“I’m sure I will, uncle,” Kris replied, letting him out—but not at all sure in his own mind.
* * *
It was just false dawn when Talia woke, and she dressed as quickly as she could, discovering that someone had left a breakfast tray for her outside her door. She had only just finished it when a Guardsman tapped discreetly on the doorframe, explaining that he was there to help her carry her packs down. With his aid she managed to get everything down to the tackshed in one trip.
Bright light from oil lamps along the wall dazzled her eyes as she entered. Waiting in the very center was Rolan; his harness was piled beside him. Next to him was a second Companion stallion, and Talia could see Kris’ legs behind him as she and the Guard approached. Tethered beside the strange Companion were two most unusual pack animals.
Talia had never seen chirras before except in pictures, for their heavy coats made summer at the Collegium far too uncomfortable for them. Rather than keep them there, the Circle had a northern farm where they were bred and stabled, and only brought them down on rare occasions like this. Had this been within the normal order of things they would have taken mules from the Collegium stables for the first part of the journey. Then they would have met the Herald they were replacing at the edge of her Sector and exchanged their mules for her chirras.
Talia discovered that pictures and descriptions were inadequate to convey the charm of the northern beasts. The chirras were as tall at the shoulder as a horse, but a much longer neck put their heads on a level with the head of a human on horseback. Instead of hooves they had doglike, clawed feet, except that the feet were almost round and far bigger than Talia would have expected from the overall size of the animal. Both chirras were creamy white with black markings; one had a little cap-like spot on the top of its head, and a matching saddle-marking on its back, the other had a collar of black fur that ran around its throat and down its chest. Their ears were large, resembling rabbit ears, but rounder, with tips that flopped over. Their ears were set on the tops of their skulls and faced forward. Their faces were vaguely rabbit-like. Their brown eyes were very large, gentle, and intelligent. When Talia approached them with her hand held out to them, they scrutinized her closely, then politely took turns whuffling her palm.
Kris was already halfway through his inspection of the beasts and their gear.
“Kind of cute, aren’t they? Anybody ever tell you how they manage to live through those blizzards? They’ve got three layers of fur,” he said, bent over and adjusting the girth of the pack-harness, half-hidden by the chirra’s bulk. “The outermost is long and coarse, and pretty much waterproof—even frost won’t form on it. The middle layer is shorter, and not quite so coarse. The inner layer is what they shed every year; it’s dense, very soft and fine, and is what does most of the work of keeping them warm. We’ll have to groom them very carefully every night to keep all that fur from getting matted, or they’ll lose the warming and waterproofing effect.”
“Why are their feet so big?”
“To hold them up on the snow; they’ll be able to walk on snow crusts that the Companions will break right through.” He moved to the front of his and picked up its forefoot while it whiffled his hair. “Look here—see all the hair between the toes? If you think their feet look big now, wait till they spread them out on snow. You’d think that hair wouldn’t make any difference, but it does, like the webbing on snow-shoes. I much prefer chirras over mules in any kind of climate that they can tolerate. They’ve got sweet tempers, and they’re really quite intelligent. If a mule balks, you can’t tell half the time if he’s being stubborn, or if there’s really something wrong. A chirra never balks unless there’s something wrong.”
The chirra next to Talia stretched out his neck and nudged her hand, obviously wanting to be petted. “How much can they carry?” she asked, complying by scratching behind the chirra’s ears. It sighed happily and closed its eyes in content.
“Almost half their own weight—as good or better than a mule. Well, look at the packs they’re bringing now, and you can see.”
Talia was astonished at the size of the pack the stablehands were loading on the chirra she was scratching. It didn’t seem the least bit uncomfortable.
Kris looked it over, then eyed the packs Talia had brought down from her room. “They’ve left enough leeway for you to load those on him as well, Talia. Don’t worry, he’s smart. If it’s going to be more than he can carry, he’ll just lie down until we lighten the load.”
To her relief, the chirra showed no sign of wanting to lie down after her packs had been strapped on top of the supplies. Kris saw to the distribution of the rest of the supplies and his own belongings, while Talia made sure the chirra’s harness was firm, but comfortable, with nothing twisted or binding.
She harnessed Rolan herself, then double-checked her work, and asked him in an undertone, “You don’t mind traveling with these beasties, do you?”
He seemed pleased that she had asked the question but conveyed the impression that he was quite pleased with the packbeasts. Without words, Talia got the distinct impression that the chirras, sporting those thick, warm coats, would be more than welcome company on cold winter nights.
She fastened the lead rope of the chirra to the back of Rolan’s saddle, and mounted. Kris mounted a fraction of a second later. “Ready?” he asked.
“As ready as any internee, I guess.”
“Then let’s go.”
4
Kris took the lead; they had to go single file in the city. Talia and Rolan followed his chirra out of the gates of the courtyard, past the Collegium and Palace buildings, gray and silent in the early morning light, then down the cobblestoned road to the iron gates leading to city streets themselves, the road she’d ridden up five and a half years previously. She looked back over her shoulder for a last glimpse of the dear, familiar stone buildings, and wondered what she’d be like when she saw them again.
The guard at the gate let them out; it was scarcely an hour until dawn and the streets were not yet crowded. They followed the long spiral outward, passing first through the residential areas that were nearest the Palace—huge buildings belonging to the highest ranked of the nobly-born, some nearly rivaling the size of Bardic or Healer’s Collegium, though not that of the Palace itself. Then, crowded far more closely together, the homes of the rich—merchants and craftsmen and Guild officials. Unlike the Palace and the edifices of the nobles, which were the same gray granite as the city walls, these buildings were wooden. Since land within the walls was at a premium, they crowded so closely the eaves touched—and when there was a need to expand, the only direction to take was up, which sometimes produced some very strange results. Most of these houses had been constructed of ironoak, a wood nearly as tough and indestructible as steel, but that was where any similarity among them ended. They had been built to some highly individual styles, and often had been added to in years and styles varying wildly from the original. Had the spiraling main street not been wide enough for three carriages, it would never have gotten any sun; as it was, riding through this district so early in the morning was rather like riding down a canyon with sides carved in the most fantastic of shapes. Talia had to fight to keep from giggling as she passed some of these houses, for Skif—to “keep his hand in,” or so he claimed—had often paid uninvited visits to the upper stories of some of these places. He’d usually left unsigned notes to be found later, chiding the owners for their lack of security. That was one prank the Provost-Marshal would never have forgiven him if it had been discovered.
After the street look a sharp right-angle turn, the purely residential district came to an end. Now the lower stories of the buildings were devoted to shops and the work-places of fine craftsmen, or offices, with an occasional expensive hostelry. The upper floors were comprised of apartments or lodgings. At this point they began encountering what little traffic there was this early in the morning. Nearly the only people about were the farmers who had brought the
ir produce in to market, for the only cityfolk moving were those who were buying fresh supplies for their inns. Talia and Kris were able to move at a brisk pace, not having to stop for traffic more than once or twice. The streets were so quiet at this hour that they were the chief sources of sound; the ringing of the Companions’ hooves, the chime of their bridle-bells, and the click of the chirras’ claws on the cobblestones.
It took them nearly an hour to reach the Northern gate; the farther from the center of the city they went, the less wealth was displayed. There were no slums within the Old City; those were outside the city gates, huddling against the walls as if in hopes that those sturdy stone structures might shelter them from the elements. It was in one such district that Skif had grown up, the rather odd section along Exile’s Road that led into the West. Talia had never been there; she had seldom been out of the Old City, much less into the New. The one time she’d asked to be taken there, Skif had turned white, and refused. She’d never asked again.
Nor would she go anywhere near that section this time, for Kris’ chosen route led past the warehouses and the shipwrights, after crossing over the River just inside the Old City walls and exiting through the North Point Gate. Here there was no activity at all; workers had not yet arrived, and deliveries to the warehouses had yet to be made. So once again, they rode in silence after a sleepy Guardswoman waved them on their way.
Beyond the gate the road widened and changed from stone to that odd substance that wasn’t stone and wasn’t clay. Talia hadn’t thought about it in years, but it occurred to her now to wonder just what it was that paved some of the roadways of this Kingdom.
“Kris?” she called, and he motioned to her to ride up alongside him, now that they were out of the city.
“What is this stuff?” she asked, pointing to the surface of the road.
He shrugged. “Another lost secret. Some of the roads leading to the capital are paved with it, a few all the way to the Border; but any roads made later than Elspeth the Peacemaker’s time are just packed gravel at best.” He saw she was looking about her with unconcealed curiosity. “Haven’t you ever been out of the city before?”
“Not very often since I was Chosen,” she replied, “and never in this direction.”
“Didn’t you even go back home for holidays?” he asked, astonished.
“My parents weren’t exactly pleased with me, even—or perhaps especially—when they learned I was Chosen,” she replied dryly. “Not to put too fine a point upon it, they disowned me. In Hold terms, that means they denied the very fact of my existence. I spent all my holidays here, with Jadus while he was still alive, then with Keren and Ylsa, or with Gaytha Housekeeper and Mero the Collegium cook.”
“You’ve been rather sheltered, then.”
“At the Collegium, yes, except for the first year. Not at the Hold, though. Know anything about Holderkin?”
“Not much,” Kris admitted. “They seemed so dull, I’m afraid I’ve forgotten most of what I learned about them as a student.”
“Whether or not it’s dull depends on whether you were born male or female. Holderkin are originally from outKingdom—Karse, if you’re curious. They fled from religious persecution; their religion is based on a dominating, ruling God and a passive, submissive Goddess, and the Karsites are monotheistic. That was… oh, two generations ago. They are very secretive, and very intent on maintaining their ways intact. Men have some choice in their lives; women are given exactly two choices—serve the Goddess as a cloistered, isolated votary under a vow of silence, or marry. You make that choice at the mature age of thirteen, or thereabouts.”
“Thirteen!” Kris looked aghast.
“Hellfire, Kris, life is hard on the Border! You ought to know that, with your partner being a Borderer. There were raiders every winter I can remember. The land is stony and hard to farm. Holderkin don’t believe in going to Healers, so a lot of simple injuries and illnesses end in death. If you’re not wedded by fifteen, you may not leave any offspring—and they need every working hand they can get.”
“You sound like you enjoyed that kind of life—like you approve of it!” Kris was plainly astonished by her attitude.
“I hated it,” she said flatly. “I hated every minute that I didn’t spend reading or daydreaming. Rolan’s Choosing me was the only thing that saved me from a forced marriage with some stranger picked out by my father. I think that the way they confine themselves, their children, and most especially their minds is something approaching a crime. But most of the Holderfolk I knew seemed content, even happy, and I have no right to judge for them.”
“Fine; you don’t judge for them, but what about others who are unhappy as you were, with no Rolan to rescue them?”
“A good point—and fortunately for those would-be rebels, one Elcarth and Selenay thought of after hearing my story. The Holderfolk got their landgrants on condition that they obey the Queen and the laws of this Kingdom. Shortly after I arrived at the Collegium, Selenay had a law passed through the Council that Heralds must be allowed free access to children at all times, in order that they can be certain that the children of this Kingdom are properly educated in our laws, history, and traditions. Heralds whose Gift is Thought-sensing go right into the Holdings now. Anyone willing to sacrifice family ties and standing as I did is free to leave with them, and they make sure the unhappy ones know this. The amazing thing to me is that there was very little objection to the practice after the initial outrage died down. I suppose the Hold Elders are only too pleased that their potential troublemakers are leaving on their own.”
Kris seemed a bit bemused. “I can’t imagine why anyone would not want to leave conditions like that.”
Talia shook her head sadly, remembering. It wasn’t quite true that she hadn’t gone back to the Hold—she had, once, last year. She’d gone back in the hopes of rescuing her sister Vrisa—to discover Vris had changed, changed past all recognition. Vris was a Firstwife now, with status, and three Underwives to rule. She’d regarded Talia as if she were a demon—when she thought Talia wasn’t looking, she’d made holy signs against her. In point of fact, she looked and acted enough like Keldar, the Firstwife who’d done her best to break Talia’s rebellious spirit, to have been Keldar’s younger self. She not only didn’t want rescue, she’d been horrified by the idea.
“Kris, it’s not my choice to make,” she answered wearily, “it’s theirs. All that I care about is that the ones like me now have the option I didn’t have before I was Chosen—to escape.”
Kris looked at her with curiosity. “Just when I think I have you neatly categorized, you say or do something that turns it all upside down again. I’d have bet that you’d have been willing to lead an army into the Holds to free the women, given the chance.”
“Maybe when I didn’t know as much about people as I do now,” she sighed.
They rode on in silence. The sun rose on their right, turning the sky pink, rose and blue, casting long shadows across their path from the buildings. Before long they had passed beyond the edge of the New City, and there was nothing before them but the occasional farmhouse. Cows were gathering outside barns, lowing to be milked. Now they saw people working; and a light breeze carried to them the smell of cut grain and drying hay, and the sounds of birds and farmbeasts.
“Tell me about yourself,” Kris said, finally. “When you’re tired of talking, I’ll tell you about me. Start with what it was like on the Hold, before you were Chosen.”
“It’s boring,” she cautioned him.
“Maybe—but it’s part of you. As your counselor, I need to know about you.”
He did his best to keep his opinions to himself while she talked, but he frequently looked surprised by some of what she told him, and actually horrified once or twice. He had, she thought, a hard time conceiving of a culture so alien to his own, so confining and repressive. Talia herself spoke in a kind of detached tone. She felt very distant from the Holderkin and all they meant now. She could think of them
without much animosity; as something foreign.
It was noon when she finally grew tired of explaining Hold customs to Kris. She paused for a long drink from her waterskin, suddenly aware that her mouth was very dry, and said firmly, “I think I’ve talked enough.”
“More than that; it’s time to break for lunch,” he replied. “While we keep to this pace the chirras can go on indefinitely, so whether or not we break depends on whether or not we want to take a rest from riding. How are you feeling?”
“Like I’d like to get off for a while,” she admitted. “It’s been a long, long time since I spent this many hours riding.”
“I’m glad you said that.” His answering smile was completely ingenuous and quite charming. “I’m not all that fond of eating in the saddle unless there’s no choice. As soon as I spot a place where we can water the chirras and our Companions, we’ll take a rest.”
They found a Waystation within the half-hour. This one was watered by a well rather than a stream; they took turns hauling up enough water to satisfy the four-footed members of the party, then tethered the chirras so that both Companions and chirras could graze for a bit while they ate their own lunch.
They ate in silence, and Kris seemed to be in no great hurry to move on afterward. He lay back in the soft grass instead, thoughts evidently elsewhere, though he glanced over at Talia once or twice.
* * *
Kris was worried, though he was taking pains not to show it. His uncle’s words kept coming back to him, and he could not, in all conscience, dismiss them. He’d made a number of assumptions about his trainee, most of them based on her apparent youth and inexperience—and now what she’d told him seemed to indicate that she was anything but inexperienced, and certainly was not the simple creature he’d pictured to himself. This child—no, woman; he began to wonder now if she’d ever had anything like a “childhood” as he knew the meaning of the term—had been functionally the Queen’s Own long before she ever attained her Whites. But she was so tiny, and so guileless, and so very innocent-seeming, that you forgot all about that, and tended to think of her as much younger than she really was.
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