by Zane Grey
Lane gripped Mel’s hand. He felt the horror of what might be coming. What a blunder he had made!
“Will the lady kindly remove her veil?” Hartley’s voice sounded queer. His smile had vanished.
As Mel untied and thrust back the veil her fingers trembled. The action disclosed a lovely face as white as snow.
“Mel Iden!” burst from the magistrate. For a moment there was an intense silence. Then, “I’ll not marry you,” cried Hartley vindictively.
“Why not? You said you would,” demanded Lane.
“Not to save your worthless lives,” Hartley returned, facing them with a dark meaning in his eyes.
Lane turned to Mel and led her from the house and down to the curb without speaking once.
Once more they went out into the blinding snow-storm. Lane threw back his head and breathed the cold air. What a relief to get out of that stifling room!
“Mel, I’m afraid it’s no use,” he said, finally.
“We are finding what the world thinks of us,” replied Mel. “Tell the man to drive to 204 Locust Street.”
Once more the driver headed his humming car into the white storm.
Once more Lane sat silent, with his heart raging. Once more Mel peered out into the white turmoil of gloom.
“Daren, we’re going to Dr. Wallace, my old minister. He’ll marry us,” she said, presently.
“Why didn’t I think of him?”
“I did,” answered Mel, in a low voice. “I know he would marry us. He baptized me; he has known and loved me all my life. I used to sing in his choir and taught his Sunday School for years.”
“Yet you let me go to those others. Why?”
“Because I shrank from going to him.”
Once more the car lurched into the gutter, and this time they both got out and mounted the high steps. Lane knocked. They waited what appeared a long time before they heard someone fumbling with the lock. Just then the bell in the church tower nearby began chiming the midnight hour. The door opened, and Doctor Wallace himself admitted them.
“Well! Who’s this?… Why, if it’s not Mel Iden! What a night to be out in!” he exclaimed. He led them into a room, evidently his study, where a cheerful wood fire blazed. There he took both her hands and looked from her to Lane. “You look so white and distressed. This late hour—this young man whom I know. What has happened? Why do you come to me—the first time in so many months?”
“To ask you to marry us,” answered Mel.
“To marry you?… Is this the soldier who wronged you?”
“No. This is Daren Lane.… He wants to marry me to give my boy a name.… Somehow he finally made me consent.”
“Well, well, here is a story. Come, take off this snowy cloak and get nearer the fire. Your hands are like ice.” His voice was very calm and kind. It soothed Lane’s strained nerves. With what eagerness did he scrutinize the old minister’s face. He knew the penetrating eye, the lofty brow and white hair, the serious lined face, sad in a noble austerity. But the lips were kind with that softness and sweetness which comes from gentle words and frequent smiles. Lane’s aroused antagonism vanished in the old man’s presence.
“Doctor Wallace,” went on Mel. “We have been to several ministers, and to Mr. Hartley, the magistrate. All refused to marry us. So I came to my old friend. You’ve known me all my life. Daren has at last convinced me—broke down my resistance. So—I ask—will you marry us?”
Doctor Wallace was silent for many moments while he gazed into the fire and stroked her hand. Suddenly a smile broke over his fine face.
“You say you asked Hartley to marry you?”
“Yes, we went to him. It was a reckless thing to do. I’m sorry.”
“To say the least, it was original.” The old minister seemed to have difficulty in restraining a laugh. Then for a moment he pondered.
“My friends, I am very old,” he said at length, “but you have taught me something. I will marry you.”
It was a strange marriage. Behind Mel and Daren stood the red-faced, grinning driver, his coarse long coat covered with snow, and the simpering housemaid, respectful, yet glorifying in her share in this midnight romance. The old minister with his striking face and white hair, gravely turned the leaves of his book. No bridegroom ever wore such a stern, haggard countenance. The bride’s face might have been a happier one, but it could not have been more beautiful.
Doctor Wallace’s voice was low and grave; it quavered here and there in passages. Lane’s was hardly audible. Mel’s rang deep and full.
The witnesses signed their names; husband and wife wrote theirs; the minister filled out the license, and the ceremony was over.
Then Doctor Wallace took a hand of each.
“Mel and Daren,” he said. “No human can read the secret ways of God. But it seems there is divinity in you both. You have been sacrificed to the war. You are builders, not destroyers. You are Christians, not pagans. You have a vision limned against the mystery of the future. Mammon seems now to rule. Civilization rocks on its foundations. But the world will go on growing better. Peace on earth, good will to men! That is the ultimate. It was Christ’s teaching.… You two give me greater faith.… Go now and face the world with heads erect—whatever you do, Mel—and however long you live, Daren. Who can tell what will happen? But time proves all things, and the blindness of people does not last forever.… You both belong to the Kingdom of God.”
But few words were spoken by Lane or Mel on the ride home. Mel seemed lost in a trance. She had one hand slipped under Lane’s arm, the other clasped over it. As for Lane, he had overestimated his strength. A deadly numbness attacked his nerves, and he had almost lost the sense of touch. When they arrived at Mel’s home the snow-storm had abated somewhat, and the lighted windows of the cottage shone brightly.
Lane helped Mel wade through the deep snow, or he pretended to help her, for in reality he needed her support more than she needed his. They entered the warm little parlor. Some one had replenished the fire. The clock pointed to the hour of one. Lane laid the marriage certificate on the open book Mel had been reading. Mel threw off hat, coat, overshoes and gloves. Her hair was wet with melted snow.
“Now, Daren Lane,” she said softly. “Now that you have made me your wife—!”
Up until then Lane had been master of the situation. He had thought no farther than this moment. And now he weakened. Was this beautiful woman, with head uplifted and eyes full of fire, the Mel Iden of his school days? Now that he had made her his wife—.
“Mel, there’s no now for me,” he replied, with a sad finality. “From this moment, I’ll live in the past. I have no future.… Thank God, you let me do what I could. I’ll try to come again soon. But I must go now. I’m afraid—I overtaxed my strength.”
“Oh, you look so—so,” she faltered. “Stay, Daren—and let me nurse you.… We have a little spare room, warm, cozy. I’ll wait on you, Daren. Oh, it would mean so much to me—now I am your wife.”
The look of her, the tones of her voice, made him weak. Then he thought of his cold, sordid lodgings, and he realized that one more moment here alone with Mel Iden would make him a coward in his own eyes. He thanked her, and told her how impossible it was for him to stay, and bidding her good night he reeled out into the white gloom. At the gate he was already tired; at the bridge he needed rest. Once more, then, he heard the imagined voices of the waters calling to him.
CHAPTER XVIII
Seldom did Blair Maynard ever trust himself any more in the presence of his mother’s guests. Since Mrs. Maynard had announced the engagement of his sister Margaret to Richard Swann, she had changed remarkably. Blair did not love her any the better for the change. All his life, as long as he could remember, he and Margaret had hated pretension, and the littleness of living beyond their means. But now, with this one coup d’etat, his mother had regained her position as the leader of Middleville society. Haughty, proud, forever absorbed in the material side of everything, she moved in a self
-created atmosphere Blair could not abide. He went hungry many a time rather than sit at table with guests such as Mrs. Maynard delighted to honor.
Blair and Margaret had become estranged, and Blair spent most of his time alone, reading or dreaming, but mostly sleeping. He knew he grew weaker every day and his weakness appeared to induce slumber.
On New Year’s day, after dinner, he fell asleep in a big chair, across the hall from the drawing-room. And when he awoke the drawing-room was full of people making New Year’s calls. If there was anything Blair hated it was to thump on his crutch past curious, cold-eyed persons. So he remained where he was, hoping not to be seen. But unfortunately for him, he had exceedingly keen ears and exceedingly sensitive feelings.
Some of the guests he knew very well without having to see them. The Swanns, and Fanchon Smith, with her brother and mother, Gerald Hartley and his bride, Helen Wrapp, and a number of others prominent as Middleville’s elect were recognizable by their voices. While he was sitting there, trying not to hear what he could not help hearing, a number more arrived.
They talked. It gradually dawned on Blair that some gossip was rife anent a midnight marriage between his friend Daren Lane and Mel Iden. Blair was deeply shocked. Then his emotions, never calm, grew poignant. He listened. What he heard spoken of Daren and Mel made his blood boil. Sweet voices, low-pitched, well-modulated, with the intonation of culture, made witty and scarcely veiled remarks of a suggestiveness that gave rise to laughter. Voices of men, bland, blase, deriding Daren Lane! Blair listened, and slowly his passion mounted to a white heat. And then it seemed, fate fully, in a lull of the conversation, someone remarked graciously to Mrs. Maynard that it was a pity that Blair had lost a leg in the war.
Blair thumped up on his crutch, and thumped across the hall to confront this assembly.
“Ladies and gentlemen, pray pardon me,” he said, in his high-pitched tenor, cold now, and under perfect control. “I could not help hearing your conversation. And I cannot help illuminating your minds. It seems exceedingly strange to me that people of intelligence should make the blunders they do. So strange that in the future I intend to take such as you have made as nothing but the plain cold fact of perversion of human nature! Daren Lane is so far above your comprehension that it seems useless to defend him. I have never done it before. He would not thank me. But this once I will speak.… In our group of service men—so few of whom came home—he was a hero. We all loved him. And for soldiers at war that tribute is the greatest. If there was a dirty job to be done, Daren Lane volunteered for it. If there was a comrade to be helped, Daren Lane was the first to see it. He never thought of himself. The dregs of war did not engulf him as they did so many of us. He was true to his ideal. He would have been advanced for honors many a time but for the enmity of our captain. He won the Croix de Guerre by as splendid a feat as I saw during the war.… Thank God, we had some officers who treated us like men—who were men themselves. But for the majority we common soldiers were merely beasts of burden, dogs to drive. This captain of whom I speak was a padded shape—shirker from the front line—a parader of his uniform before women. And he is that today—a chaser of women—girls—girls of fifteen.… Yet he has the adulation of Middleville while Daren Lane is an outcast.… My God, is there no justice? At home here Daren Lane has not done one thing that was not right. Some of the gossip about him is as false as hell. He has tried to do noble things. If he married Mel Iden, as you say, it was in some exalted mood to help her, or to give his name to her poor little nameless boy.”
Blair paused a moment in a deliberate speech that toward the end had grown breathless. The faces before him seemed swaying in a mist.
“As for myself,” he continued in passionate hurry, “I did not lose my leg!… I sacrificed it. I gave my career, my youth, my health, my body—and I will soon have given my life—for my country and my people. I was proud to do it. Never for a moment have I regretted it.… What I lost—Ah! what I lost was respect for”—Blair choked—“for the institution that had deluded me. What I lost was not my leg but my faith in God, in my country, in the gratitude of men left at home, in the honor of women.”
Friday, the tenth of January, dawned cold, dark, dreary, and all day a dull clouded sky promised rain or snow. From a bride’s point of view it was not a propitious day for a wedding. A half hour before five o’clock a stream of carriages began to flow toward St. Marks and promptly at five the door of the church shut upon a large and fashionable assembly.
The swelling music of the wedding march pealed out. The bridal party filed into the church. The organ peals hushed. The resonant voice of a minister, with sing-song solemnity, began the marriage service.
Margaret Maynard knew she stood there in the flesh, yet the shimmering white satin, the flowing veil, covered someone who was a stranger to her.
And this other, this strange being who dominated her movements, stood passively and willingly by, while her despairing and truer self saw the shame and truth. She was a lie. The guests, friends, attendants, bridesmaids, the minister, the father, mother, groom—all were lies. They expressed nothing of their true feelings.
The unwelcomed curious, who had crowded into the back of the church, were the sincerest, for in their eyes, covetousness was openly unveiled. The guests and friends wore the conventional shallow smiles of guests and friends. They whispered to one another—a beautiful wedding—a gorgeous gown—a perfect bride—a handsome groom; and exclaimed in their hearts: How sad the father! How lofty, proud, exultant the mother! How like her to move heaven and earth to make this marriage! The attendants posed awkwardly, a personification of the uselessness of their situation, and they pitied the bride while they envied him for whose friendship they stood. The bridesmaids graced their position and gloried in it, and serenely smiled, and thought that to be launched in life in such dazzling manner might be compensation for the loss of much. He of the flowing robe, of the saintly expression, of the trained earnestness, the minister who had power to unite these lives, saw nothing behind that white veil, saw only his fashionable audience, while his resonant voice rolled down the aisles of the church: “Who gives this woman to be wedded to this man?” The father answered and straightway the years rolled back to his youth, to hope, to himself as he stood at the altar with love and trust, and then again to the present, to the failure of health and love and life, to the unalterable destiny accorded him, to the one shame of an honest if unsuccessful life—the countenancing of this marriage. The worldly mother had, for once, a full and swelling heart. For her this was the crowning moment. In one sense this fashionable crowd had been pitted against her and she had won. What to her had been the pleading of a daughter, the importunity of a father, the reasoning of a few old-fashioned friends? The groom, who represented so much and so little in this ceremony, had entered the church with head held high, had faced his bride with gratified smile and the altar with serene unconsciousness.
Margaret Maynard saw all this; saw even the bride, with her splendidly regular loveliness; and then, out of heaven, it seemed there thundered an awful command, rolling the dream away, striking terror to her heart.
“If any man can show just cause why they may not lawfully be joined together, let him now speak, or else hereafter for ever hold his peace!”
One long, silent, terrible moment! Would not an angel appear, with flaming sword, to smite her dead? But the sing-song voice went on, like flowing silk.
The last guest at Mrs. Maynard’s reception had gone, reluctantly, out into the snow, and the hostess sat in her drawing-room, amid the ruins of flowers and palms. She was alone with her triumph. Mr. Maynard and Mr. Swann were smoking in the library. Owing to the storm and delicate health of the bride the wedding journey had been postponed.
Margaret was left alone, at length, in the little blue-and-white room which had known her as a child and maiden, where she now sat as wife. For weeks past she had been emotionless. Tonight, with that trenchant command, unanswered except in her heart, a s
pasm of pain had broken the serenity of her calm, and had left her quivering.
“It is done,” she whispered.
The endless stream of congratulations, meaningless and abhorrent to her, the elaborate refreshments, the warm embraces of old friends had greatly fatigued her. But she could not rest. She paced the little room; she passed the beautiful white bridal finery, so neatly folded by the bridesmaids, and she averted her eyes. She seemed not to hate her mother, nor love her father; she had no interest in her husband. She was slipping back again into that creature apart from her real self.
The house became very quiet; the snow brushed softly against the windows.
A step in the hall made Margaret pause like a listening deer; a tap sounded lightly on her door; a voice awoke her at last to life and to torture.
“Margaret, may I come in?”
It was Swann’s voice, a little softer than usual, with a subtle eagerness.
“No” answered Margaret, involuntarily.
“I beg your pardon. I’ll wait.” Swann’s footsteps died away in the direction of the library.
The spring of a panther was in Margaret’s action as she began to repace the room. All her blood quickened to the thought suggested by her husband’s soft voice. In the mirror she saw a crimsoned face and shamed eyes from which she turned away.
All the pain and repression, the fight and bitter resignation and trained indifference of the past months were as if they had never been. This was her hour of real agony; now was the time to pay the price. Pride, honor, love never smothered, reserve rooted in the very core of a sensitive woman’s heart, availed nothing. Once again catching sight of her reflection in the mirror she stopped before it, and crossing her hands on her heaving breast, she regarded herself with scorn. She was false to her love, she was false to herself, false to the man to whom she had sold herself. “Oh! Why did I yield!” she cried. She was a coward; she belonged to the luxurious class that would suffer anything rather than lose position. Fallen had she as low as any of them; gold had been the price of her soul. To keep her position she must marry one man when she loved another. She cried out in her wretchedness; she felt in her whole being a bitter humiliation; she felt stir in her a terrible tumult.