot,’ and in a way, it’s true. It shows us real life. It shows us the way that humanity is meant to be! But once you move beyond addiction, are you here for the drugs? Or are you here because you believe?”
Leo raised his fist, and to the crowd’s credit, a few followed his lead with fists of their own. Two or three shouted their belief, but the response was still falling well short of Leo’s hopes. When he’d rehearsed this speech, he’d imagined a more enthusiastic reception. He needed them fired up if they were to face what was coming. He needed fist-pumping emotion. He needed the recognition that they were more than conformists wearing uniforms of the disenfranchised. Now more than ever, Leo needed the sense of individualism and righteousness Organa was supposed to stand for in order to claim its due.
But instead of growing in fervor, the crowd merely stirred. The few raised fists fell moments after realizing they were the only ones saluting.
After a few seconds, a woman stood. She had blonde hair tied back in a ponytail and large earrings dangling from each ear.
“How low is the dust supply?” she asked.
“Low, but under control,” Leo lied.
“I think we need numbers,” she said. “Break it down. How many people for how many weeks?”
“Weeks?” said a second voice. A thin man across the room looked shocked when eyes turned toward him. He seemed to retreat then continued without standing. “I heard it was down to days.”
“Days?” said a new, panicky voice. Before Leo could turn to see who it was, others began speaking from every direction.
“How many days?”
“What about the emergency reserves? Surely we have an emergency stash, right? We can’t just be depending on…”
“Of course not. That would be stupid. How much is in the…?”
“Are we that low, Leo? Tell the truth!”
“Quiet!” Scooter bellowed, standing. His face was angry for a moment then softened into its usual vacant docility. The crowd stopped yammering and froze, hands up, half-standing, some fully standing. It was enough of a window for Leo to take a step forward, but not quite enough to speak. An older man near the back beat him to it.
“We trusted you to handle this all for us, Leo,” said the man. His tone was lecturing, almost I-told-you-so.
At the front, Leo said, “You are all always free to find your own supplies rather than relying on…”
“It’s not like you get it for free!” Scooter yelled. He probably thought he was helping, but instead gave the hecklers a present. Some chattered about village dues — essentially maintenance taxes — and reviving the tired argument that a base Lunis dose should be provided as part of their coverage because dust was an Organa need, same as mowed grass and waste management.
“Easy, Scooter,” said Leo. “I’ll handle this.”
“Doesn’t sound like you’re handling shit!” said the blonde who’d spoken earlier. She was answered by several murmurs of agreement.
“Hang on, hang on,” said Leo. “The village is its own thing, separate from all of us, and it’s up to every individual member of the group to…”
“You have to let us know!” said a new woman, younger than the first. “It’s not easy to get into the city, you know! We rely on the dispensary having what we need when…”
“I pay my dues!” said a man with blue-streaked hair.
“Dues don’t cover Lunis!” said the woman. Then, just as quickly as she’d hopped onto Leo’s side, she hopped onto the other, turning an angry face toward front. “That’s our only store for it, Leo! What are we supposed to do, get on the fucking mag train and roll to DZ station? We’re Organas!”
“You’re human beings!” Scooter yelled. “Should he spoon-feed you, too?”
“Sit down, Scooter!”
Scooter turned toward the voice, and something hit him in the arm. It was a bag of something dirty — either newly picked vegetables or possibly dirt.
“All of you, sit!” Leo yelled.
The room stopped and looked toward the front. Leo felt his own nerves threatening to snap from strain and withdrawal, but as the group’s eyes met his, he saw the same emotions staring back. They weren’t falling into line. Leo had always wielded a breed of elder authority here. He had always commanded their respect. But he saw almost none of that now. Instead, he saw adversaries staring up in betrayal, their eyes a mixture of fury and hurt, honed to a killing edge by deprivation.
But they did, slowly, quiet and sit in their chairs. With effort, all heads turned to the front. Frowns stayed on faces, but at least they were watching. It was a start.
“We’ve always stocked the dispensary,” said Leo, forcing his voice to stay level despite his urge to scream at the ungrateful group — despite his urge to challenge them to come at him one by one. He still had old weapons beneath his skin, and was seized by a sudden desire to show them off. He’d started this group. He’d provided for them. And right now, he only wanted to shut it down.
But that was just nerves talking.
Leo closed his eyes, breathed fully, and started again. He didn’t need to solve this problem now. He wasn’t supposed to save the day; he was just supposed to fight the ticking clock. His goal was to buy time. Anger and rage in the Organas could be useful, if it was properly channeled.
“We’ve always stocked the dispensary,” he repeated, “but our supply has become intermittent through no fault of anyone’s — mine or anyone else’s.” He looked out, feeling a pulse in his temple. Maintaining the village’s supply had always been his burden alone. The others had simply consumed the illegal substance like cows grazing on grass, never once showing any gratitude for the risks he took. “We’ve always made it clear that if you have an addiction — I’m sorry; if you’re a ‘practitioner’ — ” He snarled the euphemism with all the loathing he could summon, “ — then
village leadership has always maintained that it’s ultimately your responsibility to find what you nee…” He reset. “What you want…on your own.”
A broad-shouldered man named William stood in the crowd’s middle. Leo knew William to be rational but direct — exactly the personality who’d see Leo’s bullshit as bullshit then calmly call him on it.
“That’s all true, Leo,” he said, “but you know as well as anyone that what’s said and what’s done are two different things. For as long as I’ve been here, we’ve heard that message officially…but always understood, as a day-to-day reality, that the dispensary would provide what we needed.”
“Yes, but…” Leo began.
William cut him off. “But nothing. You’re good to us, Leo, and I respect all that you do to keep this community running. But don’t pretend we’re not all addicts, and that we’ve become dependent on a single source for our drug.”
“Well…”
“How many people here would know where — or even how — to score dust in the city? Half of us don’t have IDs. Are we supposed to all walk to the train, argue our way on, then head in to top off?”
Leo sighed.
“But that’s all moot now, isn’t it?” William continued, twisting the knife. “Because if it were only a matter of going into the city, you’d have sent someone already.”
Leo’s shoulders sagged. Damn William’s levelheaded logic. It was all true. It might be possible to pick up a few rocks here and there in DZ’s alleyways, but Lunis wasn’t like most street drugs. It wasn’t widely used outside the Organa community, and was considered a specialty substance — almost a highbrow, intellectual habit. Few dealers carried it. Need for moondust was mostly compartmentalized in groups like Leo’s, so the only truly viable dealers were wholesalers. Like Omar.
The crowd was beginning to bubble again, this time with more than raw anger. Now the mood was pocked with the worry that came when a person first truly realized the depths of a situation’s danger. He would have to tell the full truth after all then hope he could gather the pieces where they fell.
“Okay,” he said, nodding to acknowledge William’s point and holding his hands up in a way that was half-conciliatory, half-pacifying. “Fine. It’s true. We’re low, and the known supply is more or less the only game in town.”
“How much is left?” yelled the blonde.
“A few days.”
The room began to boil over, now threatening eruption. Leo could sense worn seams ready to rip. They’d all heard rumors about the horrors of withdrawal, and they’d all started to feel the first signs themselves throughout the unspoken, slow rationing that had been the last few days’ norm. But yet again Scooter stood, this time placing two fingers in his mouth. He whistled, and the meeting hall was shocked into momentary silence. But this time, no one who’d stood sat back down. Leo had a sense of a door swinging momentarily open, knowing he had only a second to shove his foot into it.
“But we can get past this!” he said. “I’ve been weaning myself for a few days, and…”
“You knew enough to start weaning off?” a man to the right shrieked.
“And you didn’t tell us?” echoed a man beside him. “You should have told us! You should have made it clear that…”
Again, someone threw something. It struck the lectern. Scooter bellowed for order, but now no one was listening. All eyes were wide as realization swept through them.
“We don’t need to be slaves to addiction!” Leo yelled. “We have a few days’ supply! We can stretch it to a week, and that will give us time to taper off! Yes, it’ll be hard, but we can do it! And then we’ll be free!”
In one corner, a fight suddenly erupted. Leo couldn’t tell what had sparked it, but Scooter was running through the crowd to meet it. Many eyes were on Leo, boring through him with hatred and fear. Nobody was coming forward, but it was only a matter of time. The village’s small remaining store of Lunis was under lock and key at the dispensary. Leo was in charge of determining how it would be metered, and everyone knew that he alone held the key.
“Fighting solves nothing!” he yelled over the tumult. “We’re a community! Friends and neighbors! We’re together because we’re stronger, because we don’t live by default, because we…”
The front row surged forward as realization dawned. They came as one, as if sharing a single intelligence. Leo saw hunger and need. Something base and animalistic triggered inside him as he backed up, almost tripping and falling over a box at the back of the small meeting stage. At least a dozen people were moving forward. He recognized them all. There was a woman who cut hair on Sundays. A gay couple who delighted in making homemade pasta, which they passed out for free. Their faces were melted wax with vacant eyes. Their gums were peeling back, surely without intention, as what was inside them clawed its way up and began to take over.
A tall man leaped at Leo. Without thinking, against his best intention, Leo struck out with his right fist. In his panic, he hit the man so hard that his knuckles split. He heard a crack as the man’s ribcage buckled and snapped then saw the flash of metal under his skin as he pulled his fist back. Two of the group’s women shrank away, mouths turning from snarls to Os of horror. In an instant, they’d gone from wanting to kill Leo to fearing him.
“I didn’t mean to…” Leo began, watching the tall man writhe where he’d flown and fallen, three full meters away. He couldn’t finish the sentence because those more angry than afraid were already pouring forward. Leo found his hands restrained, along with his legs. He felt his back strike the stage. He could fight if he let himself do it. He could. He really, really could.
Leo restrained the beast inside himself, now feeling hands at his belt and pockets, no doubt searching for something as antiquated as a metal key, not realizing that the dispensary was held down by loathed technological means. Hands emerging empty from pockets curled into fists.
Leo held himself down. He was watching his internal clock. Waiting. Losing the battle with himself, knowing he was seconds from throwing them off, running, depleting the dispensary for his own ends, and fleeing, leaving them all behind to rip each other apart.
There was a tremendous banging at the meeting hall’s front door. The people holding Leo down looked up at the sound of dozens of tromping feet. From the stage floor, Leo saw hands go up as someone began shouting. Where hands didn’t raise, Leo saw the blast of slumbershots.
The crowd parted, and a middle-aged man with brown hair pushed through armored troops to stand above Leo. Leo, looking up at him from the corner of one eye, was suddenly very glad that the village’s most notorious fugitive had already left for Bontauk. He’d be safe. One way or another, they’d all be safe in time.
“Leo Booker,” he said. “I’m Agent Austin Smith of the North American Union Protective Service. I’m here to place your entire group under arrest for conspiracy to commit treason.”
Chapter 10
Eli Oldman’s fat, ugly face filled the entire wall from top to bottom, side to side. The projection was enormous, and Rachel found herself sickened, wishing Eli would back up.
He finally did, after assuring himself that the connection was secure, and Rachel was able to see the rest of the room: the same polished black table with the same high-backed black chairs she’d sat in thousands of times before, occupied by most of the same faces she’d been staring into for decades. It was ironic. The first Panel had been convened in 2032, and for the most part the faces she was watching now hadn’t changed or even aged. If she subtracted the newest members and added Noah West, Marshall Oates, and Colin Hawes back into the mix, she could have been looking at an image from sixty-five years earlier.
“This isn’t something I’m comfortable with, Rachel,” Clive said from his position at the table.
Of the group who had originally formed Panel, Clive was the only person other than herself who appeared to have aged at all. When Panel first assembled, he’d been forty-two. Today, he looked maybe fifty. Nanobot
rejuvenation had come early enough in the lives of the others that they seemed perpetually young, mocking Rachel’s decay.
“My room is secure,” she said. She eased into her chair opposite the wall then added in a mumble, “Lord knows I pay enough for it.”
“I don’t mean the room. I mean your non-attendance. This room is located where it is for a reason.”
“Well, someone managed to sneak a Beam connection into your impregnable fortress nonetheless,” she said. Everything ached. Rachel felt her body as a bag of organs sloshing about in a metal cage.
“The guidelines for Panel have always stated that members must attend meetings in person.”
“‘In person’ is not explicitly stated, and you know it, Clive.” Rachel’s voice, though frail, still held its old tone of warning. She may have been ancient, but she knew she could still make the others fear her.
“In principle,” he said.
Rachel felt her patience snap. In Panel’s early days, members had to drop what they were doing and attend whenever a meeting was called, and no assembly could be held without perfect attendance. These days, now that Panel had nearly doubled to its final size of twenty-one slots, the varied important people’s schedules had grown harder to manage, and absences had become permissible so long as everyone was informed and those who couldn’t attend gave consent to proceed without them. Unsurprisingly, the newest members were those who skipped from time to time, whereas the nine remainders from the original dozen never missed. The newcomers treated Panel like a social club, failing to respect the body’s importance and power. That, in Rachel’s mind, was a much larger and much less forgivable breach of “principle” than her remote attendance.