by Clive Barker
She turned her attention back to the woman in her arms. Clara had given up scratching at her eyes, and the tremors in her body were rapidly diminishing.
"Speak to me," Jude said. She reached for Clara's face, a little ashamed of how tentative Dowd's warning had made her.
There was no answer from the body, unless there were words in Clara's dying moans. Jude listened, hoping to find some vestigial sense there, but there was none. She felt a single spasm pass down Clara's spine, as though something in her head had snapped, and then the whole system stopped dead. From the moment when Dowd had first appeared, perhaps ninety seconds had passed. In that time every hope that had gathered here had been undone. She wondered if Celestine had heard this tragedy unfold, another's suffering adding to her own sum.
"Dead, then, lovey," Dowd said.
Jude let Clara's body slip from her arms into the grass.
"We should be going," he went on, his tone so bland they might have been forsaking a picnic instead of a corpse. "Don't worry about Clara. I'll fetch what's left of her later."
She heard the sound of his feet behind her and stood up, rather than be touched by him. Overhead, another jet was roaring in the clouds. She looked towards the eye, but it too had been unmade.
"Destroyer," she said.
28
Gentle had forgotten his short exchange with Aping about their shared enthusiasm for painting, but Aping had not. The morning after the wedding in Athanasius' cell, the sergeant came to fetch Gentle and escorted him to a room at the other end of the building, which he had turned into a studio. It had plenty of windows, so the light was as good as this region was ever likely to supply, and he had gathered over the months of his posting here an enviable selection of materials. The products of this workplace were, however, those of the most uninspired dilettante. Designed without compositional skill and painted without sense of color, their only real point of interest lay in their obsessiveness. There were, Aping proudly told Gentle, one hundred and fifty-three pictures, and their subject was unchanging: his child, Huzzah, the merest mention of whom had caused the loving portraitist such unease. Now, in the privacy of his place of inspiration, he explained why. His daughter was young, he said, and her mother dead; he'd been obliged to bring her with him when orders from Iahmandhas moved him to the Cradle.
"I could have left her in L'Himby," he told Gentle. "But who knows what kind of harm she'd have come to if I'd done that? She's a child."
"So she's here on the island?"
"Yes, she is. But she won't step out of her room in the daytime. She's afraid of catching the madness, she says. I love her very much. And as you can see"—he indicated the paintings—"she's very beautiful."
Gentle was obliged to take the man's word for it. "Where is she now?" he asked.
"Where she always is," Aping said. "In her room. She has very strange dreams."
"I know how she feels," Gentle said.
"Do you?" Aping replied, with a fervor in his voice that suggested that art was not, after alt, the subject Gentle had been brought here to debate. "You dream too, then?"
"Everybody does."
"That's what my wife used to tell me." He lowered his voice. "She had prophetic dreams. She knew when she was going to die, to the very hour. But I donjt dream at all. So I can't share what Huzzah feels."
"Are you suggesting that maybe I could?"
"This is a very delicate matter," Aping said. "Yzordder-rexian law prohibits all proprieties."
"I didn't know that."
"Especially women, of course," Aping went on. "That's the real reason I keep her out of sight. It's true, she fears the madness, but I'm afraid for what's inside her even more."
"Why?"
"I'm afraid if she keeps company with anyone but me she'll say something out of turn, and N'ashap will realize she has visions like her mother."
"And that would be—"
"Disastrous! My career would be in tatters. I should never have brought her." He looked up at Gentle. "I'm only telling you this because we're both artists, and artists have to trust each other, like brothers, isn't that right?"
"That's right," said Gentle. Aping's large hands were trembling, he saw. The man looked to be on the verge of collapse. "Do you want me to speak to your daughter?" he asked.
"More than that..."
"Tell me."
"I want you to take her with you, when you and the mys-tif leave. Take her to Yzordderrex."
"What makes you think we're going there—or anywhere, come to that?"
"I have my spies, and so does N'ashap. Your plans are better known than you'd like. Take her with you, Mr. Za-charias. Her mother's parents are still alive. They'll look after her."
"It's a big responsibility to take a child all that way."
Aping pursed his lips. "I would of course be able to ease your departure from the island, if you were to take her."
"Suppose she won't go?" Gentle said.
"You must persuade her," he said simply, as though he knew Gentle had long experience of persuading little girls to do what he wanted.
Nature had played Huzzah Aping three cruel tricks. One, it had lent her powers that were expressly forbidden under the Autarch's regime; two, it had given her a father who, despite his sentimental dotings, cared more for his military career than for her; and, three, it had given her a face that only a father could ever have described as beautiful. She was a thin, troubled creature of nine or ten, her black hair cut comically, her mouth tiny and tight. When, after much cajoling, those lips deigned to speak, her voice was wan and despairing. It was only when Aping told her that her visitor was the man who'd fallen into the sea and almost died that her interest was sparked.
"You went down into the Cradle?" she said.
"Yes, I did," Gentle replied, coming to the bed on which she sat, her arms wrapped around her knees.
"Did you see the Cradle Lady?" the girl said.
"See who?" Aping started to hush her, but Gentle waved him into silence. "See who?" he said again.
"She lives in the sea," Huzzah said. "I dream about her—and I hear her sometimes—but I haven't seen her yet. I want to see her."
"Does she have a name?" Gentle asked.
"Tishalulle," Huzzah replied, pronouncing the run of the syllables without hesitation. "That's the sound the waves made when she was born," she explained. "Tishalulle."
"That's a lovely name."
"I think so," the girl said gravely. "Better than Huzzah."
"Huzzah's pretty too," Gentle replied. "Where I come from, Huzzah's the noise people make when they're happy."
She looked at him as though the idea of happiness was utterly alien to her, which Gentle could believe. Now he saw Aping in his daughter's presence, he better understood the paradox of the man's response to her. He was frightened of the girl. Her illegal powers upset him for his reputation's sake, certainly, but they also reminded him of a power he had no real mastery over. The man painted Huzzah's fragile face over and over as an act of perverse devotion, perhaps, but also of exorcism. Nor was the child much better served by her gift. Her dreams condemned her to this cell and filled her with obscure longings. She was more their victim than their celebrant.
Gentle did his best to draw from her a little more information on this woman Tishalulle, but she either knew very little or was unprepared to vouchsafe further insights in her father's presence. Gentle suspected the latter. As he left, however, she asked him quietly if he would come and visit her again, and he said he would.
He found Pie in their cell, with a guard on the door. The mystif looked grim.
"N'ashap's revenge," it said, nodding towards the guard. "I think we've outstayed our welcome."
Gentle recounted his conversation with Aping and the meeting with Huzzah.
"So the law prohibits proprieties, does it? That's a piece of legislation I hadn't heard about."
"The way she talked about the Cradle Lady—"
"Her mother, presumably."
"Why do you say that?"
"She's frightened and she wants her mother. Who can blame her? And what's a Cradle Lady if not a mother?"
"I hadn't thought of it that way," Gentle said. "I'd supposed there might be some literal truth to what she was saying."
"I doubt it."
"Are we going to take her with us or not?"
"It's your choice, of course, but I say absolutely not."
"Aping said he'd help us if we took her."
"What's his help worth, if we're burdened with a child? Remember, we're not going alone. We've got to get Sco-pique out too, and he's confined to his cell the way we are. N'ashap has ordered a general clamp-down."
"He must be pining for you."
Pie made a sour face. "I'm certain our descriptions are on their way to his headquarters even now. And when he gets an answer he's going to be a very happy Oethac, knowing he's got a couple of desperadoes under lock and key. We'll never get out once he knows who we are."
"So we have to escape before he realizes. I just thank God the telephone never made it to this Dominion."
"Maybe the Autarch banned it. The less people talk, the less they can plot. You know, I think maybe I should try and get access to N'ashap. I'm sure I could persuade him to give us a freer rein, if I could just talk with him for a few minutes."
"He's not interested in conversation, Pie," Gentle said. "He'd prefer to keep your mouth busy some other way."
"So you simply want to fight your way out?" Pie replied. "Use pneuma against N'ashap's men?"
Gentle paused to think this option through. "I don't think that'd be too clever," he said. "Not with me still weak. In a couple of days, maybe we could take them on. But not yet."
"We don't have that long."
"I realize that."
"And even if we did, we'd be better avoiding a face-to-face conflict. N'ashap's troops may be lethargic, but there's a good number of them."
"Perhaps you should see him, then, and try to mellow him a little. I'll talk to Aping and praise his pictures some more."
"Is he any good?"
"Put it this way: As a painter he makes a damn fine father. But he trusts me, with us being fellow artists and all."
The mystif got up and called to the guard, requesting a private interview with Captain N'ashap. The man mumbled something smutty and left his post, having first beaten the bolts on the door with his rifle butt to be certain they were firmly in place. The sound drove Gentle to the window, to stare out at the open air. There was a brightness in the cloud layer that suggested the suns might be on their way through. The mystif joined him, slipping its arms around his neck.
"What are you thinking?" it said.
"Remember Efreet's mother, in Beatrix?"
"Of course."
"She told me she'd dreamt about me coming to sit at her table, though she wasn't certain whether I'd be a man or a woman."
"Naturally you were deeply offended."
"I would have been once," Gentle said. "But it didn't mean that much when she said it. After a few weeks with you, I didn't give a shit what sex I was. See how you've corrupted me?"
"My pleasure. Is there any more to this story, or is that it?"
"No, there's more. She started talking about Goddesses, I remember. About how they were hidden away...."
"And you think Huzzah's found one?"
"We saw acolytes in the mountains, didn't we? Why not a Deity? Maybe Huzzah did go dreaming for her mother..."
"... but instead she found a Goddess."
"Yes. Tishalulle, out there in the Cradle, waiting to rise."
"You like the idea, don't you?"
"Of hidden Goddesses? Oh, yes. Maybe it's just the woman chaser in me. Or maybe I'm like Huzzah, waiting for someone I can't remember, wanting to see some face or other, come to fetch me away."
"I'm already here," Pie said, kissing the back of Gentle's neck. "Every face you ever wanted."
"Even a Goddess?"
"Ah—"
The sound of the bolts being drawn aside silenced them. The guard had returned with the news that Captain N'a-shap had consented to see the mystif.
"If you see Aping," Gentle said as it left, "will you tell him I'd love to sit and talk painting with him?"
"I'll do that."
They parted, and Gentle returned to the window. The clouds had thickened their defenses against the suns, and the Cradle lay still and empty again beneath their blanket. Gentle said again the name Huzzah had shared with him, the word that was shaped like a breaking wave.
"Tishalulle."
The sea remained motionless. Goddesses didn't come at a call. At least, not his.
He was just estimating the time that Pie had been away— and deciding it was an hour or more—when Aping appeared at the cell door, dismissing the guard from his post while he talked.
"Since when have you been under lock and key?" he asked Gentle.
"Since this morning."
"But why? I understood from the captain that you and the mystif were guests, after a fashion."
"We were."
A twitch of anxiety passed over Aping's features. "If you're a prisoner here," he said stiffly, "then of course the situation's changed."
"You mean we won't be able to debate painting?"
"I mean you won't be leaving."
"What about your daughter?"
"That's academic now."
"You'll let her languish, will you? You'll let her die?"
"She won't die."
"I think she will."
Aping turned his back on his tempter. 'The law is the law," he said.
"I understand," Gentle replied softly. "Even artists have to bow to that master, I suppose."
"I understand what you're doing," Aping said. "Don't think I don't."
"She's a child, Aping."
"Yes. I know. But I'll have to tend to her as best I can."
"Why don't you ask her whether she's seen her own death?"
"Oh, Jesu," Aping said, stricken. He began to shake his head. "Why must this happen to me?"
"It needn't. You can save her."
"It isn't so clear-cut," Aping said, giving Gentle a harried look. "I have my duty."
He took a handkerchief from his trouser pocket and wiped hard at his mouth, back and forth, as though a residue of guilt clung there and he was afraid it would give him away.
"I have to think," he said, going back to the door. "It seemed so easy. But now... I have to think."
The guard was at his post again when the door opened, and Gentle was obliged to let the sergeant go without having the chance to broach the subject of Scopique.
There was further frustration when Pie returned. N'a-shap had kept the mystif waiting two hours and had finally decided not to grant the promised interview.
"I heard him even if I didn't see him," Pie said. "He sounded to be roaring drunk."
"So both of us were out of luck. I don't think Aping's going to help us. If the choice is between his daughter and his duty he'll choose his duty." "So we're stuck here." "Until we plot another plot." "Shit."
Night fell without the suns appearing again, the only sound throughout the building that of the guards proceeding up and down the corridors, bringing food to the cells, then slamming and locking the doors until dawn. Not a single voice was raised to protest the fact that the privileges of the evening—games of Horsebone, recitations of scenes from Quexos, and Malbaker's Numbubo, works many here knew by heart—had been withdrawn. There was a universal reluctance to make a peep, as if each man, alone in his cell, was prepared to forgo every comfort, even that of praying aloud, to keep themselves from being noticed."N'ashap must be dangerous when drunk," Pie said, by way of explanation for this breathless hush.
"Maybe he's fond of midnight executions."
"I'd take a bet on who's top of his list."
"I wish I felt stronger. If they come for us, we'll fight, right?"
"Of course," Pie said. "But until t
hey do, why don't you sleep for a while?"
"You must be kidding."
"At least stop pacing about."
"I've never been locked up by anybody before. It makes me claustrophobic."
"One pneuma and you could be out of here," Pie reminded him.
"Maybe that's what we should be doing."
"If we're pressed. But we're not yet. For Christ's sake, lie down."
Reluctantly, Gentle did so, and despite the anxieties that lay down beside him to whisper in his ear, his body was more interested in rest than their company, and he quickly fell asleep.
He was woken by Pie, who murmured, "You've got a visitor."
He sat up. The cell's light had been turned off, and had it not been for the smell of oil paint he'd not have known the identity of the man at the door.
"Zacharias. I need your help."
"What's wrong?"
"Huzzah is... I think she's going crazy. You've got to come." His whispering voice trembled. So did the hand he laid on Gentle's arm. "I think she's dying," he said.
"If I go, Pie comes too."
"No, I can't take that risk."
"And I can't take the risk of leaving my friend here," Gentle said.
"And I can't take the risk of being found out. If there isn't somebody in the cell when the guard passes—"
"He's right," said Pie. "Go on. Help the child."
"Is that wise?"
"Compassion's always wise."
"All right. But stay awake. We haven't said our prayers yet. We need both our breaths for that."
"I understand."
Gentle slipped out into the passage with Aping, who winced at every click the key made as he locked the door. So did Gentle. The thought of leaving Pie alone in the cell sickened him. But there seemed to be no other choice.
"We may need a doctor's help," Gentle said as they crept down the darkened corridors. "I suggest you fetch Scopique from his cell."
"Is he a doctor?"
"He certainly is."
"It's you she's asking for," Aping said. "I don't know why. She just woke up, sobbing and begging me to fetch you. She's so cold!"