by Roddy Doyle
—An example to the other girls. She came back for a day, her face black and blue, and then she was gone.
—What was her real name?
—Maria. He named her himself.
—I don’t get you.
—Maria Gandon says Hello.
—His daughter?
—In a way. He named them all Maria. It was good for business.
I stood at the bed.
—What’ll you do now? I asked her.
—What I always do, she said.—I am a businesswoman. I must be ready. They will soon close us down and throw us onto the street.
—Who?
—Your friends. The new people.
She pointed to the end of the bed, where Gandon’s body was leaking.
—He would have done it, she said.—You will dispose of him?
—I’ll drag him outside and leave him there, so they’ll find him on the steps of a hoor-house.
—He will be moved.
—Who by?
—By your friends. Or by me. A dead minister on the step would be bad for business. And the morale of the new nation.
—I’ll do it anyway. Did you see the body?
—Which body?
—My father’s.
—No.
—Maybe he got away.
She picked up her glass.
—It’s not impossible, I said.
—No, she said.—It is not impossible.
I nodded at the body.
—It was a waste of time, wasn’t it?
—No, Mister Smart. It was not. I will not charge you for the time.
—Thanks.
—You are welcome.
I came out of the water behind Kilmainham. Washed, cleaned. A beautiful morning, I felt myself drying even as I hauled myself onto the bank. I’d left the leg in the water, before I’d climbed into the Camac stream from the Liffey. It was well away by now, out in the bay. And I’d be following it soon.
It was still very early but the batch of women holding vigil at the main gate were already buzzing, reciting the rosary. Madame MacBride, Missis Despard, Mary and Annie MacSwiney and some others. Kilmainham was jail now for the diehardwomen and girls; there were three hundred of them in there, locked up by the Free State government. And my wife was one of them.
The women stopped praying when they saw the good-looking wet man standing in front of them.
—I’m looking for Missis Smart, I said.
—Who are you?
—Her husband.
One of the women jumped up.
—This way, she said.
I followed her.
—They love the visits, she said.—It gives them a lift for days. All of them.
She brought me around a corner, under the high wall of the jail, and across the road. She turned and pointed up, across the street and the occasional traffic, over the wall, to one of a row of top-floor windows.
—See that one?
—Yeah.
—Wait now.
She shouted.
—May! May!
I could see now, a head had appeared at the window. I couldn’t see a face; it was too high up the wall.
A shout came back.
—Good morning!
—Get Missis Smart! Her husband’s here to see her. The head disappeared.
—I’ll leave you alone.
—Thanks.
—For what?
I didn’t have to wait long. I saw hair at the window and I recognised it.
—Hello!
—Hello! I yelled.—Can you see me?
—No!
—I’m grand!
—So am I!
—I’m going away!
—Yes!
—I have to!
—I know!
—Look for me!
—Yes!
—She’s beautiful!
—Yes! They let me have a photograph!
—Just beautiful!
—Yes!
—Like you!
—Ah now!
—What’s her name!?
—Saoirse!
—Oh!
—D’you like it!?
—Yes!
—I have to go! They’re coming to drag me away!
—Look for me!
—I will!
—Look for me!
She was gone.
And so was I. I’d killed my last man.
When I went past them, the gate women were huddled around a paper.
—The boys are after getting O’Gandúin, said Mary MacSwiney.
She wasn’t upset.
—Last night, the woman who’d shown me the window told me.—Coming home from his sodality. He must have been in a state of grace, all the same. Or near enough to it.
Another martyr for old Ireland.
I was going. I couldn’t stay here. Every breath of its stale air, every square inch of the place mocked me, grabbed at my ankles. It needed blood to survive and it wasn’t getting mine. I’d supplied it with plenty.
I’d start again. A new man. I had money to get me to Liverpool and a suit that didn’t fit. I had a wife I loved in jail and a daughter called Freedom I’d held only once. I didn’t know where I was going. I didn’t know if I’d get there.
But I was still alive. I was twenty. I was Henry Smart.
I could not have written A Star Called Henry without the information, ideas, images, phrases, maps, photographs and song lyrics I found in the following books. To their authors, thank you.
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