I clear my throat, shifting on my seat, and begin to speak again. "Rose and Gary weren't the sort of couple that most people expected..."
***
Rose and Gary weren't the sort of couple that most people expected to find in Buckley...or the sort that most people approved of. Gary, it was generally accepted, had prospects. He was a member of the football team, and not the least skilled, either; his family had money enough that college wasn't out of the question, scholarship or no. They'd come out of lumber, like most of the old families in Buckley, but now they were in the business of real estate and land rentals, and there wasn't a speck of dirt on their hands. If Gary liked to mess around with cars, well, boys will be boys, and he'd grow out of that soon enough. If he liked to mess around with girls like Rose, on the other hand...
Gary's father swore the little tramp was just trying to get herself pregnant and land a husband who could take care of her and the screaming brats she'd be happy to weigh him down with. Gary's mother tended to think of Rose a little more charitably--she'd gone to school with Robert Marshall, before they both went on to the lives their place in society defined for them, and she remembered him as a kind boy, friendly, sweet, and willing enough to do what needed doing--but agreed with her husband on one thing, at the very least: their son could do better.
As for Gary himself, he listened patiently to the things his parents told him, met the girls his mother brought home for him, and then returned to the things he cared about: auto-shop, hanging out at Bronson's Diner, and dating the daughter of the night-shift waitress. Rose Marshall might not have money, and she might not come from the best family, but she had eyes he could look into for the rest of his life, and she knew how to fix a transmission, and he was pretty sure that he was a lot more than halfway to being in love with her.
Best of all, he was pretty sure she was halfway to being in love with him, too. Being with Rose made him happy in a way that almost nothing else did, or could. He was seventeen, and she was sixteen; in another six months, he'd be eighteen, and he could ask her to marry him. It didn't matter what his parents thought, or what her mother thought. He wanted to spend the rest of his life with Rose Marshall. He knew that, and that was all that he needed to know.
"Your radio's broken again."
Gary glanced toward Rose. The sun was glinting off her lemon-bleached hair like a halo, making her look even more like an angel than she usually did. (That was an image that would haunt him in the days and nights ahead, making sleep an impossible fantasy. But that was the future, and the future was another country.) "Just give it a thump. It'll start working again."
"I'm not sure I can handle all those big technical words," said Rose, and smacked the radio with the heel of her hand. Rock and roll blared into the car, turned up just a little too loud for the safety of their eardrums. She twisted the volume quickly down, and smiled. "Much better."
"What's the fun of something that works every time you try to turn it on?"
"I guess," allowed Rose, who had been on the receiving end of too many broken things to really share that point of view. Some of them didn't start up again when you hit them. Some of them required begging and tears and giving six months of saved-up babysitting money to your brother to pay off the electric bill. "So, tomorrow..."
"Tomorrow, huh? I was thinking I'd go see a movie. Maybe drive up to Ann Arbor for the afternoon." Rose made a face at him. Gary laughed. "Or I could pick you up at six for dinner, and we can go from there to the prom. If that's okay with you?"
"That's just about the bee's knees to me," said Rose, solemnly. She was smart enough to know what it was really costing Gary to take her to the prom, and still innocent enough to hope that his intentions were honorable ones. They might not be--no girl with two older brothers and no father to look out for her could be quite that blind--but as long as she could hope...
If this ended with the school year, if he said "It's been fun" and drove off to college in some big city like Detroit or Columbus, well, it would still have been worth it, every minute of it. Because he'd been good to her, and she liked it when he laughed, and there wasn't enough in Buckley that made her happy. If everything he'd been to her was a lie, well. She'd run that road when she came to it.
Gary pulled in the lot behind the auto-shop classes, scattering greasers and smokers like quail before he killed the engine, and gave her a little grin, that little grin she always thought of as existing just for her. "See you after school?"
Rose grinned back. "It's a date."
***
"But when are we going to get to the ghost story part?" asks a cheerleader, plaintively. I blink at her. The Last Dance seems almost like a mirage somehow, blurry and unreal in the flickering candlelight. This can't be the real world, can it? This cold, wet, twilight world, where the sun never rises and the dead live on forever? This can't be where I'm spending eternity--not after the hot, clean heat of a Michigan summer, not after Gary's smile...
"Rose?" says Emma. I blink again, clearing the candlelight from my eyes, and nod in her direction.
"I've got it," I say, and take a breath. "The school day inched by like a thousand days before it; like a thousand more would inch after it. One minute at a time, counting down to the freedom of the final bell..."
***
The final bell rang like Gabriel's trumpet, and students poured out of classrooms like angels answering the call to war. Rose stayed seated at her desk, counting slowly backward from twenty. She'd learned the hard way that it was best for her not to hurry. Let the popular girls--the ones who couldn't understand how someone like her could ever be competition for people like them--make their way out of the halls and off campus. Once that was done, it would be safe to move.
"Rose?"
"Yes, Mrs. Jackson?" Rose raised her head from the book she'd been pretending to read, flashing an appropriately respectful smile at the anxious looking teacher in front of her. Irene Jackson had only been teaching in Buckley for a year; hadn't learned the rules yet, the signals that meant it was time to look the other way, the patterns that meant something was too big for a single person to stop. She was young. She'd learn. If she had time.
Irene Jackson was a good woman, and she'd gone into teaching because of girls like Rose--girls like the girl she'd been, once upon a time. The ones who didn't think they had any options, because their families couldn't buy those options for them. "Are you all right? You looked..."
"I'm fine, Mrs. Jackson." Rose stood hurriedly, grabbing her books from the rack beneath her desk and clutching them against her chest. "I just have so much to get done before prom that I guess I was letting my thoughts run away with me."
"You're going to the Senior Prom, aren't you? With Gary Daniels?"
"Yes, ma'am."
"He seems like a very nice young man."
Rose's smile was brilliant enough to shame the sun, if only for a few seconds before it faded back into her normal low-caste wariness. "He is, Mrs. Jackson. A very nice young man. Thank you, ma'am." And then she was gone, heading for the door at the brisk walk-half-skip that all the female students used when they were trying to escape their teachers without being rude about it.
Irene Jackson--who would later write Rose's memorial page for the school yearbook, and would weep without shame over every word--watched her go, a small frown pulling down the corners of her mouth. That night, she sat on the edge of the bed with her husband brushing out her hair, sighed, and said, "It was like she was weighing the rest of her life, right there in my classroom, and she was finding every bit of it wanting. How am I supposed to help these kids? They don't want my help. They don't want anything but to be left alone."
David Jackson was a smart man, and knew that sometimes, his wife worried about things she had no business worrying about, like teenage girls from the bad side of town. He pressed a kiss to the top of her head, and said, "She'll be fine. Girls like that can surprise you sometimes, if you give them the chance. Just be there if she needs you."
"There, you see?" He put the brush aside, reaching for her. "Now come here. It's time to forget about other people's children for a while."
***
I'm filling space, relating events that I wasn't there to witness...but I know they happened, because the people involved told me about them. They told me when I went back to Buckley to offer them a guide into the dark places, playing psychopomp for the people who'd known me when I was alive--the only people who were mine to shepherd, even though they didn't die on the road. The ones who mattered in life can matter in death, if you want them to, and I've guided everyone I cared about who's died since I did.
Everyone who'd go with me, anyway. I ran for Michigan when I felt my mother dying, but she was long gone by the time I got there, and the shades of the streets told me she'd known I was on the way, but chose not to wait for me. I guess some things don't change, not even among the dead.
Maybe especially not among the dead.
I take another breath, smiling gratefully as Emma slides another dish of ice cream into my hand, and continue. "The next night, with Ruth off to work the diner's night shift and her brothers off doing whatever it was they spent their evenings doing, Rose walked to her closet..."
***
Rose walked to her closet the way she imagined a bride would on the evening of her wedding. She'd worked all year to save her pennies for a prom dress, putting up with endless hours of babysitting and doing more odd jobs than she cared to count. Every cent she got went toward the dress. She hid her money in a shoebox under her bed, tucking it into the furthest corner, where her mother wouldn't think to look. Her brothers wouldn't steal from her, although it was best not to tempt them; the Marshall boys were still looking for their own roads out of Buckley, and they wouldn't deny her that chance. A prom night might not change the world...but then again, it might. If she got lucky, it just might.
The dress she'd purchased from the department store downtown was green silk, almost daring in the way it hugged her hips and waist, almost demure in the way it circled her chest and shoulders. The perfect dress. The color was right for her, whether her hair was lemon-bleached or its darker natural brown, and the matching shoes had been on sale. That was the final straw, the thing that decided her, even if it meant she had to work another month of Saturday nights while her perfect dress sat on lay-away, waiting for her to come and claim it. Even the store manager had smiled when she came to pick it up, paying her last five dollars with hands that were very nearly shaking. It was the perfect dress for prom. It was the perfect dress for everything.
It was the perfect dress to die in. But thoughts like that were a million miles from Rose's mind as she stepped out of her heavy cotton skirt and slid the silk up around her waist, feeling the fabric cupping her the way Gary sometimes did, when he was feeling daring and she was feeling wild. She pulled it up a little bit, letting the heavy fabric whisper against her legs, tiny silk kisses on her skin. But draw it out as she might, she couldn't make the process last forever. All too soon, she was looking at herself in the mirror, at the green silk bodice, at the matching ribbons tied oh-so-carefully through the tamed and tempered straw of her hair.
"If he asks me to go to the top of Dead Man's Hill tonight, I will," she whispered, the words wicked on her tongue, and watched the wanton blush spreading up her cheeks. She was going to get out of Buckley, she was, and one way or another, this was going to be the night that started her escape.
One way or another.
***
The hours ticked by as slowly as shadows creeping across the street at sunset, and Gary didn't come. Rose sat on the porch, keeping her back carefully lifted away from the wide slats of the porch swing, and watched the road with eyes that had gone from anticipatory into worried, and were now making the transition into angry. He hadn't come because he wasn't coming. Someone--his mother, maybe, or those pretty girls in school who didn't think a boy like him should go anywhere near a girl like her--had finally talked some of their brand of sense into him, and he wasn't coming.
She'd been a fool to think a night like this was ever intended for a girl like her. Rose stood, blinking back tears as she turned to storm back into the house, away from the summer air and the hope of something more.
Then she paused, hand stretched toward the doorknob. Paused, and thought.
There are those who'll say that every choice we make can change the future, and that every future exists, somewhere. In a thousand, thousand futures, Rose Marshall went back into the house, took off the green silk gown, chose another path. Maybe she sold the dress back to the department store and used the money she'd worked so hard for to leave Buckley forever. Maybe she confronted Gary at school on Monday morning, found peace, found closure. Maybe she just decided to wait a little bit longer before she turned off all the lights, and was still awake when her prom date arrived, greasy-handed from changing his tire, with a half-dead corsage clutched in one hand. Maybe. But those are other stories, and that isn't how this story chose to go.
The frown bloomed on Rose's face like the flower she was named for, starting small, but opening swiftly. By the time she wrenched the door open and stormed into her brother's room, it was in full display, petaled in anger, disappointment, and shame. Arthur and Morty were gone for the night, off on some mysterious errand, and they'd taken Arthur's truck, leaving Morty's clapped-out old car behind. He always left his keys in the dish beside his bed when he wasn't going to need them. Rose snatched them up and turned to go, not looking back, not pausing to change her clothes.
If any of the neighbors had chosen that moment to look out the window, they would have seen a small, pale-haired figure dressed in green silk go stalking across the yard to the car parked beside the curb. They might have said "There goes that Marshall girl," might even have commented on what a strange thing that was to wear on an evening drive. But no one saw her go. No one said a word.
Rose Marshall shoved the key into the ignition, turned it, and was gone.
***
I pause for a moment, struggling to find the words that come next; struggling to find the next breath. I don't have to breathe, not really, but here and now and wearing the coat that Emma gave me when the cheerleaders arrived--wouldn't do to have them realize they could see right through me when the lightning flashed--it helps me think. I don't want to tell the parts that come next. I don't want to remember them. I want to lie, say things worked out, say that somehow, this was never a ghost story at all.
I take that next breath, sigh, and say, "The fastest way to Gary's house was by way of a winding one-lane road that ran the length of the closest thing in town to a mountain. They called it Sparrow Hill Road..."
***
Rose slowed as she took the turn-off onto Sparrow Hill Road, a sudden chill making the skin on her arms lump up into hard knots of gooseflesh. Something was wrong. Something was very wrong. Every instinct she had was telling her to turn around, to take the long way, or to just go home; this wasn't worth it.
Rose Marshall was nothing if not stubborn. Tightening her hands on the wheel, she hit the gas, and drove forward into the shadows lurking underneath the trees that covered the hill. It only took a few moments for the light to disappear completely.
No one in Buckley ever saw Rose alive again.
***
Sparrow Hill Road was about three miles long, from end to end, following a winding route around the outside of the hill it was named for. Rose had traveled almost a mile and a half when headlights flashed on behind her, sudden and almost blinding as they reflected off her rear-view mirror. "Ah!" she exclaimed, throwing up an arm to block the glare. "Jerk." She adjusted the mirror, but it didn't help; it was almost like the car behind her was aiming to kill her night vision.
Rose muttered something unladylike under her breath and sped up a bit. She'd been driving Sparrow Hill Road since long befor
e she was legally allowed behind the wheel of a car. If she had to drive it halfway-blind, then so be it. It wasn't like she had another choice. The road was too narrow where they were, and she couldn't turn around, or pull off to the side.
Another half-mile slunk by, sliding away into the night. The headlights faded from her rear-view, and Rose dropped her hand from her eyes, putting it back on the wheel. She had time, barely, to grip before the car that had been driving behind her lunged forward and slammed into her rear bumper.
The impact was hard and unexpected, throwing Rose forward against the wheel. She cried out, more in surprise than pain, and was in the process of straightening when the car was hit again, harder this time, knocking her almost onto the dash.
"What are you trying to do, kill me?" she shouted, even though she knew full-well there was no way the other driver could hear her. Then she paled. There were always stories, urban legends, about girls foolish enough to drive alone on spooky deserted roads in the middle of nowhere...
Rose slammed her foot down on the gas hard enough to break the heel off her shoe, sending Morty's car leaping forward at a speed it hadn't seen since it was new. "Come on, come on, please," she whispered, shifting as she urged the car to go even faster, to break whatever mechanical laws were holding it back. Just a little further. If she could make it just a little further, she could get back onto the surface streets, and then--
She didn't dare slow for the curve in the road. She twisted the wheel sharply left, trying to swing the car around. She would have made it--her reflexes were good, as the reflexes of the young and afraid so very often are--if not for the car that slammed into her own just as she began her turn, sending her, and her brother's car, plummeting down into the darkness on the side of Sparrow Hill Road.
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