“Let me help you get dressed,” he murmured, straightening up.
It felt slightly weird to have him hold her panties open so she could step into them. He pulled them up, swiping a finger through her cream. He then brought his finger up to his mouth and licked it clean. Oh, that was hot.
“You taste so good,” he said. “I’m going to take you home and have you come all over my face.”
“That’s so hot,” she whispered.
He held her jeans out and she took them from him, wiggling into them and wincing a little as the material soaked up her juices. Thank god it was night, which hopefully hid any wet stain she might have.
Then he picked up the blanket and folded it once again. He stuck it under his arm and held out his hand. When she took it, she laced their fingers together.
“Are we ever going to have normal sex?” she asked as they walked out of the barn toward the tractor waiting to take a load of people back through the woods to the festival.
“What’s normal sex?” he asked.
“Penetration,” she mused.
“I’m trying to show you that pleasure isn’t always black and white.”
“I like penetration.”
“So do I,” he told her. “I was saving that for the big finale.”
The words sent ice through her core. Right. She was leaving. She was just a passing ship in his night. Unfinished business twelve years in the making.
“Right,” she said.
“You’re thinking again.”
“Yeah, that’s what us humans tend to do,” she said sarcastically. “We think.”
“Watch it,” he warned.
She stopped and pulled her hand out of his. How dare he remind her that she was leaving soon, that he would soon wash his hands of her. Yes, she always knew she’d be leaving, but he didn’t have to point that out. It made what they’d just done feel cheap. Now that they were out of the barn and the moon was shining above them, she could make out his frozen features.
“What’s wrong?” he asked.
“I need time to think,” she muttered. “More time than what you gave me a few minutes ago.”
“You were just as eager a participant as I was, Alannah.”
“I know.”
She turned to walk away but he grabbed her arm and halted her retreat. Why did he have to keep touching her, reminding her of what was just out of her reach…
“You don’t have to turn away from me,” he said. “You don’t have to shut me out.”
“Right now, yes I do.”
He shook her arm. “Why? What is so difficult about opening up to me?”
She jerked her arm away but maintained eye contact. “Because being here with you was the last thing I expected and there are…issues I have to think over.”
“What issues? Damn it, just tell me!”
“Don’t, Sky. Right now I just need some time to myself, to think. You’ve gone from being one of my best friends to my lover and now I don’t know how to think about that.”
“I’m no different than I was an hour ago.”
“But you are different than you were twelve years ago.” She held up her hands. “Maybe I should stay the night at CeeCee’s.”
“No. You gave me all your nights,” he said harshly. “Now, you can ride back by yourself and I’ll meet you at Cee’s booth, but your night belongs to me.”
She didn’t say anything more. She turned and stomped back toward the waiting tractor, wiping the tears away from her eyes. She would not cry. Not now, not ever. After Bryce she swore she’d never shed any more tears over a man.
She settled on a hay bale and wrapped her arms around herself, not able to see where Sky had disappeared. Why did his words hurt her so much? She wasn’t looking for a relationship. Was she? Of course not. She’d be foolish to risk her heart again, and she wasn’t planning on sticking around. Because he didn’t want her. Or was it because she didn’t want to become her mom? Oh, the lines were getting blurry now. Damn it…how was she supposed to think straight after post-coital bliss?
When the tractor came to a stop, Alannah’s thoughts were as muddy as ever. She was the first one to dismount and began wandering through the crowd, making her way to the kissing booth. She watched both CeeCee and Kevin for a few minutes, seeing how they not only dealt with customers but with each other. They were so relaxed with each other and it was something that had developed over time. Once upon a time she’d felt the same with Sky, and it made her sad to think she may have lost that.
“Hey, girl!” CeeCee called out and Alannah realized she’d been spotted. “Where’s Sky?”
Alannah shrugged as she walked over to the booth. Luckily, no one was waiting for a kiss. “I left him back at McCrinny’s farmhouse.”
“Oh, I see,” CeeCee said. “No, actually, I don’t see at all. You left here all happy and smiles and you return looking like you lost your best friend.”
All the air expelled from her lungs in a rush and Alannah felt light headed. “I think I might have,” she whispered.
CeeCee exited the booth and came around to enfold her in a comforting hug.
“What happened?”
“I don’t know,” Alannah replied, sniffing. “Things were going great and then…some things happened, and now everything is so confusing.”
“What did he say?”
“He expects me to leave in a few days.”
“He said that?” CeeCee asked, surprised.
Two young women walked up to the kissing booth, giggling, and she and CeeCee watched as the women each handed over a dollar. Kevin, being his cute flirty self, took each dollar, leaned over and kissed each girl chastely on the lips. Alannah looked over at CeeCee to gage her reaction, but as soon as Kevin was done with the two women he looked over at them and gave a wink. It dawned on her that CeeCee trusted Kevin, like, actually trusted him. Would she be able to trust Sky if it was him behind that booth? She didn’t know because once upon a time she’d have thought she could trust Bryce but he’d found her replacement in two weeks. At that moment a man walked up, looking around confused.
“You have a client,” Alannah murmured. “Go pull in those donations.”
“He can wait,” CeeCee said.
And then, much to their surprise, he handed Kevin a dollar and Kevin leaned over and kissed the man on the mouth. When they pulled apart, the man flushed but walked away with a silly grin on his face.
“Huh,” CeeCee said. “Go figure.”
Kevin looked at them, shrugged, and held up the dollar.
“That was really hot,” CeeCee said with a chuckle. “I’m going to have to jump his bones. Oh wait, are you coming back to the house?”
“No,” Sky said from behind them. Alannah jumped and spun to face him. His face was set and determined, and for a moment she thought he might be going into battle. “No, she’s staying at my place.”
“Okay,” CeeCee said, twirling her fingers. “Tootles!”
“Traitor,” Alannah said under her breath but all her friend did was wink.
The ride back to Sky’s house was done in silence and with every second that passed, she didn’t know how to bridge the distance that was growing between them. She was big enough to admit that she was partly at fault because she knew the game going into this. No strings attached. And yes, at the beginning that’s exactly what she wanted. Bryce had done a number on her and the last thing she wanted to do was to get caught up in a rebound relationship.
But, oh man, this didn’t feel like a rebound. This felt like it had been twenty years in the making. She didn’t want to use the “L” word because no one could fall in love in less than a week, but she really wished she had the opportunity to explore this thing between her and Sky. But to do that meant she’d have to move to Dexter, and that…well, the old fears still lingered in her mind.
When they entered his house, he didn’t even wait. He simply grabbed her hand and led her to his room, and into the bathroom.
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��Strip,” he ordered. “We both need to shower.”
She wanted to argue but truth be told she thought she smelled a little like horse. So she did as he asked, taking off her clothes and letting them lay where they fell. Sky turned on the shower and adjusted the temperature before taking off his clothes. He followed her lead and didn’t bother with them once they were off. He took her hand and brought her under the water with him.
It took everything inside her not to gawk at him because he truly was beautiful, carved from marble and looking like a Greek god. His shoulders were wide, his arms muscular, and she could wash clothes on his washboard abs. His cock was big and hard and her mouth watered to swallow him down. And all of this begged the question, what did he see in her?
“Penny for your thoughts.”
“I don’t think they’re worth that.”
“Try me.”
“I’ve got a little bit of self doubt going on,” she whispered and wrapped her arms around herself.
She saw his face soften and he enfolded her in a tight hug. His dick pressed against her stomach but for once it wasn’t about sex. Right now, in this moment, it was about compassion and comfort.
“Talk to me,” he murmured.
“He didn’t find me attractive anymore,” she said, holding back the sob. “He said I was boring. Basically said I was fat and lazy. And if I can’t make the man who pledged to honor and love me forever stay interested, then how can you possibly want me?”
“Oh, baby. I want to find your ex-husband and wring his neck. Let me ask you something. How long did you date your husband before you married him?”
“One year.”
“One year. And you’ve known me how long?”
“Um…twenty-four years,” she answered, remembering a similar conversation with CeeCee and Kevin.
“Yep. And using the excuse of gaining weight is a cop out. It’s utter nonsense and he’s a fucking jerk. When you love someone you love them for the person they are, not the skin they wear. Nothing changes the heart and nothing changes the love.”
And then he kissed her.
He cupped her face and tilted her head, deepening the kiss as his tongue slipped into her mouth. No matter the doubts or the questions or the potential heartbreak, this is where they exploded. Nothing had ever felt so good as having his lips on hers. She loved kissing him and the brief thought flashed through her head that she wouldn’t mind kissing him the rest of her life. But before she let that thought settle and make her sad, Sky was pulling back. He turned off the shower and took her hand, leading her from the stall.
“I want to do something different,” he murmured.
“Hasn’t what we’ve been doing been different?”
He grinned and bumped her forehead with his. “Do you trust me?”
Without hesitation she nodded so he took her hand in his, and even though they were still wet, he led her into the bedroom. He left her by the closet door as he walked inside and she heard some rummaging around. Curiosity had her peaking around the doorframe because the question had come up several times of where he stored his toys.
“Curious?” he asked.
She nodded. His closet was huge, a walk in with multiple layers, and one wall devoted to nothing but drawers. He opened one and pulled out a pair of handcuffs. He opened another drawer and picked up something that looked like a dildo, with a narrow tip that widened toward the base with a flanged end. When she realized what it was, her lips pursed. Anal sex? Well, she wasn’t quite sure about that. She’d tried it once with Bryce and hadn’t liked it because it’d been painful and she’d felt dirty afterward. But she’d said that she trusted him so she’d follow his direction. Besides, all she had to do was use her safe word.
“Do you want a blindfold tonight?” he asked her and she blinked.
For a moment, she didn’t know how to answer. She loved how it forced her brain to stop thinking about anything but what was happening, yet at the same time, she’d never been with Sky without it, well, except in the barn and that didn’t count because it was dark.
“Yes,” she finally said. If he wanted anal sex, she wasn’t sure she wanted to see what was going on and she was afraid her thoughts would stop her from truly feeling.
So he pulled out the blindfold and then led her over to the bed. By this point, she wasn’t apprehensive about not being able to see. But the jingle of the handcuffs and the idea that the butt plug was still out there definitely raised her eyebrow. Then again, how could it not?
“Get on the bed,” he told her. “On your knees, facing the headboard.”
“I’m still wet,” she said.
“And I hope you get wetter still.”
That hadn’t been what she meant, but what could she say to that? Her body seemed to love the notion because the words made her heart start pounding and a flush of heat flashed over her skin. She did as he commanded and he proceeded to hook the handcuffs through one of the elaborate rails of the headboard. And then he looked at her, waiting, and she wondered what he was waiting for until it dawned on her…he was waiting to cuff her.
The handcuffs were the normal metal ones, although these didn’t look exactly like normal ones. A thick padded strip of leather lined the inside and she realized it was there to protect her from the harsh metal if she pulled or yanked on them. A brief picture floated through her mind of why she’d pull against them, namely if she were thrusting against Sky, and her pussy clenched in anticipation. Oh yes. That’s what she wanted.
As soon as he clicked her in place, he put the blindfold around her eyes and tied it in place. Butterflies erupted in her stomach and she felt her sex flood with wetness. She moved her hips and her pussy lips rubbed against her clit, causing tiny fireworks to ignite through her body. She was almost salivating at the thought that soon she was going to be fucked and fucked well.
She heard a drawer open and close and then felt the bed dip as Sky got on it. His hand ran over the globes of her ass. He pushed her thighs apart, just a little, so that her ass cheeks parted and then the cool drizzle of lube plopped at the top of her crack. It slid down, covering her back hole, and his fingers began to massage it around the tight ring.
“Relax,” he murmured.
“I’m trying,” she said. “But I didn’t like anal sex the first time I tried it. It hurt.”
“That’s why I’m putting in this plug,” he told her and a second later something started sliding in. She automatically tensed. “No, relax, baby. Push out. That’s it. Perfect. It’s almost all the way in. Ah…how do you feel?”
“Full,” she whispered, and it was true. Having a dick inside her pussy didn’t make her feel half as stuffed as the plug did. Maybe because it was a hole used as an exit instead of an entrance and therefore didn’t get much action. Sky had gone slow enough that she didn’t feel pain, but there was pressure and a slight burn and she wasn’t sure how she felt about it.
But she didn’t have time to think about it too much because a slap landed on her ass cheek. She jumped.
“Ouch!”
His hand soothed the skin he’d just slapped and then he backed away. A second later, she felt his head sliding between her spread thighs as he gripped her and pulled her down to his mouth. And then he feasted on her. He flicked her clit in quick, repetitive motions, making her scream in pleasure. She could feel her juices running and he lapped it up, which was really hot. He sucked on the little bundle of nerves until she was squirming and panting and begging for god only knows what. More, harder, faster, deeper…the words blended together as she hung on a precipice. The pressure from the butt plug only intensified the feelings because this aching full feeling deep inside had never been so sharp. Her hips bucked as his fingers slid along her seam, coaxing the lips apart so the top of his tongue could massage her clit in little circles. She could actually feel the nub pulsate as the orgasm rose up and she couldn’t help but press down on his face below her, which caused him to nip a little, just a tiny little stab of pleasure-p
ain, but that’s what sent her over the edge. She screamed his name as her release zinged through her and she could’ve sworn she floated out of her body, but Sky wouldn’t let up, just lapped at her eagerly licking up her cream. Alannah couldn’t even collapse in a happy heap because she was scared of smothering him. All she could do was hang on as another climax began to slowly build up.
But before she could find another plateau of bliss, he stopped, and she moaned her displeasure, wriggling her hips. She felt him scoot out from under her and the bed dipped as he moved around. When she heard the unmistakable tear of a condom wrapper her pussy began leaking again and she waited, breathlessly, for him to mount her. Oh god, did she want him to mount her. She wanted his cock inside her so bad. It was hard to believe she’d had the best sex of her life the past couple of days and he still hadn’t fucked her normally.
But all that disappeared from her brain as she felt the butt plug slowly slide out of her. Then more goop and, oh god, his cock was pressing against her back hole. This was never going to fit. How’d he think his big, hard dick was going to fit in that tiny back door? Slowly, so very slowly, he worked his cock in and out of her ass, moving only centimeters each time. It was instinctual to tighten up but each time he’d wait and rub, and she’d let out a breath and he’d slide in another centimeter.
His fingers returned to her pussy and one finger slid into her heat, then a second, and suddenly her senses didn’t know how to process anything because every time he slid forward into her ass his finger touched her special spot. All she knew was that this wasn’t at all painful like last time. In fact, as he slid deeper, she found the dual sensations of having her pussy and her ass filled a very pleasurable combination.
“Relax,” he murmured in that voice, that ‘do as I say’ tone, and without thinking that’s what her body did. And when she did, he slid all the way home. “Yes, that’s it. Baby, your ass feels so amazing. So tight. God!”
He fucked her gently at first, in and out, almost delicately. Alannah groaned and that seemed to be the starter on his mower. Faster and faster Sky drilled into her and she heard his ragged breathing. Knowing he was so turned on was a huge turn on for her and it made her let go of all her inhibitions.
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