Black On Black (Quentin Black Mystery #3)

Home > Suspense > Black On Black (Quentin Black Mystery #3) > Page 2
Black On Black (Quentin Black Mystery #3) Page 2

by JC Andrijeski


  Remembering what I’d seen of his childhood, even just now, while I’d been asleep, I didn’t answer. I watched him silently instead, feeling the walls come down between us, even more than I could see. I couldn’t think of words to say, not then––mostly because I knew exactly what he was talking about. I could feel it on him, although he’d never admitted much about his past to me, not back then. I only knew the bare bones, and that was from Solonik.

  Solonik told me Black was born a slave in that other world.

  Given that, Black was right of course.

  I didn’t know what the hell I was talking about.

  Further, I could see how my New-Agey, California, everything-happens-for-a-reason platitudes might rub him the wrong way. The fact that I couldn’t fathom the kinds of things he must have endured in that other place––or imagine what it must have been like for him to end up here––effectively silenced me.

  Maybe I shouldn’t have let it.

  Maybe that was the time to tell him everything––about the voice in my head, about what I’d seen in my dreams. Maybe that was the time to convince him he wasn’t going to save me like this. That he wasn’t going to save either one of us.

  “You always have some choice, Black,” I said, my voice apologetic. “I wish you’d trust me a little. I wish you’d let me help you with this.”

  He clicked under his breath, but didn’t answer. I saw him thinking about what I’d said, even as I felt him wishing he knew how to make me understand.

  Ironic really, given that I felt pretty much exactly the same way.

  I didn’t have any way to bridge that gulf between us, not back then. Back then, I knew too little about his world. I knew too little about his past, and my own for that matter. I doubted my own dreams, my own mind, that voice I’d heard in my head, my fears. I knew as well as he did that I’d recently been through a serious trauma. It had crossed my mind already that the dreams might simply be another form of PTSD.

  I knew Black would probably think so, if I told him.

  Or worse, he’d assume it was Solonik’s voice I heard.

  To be fair to Black, maybe I was underestimating him, though.

  Back then, I didn’t know how badly I needed to learn to trust those vague pings of warning I would get, more and more often as time went on. On the contrary, I’d spent my whole life trying to suppress those things. I wanted to react only to facts... not vague intuitions that were probably based on nothing anyway.

  I get those limitations now. I really do.

  I’m not mad at myself for not pushing on him harder.

  Even so, I wish I’d said more.

  I really wish I’d said more to him while I had the chance.

  Two

  EVASION

  BY THE TIME we landed at San Francisco International Airport, I’d shoved all thoughts of dreams and mysterious voices out of my mind.

  All I could think about was getting home... and taking a really long, really hot shower.

  Preferably with Black.

  I watched him, unable to look away as he pulled two hard-case suitcases off the conveyor belt in baggage claim. He grabbed them one at a time, still favoring his hurt shoulder, but the motion still looked effortless on him somehow, almost graceful.

  I watched his muscles move under his skin, rippling tattoos as he raised each case, the only indication of their weight. His mouth firmed into a grimmer expression as he dropped them on the linoleum floor beside the baggage carousel, releasing the handle locks so he could use the wheels.

  I watched him in all of it––the way his body moved, the way his clothes hung on him.

  He wore the same black T-shirt he’d put on in the Bangkok airport. Only now he wore a leather jacket over that and the bandage on the flesh wound he’d sustained, hiding his wound as well as the gun I suspected he wore on a shoulder holster now that we were off the plane. His dark pants hung low on his hips from the weight he’d lost, and below those, he wore leather dress shoes. He moved slower than usual, the only indication he was tired.

  Well, and wounded, I reminded myself.

  We’d been on various planes for over thirty hours with layovers and I don’t think he’d slept, but I knew that wasn’t all of what I was seeing. I knew the gunshot wasn’t all of it, either. He had on the same watch as when I’d first met him in an interrogation room inside a police station here in San Francisco. His black hair was matted to the back of his neck and I noted again that it had grown out, contrasting the distinctly cop-like flavor of his mirrored sunglasses.

  I was conscious of his attention on me as well, even when he seemed to be looking elsewhere. His sculpted mouth remained in that grim expression, but he looked relieved too, just like he’d said he would, as soon as we landed back in the States.

  I only looked away when I saw a woman in a designer coat giving him a once-over, her eyes narrowing in obvious interest.

  Looking down, I pulled my phone out of my bag, maybe so I didn’t have to watch her try and angle her way closer to him. I knew I’d have to get used to women hitting on Black, but I wasn’t there yet, and I wasn’t in the mood to pretend I was, not after everything.

  My phone kind of blew up as soon as I turned it on.

  It occurred to me only then to think back on how long it had been since I’d last checked it. Somehow, in all of my time of being in Bangkok, I don’t think I’d even turned it on. I never even noticed that it had lain dormant in my bag after that first plane ride.

  Then again, when would I have used it?

  I was tied to the wall of a psychopath’s room the vast majority of the time I’d been in Thailand. There’d been that first day, with Black and his lawyer, Lawrence Farraday and later his old army buddy, Kevin Lawless.

  Then there had been Solonik. I only spent one night in an actual hotel bed.

  Shoving that from my mind with a grimace, I tried to focus on the phone. On normalcy.

  On my actual life.

  The first few messages were––predictably, I guess––annoyed ones from my overly paranoid and occasionally judgmental homicide detective pal, Naoko “Nick” Tanaka.

  I got a few from Angel too, another homicide cop from Nick’s precinct. I even got a call from Glen Frakes, Nick’s partner, which told me just how desperate Nick must have been to reach me. If he’d roped Glen into his paranoia, he’d likely be calling Interpol next.

  Peppered between Nick’s protective big-brotherly messages, each a bit more terse and vaguely threatening than the last (although most of those threats seemed aimed at Black, interestingly enough), I also got a handful from psychology clients, mostly the ones I would have expected. One of those in particular I really needed to pass off with a referral. He seemed to feel betrayed whenever I was out of his contact range for more than an afternoon, and was growing increasingly demanding about both my time and the “attention” I paid him. He’d also grown increasingly immune to any feedback from me on the subject.

  Sighing, I listened to part of the fourth message from that same patient, only glancing at Black again when he was within a few yards of me.

  He walked right up to me, and I felt a coil of heat off him, hitting me somewhere below the naval as his eyes took me in with a swift glance. He wrapped an arm around me once he was close enough, kissing me on the mouth. The kiss was more than friendly, and I couldn’t help but feel the message there, too.

  It didn’t feel aimed at the woman in the designer coat, though.

  It also didn’t feel aimed solely at me.

  He didn’t release me when he came up for air, but glanced behind me. Turning my head to follow his stare, only then did I notice a man standing there, watching me and Black furtively even as Black warned him off with a blatant scowl.

  Rolling my eyes a little, I smiled, although I knew I shouldn’t.

  “Down, boy,” I murmured, sliding my hands inside his jacket.

  “Fucker’s been staring at your ass for the last ten minutes,” he growled softly,
kissing me again, harder that time, with even more heat behind it. That time he used his tongue. Raising his head with a more pained expression, he gave the other man a level stare. “I’m about to have a talk with him. Man to man. You know how it is.”

  “Please don’t,” I said, sighing. “And no... thank goodness... I don’t know how it is.”

  “Liar.”

  Black smiled when I glanced up at him.

  I felt him relax when he kissed me the next time, caressing my hair back from my face with both hands. It struck me to wonder why both of us were having such a hard time with the whole “overreacting to minor sexual attention from other people” thing––but I already knew what Black would say to that, too. He would dismiss it as a “seer thing” and tell me again how all seers acted like jealous, hyper-possessive assholes a lot of the time.

  Due to... genes. Or something.

  “That’s right, baby,” he said, grinning at me from behind the shades, right before he smacked me sharply on the ass with his palm, making me jump. “Now let’s get the fuck out of here. I’m hungry. And now I’m horny. We should go before I feel the need to get territorial again, maybe with a little indiscriminate violence...”

  He gave another predatory stare over my shoulder, his gold irises still hidden behind the shades. I followed the stare and saw the guy Black had been posturing with blanch, right before he backed visibly away.

  I fought a sudden and wholly inappropriate desire to laugh.

  Instead I shook my head disapprovingly at him, pursing my lips as I put my phone back to my ear. I hit the button so it would replay the handful of messages I’d missed while kissing Black. He grabbed a suitcase handle in either hand, only wincing a little from his shoulder before motioning with his head for me to follow him.

  I kept the phone pressed to my ear as I did, only halfway paying attention as he led us towards the glass doors and into the morning sunlight beyond.

  When we reached the curb, just as I was listening to the last two messages on my voicemail, Black’s own phone rang.

  My eyes followed his hands and his face as he took the call.

  A few seconds later, I realized I hadn’t heard anything of my own messages as I watched micro-expressions flicker across his high-cheekboned face.

  I lowered the phone, my voicemail still playing as Black exploded suddenly in anger.

  “No!” he snapped into the phone. “What the fuck is this? He said later... at a later date. I just got off a fucking plane––”

  Someone must have cut him off.

  There was a silence while he listened.

  I wished he wasn’t wearing the sunglasses so I could see his eyes. Instead I found myself watching his body where he stood by the curb, the suitcases forgotten, one hand on his hip as his shoulders and arms tensed.

  I couldn’t feel his mind either.

  He’d shuttered it to me, closed it down like a locked vault.

  I was still staring when that frown on his face hardened. He continued to hold the phone to his ear, not talking, as someone on the other end spoke.

  “I know I agreed to that,” he growled. “But fuck. I can’t just––”

  They cut him off a second time.

  For a few more seconds, Black only listened.

  When he next spoke, his voice was cold as ice.

  “This is bullshit. You know that, right? It’s also totally against our laws. You don’t get to decide who can and can’t...”

  Again someone must have cut him off. I saw Black listening, right before he clenched his jaw, hard enough to push out his cheek.

  “Then I guess I’ll see you in hell,” he said.

  He hung up, muttering under his breath, not in English that time.

  I thought he would turn, give me some excuse, but he didn’t.

  He just stood there for a moment, breathing harder. He didn’t seem to notice when a black limousine pulled up, or when the door opened and one of his drivers got out, another of his buffed, ex-military types wearing all black and with an earpiece in their ear like they worked for the Secret Service.

  He barely seemed to notice as the same man popped the trunk, then walked up to him and took the two suitcases.

  He didn’t move at all until I approached him from behind, laying a cautious hand on his arm.

  He jumped, turning so sharply I flinched.

  “Black?” I said. “You okay?”

  For a second, he only looked at me.

  I still couldn’t see his eyes because of the mirrored shades.

  I was about to ask again, maybe even take the damned things off him, when he averted his gaze, smiling at me, although the smile was visibly forced.

  “Sure, doc... sure.”

  I watched him, feeling more on him now that I stood so close, even as I felt him trying to sidestep me, to glide out of the way of my mind’s questioning probe.

  “Who was that?” I said, a touch sharper.

  He made a vague gesture, pushing the sunglasses up his nose to rub his eyes, then letting them drop. Another wave of that denser emotion hit me.

  “No one really,” he said, his voice even more evasive than his body language. “Just a dick client. Wants services he didn’t pay for.”

  I’m not sure if it comforted me or worried me more that he was such a terrible liar.

  I didn’t press him though. Mostly because I’d identified that pulse of feeling that came off him in a cloud, seemingly the instant he looked at me.

  It was fear.

  I GUESS I thought he’d talk to me later.

  I expected him to eventually break down and admit something was wrong... especially since everything he did and said for the next twenty-four hours made it pretty clear something was bothering him.

  For one thing, despite his jokes earlier, he didn’t take a shower with me.

  He also told me he was too tired for sex, which felt like a blatant lie.

  He wanted me to sleep at his place though. When I got into bed with him, he curled an arm around me and pulled me tightly against his chest before he passed out. That was after an early lunch, an afternoon of strange silences and him disappearing into his business offices for four or five hours before he came back with dinner. It was also after he’d already ended a few make-out sessions right around when they started tipping into more than that.

  The next day, he was up and out of bed by the time I got up.

  He went for a run, to the gym, then dragged me to his offices with him after he got out of the shower. There, I spent a few hours online while he did––whatever.

  I started by looking over details of what Kiko’s team had found in Paris, meaning about the man they’d stopped at customs with the Thai mask. They didn’t have any images of his face, which struck me as fairly curious given how heavily surveilled airports were these days, but based on the height and the body-type, it could be Ian.

  I knew Black thought it was Ian.

  I was still skimming Kiko’s write-up of that as well as newspaper articles on the Thai child murders when Kiko sent me and Black something else––a newspaper article of a new murder, one that just happened in Paris. One query from Kiko also got me the police files from Paris, which had already been translated into English by someone on Black’s staff.

  A young couple––newlyweds, according to the police report, had been visiting Paris from Vancouver, Canada for their honeymoon. They’d been found murdered in front of the altar of Notre Dame Cathedral. They’d been set on fire, their hands tied together with wire and their bodies wired so that they lay on top of one another, their legs and arms intertwined.

  It was now believed they’d been alive when they were burned.

  I sent the article and the police report to Black.

  He didn’t respond.

  He didn’t say much when I raised the topic with him later that day either, over dinner. He admitted it had to be the same killer, but that was about it.

  So far the French police were stumped, no id
ea of motive.

  I couldn’t get Black to talk to me about it. I couldn’t decide if the murders bothered him at all really, or if something else entirely was on his mind. I knew it had something to do with the phone call at the airport. What I didn’t know was if the two things were connected, meaning that call and Ian starting a new spree in Paris.

  By the time we went to bed that second night and Black again made some excuse about not being physical with me, I was starting to think that was connected too.

  Meaning Black’s sudden and completely uncharacteristic disinterest in sex.

  Not like I knew a lot about him in that area, given that we’d never actually done much, but up until now, he’d been the one pressuring me for sex, not the reverse.

  As far as what happened later that night––in my own defense, I didn’t plan to do it.

  It didn’t help at all that he was already turned on when I woke up.

  When I opened my eyes, he was completely wrapped around me. His skin radiated heat, his erection pressed against my thigh, his face nuzzling the base of my neck. I was wearing one of his T-shirts and underwear, which might have been more calculated than what actually followed... but my relative lack of clothes didn’t seem to interest him much before he fell asleep, at least not from what I could tell.

  When I woke up at around three a.m., however, that pulling sensation and heat were all but suffocating me. I’d never felt it that intensely, not even the few times we’d gotten close to actual intercourse. It felt like he’d already tugged me halfway inside him, even as his presence wrapped into me like a physical force.

  I felt him dreaming, although I didn’t read him to get specifics. I felt him fucking in his dream though, even as he pulled me tighter against his chest, pressing his face deeper into the bare skin of my neck. I felt him wanting me, pulling on me and wanting me, even as his heart slammed harder from his chest into my back.

  He’d been wearing a T-shirt too, along with workout shorts of some relatively thin material.

  Like I said, I didn’t plan it.

 

‹ Prev