by Mia Ford
Who am I? What happened to me? What made me walk away from everything that’s ever made me who I am? All that I’ve worked towards… why would I throw that away?
Then a face infiltrates my brain… actually two faces. One of a gorgeous male who’s looking at me with such adoration in my eyes. He makes me feel special and loved, he warms me up and swells heat in my chest, I feel better around him than I ever have done in my whole entire life. And then there’s his son, the adorable little boy with no mother who was so damn excited to play with me, who included me in his life even though it seems like he doesn’t do that easily, who wanted me around when he really didn’t have to. Evan and Liam, the two most important guys to me.
Evan and Liam Debroils. The Debroils men who’ve turned everything upside down.
As I think about their names, all of it comes flooding back; the time spent working together, the undeniable magnetic attraction that pulled us in together despite the fact that we knew it was wrong, the meeting, the accident, the phone call, the hospital, the blood transfusion…
I’m in hospital, I realize excitedly. Of course, I am. I’m helping Liam to recover from his car accident, I just hope that it’s worked. I need him to be okay now.
With that, I finally manage to pry my eyes open and I let the light flood into my eyes. It’s still much too white, but somehow, I can tolerate it more now, it doesn’t feel like I’m going to end up blind. Maybe it’s because I know that it’s a hospital now, so the whiteness makes sense. Hospitals are always crazy clean and filled with clinical colors, probably so you don’t forget where you are like I just did.
“Katy?” When I first hear Evan’s soft voice I think I must still be half dreaming. Maybe I’m on meds that haven’t quite shaken off yet, but then his face comes into view, and despite the fact that he looks a little bit like an angel, something in my heart tells me that he’s real. “Katy, are you okay?”
“I think so,” I rasp back through a jaggedly raw throat. “Water, please.”
As Evan moves over to the other side of the room, presumably to get me some water, I push myself into more of a sitting potion. It isn’t easy because my body aches and my arms feel incredibly weak, but I do what I can through all of that. My inner strength comes from the idea of seeing Evan again and finding out what’s happened. He hasn’t said anything about Liam yet and I need to know. I don’t suppose these things are guaranteed. I hope he hasn’t been silent because it’s not good news.
Finally, Evan hands me a glass and I suck back the cool liquid like I’ve been stranded in the desert for ages and I’ve finally stumbled across my life saving oasis. As it slides down my throat I start to feel a little better. But I still need my answers, and Evan doesn’t seem to be giving anything away.
“How’s Liam?” I gasp at him. “Has he come back around yet?”
I hunch up my shoulders and brace myself, but then Evan’s face bursts into a big, beaming smile. “He’s good.” Oh thank God! I can finally relax once I know that the worst hasn’t happened. “He’s actually here, I asked the doctor to wheel you both in the same room so I can watch you both. I didn’t want to leave either of you alone.” I try to twist myself around to see Liam, but it hurts too much to do so. “Oh don’t worry, you can’t see him from where you are anyway. He’s above your head. Plus, he’s sleeping right now, I think he’s pretty shattered. He needs his rest, I’m sure you get it.”
“Understandable,” I reply with a smile. “It’s been a long day for him.”
“I know.” Finally, Evan moves closer to my bed so I can feel the heat emanating off his body. There’s something so relaxing about feeling Evan’s presence, he really calms me down. “And I just want to say thank you to you again for doing this for him. It’s so kind of you.”
“Oh, I don’t need your thanks,” I reply with a blush. “Of course, I helped Liam. He needed me.”
“I know, you say that like it’s obvious but I don’t think everyone would have helped him without hesitation like you did. You did an incredible thing. You are an amazing person.”
A weird air swirls around us and I don’t quite know what it means. Admittedly all my faculties aren’t intact since I’m still a bit woozy, but even I can tell that something’s happening between me and Evan. Maybe it’s just that incredible bond we share intensifying after we’ve gone through all of these amazing experiences together. The thing with the company, the life changing choices we’ve both made, now this with Liam… it hasn’t all been good, but it’s strengthened what we share.
“I have to tell you something, Katy,” Evan finally says in a voice that’s filled with determination, “I’ve wanted to tell you this for a while now but the timing hasn’t ever been quite right. Well, now it is right, we aren’t going to get a better chance than this.” He grabs onto my hand and stares at me with an intense gaze in his eyes. I wish I could interpret that look, but I just cannot figure it out for the life of me. “Katy Atwater, I love you,” he announces, shocking me to my core. “I know that might come as a surprise and I know you might also think it’s a bit soon which is why I don’t expect you to say it back at all, but I do. So damn much. And I want you to know it.”
“You… love me?” I don’t know what to say to that, it feels a bit much. I’m overwhelmed, my head is swimming. “You’re in love with me?”
“I am,” he smiles warmly. “I knew the moment that you walked into my life that you were going to be different. Before you came along no one ever held my interest for long, and certainly not in any sort of meaningful way. But you… you were different. Right away I couldn’t get you off my mind, and that hasn’t changed since. You’re smart, sweet, generous, wonderful… and I love you. I know it sounds mad, I do, I am aware of how crazy I’m being, but I do. I love you.”
I pause thoughtfully for a moment, trying to wrap my head around it. It isn’t every day that someone falls in love with me. And it’s even better that I feel the same way too. After all this is a man that I’m willing to change up everything for! I’m willing to open my heart, to set aside the life that I thought I wanted but as it turns out I don’t enjoy at all. Of course I feel the same way… now I just need to tell him.
“I love you too, Evan,” I tell him with tears welling up in my eyes. “I love you so much.”
As he embraces me, I can ignore the intense ache in my body because I have love on my side now. I don’t know where me and Evan will go from here but it feels good to know that we have one another. We’re locked in now, and that feels awesome. I’m the luckiest woman alive.
Chapter Twenty Five – Evan
“Right, Liam,” I say to my boy as he looks expectantly up at me. “Do you think you can take this drink through to Katy? Daddy just needs to make a work phone call?”
He blanches at the word ‘work’, but not like he used to. When we first got back from the hospital, every single time I talked about the office I could see a panicked look cross his face, like he assumed things would go back to how they once were with me not around very much, which I suppose is understandable. I don’t much like seeing the negative affect that I’ve had on him over the years, but at least I know now that I can change it. The more that time passes, the more Liam is getting that I’m not going to go back to the workaholic I once was. I hope he’ll eventually learn to trust me.
“I just need to speak to one of my colleagues, it won’t take long I promise you. Then we can read the book you like, the one about the knight if you want?”
As he runs off cheering, it hits me once more how I’ve finally worked out a way to have it all. Now, I can have the business and continue on with my father’s legacy – in a way that’s much more like his original business model anyway – and I can have my family life too. I can be there for my son, just by taking a step back and letting things run for me. This is how I always should have done it, I can see that now. I’m just glad that it isn’t too late.
With a smirk, I grab my cell phone from my pocket and I hit d
ial on Archie’s number. He’s the highly recommended consultant that I’ve called in to sort out the company restructure while I take care of Katy and my boy, and I have to say that I’m pleased about it. He’s done some great work so far. The two people that I’ve been forced to let go because there just wasn’t a new position in the company are now happily placed in a finance firm. I’m sure there will be more redundancies, but I’m much more confident now that I can make them work out for everyone.
“Hey, Evan, how are you?” Archie sounds busy, I can hear it in his voice. “Just taking care of the marketing department at the moment. As always you’ll have a report by the end of the day.”
“Oh, I know. I trust you, Archie,” I reassure him. “That isn’t why I’m calling…”
“I know, I know, you’re a control freak,” he laughs back. “I’ve worked that out by now. That’s why my reports to you are much more detailed than I usually do for anyone else.”
“Well I’m grateful to you for that, I’m sorry. I don’t want to be a pain. It’s just a little hard to let go when I’ve been so involved up until this point…”
I can hear Ally giggling in the background which makes me smile. She’s already told me that she and Archie are slowly starting to become something real which is fine by me. Ironically, she also told me that nothing’s happening on work time so I don’t need to worry about it getting in the way of things. To be fair, I’m glad to know that, I’m well aware of how much time me and Ally wasted fucking around, but it wouldn’t be right of me to kick off about it. I’m glad that she’s found someone to make her happy though, she deserves it. Despite the fact that me and her were never going to become anything real and we both knew that, I’m glad she isn’t hurt.
“I know it isn’t easy, but as I think I’ve shown by now you can trust me. Things are going really well. We’re getting things moving much faster than I even anticipated, and not just here but with the other offices too. The merger’s gone well, and the one we had to shut down is okay now… it’s all good. You can let the reigns loosen just a little bit.”
I chuckle at his remarks knowing that he’s right. “Okay, well like I say every single time I call you, let me know if you need anything. I have my cell phone on me all the time so you can just give me a ring whenever. Any questions, any problems, any of it…”
“I know, and I’ll speak to you later, okay?”
“Yep, bye, Archie.”
As I hang up the phone, I let out a little breath of relief. I am enjoying my time at home, and for me it’s been really good, but at the same time I do worry more than I should. I’m sure, that like with Liam, it’s just going to take some time for me to get more used to this brand new life. I will be fine, everything is going to be okay, I just need to take a moment.
I glance towards the room where Katy is staying, at my insistence of course, I couldn’t let her do all of that for my boy then head back to her own home to recover alone, and I can hear her and Liam talking. They get along even better now than they did before, they have a deep bond that can only come from their shared experience, so I’m more than happy for them to have a bit more time to hang out together. Plus, it gives me the time that I need to check my emails.
Email has been another good thing for me, especially when it comes to arranging meetings with potential investors. It isn’t easy for me to get a big chunk of time to myself to make all the arrangements over the phone, so emails have been great. I scan through them all quickly, firing off replies as I need to, and soon I can shut the phone down and return to ‘family mode’, the happiest place in the world for me. The place where I have always wanted to be.
As I enter the living room and I see Katy lay on the couch where I’ve told her to remain for the time being, I can see that her and Liam have already started to read the book. I don’t mind though, they just look so damn cute together. With Liam climbed up onto her lap and snuggled into her my heart swells with love. I really do love Katy, that hasn’t changed since the hospital. If anything, it gets stronger every single day. I want her around all the damn time.
“How’s the story?” I ask happily. “Is the knight on a kick ass adventure?”
“Dad, you can’t say ‘ass’,” Liam whines. “It isn’t nice.”
Well, it seems that Nancy and the other nannies have taught my son well in my absence, so that’s something. At least I still have them around if I need them, although I guess a lot of them will move on to other jobs now. It doesn’t matter, I’m here and I’m always going to be.
“Sorry, Liam, you’re right. Sometimes you might have to just remind me of stuff like that.”
“How is business?” Katy asks over the top of the book. “All sorted?”
“Archie is on it,” I nod as I tell her. “And how are things with you? Did Harrison and Associates take your resignation well? They must have got the letter by now, right?”
“Oh I would think so,” she nods enthusiastically. “I’ve had endless voice mails telling me that I’m making a mistake. Mostly from Grant though, so I don’t think it means anything. I just think he doesn’t want to lose his buddy in the trenches.”
I don’t get that, it doesn’t make any sense to me. While it would be much wiser for me to keep that opinion to myself I can’t seem to help it. “I thought Grant would get the partner job if you didn’t take it?” She nods in agreement. “So why is he so concerned for you to stay around? Do you think he likes you?” A bitter snake of jealousy coils through my body as I say those words. Of course, other people are going to notice Katy, she’s gorgeous, I don’t know what it is about him that gets to me. Maybe it’s because they have such a long shared history that I can’t compete with. “I think he does.”
“Well it hardly matters even if he does,” Katy laughs. “It isn’t like I’m going to see him again. Plus, I’m really happy being here, with you two.”
“Yeah, Dad, Katy wants to stay with me,” Liam insists, proving to me that he’s much too deep in this. I only have myself to blame for that one. “So, will you stop it? We’re trying to read?”
“Of course, I’m sorry.” I lean back in my chair and silence myself. The bitter thoughts still race through my brain, but I can dull them for now. Katy’s right, she’s here with me. She isn’t with Grant. If she wanted to be I’m sure she could be. She’s chosen me, and it doesn’t seem like she’s going to leave me. “You carry on reading, I won’t interrupt again.”
As Katy launches back into the story, only pausing to answer Liam’s questions, I watch her intently, loving every single second of looking at her. Is it just me or is she especially beautiful today? After I said the L word, I thought I might freak out and regret it, but I haven’t even once. It was right, the moment was the exact right one, and my feelings have only grown.
Eventually, she senses my eyes upon her and she drags her eyes up to look at mine. While they connect, I feel a bolt all the way into my heart. She gets me, and I think that I get her too. I think I have an understanding with her that I’ve never experienced before. We have a deep connection that proves to me soul mates exist more than I ever thought possible.
A lot still needs to happen before me and Katy can be fully settled into just being us. She needs to recover from her surgery, she needs to start her own business, I need to work out mine, but it’s a journey that I’m excited for. I can’t wait to go on it with her.
“I have another book!” Liam jumps up excitedly. “Can I go and get it from my room? Can we read that one?”
“Of course, we can buddy,” Katy agrees and smiles. “You go and get as many books as you like. Since your daddy has told me that I’m not allowed to get up from the couch you might as well bring all your books down to keep me amused.”
“Don’t let Daddy boss you around,” Liam replies with an eye roll. “Just tell him no.”
I burst into laughter as he runs from the room on that sweeping statement, leaving me completely stunned. It seems that my son has noticed me more than I
thought.
“He’s got your number,” Katy chuckles. “And the answer too, I need to learn to just say no.”
I push myself off from my seat and scoot over to her. I place my hands on both her cheeks and dip my head down to kiss her. I love being able to do this in a much freer manner now, it’s great not having to worry so much about getting caught. Katy isn’t a lawyer at the moment and she’s not working for me either, so we can just be.
“How come you never say no when I’m about to kiss you?” I murmur. “Now that is a mystery.”
Katy doesn’t answer me, she just tilts her head up to press her lips to mine instead, making my heart explode gleefully. I’m so fucking lucky to have this woman, I am never going to let her go.
Chapter Twenty Six – Katy
I move sleepily through Evan’s home, still feeling a little lost through the endless maze of hallways. I’ve been here for over a week now and I still can’t get used to it. I just have one bedroom in my apartment, and three other rooms; a living room, a kitchen and diner room, and a bathroom. I can’t get lost in my home because I can see the front door wherever I turn. It hardly matters anyway because I’m never normally there. I already had my job at Harrison and Associates when I moved in which meant I’ve always been in the office from early in the morning until late at night.
This seems like much too much house for anyone, but I suppose it’s lovely for Liam. He has plenty of places to run about and play. I’m sure he loves it. Even more now that his dad is around more. I can tell that’s something that he’s always wanted, although I doubt he’s ever said it, and now he’s getting it he seems much happier. It’s lovely to see his face light up when Evan wants to play with him, which luckily is a lot since they’re both making up for lost time.