by Shana Abe
It was brilliant. No matter what Rhys said.
"It won't work," he insisted stubbornly. "You're still too pretty. You can smear yourself with all the mud from here to the Seine, and I still won't believe for a moment you belong in that woefully hideous frock."
"I'll keep my face down."
"And I'll see the nape of your neck. And your hands. And your chin. And your lips. It's no use, Zee. Everything about you screams of aristocracy."
"That's ridiculous. I'm the daughter of a seamstress."
"You are Lady Rhys Langford," he said, coming up to her. "And it shows."
It was the first time he'd used the title the tribe would give her—that all of English society would give her. It pricked at her conscience and made her take a sliding step back from him, averting her gaze.
She was going to hunt. Nothing he said or did could change her mind about that. She'd accepted his body last night, his caresses, but that was all. It granted him no dominion over her, despite what he believed.
And still . the beauty of last night, the joy of discovering true physical acceptance, had been a rare revelation. Their merging. That devastating conclusion. Whenever she found herself slipping back into daydreams about it all, her blush rose again, and she'd swear—she'd swear —he felt the change in her, pinned her in a cool green gaze and sidled close. Close enough that, if she wished, she could lift a hand to trace the curves of his lips. Enact a slender motion of her arm to have it brush his. His essence of outdoors, that warm summer scent, wrapped around her in constant invitation and desire.
And she did desire, she did. As sure as if he'd lifted a veil from her eyes, Zoe saw herself more clearly now than ever before. He'd been right, all those days ago: She burned inside, more vivid than the sun. A hard, steady burn that kindled only for him. She wanted his touch. She wanted it in the most intimate places on her body, and she wanted his tongue in her mouth, and she wanted him inside her again. If she let her imagination fly too far, her blood peaked and her nipples hardened and even the pain between her legs seemed insignificant.
She'd never felt this way for Hayden. It was a niggle of discomfort crawling through her, a small ugly truth: never this way for Hayden, nor any of her other suitors over the years. None of them had had eyes of winter and jade, or a smile so staggeringly sweet it eclipsed scruff and grief and scars. Only Rhys.
But last night had lifted into morning, into right now. She was bathed in daylight, hard autumn daylight, and last night was done.
Zoe was going to hunt. She was going back to the Palais Royal and use the cloak and finish what she'd begun in the house of the sanf.
Rhys, of course, was determined to go with her. She'd already presented her arguments about why he should not:
He was weakened.
He countered that by Turning back and forth from man to smoke, ten rapid times in succession. He was noticeable.
Not with the proper garments, he replied.
His body, she said.
He bent and touched his toes, ten times again, and she'd had to bite the inside of her cheek against the agony he concealed with that proud, blank mask.
His claws, she said.
Easily hidden beneath a blanket. Elderly gents were often wheeled about by their nurses in chairs.
His hair, she pointed out. His brown-and-metal hair.
"A wig," he'd answered. "A nice, dodgy, old-fashioned sort of wig, I think, with horsehair and lots of stiff curls. I'd wager there's a good one somewhere in this monster abode. And a rolling chair," he'd added, before she could open her mouth again. "You can wheel me about. Pretend you're going to pop me over the riverbank into the rapids." His tone softened. "Honestly, Zee. You can't possibly believe I'd let you go alone. Not when you have me. But I'm an old goat, you see. I don't need a cook. I need a nurse."
So they removed the apron from the dress. They had no scissors, and of course, did not need them. Rhys used the smallest finger of his left hand to sever the threads.
By the time they'd worked out the details, it was past teatime. They were seated upon the bed, both of them, and Zoe was so absorbed in using her fingernails to tweeze free the last, frayed threads left from the apron from the bodice that at first she didn't notice his silence.
She looked up when she rolled the crick from her neck, and only then realized he'd been staring at her for minutes with his hands cupped atop his knees, his expression pensive. That lock of chestnut down his forehead, still rakish and charming, a clash to the more sinister reality of his scar.
"This isn't how I thought it'd be," he said in an undertone.
She let her hands fall to her lap.
"I wanted a different life for us," he said. "I wanted peace for us. A home together. Babies. Laughter."
"There has been anus for approximately twelve hours," she said. "A bit too soon to become maudlin, don't you think?"
"There has been anus since the day I first beheld you. Yes, I realize you don't believe me. All those girls, all those years, and I didn't even know myself how much of myself I'd lost to you. Given, rather. I don't need you to believe me. But it's true."
"I don't wish to discuss this now."
"When?" he asked calmly. "After tonight, when we may both meet our fates? We're not playing skittles and tops here, Zee. You desire to challenge our most earnest enemy. You're determined to strike a blow, no matter the cost."
She compressed her lips and pinched at the last white threads.
"I want you to know that I support you," he said. "In this, in all your heart's dreams. I know you loved him, and a part of you needs this. I'll do what I can for you. But God's truth, if it comes down to a choice of hurting the sanf or saving you from yourself, I'm going to choose you. It's domineering and unfair and reeks of our tribal ways. But I want you to live, no matter what. I would do ... anything to ensure that you live."
"Why don't you just knock me over the head right now?" she asked without looking up. "Save yourself some trouble. Hood me and bind me and trundle me back to England. It's been done before."
"Not by me," he said.
She pushed the cook's gown from her lap. She uncrossed her legs and slid off the bed, walking toward the door, veering to the mirror, touching a hand to the sheet that still covered it.
She would have sworn she could hear the chorus of voices swell from behind it. Could see the darkness shifting, small lights drawn into coronas around the tips of her fingers.
Rhys had managed to come up behind her without noise. He touched his hands to her waist, lightly, diffidently. She felt his head bend to hers, his exhalation at her temple.
He did not speak. He moved his lips to her hair. She turned in the circle of his arms and met his gaze.
He was wild and not, a green reflection of the woods, of home, and not. Because he was here too, he was a shadow creature tortured into the light, and he gazed at her with such a sober wild clarity it sent quivers of awareness crawling all along her skin.
"You should stay here," she managed, her voice a thread as small as those from the apron. "No."
Her fingers had found his own waist; she had changed into the salmon-pink satin but he still wore no shirt, only those breeches, torn and knotted, because she hadn't had the courage to go into Hayden's portmanteau and get him anything else.
His skin burned her. He was hot, very hot, still too slim. He felt as if he were a man cut from paper, so brittle and impermanent as if he might flame to ash at any moment. Wintry cold or sizzling heat, there was never anything temperate about Rhys Langford. His passions ruled him. He'd decided that this was love, and Zoe knew he'd never change his mind. She would be the one for him for the rest of their lives . however long that might be.
"Please," she said. "Please stay."
"I can't. I'm tied to you. Don't ask again."
He kissed her, and this time there was nothing soft about it. It pushed her back against the mirror, a small bump of the frame against the wall. He shoved his body against hers and sp
read his legs, trapping her, talons jabbed into the garish red silk.
Her body arched in instant response. All the memories from last night, all the burning white heat that turned her face to his, that had her tongue meeting his. She tasted him and reveled in it: He was not paper, nothing insubstantial despite the bones of his ribs and the twisting claws. He was still drakon, his mouth open over hers, the breeches shifting down his hips as he pushed against her again and again.
She craved him. She wanted to taste him, to feel him. She wanted his scent on her and hers on him; there was an animal inside her after all, and the animal wanted to bend down and submit to whatever he desired. However he desired.
His mouth devoured hers; they were breathing each other, clinging to each other. When he drew a hand down between them she felt only a tug and a catch, heard the popping of stitches.
The bodice of the robe a l'anglais split in two. She wore no corset beneath it—she'd lost her final corset to the rainstorm—but only a chemise, thin and also a little ripped, cool air like a shock after the touch of his skin.
He yanked the bodice from her. The sleeves were tight and they caught on her arms, but he pulled them down and down until her arms were free again, and she wore only her torn shift and the skirts. He shoved them both to the left, away from the mirror, and when she tried to step away he pushed her back against the wall, gold barbs stabbed through petticoats and pink satin, hauling them up to her thighs.
She raised a leg to his hip, her stockinged thigh to his hip. She found the knot in his breeches and yanked at it, cinching it tighter, so she pulled and pulled until the fabric split down the seam on the other side, and she could grasp his shaft.
He made a strangled sound in his throat. He held motionless, trembling, as she wrapped her fingers around him and began to stroke, using first her fist, then her fingers, and finally her nails—deliciously, delicately, scraping his skin, then soothing it, tracing the crown of his head and the tender underneath as if she'd always known how to do it. Always known his body and his wants, and how to make him thrust into her hand with his eyes closed and his mouth drawn tight. His claws scoring furrows into the wall, ravaging her skirts.
She guided him between her legs. She urged him there, remembering the way of it, her hands around the hard muscles of his buttocks, and he slid back and forth in her slickness, that small strangled sound turning into a rasp with every breath.
He bent his knees, brought his palms to her shoulders and thrust up deep into her, lifting her to her toes. The hurt came again, quick and hot and wet . and then easing into something better, a dark licking flame eager for more of him.
He put his forehead to hers. They moved in silence, neither speaking, only the smack of their skin filling the air, perspiration beading down his face, onto hers. Strands of dark and gold hair clinging to her neck. Moisture between her breasts. One twisted clawed hand shifted from the wall to scoop behind her waist; he bent her there, bowed her toward him, and she nearly lost her balance until he grunted and shoved even deeper inside, lifting his face to the ceiling with his eyes now closed, something that looked like anguish hardening his features.
She stood on the balls of her feet. She kept her fingers clenched into his shoulders. She could not move otherwise without tilting them both off-balance, and Rhys knew it. He had mastery of the moment and used it, pumping in and out of her, using his body to rub against hers, the crisp curls of his groin, the center of her caught in some terrible tight torment that wasn't letting go—
She tried to turn her face away but he wouldn't let her, bending close to suck at her lips, her breasts bouncing, then crushed against him. She couldn't move, she couldn't fight him. He had control of every aspect of her body, shifting from hard and fast to slow and deep, deeper, and without warning she felt that rising within her once again, spiraling white flame.
Zoe tore her mouth from his; she could not breathe, and she needed to breathe because she was about to incinerate; she was the one made of paper—
Rhys paused, only long enough to hear her low, desperate moan, then pushed so far into her the wall surely buckled, and she no longer touched the floor at all, and someone's voice had risen to a gasping, wordless plea.
"Yes," he growled. "Yes, yes, Zee."
She climaxed, her body clenching around his, shuddering, and he pumped and pumped and came inside her with a sudden stiff push, flooding her without sound, only his breath harsh and frantic in her ear.
Her toes gradually sank back to the floor. He waited until he could speak again, until they could both speak, and then ran his tongue up the line of her neck.
She shivered. His teeth closed over her earlobe.
"You will love me," he whispered.
"Unlikely." She closed her eyes, opened them, and struggled to find her sense in the sex-scented gloom of the crimson chamber. "That was my last decent gown."
* * *
He convinced her to delay their leaving. He convinced her with words and his hands, and finally with the remnants of the food he'd stolen for her, slivers of roast beef and apples that he fed to her in bed. He knew if he delayed her long enough, she'd give it up for the night. Her plan required daylight and respectable people surrounding her in the fashionable quarter of the Palais Royal.
Let it grow dark. Let the sun set. Let him have one more day with her in the flesh, one more night, before their lives were tossed back to the fates.
Rhys lay with his head pillowed upon her stomach, enjoying the unhurried rise and fall that shifted his view: the bed and window, the ceiling and window. Bed and window. Ceiling and window.
The apartment had grown dim. It had been some while since either of them had spoken, and he wondered if she'd fallen asleep.
"I should go," she said just then, as if she'd read his mind and was determined to dash all his hopes. He realized, oddly, that perhaps she had.
"Not yet."
"There's no reason not to."
"There are a thousand reasons."
"Name one."
"Me. I don't want to go tonight."
The rhythm of her breathing never changed. "We could do this every night, I suppose," she murmured. "Laze here. Eat and sleep like a pair of satisfied house cats."
"Make love," he said, hopeful.
"Cats," she said again, determined. "And naught would change. Our world would slip by us. Our people would fight without us."
He said nothing.
"But they would not win. They need us. We hold a key now. We know the sanf inimicus now, their weapons against us, a portion of their plans. We may be the ones who turn the tide. But to do that, we must leave this place."
Rhys allowed his lashes to drift closed, his fingers exploring a rent in the sheets he'd made before, gradually widening the tear.
"You know I'm right," Zoe said.
"Aye. But not tonight."
She sucked in an impatient breath and his head rose sharply with it. He rolled over, snagged the sheets again, plucked free his claws, and rested on his elbow as he gazed down at her.
In her bare shift she was girlish and lovely, her skin fresh as cream, her lips dark rose. All that glinting silvery hair, surrounding her like winter wind spun to silk.
"Why do we even need to leave this room?" he asked.
"I told you—"
"No. You read minds, Zoe. You gather thoughts. You told me that. I've watched you growing these last days. I've watched your Gifts expand. Why do we need to go anywhere but here? Can't you find them from right here?"
She gazed at him, arrested. Opened her mouth, closed it. "I don't know," she said at last. "It's only worked in close proximity before."
"I wasn't close," he pointed out. "And you found me."
He saw her comprehend it, saw it and felt it too, a sudden profound chill to the air, the unexpected awakening of her potential. She lay there as fetching as any maiden, and above and all around her he felt the soundless, bottomless depths of her power gather, invisible wings that brush
ed the air and stirred the molecules.
Her eyes went black. All black, pure liquid, just like that time at the dance hall. It was scary as hell and even more beautiful; he could not look away from her.
She didn't seem to notice. Those shining jet eyes seemed focused on a point beyond his comprehension. She was seeing things he could not, he realized. She was knowing things he did not know.
The velvet curtains rustled. The sheet across the broken mirror rippled and shimmied, trying to pull free. He felt the brush of those wings glance his face—
—malevolent dark, stinking water and dripping tunnels and—
Zoe blinked; her eyes went back to normal. She turned to him in the bed where he lay frozen, trying not to smell the decayed scent of earth and rot that had rushed over him with the touch of her Gift, no, not ever again .
"I know where they are now," she said, her voice hushed and low and still luscious with power. "You were right. It was easy. I know where to find the heart of the sanf."
Chapter Twenty-Five
Kimber,
I'm alive. Hayden James was killed by the Others. All three emissaries are dead. Zoe Lane Langford is with me. I'll explain all when I get back. I hope.
—R.S.V.L.
Paris was one ravenous city built upon the back of another. Above the earth it bedazzled: marble facades, slate roofs, breathtaking palaces and cathedrals and ancient walled cemeteries brimming with statues and bodies. Hospitals and monasteries, faubourgs that housed the deprived and the prosperous and everyone in between. People flocked to its opulence, lamented the state of its water and its roads, were overwhelmed by the abundance of theatre and science and public restaurants. There seemed little to rival it in all the civilized world. And tourist or native-born, most people who traveled its streets gave no thought to that other place. That world that still existed, crouched and hunched, beneath them.