REBEL YELL
BY THE SAME AUTHOR
The Wind Done Gone
Pushkin and the Queen of Spades
REBEL YELL
A Novel
Alice Randall
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual organizations, business establishments, events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
Copyright 2009 by Alice Randall
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LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOGING-IN-PUBLICATION DATA
Randall, Alice.
Rebel Yell : a novel / Alice Randall.— 1st U.S. ed.
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eISBN: 978-1-60819-155-0
1. African American politicians— Fiction. 2. Conservatives— United States— Fiction. 3. Politicians’ spouses— Fiction. I. Title.
PS3568.A486R43 2009
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First U.S. edition 2009
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To my daughter, Caroline, with love.
All boys love liberty, ’til experience convinces them they are not so fit to govern themselves as they imagined.
Samuel Johnson
Young man, young man strong and able, get your elbows off the table. This is not a horse’s stable but a first-class dining table.
Unknown
This is a work of fiction.
Contents
Part I
ONE
TWO
THREE
FOUR
FIVE
SIX
SEVEN
EIGHT
Part II
NINE
TEN
ELEVEN
TWELVE
THIRTEEN
FOURTEEN
FIFTEEN
SIXTEEN
SEVENTEEN
EIGHTEEN
NINETEEN
TWENTY
TWENTY-ONE
TWENTY-TWO
TWENTY-THREE
TWENTY-FOUR
TWENTY-FIVE
TWENTY-SIX
Part III
TWENTY-SEVEN
TWENTY-EIGHT
TWENTY-NINE
THIRTY
THIRTY-ONE
THIRTY-TWO
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
Part I
THEY DROVE, LARGELY in silence, from Nashville to Birmingham, in the black 1961 Thunderbird they called, on noisy days, the Flying Crow.
Big Abel worked, alternating scribbling with blue ink on typed white pages and scribbling with blue ink across a yellow legal pad. Antoinette was at the wheel. They didn’t turn on the radio.
Little Abel sat still and mute between his parents. His baby sister was back home with the grandmother. The boy had felt lucky when chosen for the trip. Now he wasn’t so sure. Twice his father had slapped his leg. The second time he had told him not to wiggle, sneeze, fart, or say another word. All that because he had said he needed a bathroom. Now he thought his sister was lucky to have been left back at Grandma’s, in the house full of talk and music and television, full of toilets and sweet tea and Tang.
Big Abel’s tail was in a crack. Alabama scared the man and he was headed to Alabama. So he scared Little Abel. Not to be mean, or to be lazy, or to let off steam. Big Abel jabbed Abel with little frights because he wanted his son to grow immune to fear. He didn’t want his son to feel, when fully grown, what he was feeling, full grown, too scared. He would teach his son to put fear behind him.
If Big Abel had to make a choice between putting Satan behind him and putting fear behind him he would banish fear and walk with Satan.
He hoped the Lord would forgive him. If the Lord didn’t, Big Abel didn’t mind. He wasn’t afraid of the Lord; he wasn’t interested in going to heaven. He was getting more eager to go to hell by the day.
It almost made him ready to die, so eager he was to see the white men, the ones who had planted the bomb and the ones who had planned the bombing, burning in hell. It was enough to make him want to pass up heaven. He stopped writing.
He imagined crackers, fat crackers and skinny crackers, tall crackers and short crackers, burning in hell, tongues parched and split. He imagined himself walking past, peeing and crying and refusing to share a drop of piss or a single tear to slake their thirst. He laughed out loud.
Antoinette glared. Carole Rosamond Robertson was dead. Four girls were blown up at church on a Sunday morning. There was nothing funny in the world. Big Abel cleared his throat and dropped his eyes back down to his legal pad. He struggled through a brief apology. Antoinette started crying again. Abel asked his wife if she wanted him to take the wheel. She said she wanted him, for this once, to be quiet.
Little Abel didn’t know what to think. His mother was crying, his daddy was slapping and apologizing, and his favorite babysitter had gone to sleep forever.
Alpha was losing it. On the phone to Antoinette. She was wanting to have Carole’s funeral the day before the other three girls. A separate service. At St. John’s AME. Alpha’s daughter was dead and she would not turn her funeral into a spectacle or a political event. She would not. She would give Carole what she was supposed to have. What she would have gotten if she had been hit by a drunk driver or caught a brain fever. She would have a service that was her very own, like her life, not something she was sharing with three other girls, one of whom she barely knew, or didn’t know at all. Not something she had to share with a whole race of Negroes who were still alive.
Alpha didn’t have to say any of that out loud for Antoinette to know. Antoinette came from the exact same small world Alpha came from and would have done the exact same thing, if it had been her baby girl Tess who had gotten blown up.
Antoinette was furious at the man beside her. Abel Jones Jr. His name was all in the papers. Integrating this and integrating that. She believed in it. But everyone knew where they lived. When would North Nashville become another Dynamite Hill? That’s what they called one of the black neighborhoods in Birmingham. Dynamite Hill. So many bombs had gone off.
Driving to fourteen-year-old Carole’s funeral thinking about the pair of strapless pumps she had been wearing when she was blown to Kingdom Come, Antoinette wished she had married a quiet man, an appeasing man, a man strong enough to play low, to play Tom, if that let the kids live.
She hated Martin Luther King. She hated George Wallace. Wallace had said they needed some funerals. Martin had gone on the radio and the teevee and more or less said that somehow privileged blacks were complicit in the death of the girls. Martin didn’t know what he was talking about when he called out “Negroes on their stools complacent,” or some such. She marveled at this curious thing: Martin didn’t see the difference between complacent and terrified they will kill our children. And she did not mean metaphorically. She meant literally. Abel. Tess. It was bad enough Big Abel might be shot down like Medgar Evers had been shot. In front of his and Myrlie’s house. Now Antoinette had to be scared Little Abel and Little Tess would be blown up li
ke Carole.
She thought of the last time she had seen pretty Carole in Birmingham. They had run down the road for a wedding, to show off the baby, round and gloriously deep brown, Tess.
Antoinette had shimmied into a pretty silk suit, her figure came back quick, then into her husband’s new Thunderbird that was just like the ones that had driven in President Kennedy’s inaugural parade. That day her baby was on her lap and her husband was at the wheel. Her little boy, who had fallen in love with Carole the first time she lifted him onto her hip and her hair brushed his cheek, had been riding up front with his daddy.
Carole was a pretty child who should have lived to be a Link, and make jokes like “A Link is a fur-wearing animal.” Carole’s hardest teenage choice should have been whether to pledge AKA or Delta. She was a straight-A student who lived in a house with a wraparound porch who liked to cha-cha through the living room into the yard and now she was dead.
Antoinette’s son was thirsty as well as needing to pee but they didn’t dare give him a drop to drink, or stop to let him relieve himself properly. Any stop any day could be dangerous, but a stop a day after the bombing was impossible.
She had put cotton diapers on the boy and big rubber pants. He had screamed when she had done it but he would be fine. And she had promised herself to get the diapers off him just as soon as they got to the house.
And there would be no drop to drink. If he had a drop to drink he might soak through the diapers and the plastic pants. They had to arrive safe and presentable. The boy just needed to pee in the diapers and accept the cold wet.
She would keep the car rolling until they pulled into the driveway of Alpha’s house.
Antoinette would sign up for the war if she could go fight on foreign soil. New Hampshire. Maine. Wyoming. Some place with no brown babies. Only a man would fight a bombing war so close to home. So close to home she would fly the white flag of surrender. She kept crying and driving. She had no flag to fly.
The church in Birmingham had blown up at ten twenty-two on Sunday morning. The Jones phone in Nashville was ringing before noon. Now they were three quarters the way to Birmingham.
Big Abel kept grinding his teeth and scribbling. He found flashes of comfort in his firm belief in heaven, the place where the four little girls were; and his firmer belief in hell, the place where the bombers would be.
Big Abel kept his face mean. One day the boy wouldn’t be afraid of him. And that day the boy wouldn’t be afraid of anything else either. He would just be mad, like his daddy, mad and safe.
To get through this day, this drive, and this night, the wake, and tomorrow, the funeral, Big Abel was letting himself get furious. He had to protect himself from seeing the church where ten sticks of dynamite had blown four girls straight to heaven.
He had wanted to protect himself by staying home. He had enough to do in Nashville. But Antoinette had insisted they hit the road. She was friends with Carole Rosamond Robertson’s mother, Alpha.
Carole was in the Jack and Jill just like their Abel and their Tess. Alpha Robertson was southeastern director of the Jack and Jill of America. This had meant nothing to Big Abel but his wife had kept repeating these facts until he had assumed they were somehow of significance. Antoinette was not a woman to focus on unimportant details.
Leaning away from his wife and his son and into the cold window, Big Abel tried to turn his mind back to the papers on his lap. He had his work cut out for him. Trying to get black students into state universities. Trying to get blacks into restaurants and stores. He didn’t need to run down the road to Alabama to find something to do. There was work enough in his adopted Tennessee and his birth state North Carolina. His woman had him chasing off to a funeral in Alabama when he had fires to put out nearer to home.
Funerals were for people who wanted to see their picture in the paper or their face on television. Big Abel didn’t have time for none of that. He had living children to take up for.
They had left the baby girl, Tess, in Nashville. Alabama had never been a safe place for little black girls and now it was revealed to be even less safe than previously thought. Abel didn’t care what King or Bevel said, or God himself Almighty said. Abel wasn’t toting his princess down into trouble. When he had agreed to “run stand by Alpha Robertson,” Big Abel had insisted they leave Tess behind.
Antoinette had agreed, but not for reasons of safety. Waving her girl, Tess, in front of Alpha’s face when she had just lost her daughter Carole seemed shameless.
Little Abel was in a room full of women. He was seated in a corner with a little pile of picture books. The women were swirling around trying to comfort Mrs. Robertson.
Somewhere downstairs, at an event something between a visitation and a wake, were the women who didn’t know Mrs. Robertson as well and all the men.
Upstairs the women who knew Alpha Robertson well were trying to get her ready, not for the service that would be held the next day, there was no getting ready for that, but for just breathing her next breath, and for just stepping downstairs, for trying to look at other children, her son and her other daughter.
Abel had been told to stay put in his corner, but after he had been missing his mama long enough, he forgot what he’d been told and wandered over to where his mama was sitting in the center of the room with Carole’s mama.
Mrs. Robertson reached out and pinched his cheek.
“You can’t come to Birmingham anymore. There’s nobody to take care of you when us grown folks go out. Carole’s passed. She was your favorite and you were hers, so I guess you won’t come and I won’t be going out anyway,” said Mrs. Robertson.
“Yes, ma’am,” said Abel. He didn’t understand what Mrs. Robertson was talking about, but he knew when an older person talked real serious and quiet, “Yes, sir” or “Yes, ma’am” are what you are supposed to say.
New sobs broke free from Alpha Robertson’s throat. She was in the presence of a child as polite as her own. Perfect home training. There were so few being raised exactly right— and now one less.
Mrs. Robertson’s sobs frightened Little Abel. He dashed back to his corner. His mother smiled vaguely after him, then turned her attentions back to Carole’s mama.
“All these men killed my baby,” Mrs. Robertson said, thinking about a girl graceful as could be. A girl who made straight A’s who was going to be a doctor’s wife and move out of Alabama. Antoinette and every woman in the room were thinking the very same thing. Finally someone said, “Fuck Bevel,” referring to the great black theologian and tactician of the Civil Rights movement. Then someone else said, “Fuck Bevel. If they are old enough to walk down the communion aisle they’re old enough to march. Fuck Bevel.” Someone else said, “I would fuck Bevel and every peckerwood in the Alabama Klan if it would bring Alpha’s baby back.”
“I’d fuck ’em all and their daddies if it would bring any of these babies back.” This last was said by Little Abel’s mother.
And all the women in stockings and silk skirts, the women who would wear dark dresses and gloves and hats and pearls and girdles in the church tomorrow, so many who had walked down the aisle at their wedding intact, even some of the ones whose husbands had never seen them naked in the daylight, shook their heads in agreement. They were drunk on fear.
They were in a violent world with more children to lose. Little Abel, sitting in his corner with his picture books, was terrified by the women speaking men’s words.
“I had three children,” said Alpha. She was wearing the same politely pink lipstick all the other women were wearing, but only hers was all on crooked. “I had three children,” she repeated, then beckoned to Abel. He didn’t move. He thought the woman wanted to steal him to replace the child she had lost. The child who was sleeping forever. Carole.
Mrs. Robertson beckoned again. Antoinette silently snapped the fingers hanging at her side. The boy noticed his mother’s signal. He put his book down and moved back across the room and onto Alpha’s lap.
“Little man, listen here. Don’t you forget these men, these black men, and these big white Birmingham mules, these men. They used you children to fight this war. Negro men were tired of what we all had to suffer and they sent our babies to die. Nothing left but the shoes. Don’t you forget that, boy. I’m going to hate my husband and hate your daddy the rest of my life. And I hope you hate them too. And I’m going to hate Bull Connor and hate George Wallace and hate Martin Luther King. But I am going to hate my husband and your father and Martin the most because they know just how precious you are. Precious like my Carole, but they were willing to let her die if it came to it. They’re too tired of waiting. And I hate Wallace Rayfield, that fine black architect, for designing that church and this neighborhood. If he hadn’t done any of that my husband wouldn’t be the bandleader in the school here and I wouldn’t be a librarian and my daughter wouldn’t be dead. And I hate Jesus because the Lord didn’t have mercy, four little girls were in Sunday school and he let them get killed.”
Alpha kissed Abel on his head. “I hate them too,” Abel said.
The crow was flying home. Big Abel drove. On the return journey Antoinette lay stretched out on the backseat like a corpse. Little Abel sat up front drawing letters with his finger into the fog on the window.
Big Abel turned the radio on and tuned to a station playing rhythm and blues. He held up off the accelerator. He didn’t want to get stopped. He didn’t want to strangle some honky cop and get shot down in front of his son and his wife, but he would strangle some honky cop and get shot down in front of his wife and son before he would play low this day, whatever might happen to his wife and his child after he died. He drove the whole way to Nashville one mile below the speed limit.
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