"Oh. Well, sure," he said after a moment. "C'mon." He escorted her to the bar where Darlene waited, curious, leaning back against the corner, her arms folded under her breasts.
"You know Dr. Barnard?" Griffy asked her.
She shook her head.
"No, but I've heard of her," Darlene replied, her eyes still on Terri.
"She wants to talk to you. Go on. I'll cover for you," he said and went around to serve the customers.
Terri looked at the two men sitting on her right, both watching and waiting. Darlene noticed her concern and moved through the opening.
"What do you want?" she asked immediately.
"Can we go out through the back?"
"Why?"
"I need you to speak with someone," Terri told her.
"Who? A cop?"
"Not exactly."
"What is this?" Darlene asked, obviously nervous and disturbed with the request.
"There's a man outside who is investigating not only what happened to Paula Gilbert, but others. He is not with the police, but he represents people who are so interested, I was told to give you this if you will speak with him," she added, turned so her body would block it and showed Darlene the bills. Darlene's eyes widened as she counted.
"Seven hundred dollars? Just to talk to him?"
Terri nodded.
"Why didn't he come in?"
"You'll understand when you see him," Terri said. She hated to add it, but she did, "Trust me."
Darlene glanced at the men trying to hear and to see what was happening and then shrugged.
"If you can't trust a doctor, who the hell can you trust?" Darlene asked, took the money quickly, and started for the rear of the tavern. Conversations stopped again and heads turned in their direction until they went in through the kitchen doors.
Dorothy looked up from the skillet as they began to pass through.
"What's going on?" she asked.
"I have to speak to someone. Griffy's covering the bar for me," she told her quickly.
Terri just nodded at her. As soon as she recognized her, Dorothy's face blossomed with surprise, but before she could say anything else, Terri and Darlene walked out.
"Over there," Terri nodded toward the car.
Garret Stanley kept his face turned away as they approached. Darlene's steps grew slower, more cautious. She glanced at Terri who didn't look all that comfortable herself.
"Who is this guy?" Darlene muttered.
Before Terri could provide any additional information, Garret opened the car door and stepped out. Darlene gasped the moment she set eyes on him. And so did Terri.
He had her police escort's .38 in his hand and he was pointing at the both of them.
"Get in behind the wheel, Doc," he said. "You," he told Darlene, "get in the back."
"What is this? What are you doing with him? This is the man. I thought you were a doctor," she told Terri.
"She is," Garret said. "So am I. Move," he ordered.
"This wasn't what you told me you would do," Terri protested.
"Don't make me do something else I didn't tell you I would do," he replied and pulled the hammer back on the pistol, keeping it fixed on Darlene. Terri looked back at the restaurant's rear door. There was no one around and it was too far to run back to it. With all the noise within, any shouts for help would not be heard. She nodded at Darlene.
"I'm sorry. You had better do what he says," Terri told her. Darlene looked at the gun. Garret Stanley held the rear door open for her and Darlene slipped into the back. He followed.
"What now?" Terri asked.
"Just drive away," he told her. "Slowly," he emphasized and turned to Darlene Stone.
EIGHTEEN
He sat in the motel owner's chair and stared at the front door. When he saw himself reflected in the window of the door, he saw he was pouting. Nothing that he had done over the past twenty-four hours had pleased him. This was a totally new and unexpected feeling. In his mind he was really born the day he had escaped, whenever that was. Time itself was so confusing a concept. It made even his recent history vague, especially now with all these memory lapses. How long had he been happy, successful, traveling like a smooth rocket through space? Was he ever this unhappy and was it that he simply could not remember it?
Sitting there and struggling to understand made him more irritable than ever and it frustrated him that he had no one in particular to blame for his depression and dissatisfaction. Other people at least had parents to blame. Who were his parents? Obscure faces floated through his mind, wispy, faces of smoke, holding shape for a moment or two and then dissipating and disappearing somewhere in the darkness that clouded his thinking. There were bits of music, occasional voices, clips of sentences, words, all of the sounds coming at him over a continually interrupted transmission from a station so deep down in his memory, he could barely hear anything.
Not knowing who he was and from where he had come never bothered him as intensely at it bothered him at this moment: Surely it had something to do with his new physical problems. Whatever. Even that malformed, ugly creature he had stomped out back there had a history, had pictures and memories to cherish. Where did he leave his pictures, his memories?
Someone had stolen all that from him, he thought. Someone had done something terrible to him and he didn't even remember it being done. What was most frightening was he couldn't recall who had done it, and that meant he might very well confront this person and not know he was his mortal enemy. Therefore, everyone must be thought to be his mortal enemy, he concluded. He would trust no one, not that he ever put much trust in anyone he could recall, but especially now he would invest not even an iota of faith in anyone's words. He decided he was out in the world like Cain or like Judas. Once anyone discovered who he was, they would despise him.
He hated being this analytical, this philosophical about himself, and especially this paranoid. It had been so easy, so enjoyable just taking things as they were, gliding along, tasting, touching, never having a single responsibility, and concerned only with his own pleasure and well-being. Who needed anything else, especially all this deep thought? The more intelligent you were, the more unhappy you are, he concluded. Pity the ant who suddenly realizes how small and vulnerable he is among the moving humans around him. Be oblivious to your own mortality and weakness and you will never be unhappy, he told himself.
The headlights of an approaching vehicle swept over the office walls and ripped him out of his musing. He was grateful for that and sat up quickly to watch as a slightly built, dark-haired man with glasses emerged from the car that had just pulled up in front of the motel office. When the door opened, he could see the woman in the passenger's seat. She didn't look very happy.
"Evening," the man said after entering. "I think we've gone off the beaten track, so to speak. How far is it to Kingston?"
"Kingston," he repeated. "That's a good eighty miles," he said, even though he wasn't sure. From his understanding of the area, it seemed reasonable, however. At least he would appear to know what he should know.
"Eighty? Wow." The man scratched the back of his head and then looked toward his car and his wife. "She's not going to be happy about that. We've been driving all day. You have any availability?"
He really wasn't in the mood for anyone, but he also realized he had to keep up the charade of being the motel owner so he wouldn't cause any undue interest and attention. He didn't have time to think about any of that. He had to work on where he was going, when, and how. He had to free his mind of everything else so the messages would come, as they always had before, the sense of direction, the new target, so to speak. He had to be receptive, and as long as he permitted all this static in his head, it wouldn't happen.
"Yeah, sure," he said quickly and got up. He scooped a set of keys off the rack.
"Ten will be fine for you," he added handing the man the keys. The man stood there looking at them and smiling dumbly.
What am I doing wrong? he wo
ndered. What have I left out?
"Well, don't I have to sign in first?" the man asked.
"Sure, sign in," he said and turned the book toward him. The man still stared at him, a confused smile on his face.
"How much is the room?" he asked.
"Thirty-eight fifty," he said. "All the rooms are thirty-eight fifty."
"Oh." He looked out at his wife again. "She gets annoyed when we don't stay at places that advertise on TV."
He started to take the key back. Maybe the man wanted to go. Good. Go, he thought. I have to have peace and quiet so I can hear the voices.
"But I'll tell her that we've gone far enough," the man suddenly decided and reached for the keys.
"Suit yourself," he told him and gave him the keys. The man took them and then signed the book. He reached into his jacket to produce his wallet and slip out the credit card.
It put him in a small panic. He had to process that. "Where was the credit card device?
The man watched as he searched.
"Everything all right?"
"Yeah, yeah, my brother puts things where I can't find them," he replied.
"Oh." The man smiled with relief as if he had a brother who was always doing something similar to him as well.
"Here it is," he announced and produced the device. He took the man's card and slapped it on. Then he wrote in the amount and gave the receipt to the man to sign, which he did quickly and handed it back.
After he ripped off the customer copy, he handed it to him.
"Oh, my card," the man said.
"What? Right, Mr. Samuels," he said reading off the card before he gave him that too.
"So I suppose there's a good place for us to have some dinner nearby?"
"Yeah, sure," he said.
"Any recommendations?"
"No, they're all about the same," he told him. "Just go east." Charles Samuels stared at him with some surprise and then nodded and smiled. He started out and stopped.
"Any of those advertisements, pamphlets about the area, something that would describe the nearby restaurants?" Charles asked. "My wife is very particular about what she eats. Is the place clean? That sort of thing, you know." He shifted his gaze and searched the lobby. There wasn't anything.
"No, I'm sorry."
"Maybe the phone book in the room then, or a newspaper. Thanks," Charles Samuels said and hurried out to the car. For a few moments, he sat there talking to his wife.
He could see Samuels raising and lowering his arms and shaking his head. Finally, he started his engine and drove slowly toward the units, pulling in at Unit 10. He could see the woman getting out slowly, reluctantly. In the dim light of the motel walkway, he could see she was wide in the hips and had her hair cut short, almost shorter than her husband's. She walked like someone pouting would walk, refusing to take anything out of the car. Charles Samuels opened their trunk and brought out two bags. She stood by the door, facing it like a woman on death row. Samuels fumbled with the key. She offered no assistance. Finally, he opened the door and they disappeared within. He sat back, hoping he wouldn't have any hunger tonight, or if he did, hoping he could find someone better than a woman like that from whom to draw what he needed. He was tired, and being tired this early in the evening was not something he was accustomed to experiencing. Rising with concern, he went into the bathroom and looked at his face. He didn't have as healthy a complexion, he decided. The fatigue he felt was showing itself in his eyes and the deepened lines in his face. This wasn't good. This wasn't good at all, he thought. He had just fed, just renewed his bodily needs. Why was he still tired?
He went back to the lobby and sat thinking again. It wasn't until he heard a noise, the sound of a car door opening and closing, that he opened them just in time to see Charles Samuels and his wife. Samuels had returned to the office, apparently to get a newspaper to read the advertisements for a restaurant and then drove away.
He closed his eyes again. He was so sleepy, and this was so unusual. Maybe he would have to visit Unit 10 later, he reluctantly thought. He would wait for them to return. At least, he should be grateful it was all still coming to him, all still easy to acquire. Get rest. Get strong, he told himself and permitted himself to doze.
"Go on," Garret Stanley ordered Darlene Stone. He waved the pistol at her as well.
He had forced Terri to drive them toward Neversink and then pull into a side road that had once been the driveway for a moderate size tourist house, now deserted and left with a foreclosure poster on its front door. The poster was faded enough to suggest it had been closed down for some time. Windows were broken, shutters hung on a single hinge, grass and weeds grew wildly around the chipped and cracked cement front steps. The bannister was broken on the left side and had fallen to the ground.
"He said he was staying at a small tourist house and the old lady who ran it told him about the tavern," Darlene continued.
"Did he mention the Martins?" Terri interjected.
She shook her head.
"He didn't mention a name, just that."
"That's how he came to Kristin Martin," she muttered, "and the fire...." She looked at Garret. "He probably set that. He must have harmed the old lady too and was just covering his tracks."
Darlene's eyes brightened even more with fear as she looked from Terri to Garret Stanley and then back to Terri, who could see the confusion in the woman's face. Was Terri a conspirator or what?
"You didn't have to pull a gun on her to get her to tell you all that, Dr. Stanley," she chastised.
Doctor? He was a doctor, too, Darlene thought. What was going on?
"You're talking too much," he told Terri.
Terri tried staring him down, but out of the corner of her eye, she saw that Darlene Stone was losing it fast.
"Just finish and let me take her back," she said.
He turned to Darlene.
"You spoke with this Paula Gilbert, didn't you? I mean afterward, when she was found in the parking lot."
She looked at Terri and Terri saw that her eyes were full of questions, the first one being, how did he know?
"Yes," she said nodding. "For just a few minutes."
"I want to hear every word she said. Talk!" he ordered.
"I told it all to the police."
"Tell it again," he said waving the pistol.
She gasped and continued.
"She said he hurt her while they made love. She said it felt like he was sucking out her blood. When he was finished with her, he left her naked in the rear and drove back to the restaurant. She said he was very happy, singing. She thought it was all just a nightmare because she was going in and out of consciousness. She remembered waking up when he was transferring her back to her own car. He told her she should go home now, that he was going home now."
"Going home now?"
"Yes."
"What did he say about that? What did he say about home?" Darlene shook her head.
"That's ail I remember she said."
"You're lying," he said after a moment. "Someone told you not to say anything else, anything about home, right?"
"No," she said shaking her head. "No one." He sat back and thought a moment.
"Does that mean he's going back to where he was created?" Terri asked. Garret looked at her sharply.
"I told you you were talking too much."
"Created?" Darlene couldn't help saying. "Who are you? Aren't we talking about you?" she asked after a surge of some courage.
Garret nodded at Terri.
"Satisfied now, Doctor?" He looked down and thought aloud. "He was definitely replenished. It's just not lasting as long. Arrogant...."
"If he is as intelligent as you claim he is," Terri asked, "why doesn't he try to hide his victim? Why bring her back to her car? Why leave Kristin in her car?" He looked up at her and then at Darlene.
"She just told you."
"She just told me? I don't understand."
"He wants to go home. Don't you see? Home?
I'm his home. He's deliberately leaving a trail for me now. Maybe he doesn't even realize it himself. It's part of the great mystery here," he said, his eyes lighting with excitement. "Cellular affinity, I'd call it, a driving, almost primeval need to reunite. Maybe," he added smiling, "that's the soul the critics are so worried we would eliminate. Very complicated, but very fascinating, wouldn't you agree, Doctor?"
"No," she said. "I'm not fascinated. I'm more disgusted."
"That's disappointing, Doctor, tragically disappointing.
"What is this all about?" Darlene Stone demanded. Her confusion and fear had merged and become frustration and indignation.
Garret smiled at her. The coldness and calmness in the man's eyes splintered her wall of bravado. She wrapped her arms about herself protectively, looking like she wished she could shrink and disappear.
"What's it all about? Just everything -- life, health, immortality, God, man, you name it. In the end I suppose it's about power. Everything eventually is," he said a little sadly.
His cell phone rang, shattering the deep silence that had followed his words.
"Excuse me," he said and took it out of his inside pocket. He snapped it open and said, "Yes?"
Terri looked at Darlene and gave her what she thought was her best look of assurance, urging her to remain calm. Darlene squirmed and bit down on her lower lip. Terri could see she was tottering on the verge of hysteria.
"When was this?" he asked whoever called. "Okay. Just give it to me. You nearly messed this up. I'll handle it from here," Garret said into his phone. He listened and then just closed the phone. "So," he said gesturing at the degenerating tourist house. "Another monument to a bygone era, eh?"
"Can I drive back to the tavern now?" Terri asked him. "We've kept her from work long enough, don't you think?"
"Not just yet. There's more to discuss."
"What? She's obviously told you everything she knows."
"Oh, people don't realize what they do and don't know," he said smiling. "Let's change the setting. Maybe that will stimulate the memory. Get out," he ordered.
"Both of you."
"Why?" Terri demanded without moving.
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