He led the way, twisting his hair in his big hands as he walked. He pulled a rubber band from his hip pocket and wound it around the bundle.
“Hey, Dad,” he called as he ducked to get through the front door. “Look who stopped by.”
Billy was in the tiny square living room, a book in his hands. He set the book in his lap and wheeled himself forward when he saw me.
“Well, what do you know! It’s good to see you, Bella.”
We shook hands. Mine was lost in his wide grasp.
“What brings you out here? Everything okay with Charlie?”
“Yes, absolutely. I just wanted to see Jacob—I haven’t seen him in forever.”
Jacob’s eyes brightened at my words. He was smiling so big it looked like it would hurt his cheeks.
“Can you stay for dinner?” Billy was eager, too.
“No, I’ve got to feed Charlie, you know.”
“I’ll call him now,” Billy suggested. “He’s always invited.”
I laughed to hide my discomfort. “It’s not like you’ll never see me again. I promise I’ll be back again soon—so much you’ll get sick of me.” After all, if Jacob could fix the bike, someone had to teach me how to ride it.
Billy chuckled in response. “Okay, maybe next time.”
“So, Bella, what do you want to do?” Jacob asked.
“Whatever. What were you doing before I interrupted?” I was strangely comfortable here. It was familiar, but only distantly. There were no painful reminders of the recent past.
Jacob hesitated. “I was just heading out to work on my car, but we can do something else . . .”
“No, that’s perfect!” I interrupted. “I’d love to see your car.”
“Okay,” he said, not convinced. “It’s out back, in the garage.”
Even better, I thought to myself. I waved at Billy. “See you later.”
A thick stand of trees and shrubbery concealed his garage from the house. The garage was no more than a couple of big preformed sheds that had been bolted together with their interior walls knocked out. Under this shelter, raised on cinder blocks, was what looked to me like a completed automobile. I recognized the symbol on the grille, at least.
“What kind of Volkswagen is that?” I asked.
“It’s an old Rabbit—1986, a classic.”
“How’s it going?”
“Almost finished,” he said cheerfully. And then his voice dropped into a lower key. “My dad made good on his promise last spring.”
“Ah,” I said.
He seemed to understand my reluctance to open the subject. I tried not to remember last May at the prom. Jacob had been bribed by his father with money and car parts to deliver a message there. Billy wanted me to stay a safe distance from the most important person in my life. It turned out that his concern was, in the end, unnecessary. I was all too safe now.
But I was going to see what I could do to change that.
“Jacob, what do you know about motorcycles?” I asked.
He shrugged. “Some. My friend Embry has a dirt bike. We work on it together sometimes. Why?”
“Well...,” I pursed my lips as I considered. I wasn’t sure if he could keep his mouth shut, but I didn’t have many other options. “I recently acquired a couple of bikes, and they’re not in the greatest condition. I wonder if you could get them running?”
“Cool.” He seemed truly pleased by the challenge. His face glowed. “I’ll give it a try.”
I held up one finger in warning. “The thing is,” I explained, “Charlie doesn’t approve of motorcycles. Honestly, he’d probably bust a vein in his forehead if he knew about this. So you can’t tell Billy.”
“Sure, sure.” Jacob smiled. “I understand.”
“I’ll pay you,” I continued.
This offended him. “No. I want to help. You can’t pay me.”
“Well...how about a trade, then?” I was making this up as I went, but it seemed reasonable enough. “I only need one bike—and I’ll need lessons, too. So how about this? I’ll give you the other bike, and then you can teach me.”
“Swee-eet.” He made the word into two syllables.
“Wait a sec—are you legal yet? When’s your birthday?”
“You missed it,” he teased, narrowing his eyes in mock resentment. “I’m sixteen.”
“Not that your age ever stopped you before,” I muttered. “Sorry about your birthday.”
“Don’t worry about it. I missed yours. What are you, forty?”
I sniffed. “Close.”
“We’ll have a joint party to make up for it.”
“Sounds like a date.”
His eyes sparkled at the word.
I needed to reign in the enthusiasm before I gave him the wrong idea—it was just that it had been a long time since I’d felt so light and buoyant. The rarity of the feeling made it more difficult to manage.
“Maybe when the bikes are finished—our present to ourselves,” I added.
“Deal. When will you bring them down?”
I bit my lip, embarrassed. “They’re in my truck now,” I admitted.
“Great.” He seemed to mean it.
“Will Billy see if we bring them around?”
He winked at me. “We’ll be sneaky.”
We eased around from the east, sticking to the trees when we were in view of the windows, affecting a casual-looking stroll, just in case. Jacob unloaded the bikes swiftly from the truck bed, wheeling them one by one into the shrubbery where I hid. It looked too easy for him—I’d remembered the bikes being much, much heavier than that.
“These aren’t half bad,” Jacob appraised as we pushed them through the cover of the trees. “This one here will actually be worth something when I’m done—it’s an old Harley Sprint.”
“That one’s yours, then.”
“Are you sure?”
“Absolutely.”
“These are going to take some cash, though,” he said, frowning down at the blackened metal. “We’ll have to save up for parts first.”
“We nothing,” I disagreed. “If you’re doing this for free, I’ll pay for the parts.”
“I don’t know...,” he muttered.
“I’ve got some money saved. College fund, you know.” College, schmollege, I thought to myself. It wasn’t like I’d saved up enough to go anywhere special—and besides, I had no desire to leave Forks anyway. What difference would it make if I skimmed a little bit off the top?
Jacob just nodded. This all made perfect sense to him.
As we skulked back to the makeshift garage, I contemplated my luck. Only a teenage boy would agree to this: deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles using money meant for my college education. He didn’t see anything wrong with that picture. Jacob was a gift from the gods.
6. FRIENDS
THE MOTORCYCLES DIDN’T NEED TO BE HIDDEN ANY further than simply placing them in Jacob’s shed. Billy’s wheelchair couldn’t maneuver the uneven ground separating it from the house.
Jacob started pulling the first bike—the red one, which was destined for me—to pieces immediately. He opened up the passenger door of the Rabbit so I could sit on the seat instead of the ground. While he worked, Jacob chattered happily, needing only the lightest of nudges from me to keep the conversation rolling. He updated me on the progress of his sophomore year of school, running on about his classes and his two best friends.
“Quil and Embry?” I interrupted. “Those are unusual names.”
Jacob chuckled. “Quil’s is a hand-me-down, and I think Embry got named after a soap opera star. I can’t say anything, though. They fight dirty if you start on their names—they’ll tag team you.”
“Good friends.” I raised one eyebrow.
“No, they are. Just don’t mess with their names.”
Just then a call echoed in the distance. “Jacob?” someone shouted.
“Is that Billy?” I asked.
“No.” Jacob ducked his
head, and it looked like he was blushing under his brown skin. “Speak of the devil,” he mumbled, “and the devil shall appear.”
“Jake? Are you out here?” The shouting voice was closer now.
“Yeah!” Jacob shouted back, and sighed.
We waited through the short silence until two tall, dark-skinned boys strolled around the corner into the shed.
One was slender, and almost as tall as Jacob. His black hair was chin-length and parted down the middle, one side tucked behind his left ear while the right side swung free. The shorter boy was more burly. His white T-shirt strained over his well-developed chest, and he seemed gleefully conscious of that fact. His hair was so short it was almost a buzz.
Both boys stopped short when they saw me. The thin boy glanced swiftly back and forth between Jacob and me, while the brawny boy kept his eyes on me, a slow smile spreading across his face.
“Hey, guys,” Jacob greeted them halfheartedly.
“Hey, Jake,” the short one said without looking away from me. I had to smile in response, his grin was so impish. When I did, he winked at me. “Hi, there.”
“Quil, Embry—this is my friend, Bella.”
Quil and Embry, I still didn’t know which was which, exchanged a loaded look.
“Charlie’s kid, right?” the brawny boy asked me, holding out his hand.
“That’s right,” I confirmed, shaking hands with him. His grasp was firm; it looked like he was flexing his bicep.
“I’m Quil Ateara,” he announced grandly before releasing my hand.
“Nice to meet you, Quil.”
“Hey, Bella. I’m Embry, Embry Call—you probably already figured that out, though.” Embry smiled a shy smile and waved with one hand, which he then shoved in the pocket of his jeans.
I nodded. “Nice to meet you, too.”
“So what are you guys doing?” Quil asked, still looking at me.
“Bella and I are going to fix up these bikes,” Jacob explained inaccurately. But bikes seemed to be the magic word. Both boys went to examine Jacob’s project, drilling him with educated questions. Many of the words they used were unfamiliar to me, and I figured I’d have to have a Y chromosome to really understand the excitement.
They were still immersed in talk of parts and pieces when I decided that I needed to head back home before Charlie showed up here. With a sigh, I slid out of the Rabbit.
Jacob looked up, apologetic. “We’re boring you, aren’t we?”
“Naw.” And it wasn’t a lie. I was enjoying myself—how strange. “I just have to go cook dinner for Charlie.”
“Oh...well, I’ll finish taking these apart tonight and figure out what more we’ll need to get started rebuilding them. When do you want to work on them again?”
“Could I come back tomorrow?” Sundays were the bane of my existence. There was never enough homework to keep me busy.
Quil nudged Embry’s arm and they exchanged grins.
Jacob smiled in delight. “That would be great!”
“If you make a list, we can go shop for parts,” I suggested.
Jacob’s face fell a little. “I’m still not sure I should let you pay for everything.”
I shook my head. “No way. I’m bankrolling this party. You just have to supply the labor and expertise.”
Embry rolled his eyes at Quil.
“That doesn’t seem right,” Jacob shook his head.
“Jake, if I took these to a mechanic, how much would he charge me?” I pointed out.
He smiled. “Okay, you’re getting a deal.”
“Not to mention the riding lessons,” I added.
Quil grinned widely at Embry and whispered something I didn’t catch. Jacob’s hand flashed out to smack the back of Quil’s head. “That’s it, get out,” he muttered.
“No, really, I have to go,” I protested, heading for the door. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Jacob.”
As soon as I was out of sight, I heard Quil and Embry chorus, “Wooooo!”
The sound of a brief scuffle followed, interspersed with an “ouch” and a “hey!”
“If either of you set so much as one toe on my land tomorrow . . .” I heard Jacob threaten. His voice was lost as I walked through the trees.
I giggled quietly. The sound made my eyes widen in wonder. I was laughing, actually laughing, and there wasn’t even anyone watching. I felt so weightless that I laughed again, just make the feeling last longer.
I beat Charlie home. When he walked in I was just taking the fried chicken out of the pan and laying it on a pile of paper towels.
“Hey, Dad.” I flashed him a grin.
Shock flitted across his face before he pulled his expression together. “Hey, honey,” he said, his voice uncertain. “Did you have fun with Jacob?”
I started moving the food to the table. “Yeah, I did.”
“Well, that’s good.” He was still cautious. “What did you two do?”
Now it was my turn to be cautious. “I hung out in his garage and watched him work. Did you know he’s rebuilding a Volkswagen?”
“Yeah, I think Billy mentioned that.”
The interrogation had to stop when Charlie began chewing, but he continued to study my face as he ate.
After dinner, I dithered around, cleaning the kitchen twice, and then did my homework slowly in the front room while Charlie watched a hockey game. I waited as long as I could, but finally Charlie mentioned the late hour. When I didn’t respond, he got up, stretched, and then left, turning out the light behind him. Reluctantly, I followed.
As I climbed the stairs, I felt the last of the afternoon’s abnormal sense of well-being drain from my system, replaced by a dull fear at the thought of what I was going to have to live through now.
I wasn’t numb anymore. Tonight would, no doubt, be as horrific as last night. I lay down on my bed and curled into a ball in preparation for the onslaught. I squeezed my eyes shut and...the next thing I next I knew, it was morning.
I stared at the pale silver light coming through my window, stunned.
For the first time in more than four months, I’d slept without dreaming. Dreaming or screaming. I couldn’t tell which emotion was stronger—the relief or the shock.
I lay still in my bed for a few minutes, waiting for it to come back. Because something must be coming. If not the pain, then the numbness. I waited, but nothing happened. I felt more rested than I had in a long time.
I didn’t trust this to last. It was a slippery, precarious edge that I balanced on, and it wouldn’t take much to knock me back down. Just glancing around my room with these suddenly clear eyes—noticing how strange it looked, too tidy, like I didn’t live here at all—was dangerous.
I pushed that thought from my mind, and concentrated, as I got dressed, on the fact that I was going to see Jacob again today. The thought made me feel almost...hopeful. Maybe it would be the same as yesterday. Maybe I wouldn’t have to remind myself to look interested and to nod or smile at appropriate intervals, the way I had to with everyone else. Maybe...but I wouldn’t trust this to last, either. Wouldn’t trust it to be the same—so easy—as yesterday. I wasn’t going to set myself up for disappointment like that.
At breakfast, Charlie was being careful, too. He tried to hide his scrutiny, keeping his eyes on his eggs until he thought I wasn’t looking.
“What are you up to today?” he asked, eyeing a loose thread on the edge of his cuff like he wasn’t paying much attention to my answer.
“I’m going to hang out with Jacob again.”
He nodded without looking up. “Oh,” he said.
“Do you mind?” I pretended to worry. “I could stay....”
He glanced up quickly, a hint of panic in his eyes. “No, no! You go ahead. Harry was going to come up to watch the game with me anyway.”
“Maybe Harry could give Billy a ride up,” I suggested. The fewer witnesses the better.
“That’s a great idea.”
I wasn’t sure if the game
was just an excuse for kicking me out, but he looked excited enough now. He headed to the phone while I donned my rain jacket. I felt self- conscious with the checkbook shoved in my jacket pocket. It was something I never used.
Outside, the rain came down like water slopped from a bucket. I had to drive more slowly than I wanted to; I could hardly see a car length in front of the truck. But I finally made it through the muddy lanes to Jacob’s house. Before I’d killed the engine, the front door opened and Jacob came running out with a huge black umbrella.
He held it over my door while I opened it.
“Charlie called—said you were on your way,” Jacob explained with a grin.
Effortlessly, without a conscious command to the muscles around my lips, my answering smile spread across my face. A strange feeling of warmth bubbled up in my throat, despite the icy rain splattering on my cheeks.
“Hi, Jacob.”
“Good call on inviting Billy up.” He held up his hand for a high five.
I had to reach so high to slap his hand that he laughed.
Harry showed up to get Billy just a few minutes later. Jacob took me on a brief tour of his tiny room while we waited to be unsupervised.
“So where to, Mr. Goodwrench?” I asked as soon as the door closed behind Billy.
Jacob pulled a folded paper out of his pocket and smoothed it out. “We’ll start at the dump first, see if we can get lucky. This could get a little expensive,” he warned me. “Those bikes are going to need a lot of help before they’ll run again.” My face didn’t look worried enough, so he continued. “I’m talking about maybe more than a hundred dollars here.”
I pulled my checkbook out, fanned myself with it, and rolled my eyes at his worries. “We’re covered.”
It was a very strange kind of day. I enjoyed myself. Even at the dump, in the slopping rain and ankle-deep mud. I wondered at first if it was just the aftershock of losing the numbness, but I didn’t think that was enough of an explanation.
I was beginning to think it was mostly Jacob. It wasn’t just that he was always so happy to see me, or that he didn’t watch me out of the corner of his eye, waiting for me to do something that would mark me as crazy or depressed. It was nothing that related to me at all.
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