by Gail Bowen
“That’s another thing that puzzles me,” Zack said. “Why did Abby drive out here? It would have been so much simpler just to book a flight – especially when she was travelling with a baby.”
“Plane tickets can be traced,” Alwyn said. “Nadine’s theory is that Abby didn’t want anyone to interfere with her plans.”
“So from the time she left Port Hope, Abby was determined to hand Jacob over to the Wainbergs,” I said.
“Apparently so,” Alwyn said.
I could tell by his voice that Zack was both baffled and exasperated. “Alwyn, I understand that you have to respect Ms. Perrault’s confidence, but what the hell is going on here?”
My old friend’s level of exasperation matched Zack’s. “Your guess is as good as mine. It’s not a question of confidentiality, Zack. Nadine and I aren’t close. Until last night we were simply colleagues who taught English at the same school. I like and respect Nadine, but she and Abby were one of those couples who never seemed to need anyone else.”
“And now Nadine has nobody,” I said.
“It’s even worse than that,” Alwyn said. “It seems that before she left Port Hope, Abby took steps to cut Nadine out of her life.”
“What kind of steps?” Zack asked.
“Legal steps. This morning Nadine went to the lawyer she and Abby used to draw up their wills,” Alwyn said. “Nadine was hoping the fact that she and Abby named one another as their respective sole beneficiaries would strengthen her hand when she sought custody of Jacob.”
“So Nadine knew that Abby hadn’t named her as Jacob’s guardian in her will?” Zack said.
“According to Nadine, they hadn’t gotten around to it. They were both in good health, and then there was the tragedy with Abby’s parents. Nadine said it was simply understood that if something happened to one of them, the other would raise Jacob.”
“ ‘Understandings’ aren’t worth the paper they’re written on,” Zack said caustically. “Although to be fair, Nadine would have had a persuasive case if Abby hadn’t left that note with Jacob.”
“Surely the will Abby had drawn up by her lawyer would have more legal force than a note she wrote when she was obviously in a very fragile state of mind,” I said.
“One would think so,” Alwyn said. “Except this morning Nadine learned that on November 22 Abby signed a new will. In it, the bulk of her estate still goes to Nadine, but in the event of Abby’s death, Delia Margolis Wainberg is designated as Jacob’s legal guardian.”
Zack tensed. “Alwyn, tell Nadine Perrault to get a lawyer. Not the guy who drew up the wills. She needs her own lawyer – somebody smart and aggressive. Then she should have her lawyer call me.” He turned his chair towards the door. “I’m leaving the room now,” he said. “You and Joanne can talk freely.”
I waited until the door had closed. “He’s gone,” I said. “Anything you want to talk about?”
Alwyn’s voice was flat. “For probably the only time in my life, I have nothing to say.”
“Neither do I,” I said. “A double first.”
Zack was putting on his jacket when I came down the hall. “The partners’ meeting?” I said.
“Yep. You want to come?”
“No thanks. I’m going for a swim – which incidentally, you should be doing – and then I’m going to find last year’s gift bags and wrap presents.”
Zack held out his arms. “I wish I was spending the morning with you and Kiz Harp,” he said.
I folded myself into him. “I wish you were too. Zack, is this going to be terrible?”
My husband rubbed my back. “Ms. Shreve, if you can show me a way out of this where no one suffers, King Solomon will have to move over.”
Alwyn Henry and I first met in a half-course in early Canadian literature. Our instructor, a young Ph.D. from Cornell, made no attempt to hide his contempt for the subject matter. As we left class with our book lists the first day, Alwyn took me aside. “This course is going to kill us if we let it,” she said. “So let’s not let it,” I said. And we didn’t. We made a list of the writers: Haliburton, Lampman, Carman, Roberts, and Scott. Each of us read half the list and made concise and useful notes on what we’d read for the other. We wrote our major papers on the nineteenth-century settler-sisters, the Stricklands. Alwyn took Susanna Moodie; I took Catharine Parr Traill. Together, we drank coffee at Hart House and beer in Lundy’s Lane, the ladies’ and escorts’ room at the Bay-Bloor Tavern, and checked out the men everywhere. We both received firsts in the course. Alywn went on to do her master’s in English, and after graduation moved back home to Strickland country to teach. I majored in political science and economics, started a doctoral program, married and moved west. Not much stuck with me from that long-ago class, but Catharine Parr Traill’s recipe for dealing with troubles had. “When disaster strikes,” she wrote, “it’s no good to wring one’s hands, better to be up and doing.”
And that’s what I did. After my swim and shower, I dug out last year’s gift bags, tissue, and ribbons, put on Bach’s Brandenburgs, brewed myself some ginger tea, and tried not to think about lives full of promise that end in tragedy. By the end of the morning, my equilibrium was restored, and I had a stack of presents tree-ready in used but still festive gift bags. As I stowed the gifts in the laundry-room closet – well away from Pantera – I was grateful to Catharine Parr Traill for knowing that nothing answers vexing existential questions like mindless work, and to Bach for proving that, in the end, beauty trumps death.
Every Christmas time, I hand out candy canes with the exam papers and booklets. The students, even those in their graduating year, brighten at the reminder that there will be life after the misery of the next three hours, and the candy provides them with a necessary sugar boost when the first adrenalin rush subsides. That day, after the students had settled in and the rattle of candy paper and exam booklets ceased, calm fell over the room. For a few minutes, I watched the snow fall in fat lazy flakes outside the classroom window and let the peace wash over me. Then the Protestant work ethic kicked in, and I took out my laptop and set to work.
I was supervising a master’s thesis by that rarest of rare birds in our graduate school: a genuine right-winger. Christian Luzny’s thesis was that Canada’s best hope for surviving in the post-9/11 world was a stronger alliance with the United States, and his first draft had been sharp, lively, opinionated, and wildly one-sided. His bibliography was extensive and revealing: it did not include the name of a single scholar whose opinion deviated from Christian’s own. When he and I met to discuss his draft, I’d suggested that, at the very least, he should flush out a paper tiger to fight. Accordingly, the first thing I checked that afternoon was the bibliography. It was lengthy, and Christian had chosen some formidable opponents. Most were the usual suspects, but there was a Ph.D. whose surname caught my eye: Michaels, A.M. It seemed a long shot, but I googled Michaels, A.M. and came up with the scholar’s full name, Abigail Margaret Michaels, and the dates of her degrees and the universities from which she had received them. It all fit.
I googled her dissertation and found the abstract. Mercifully free of the bafflegab of academe, the abstract seemed frighteningly prescient: predicting that with a fragile economy, deep divisions about foreign and domestic policy and a spiralling debt load, America was a house of cards vulnerable to the slightest breeze. This dissertation argued that Canada offered a template that might be useful as America rebuilt after what Abby Michaels saw as its inevitable crash. On impulse, I ordered the dissertation through an interlibrary loan, then set to work on Christian’s thesis.
Christian argued with passion and abandon. Attempting to track his thought processes was like trying to follow a talented but erratic dancer – exhausting but exciting. The time passed quickly, and I was surprised when students began handing in their papers. After the last laggard left the room, I closed my laptop with that pleasant buzz of excitement that came when I knew I was going to be working with a gifted student. Judgi
ng by her abstract, it was a feeling that Abby Michaels, too, must have inspired many times in the men and women who taught her.
Zack was better at compartmentalizing than anyone I’d ever met. He had spent the day defending an alleged stalker who was accused of pursuing a perky local TV anchorwoman. It was an unpopular case; the media had been critical of Zack’s defence, and he had received some ugly calls at work and at home. More significantly, his case was going south. He’d put in a hard day, but that night we were taking our granddaughters to the ballet, and he greeted me at the door wearing his tux and a smile, martini in hand.
“Thank you for laying out my tux,” he said. “I was feeling like homemade shit; now I feel like homemade shit on the way to the ball.” He held out his martini to give me a sip.
“That is sublime,” I said. “Is there one of those for me?”
“You bet,” he said. “But I thought you might want to take off your boots first.”
I took another sip of his drink. “I owe you, and I’ll repay you by not asking you how your day was, and also by telling you that you look incredibly handsome.”
Zack gave me a nod of appreciation. “It’s a big night. Now fill me in on the time line again.”
“Mieka’s going to drop the girls here at 5:30 – then we’re off to the Hotel Saskatchewan for a fashionably early dinner. It’ll take us twenty minutes to get from the Hotel to the ballet; curtain’s at 7:30; by 7:31 we’ll be listening to Tchaikovsky and waiting for the mysterious Herr Drosselmeyer to appear at the Stahlbaums’ Christmas Eve party.” I hung my scarf and toque on top of my coat and aligned my boots. “I am now ready for my martini.”
“Follow me,” Zack said, and he turned his chair towards the kitchen. “So how was your day?”
“Productive.” I studied his face. Under the direct light in the kitchen, I could see the lines of fatigue. The addition of Delia’s case to his already heavy workload was taking its toll. “I spent the morning wrapping Christmas presents,” I said. “We are now one step closer to being ready for the big day.”
Zack extracted an olive from the jar on the counter. “What do you want for Christmas?” he said. “I’ve got a bunch of little stuff, but nothing with a wow factor.”
“I have the solution,” I said. “I called Stan Gardiner at the Point Store the other day. He says the ice on the lake is ‘punky’ – not good for skating. Since we’re all going to be at the cottage between Christmas and New Year’s, I thought we could get somebody to flood that space between the cottage and the hill. It’s perfect for a rink: it’s big, it’s flat, and you and I can stay inside where it’s warm and watch the kids.”
Zack chewed his olive and offered me the jar. “I’ll bet you’re the only woman in Canada who wants a skating rink for Christmas.” Suddenly his face split in a grin. “Do you remember Lee Sandison? The one with the much younger wife?”
“There seems to be an epidemic of much younger wives,” I said. “But I remember Missy. She has the only Birkin bag I’ve ever seen in Regina.”
“Well, she earned it,” Zack said. “Lee told me he asked her for a blow job and she said she’d give him one if he bought her a Birkin bag.”
“Isn’t that a little high?” I said. “Birkins start at $7,000.”
“According to Lee, Missy prides herself on being ‘fastidious.’ ”
“Fastidious, but flexible,” I said. “Well, good for them. Everyone deserves a special moment. I hope Lee knows that Birkin bags are reputed to last forever.”
Zack grinned. “I’ll be sure to point that out next time I see him.”
I glanced at the clock. “Time to move along,” I said. “Mieka’s going to be here with the girls in twenty minutes, and I still have to get dressed.”
“Can I watch?”
“Isn’t that getting a little old?”
“Never.”
“Okay, you can watch, but it’s going to cost you a skating rink.”
CHAPTER 6
The Hotel Saskatchewan is one of the grand hotels built by the nation-building Canadian Pacific Railway in the early part of the twentieth century. At the peak of construction, a thousand men were working shifts twenty-four hours a day, so that the young blades of Regina would have vaulted ceilings under which to waltz their belles and marble thresholds over which to carry them. The clientele today tends to be corporate, more interested in mergers than romance, and there are places in town where the food is cheaper and better. That said, for an evening of mid-winter enchantment, the Hotel Saskatchewan is the place to be, especially if you are six years old and four years old, as Madeleine and Lena were, respectively, on that starry December night.
From the moment the girls looked up at the towering wooden soldiers flanking the entrance and spied themselves in the floor-to-ceiling mirrors, they were captivated. The lobby held more charms: the frothy extravagances of the tree decorations were a reminder, if we needed one, that Christmas is the season when too much is not enough, and the chandeliers glittering in the dining rooms promised further delights. Best of all, there was the hotel’s gingerbread display. This year’s theme was an Alpine village with a real train that ran on a figure-eight track past candy-covered houses. Transcendent.
There had been secrecy about what Lena would be wearing that evening. New holiday dresses, along with dinner and The Nutcracker, were our present to the girls. When I had taken them shopping, Madeleine found a dress she liked within the first half-hour. It was classic: a simple, scoop-necked, long-sleeved black velvet bodice, with a pretty dark green shot taffeta skirt. Standing in front of the triple mirrors in her undershirt and panties, she handed the dress to me with a sigh of relief. “Now I don’t have to try on any more,” she said. Lena had proved harder to satisfy, and when finally we gave up and went for hot chocolate we weren’t even close. In the end, Mieka had taken Lena dress shopping while Madeleine and I stayed at Mieka’s and read. Lena was wrestling with a large box when they returned. She refused all offers of help and all requests for a preview, saying only that she wanted the dress to be a surprise. As I was leaving, I asked Mieka about the dress, but she just rolled her eyes and changed the subject.
When Lena took off her coat at the hotel, I understood Mieka’s eye-roll. Lena’s dress was a poufy explosion of satin, tulle, ribbons, and pearls, all the colour of grape Kool-Aid. Zack and I were both speechless. Maddy, who was always quick to pick up on nuance and was a loyal sister, gave us our cue. “Lena really looks nice, doesn’t she?” she said, and there was an edge in her voice that suggested she would not brook contradiction.
“Unforgettable,” Zack said.
“Absolutely,” I said, and with that, the four of us swanned into dinner.
We decided on the buffet – mostly because of the dessert table – so our only order was for drinks. The girls ordered Shirley Temples, but when the server handed Zack the wine list, Madeleine frowned. “Wine is kind of plain for a party. Why don’t you and Mimi get Shirley Temples too? They come with cherries on a crazy straw.”
Zack looked at me. “I don’t know about you, but that cherries-on-a-crazy-straw sounds tempting.”
“I’m tempted, too,” I said.
Zack handed the wine list back to the server. “Shirley Temples all around,” he said, “and please don’t stint on the cherries.”
When the drinks came, Lena took her napkin and tucked it into her collar. “I don’t want to spill on my dress,” she said.
“Very prudent,” Zack said. His gaze swept the faces at our table. “I’d like to propose a toast.”
“I’ll bet it’s to us,” Lena said.
“Only indirectly,” Zack said. He raised his glass. “To Mimi’s toothbrush, because without your grandmother’s toothbrush, none of us would be here tonight.”
Madeleine narrowed her eyes. “Is this one of your funny stories?”
“No, this is one of my true stories, but before I tell it, we have to drink a toast to Mimi’s toothbrush.”
Gigglin
g, the girls raised their glasses. “To Mimi’s toothbrush,” they chorused.
“Now you have to tell the story,” Madeleine said.
“It starts the morning after Mimi and I had our first date,” he said.
I shot my husband a warning glance. Madeleine and Lena didn’t need to know that their grandparents’ first evening together had lasted all night.
“Did you have fun?” Lena asked.
“Yes,” Zack said. “And that was the problem.”
“How could fun be a problem?” Madeleine asked.
Zack’s eyes met mine over our Shirley Temples. “Because I’d always been on my own – I’d always been able to do what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I never had to think about anybody other than myself.”
“That doesn’t sound so bad,” Maddy said judiciously.
“It wasn’t,” Zack said. “In fact, it was pretty good, but when I met your grandmother, I knew that if I stayed with her, everything would be different, so I was scared.”
Lena furrowed her brow in disbelief. “You’re not scared of anything.”
“Everybody’s scared of something. Anyway, we were at the lake, but I had business in Regina, so when I was ready to go, I asked your Mimi if I could bring her anything and she said she’d like a toothbrush.”
“Where was her toothbrush?” Madeleine asked.
“She must have lost it,” Lena said.
“She didn’t have it with her at the time,” Zack said. “So she asked me to bring her one. And this is the scary part. This is the part where things almost didn’t work out – where if I’d done one thing instead of another we wouldn’t be sitting here tonight drinking Shirley Temples.”
Struck by the solemnity of the possibility, the girls put down their drinks.
“As you well know, it’s a long drive from the lake into Regina.”