“Oh no. That’s a speaker, Vivian,” he said, lifting it carefully from the trunk. The delight on his face was evident; it was like he’d found treasure. “It’s a gramophone. And in almost mint condition.”
“Very cool,” I breathed, looking past him into the trunk and seeing the base there, complete with needle.
“We should bring this downstairs, set it up in your living room.”
“Good idea. You never know when there might be a Johnny Mathis emergency,” I said.
His answering grin lit up the entire attic, even though the sun was still behind the clouds.
The gramophone was moved to the living room, and though Clark didn’t have time to tinker with it for too long, we did bust out a Mathis album to make sure it worked. Scratchy and tinny, not at all the sound quality this century was used to, it was a great addition to the room.
The house was definitely taking shape.
What was not falling into place was the cowboy. Hank continued to make me hot, but good God almighty, he was proving to be a tougher nut to crack than I’d anticipated. Every day he came to feed the animals. Every day he stood in the driveway next to his truck, peeling off his shirt like he was posing for a calendar. Every day he worked in the barn, pitching hay, feeding the chickens, caring for the horses. Every other day he rode one of them instead of just turning them out in the adjacent pasture, and I’d stop box sorting or pile sweeping to stand in the window watching him.
Watching him saddle up, drawing the leather tight and checking the straps. Watching him swing himself up with only his own strength. Watching him shake out his hair like he was on the cover of Two Scoops of Passion or Catalonian Sex Gods (now in paperback!) and literally ride off into the sunset.
And how many times did I get myself off while thinking of the cowboy? I’d lost count. The absolutely erotic and detailed dreams I’d been having about my lover, whose face was still hidden to me but was of course my cowboy’s, made me hornier than ever.
I’d awaken most nights, strung tighter than a bow, images of naked, sweaty, sexy times imprinted across the inside of my eyelids, and my hand would snake down down down to finish myself off, gasping and panting and coming so hard I’d see spots.
The onion peeling was slow going. God knows I tried, but Hank was not giving anything up. I thought back to all my favorite romance novels, where the hero was tough and unflinching in his beliefs. Where he guarded his dark secrets with the strength of a warrior and the stubbornness of a mule. But that was part of the journey, right? That was part of what the heroine had to push through and forward against all odds. She must never take no for an answer, she must fight back and use every feminine wile in her arsenal.
I wanted wild and wanton, but my arsenal was waning, whimpering, and wandering in the wah-wahs.
I tried every trick in the book. I waited until I knew Hank was heading toward his truck and could see me, then I walked past the windows in just my artfully draped towel. Once. Twice. Three times a weirdo.
I went out one morning still in my nightgown, a wispy cottony little bit of a thing, with a jar of peanut butter, saying that I simply couldn’t get the top off and could he please help me? He opened the jar, told me that Peter Pan was gross and that he preferred Jif, then went back to mucking the stalls.
I sunned myself one afternoon on the back porch, all greased up and shiny in my bikini. When he finally appeared, he took no notice of me—until I gave up and tried to get out of the vinyl lawn chair. I was so slippery I slid right through the strapping. He came out of the barn and found me a tangle of slick arms and legs poking out though the vinyl strips, my actual bottom on the porch floor. He’d had to hold the chair down so I could get out. Even then, he just shook his head and went and rode Paula. Stupid lucky horse.
I boob propped, I booty shook, I cheek pinched and hair tossed. I was turning into the kind of girl I couldn’t stand. I sucked lollipops, moaned in ecstasy when biting into a donut, and simpered like a fool while holding two avocados in the same hand while caressing an eggplant with the other. He’d asked if I was making a salad.
Not all still waters ran deep. Thank God these particular still waters ran gorgeous.
And while all this was going on, I was also getting ready to fly back to Philadelphia to pack up my things and officially move out to Mendocino.
The day before I left dawned clear and bright. I woke horny and frustrated. I’d spent another night being tortured/delighted by my faceless dark lover. The lover with the hands of a god and the mouth of a poet. With his mouth he told me the words I’d always longed to hear, but had never been told. He loved me, cherished me, would go to the ends of the earth to protect me, and would spend the rest of his life caring for me.
With his hands? He worked my body expertly, arousing me with wild abandon. The dirtiest, sexiest hands imaginable.
This dreamy dark lover was exactly the kind of man I wanted in real life. He was the blend of loving and lascivious that I’d been searching for since I’d first picked up a paperback and realized that dirty books could be a woman’s best friend.
And when I woke from this last round of dreams, pulse racing and skin flushed I brought myself to yet another solitary but somewhat satisfying orgasm.
I needed more. I deserved more. But what I was taking? Right now? Was a cold shower. I had stuff to do.
I had breakfast in town since I wanted to catch up with Jessica before I left.
“Hey, girl, you’re coming back, right?” she asked when I hopped up onto the stool at the end of the counter. She poured my coffee without asking and looked at me concernedly.
“Aw, are you afraid you’re going to miss me?” I teased, wrapping my hands around the warm mug. It was chilly this morning and I wondered what the change of seasons would be like out here. I’d been raised on the beautiful explosion of color of the East Coast in the fall. The woods around our home were a riot of oranges and golds, fiery reds and deep yellows. You think California, you think sand and beach and sun. But this far north, it got cold. Would the leaves change?
“Miss you? Hell, no. I love going through shit from your basement.” She laughed.
“You asked for it, sister. You’re the one that wanted to help.”
“Yeah, I know. Thank God I finally got to get into your attic.”
“Why does that sound so dirty?”
“Because you ain’t got a man?”
“Ain’t got a man?” I snorted, rolling my eyes at her.
“It sounded funnier in my head. But the statement stands,” she said, putting my order in. “How’s it going with Hank?”
I put my head down on the counter and sighed into the Formica. “I got nothing. He barely looks at me.”
“I told you, you’re not his type. You’re hot, sure, but way too short, way too brunette, and way too smart for him,” she said, shaking her finger at me.
One day I’d finally confessed my crush (which she’d already guessed weeks ago) when she caught me staring out the window at him, biting down on a broom handle.
“He likes a very specific type of girl, Viv. I’ve known him a long time and he’s always gone for a Barbie doll. There’s been a Missy, a Cheyenne, a Dakota, and several Sharons when he was in his cougar phase. Never anything as cool as a Viv,” she’d said, patting me on the arm.
I’d gone along with it, nodded when she railed against stupid women guys like Hank always go for.
In my head, though? It all fit the romance novel model. Gorgeous man with a taste for gorgeous woman, the same type over and over again. Trying to right a wrong? Chase a ghost? Punish himself with what he can never have? He needed a ravishing petite brunette with a back full of ink, a brain full of math, and a fistful of dick. His dick, because that brunette will be the one to break him of his punishing streak of one-night stands, hers will be the body he will feast from, her cries of passion will be
the ones to erase a thousand nights of empty love and unfilled promises . . .
I mean, dur. It’s practically textbook. So everything Jessica was telling me? Just furthered the cause, made him that much more tantalizing, made the potential thrill all the more powerful when I finally cracked the nut that was Hank.
“God, I need to get laid.”
“Um, right now?” Jessica asked, blinking at me.
“I mean it—I’m dying over here. Sorry, Mr. Martin,” I said when he shot me a look.
“Maybe if you stopped reading so many of those sexy books, you wouldn’t be so wound up.” When color immediately flooded my cheeks she said, “I knew it! I knew those were yours! I thought you’d try and blame poor old Maude.” She cackled, setting down my breakfast in front of me.
“Okay, some of those books? Are in fact Aunt Maude’s. I found an entire Harlequin library in an upstairs closet, so apparently it runs in the family. And yes, I do enjoy a good steamy novel. Now gimme the hot sauce.”
“Pretty sure that was one of the titles I saw on your nightstand the other day.”
“No no, that was Hot Saucy Women and the Men Who Love Them. You’re thinking of Gimme the Good Stuff. Subtitle, Now.”
“Wow.”
“Exactly,” I agreed, and beckoned her closer. “Want to know a secret?”
“Always.” She leaned closer.
“I think I might be living in a romance novel.”
She looked confused. “What?”
“Yeah—like things are happening around me and to me, just like in a romance novel.”
“Uh-huh. And do you see any of these things happening right now, Viv?”
“No no, not like that. I’m not delusional. But think about it. Put yourself in a romance novel head for a moment.”
“I don’t have a bodice.”
“Neither do I, but I’m thinking about getting one. But seriously, think about it. I live on the other side of the country, and I get this mysterious phone call in the middle of the night. I inherit a house from someone I barely know, no strings attached. An opportunity to start fresh, start a new life—and then there’s a cowboy?”
“And Hank’s the cowboy, right?”
“Of course he’s the cowboy! He wears a hat and rides a horse!”
“Okaaaay. What else?”
“What do you mean, what else? That’s the beginning of a classic romance novel!” I said, thumping my fist on the counter.
“But the cowboy isn’t interested in you.”
“I know, so far. But that’s all part of it, right?”
“And there’s no one else in this equation?”
“Huh?”
“What if there’s a dark horse in this romance novel?”
“You mean Paula?” I asked, confused.
“Oh forget it. But here’s what I want to know. Where’s the happy ending?”
“Mmm, the happy ending.” I sighed, licking my fork.
“You’re disgusting.”
“Horny. There’s a difference. Sorry, Mr. Martin.” I nodded to my right.
“No, seriously. How can this have a happy ending, with Hank cast as the hero?”
I thought for a moment, temporarily puzzled. Truth be told, I’d thought something would have happened by now. I’d been here for weeks. A long time to wait for some touch.
A lightbulb went off. “A heroine can never know the outcome, otherwise why would she bother with the journey? The story would be boring if she just showed up with a mattress strapped to her back in the first chapter, right?”
“I don’t know, there’s something to be said for a quickie. Sorry, Mr. Martin. More coffee?”
“You girls are nutty,” he said, extending his mug.
I walked home, thinking over everything Jessica had said. I didn’t know how much longer I could be around Hank without flat-out pouncing on him. Like a junkie, I was jonesing for a romance novel coupling. I needed a pulsating pillar of passion, a mammoth male member, a cocky cobra ready to tangle with my vaginal mongoose.
I also needed to think about upgrading my reading. My imagery was actually starting to bother me.
When I got back to the house, I saw Hank feeding the chickens. I automatically added a bounce to my step. “Hey there, Hank,” I cooed.
“ ’Sup?”
“I’m leaving to go back to Philly tomorrow. Will you watch over everything for me while I’m gone?”
“That’s my job.” He tossed more feed to the chicken.
I sighed.
“Philly? Is that where you’re from?” he asked, and my heart damn near leapt out of my chest. An honest-to-God question!
“Yes! That’s where I’m from.”
“Oh,” he said, then looked me in the eyes. “I like their cheese.”
Huh? Their cheese? Oh! “Sure, Philly cream cheese. Good stuff. I like it too,” I said, grinning broadly.
“I like it on bagels,” he said. “But not on toast.”
Instantly my mind dreamed up a vision of Hank naked in bed, with a nice big bagel around his—
“Toast with jam is good, though. I like jam,” he said, bringing me back from my daydreams.
Ah. Okay. Still talking about breakfast foods.
“Jam is good.” What was not good was this conversation. How could I turn this into something a bit more sexy, a bit more sensual, a bit more turn-me-around-and-plow-into-me-from-behind, please, and thank you very much.
Talk about things he was interested in, something that might lead to him being interested in how interesting I was. “So. Hank. I was thinking. Maybe when I get back we could arrange a riding lesson?”
“Riding?” he asked, throwing the last bit of the feed to the chickens and heading for the barn.
“Yeah, take the horses out? I haven’t been riding since I was a kid, but maybe you could teach me? Get me comfortable again?”
He paused then, turned, and looked at me. Hard. My heart pounded. We stared at each other across the barnyard, chickens running here and there. They were obviously affected by the animal magnetism pulsing across the space between us, the man finally seeing the woman as she was. His stare was as hard as I hoped he’d be. He opened that perfect mouth to say—
Toot toot!
Dammit. Clark was stopping by this morning to go over the bid from the contractor I liked the best. Also the one who wanted to make the most changes, so I was ready for a fight.
He pulled into the driveway and sprang from the car, a scone in his hand and a smile on his face. Which faltered slightly when he saw Hank and me having a stare-off across some chickens.
When the Cowboy saw the Librarian? He approached, scattering fowl left and right. Slowly but purposefully he strode, even when he trod directly on a dried corncob. He stood right in front of me, his gaze drifting down to my now-heaving bosom, then meeting my eyes again from underneath his lashes. His look was heavy, and pointed, and smoldering. His lips parted, his tongue darting out to wet his lips. “You think you wanna ride, huh?”
“Ride?” I whispered, not even able to summon the breath required to make my vocal cords work.
“Yeah. Ride,” he echoed, nodding toward the barn. “When you come back in town? I’ll take you out for a ride. Think you can handle it bareback?”
Sweet merciful God.
I never really understood what it meant when I read the term “my knees buckled.” I now know. Luckily there was a cowboy to catch me. His skin burned when he wrapped his fingers around my biceps, literally holding me up in midair as I struggled to find my footing. I breathed in, his scent filling my nostrils. Sweat. Sweet hay. Heat. Could a man smell like heat? He did.
I took another hit—and sneezed. But this time at least I managed to do it a little more daintily.
He chuckled as he set me back on my feet, turned me cl
ockwise, and with a tiny push sent me back toward the house. “Hey, Clark,” I heard Hank say with a self-satisfied voice behind me. I floated on a puffy white cloud of dazed hormones to the back door, where Clark was now waiting for me with a frown.
“Hey, Clark,” I echoed, as he held the door open for me and I hovered inside, still a few feet off the ground.
Still in a trance, I drifted over to the kitchen table, where I finally came to rest in a chair. My brain was scrambled, everything south of my navel was clenching a phantom dick, and my ears kept repeating a word that I never knew could be so sensual, so sexual, so full of promise. I repeated it in my head, over and over again, trying it out in different ways.
Bareback.
Bareback.
Bareback.
“Horseshit.”
“What?” I asked, ripped from my fluffy sex cloud.
“Horseshit,” Clark said again, pointing toward my shoe. In my trance, I’d stepped right in it.
“Dammit.” I sighed, lifting it immediately and seeing the tracks I’d made on the clean floor. I started to hop toward the door, but on my second hop I stumbled and pitched forward. I would have gone through the screen door but for Clark, who caught me tight around the waist.
Crushed against his chest, my nose was filled with the scent of Irish Spring soap and paperback books. Immediately I was brought back to the scent of the library back home, that homey scent of sun-touched book spines and thick yellowed paper, a quiet afternoon in the stacks.
He set me down before I could think on it too long, however, and helped me back outside. Hank’s truck was thundering away in the distance, and I set to wiping my shoe off in the gravel. After dragging it around a few times I looked up to the porch where Clark was standing, studying me. I got it mostly clean, but still took my shoes off before starting back for the porch.
“Gross, huh?”
“I’ll say,” he muttered, then looked like he was going to say something else. He didn’t though, and when I came back up the stairs he just held the door open for me.
“There’s bleach under the counter,” he said, going to get a roll of paper towels from the pantry. “Let’s get this cleaned up.”
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