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by Laura Hunter


  She could not look at the Boone Station sign beneath which her menagerie of carved animals had hung without thinking of the days after her mother died when he had come to reclaim the animal figures as his. And to make his threat.

  Each time she saw him pass, Lily recalled arriving at Kee Granny’s church to learn more cures. She had walked past Rattler’s hollow log. He was not there. She had been no more than twelve at the time and had not realized that the snake slept days and hunted nights. But he was an old snake. She had known him as long as she had been on Turtleback Mountain. And being old, like Kee Granny, made you do strange things sometimes.

  She thought no more about the empty den until she passed the smokehouse that faced Kee Granny’s church. There on the post supporting the roof was nailed the skin of a splendid Eastern diamondback rattler. She moved in to look more closely. The skin stretched out as long as she was tall. His rattles had been removed, as had his head. The skin lay so wide that it wrapped around one side of the wooden post.

  Lily stared at the pattern and the scar near his head. There was no doubt. Someone had killed and skinned Rattler, as if he were some sort of trophy, rather than a miracle of nature. She knocked on Kee Granny’s door, unsure she could speak. When the granny opened the door, Lily pointed to the snake’s skin.

  “Briar,” Kee Granny said with a nod. “He can’t abide something so beautiful.”

  Lily’s eyes filled with tears. “Why? How did Briar know Rattler was there? I didn’t think anyone could see Rattler unless they were honored.”

  “He’s different, my Briar. Seen a lot he don’t always understand.”

  Lily remembered the sky that day as being a blue so intense that it hurt her eyes to look at it. She would not see such a cobalt day again until the day she found the deer.

  Chapter 38

  September brought with it muscadines so heavy they swagged vines from tree branches. They hung so low Lily could reach them without effort. Reach up, grab a vine, and pull it toward the earth from whence it came. This year’s crop was so prolific she could fill a tin bucket with the wild purple grapes in one picking. She had threaded her belt through the bucket handle so it hung free. She had only to glance to her side to see how quickly the muscadines piled up.

  She created her own delay by popping every other one she picked into her mouth. A tender bite was all it took to break the thick skin at its weakest point where it separated from the vine. Sweet, sweet juice exploded in her mouth. With a deft movement of her tongue, she parted pulp from seed, spit seeds to the ground with a foretelling of next year’s crop, chewed the skin and pulp, and swallowed while she continued to pick with both hands.

  After a short picking time, Eli appeared, as he often did, seemingly from nowhere. Lily felt, rather than saw, his presence. She had picked less than an hour when he materialized next to her and added his fruit to the bucket. Together they stripped the lower vines. Vibrant orange muscadine leaves showered down on them.

  As dusk neared, Lily broke the wood’s silence. “Let’s quit today and go to Boone Station. I’ll bake us a cornpone and we’ll have Gertie’s milk.” Lily thrived on goat’s milk. Gertie was now at least fourteen years old. She should ask Gabe to start looking for another milking goat and give Gertie a rest. “Come on,” she said. “Time to go.”

  Eli shook his head and pointed to a thick grape-filled vine in the branches one level up. Lily refused, saying they could not reach that high without climbing the tree.

  Eli dashed for the tree trunk chanting, “Hickory-dickory dock. The mouse ran up the clock,” and scurried up the lower stoutest limbs.

  Lily called for him to come down.

  He climbed higher, then stopped and pointed toward a vine thick as a man’s thumb, filled with heavy ripe muscadines, muscadines that outweighed any in the bucket. Ignoring Lily and her pleading for him to come down, he snaked out the limb toward a vine that had broken loose from the branch and hung free, nine feet above red and orange leaves and brown straw.

  Anger in Lily’s voice yelled, “You better stop it right now!”

  Eli stretched his body to grab the vine. He crossed his feet below the limb and flipped over.

  Lily covered her eyes and screamed. When she looked up, he hung upside down, clinching the grey-speckled limb with his hands and feet, possum-like. He laughed when Lily demanded that he get down before he fell.

  He walked his hands out the limb and reached for the vine. One strain and the limb splintered, releasing the vine and its fruit. The broken vine spun toward the tree, wrapping itself around Eli’s neck. “No, Papa!” Eli shrieked. The resiliency of the green vine swung Eli to the forest floor.

  Lily ran to free him from the vine, but Eli was up, running in circles screaming, “No! No! No!” His eyes blared open, magnifying the extent of his terror. She reached for him. His momentum threw her down. The collision slowed him, but he steadied himself. He spoke quietly, then louder, “Gotta get the cat.” Intoning the words over and over, his arms flailing about his head, he ran deeper into the woods.

  Lily chased, following the sound of his voice. For a time, she lost his direction. When she heard him shriek, “Water! My cat!” she knew where he was. She turned toward Parsons Branch and the Falls.

  Lily found Eli standing at the head of the Falls, his calves cutting two strips into the icy mountain water. She stepped out of her shoes. She tiptoed to the edge of the water and waded in, all the time caressing him with her voice. “Sit down, Eli,” she hummed. “I’m coming.”

  Eli looked back at her. “I gotta get the cat.” His eyes pleaded for her help. “In the river.”

  “I know,” Lily answered. “I’m in the river. See?” She lifted her hands toward the sky. “I’ll help you get the cat.”

  Lily repositioned her feet against the force of the water as it broke over the ledge. “Come with me. We’ll find the cat.” She extended her hand.

  His head cocked to one side, like an inquisitive bird. “There.” He pointed to the base of the Falls where water splashed white in the gathering dark, silver now against thickly mossed rock.

  “We’ll go down there,” she crooned. “Come with me.” When he did not move, she added, “Sit down, Eli, and wait for me.”

  Eli bent his knees to sit, his butt in the rushing water.

  He spoke in a quivering voice above the breaking water, “Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall. Humpty Dumpty had a great…” A rush of water caught him in the back. Eli vanished over the rock ledge.

  Lily screamed his name again and again as she clambered down the rock face. She grasped rhododendron as she passed so she would not slip on slick rock and slide into the water. At the base of the Falls, air bubbled with a fierceness that suggested Eli had aroused some demon from the black water.

  Lily dove into the pool and felt for Eli. Her hands felt only rocks flattened by years of the water’s pounding. She could see nothing through the murkiness. She surfaced, looking about to see if he had been boiled to the top by the water’s churning. He had not.

  She dove again, this time toward the far side of the pool. In the darkness, she grabbed a heavy log and forced it to the surface to avoid hitting it again. As she broke surface, she realized she had Eli by his lower arm. She lifted his face from the water. His eyes showed no more than slits. Eli was dead.

  Lily could not distinguish between branch water and her tears. She had to haul him out. He deserved a decent burial. She would see to that. She dog-paddled to the bank with the nearest flat rock, tugging him behind her. She sat on the rock and grasped him beneath his arms to heave him out of the pool. His weight threw her back on the rock, and he landed atop her. She pushed and rolled him over on his back. He lay supine, stretched there on a cold slab of stone. Lily lifted his body into a sitting position and laid her head on his shoulder, supporting his back with her body. She cradled and rocked him like a prodigal child.

  Lily wept. She wanted to curse Great Spirit or God or whatever it was that put innocents out
to fend for themselves. She did not. Words accomplished nothing. To name it did not make it go away. Kee Granny had used words to no avail when she tried to cure Anna. Kee Granny and all her knowledge about life and death and the power of the two had gained Lily nothing more than loneliness. And Eli, now cold and still in her arms.

  Lily’s heart solidified against Kee Granny. All she had taught Lily over the years had been no more than make-believe. And Anna. Anna had never shared what kept her strong. What had steadied her enough for her to take a two-year-old to live on an empty mountainside? What had changed her life and given her reason to get up one morning after those three years of emptiness as Lily spent days with the granny learning the world of Turtleback? Anna had never shared what had opened the love Lily had seen from her mother once she started elementary school in Covington. Nor could Lily comprehend why Anna deteriorated so before the December snow.

  And Eli. Eli, who so valued the life of his cat that was almost lost as a child. And now this brutal fall.

  Rage rose within her and bumped against her thick-set heart in an attempt to kick itself out. Lily refused to give anger dominance over her life. She released her rage in a primordial scream. Lily reached out and grasped her fury from the damp air. She tucked it inside a pocket of her past, and Ena pinned it shut.

  Lily wanted Eli to know that someone had loved him. That she had. That she did. She pulled his upper body close and held him firm against her breast. She brushed her fingers through his wet hair, now dingy curls plastered with water, and cooed his name.

  “Ease her, Brother Moon,” pleads Sister Sun. “It’s your time.”

  Since her mother’s death the previous winter, Lily had slept in the indention left in the bed by her mother’s body, hoping to take some of her mother’s strength for living a life alone. Lily believed she had succeeded. Now, with the loss of Eli, she doubted. She lowered her forehead into the dip in Eli’s back and hugged him hard. “Oh my dear friend, I am so sorry,” she said. “So, so sorry.” A fury against her inability to save him from himself overtook her. She released him and he slumped forward. Lily pounded his back with her fists. “How dare you die?” she raged. “How dare you die?”

  Eli coughed. And coughed again. He vomited muscadine hull, pulp, and water onto his lap.

  Lily jumped up.

  Eli fell forward and hit his head on the rock. “Oooh,” he moaned and rolled to his stomach.

  Lily nudged his buttocks with her foot.

  “No,” he said and swung his arm back toward her.

  Lily knelt by him, turned him to face her and laughed. Moonlight sent silver strips across the pool at the base of the Falls.

  “Gotta get the cat.”

  “I know.” She held him close as light faded.

  Chapter 39

  After Eli’s slip on the Falls, Lily found herself drawn to the swing. She spent spring afternoons and evenings swinging and watching night wind its way across the mountain. Winter had silenced the guns, but spring brought them out again. Gunshots became more frequent. When a gunshot would zing out during the day, she would move inside. Poachers, she decided.

  As before, she would search out the area to be sure no animal had been left to suffer. With time, shots came closer and closer. A shot sounded up the footpath to Kee Granny’s. Lily, from her seat on the swing, jerked. On the edge of the woods, what appeared to be a fully-leafed sycamore exploded into a swoosh of black starlings. She looked up to see if Owl slept safe on the rafter. So comfortable was he there that he perched with his head tucked beneath his wing. These were her lands, and that made these animals hers as well. She would stop the poacher before he injured or destroyed a life on her Turtleback.

  Lily began her search by moving toward the creek behind the house. Rock steps led her down the hillside past the goat pen. Listening for how high the water might be, she heard instead a faint bleating. She stumbled down the rocks, calling to Bad Billy.

  “Come quick, Great Spirit,” calls Sister Sun. “It’s started.”

  Great Spirit doesn’t appear.

  “Why am I left with everything to do myself?” Sister Sun spits out. “Great Spirit needs to take control here before she gets so hurt she can’t recover. Just like her mama did.”

  Sister Sun shoots her anger out as a blob of carbon-scented gasses that disturbs earth’s upper atmosphere and starts Northern lights dancing. Off and on. Off and on. A mingling of glorious colors.

  Under Boone Station, Bad Billy lay on his side, his front legs buckled beneath his belly. A hole larger than Lily’s thumb pumped blood from the orange coat near his heart. Blood trickled downhill. The old buck looked at Lily through soulful eyes as she dropped to her knees next to him and wailed. Here was her beloved pet. He had led her to Old Man Farley’s place during the thunderstorm when she was only six years old. He had shown her how she and meadow grasses were as much a part of each other as were he and spring clover. Lily laid her head on his and whispered into his ear, “Oh no, not my Bad Billy.”

  Out of the breeze came a voice, Ena’s but not quite Ena’s. “Leave him be,” it said.

  “No. He can’t go,” she demanded. “Bad, get up.” She ran her hand over his coat and patted the bottom of his hoof. “I’ll call Gabe. He’ll make it right.”

  The wind picked up and loosened Lily’s hair. “You can’t ask him to suffer through his going,” the wind said. “Would you be Kee Granny?”

  “Shut up!” Lily screamed. “Get up, Bad. Please.” No air moved. “You can’t die. I love you.”

  Bad Billy flickered his eyes. No more than three breaths, and he was dead.

  Lily howled like a widowed squaw mourning her warrior. Her grief echoed off Turtleback. Keening took control of her, and she could not stop. Later in the retelling, when Gabe tried to comfort her, she would recall that she had shed no tears, so deep was her pain.

  Bad Billy’s blood puddled in Lily’s calico skirt. Gummy blood stuck her fingers together. She wiped them in her loose hair. Lily ran up the footpath to Flatland. She would confront Briar Slocomb. The one person on Turtleback Mountain, other than Kee Granny, he must be the poacher. But to kill her goat, a goat so old he could barely chew his hay, set him in league with the Devil himself.

  There must be a bottomless meanness in the man. As a child, Lily felt it the first time she saw him. She had not let his soft curls fool her. His sculptured eyes. His cool light-brown skin. She huffed so hard as she ran uphill that she did not think of Rattler in his den. Did he not carry a hatchet in his belt? Had she not seen him stumble trying to walk back home Sundays after Saturday nights at O’Mary’s? Did he not have a dog that looked half wolf? Wolves brought evil.

  Bent from loss of breath, she slowed and walked onto the plateau where the old church and smokehouse sat. The once whitewashed church had dulled to grey. The stand of fir, taller now than the cross, cast a dark shadow over the building. The only sound was a mountain bluebird talking to his mate. “Kee Granny?” Her voice silenced the bird.

  “Briar Slocomb,” she called. “Come out here and face me.” To her left, a breeze scraped two tree branches against each other. A covey of quail, a half dozen splotched brown chicks following their mother hen, waddled across a patch of budding grass and faded into the undergrowth.

  Lily moved to the edge of the cemetery and picked up a branch. She hefted it up and down to test its sturdiness. She could use it if she needed a weapon. Walking sideways with her back to the undergrowth, she crept to the beehives. Bees hummed in their usual unison, assuring her no one had disturbed them. She moved to the first hive. Tears dropped into the dust as she bent and whispered, “Queen Mother, Bad Billy has been murdered.” The bees buzzed a high drone, and then settled back to their work.

  Lily was thirsty. Bad Billy’s blood stuck her hands to the limb. Granny’s church would have water, but she could not bring herself to go there. She would cleanse herself in the water of the creek.

  Passing the smokehouse where Briar slept, she notice
d a rectangular carving on the ground. She picked it up and blew away the dust. She ran her fingertips over it, using her index nail to dig out dirt collected in the ridges. She blew again, as if to give it life. There in her hand lay a miniature wolf. Perfectly depicted, it held its ears erect; its tail bushed out with feathered cuts so fine they were almost translucent. She would take it to Boone Station, throw it in the fire and dance as it turned to ash.

  Today was not the day to confront Slocomb. She would return. Next time she would come with a more defined plan in place.

  Gabe arrived an hour after Lily called. “’Bout time you used that telephone,” he teased her.

  With the shovel he and Seth White had used for Anna’s grave, he dug out a trench long and wide enough to hold the old billy. Lily stood aside and watched the digging, wiping tears on her sleeve from time to time. When the trough was finished, they placed the goat on an old quilt and dragged him to the ditch, leaving behind a spotty red trail. They covered him with extra soil, leaves and broken limbs. When Gabe finished tamping the grave, Lily leaned on the shovel handle and said, “Do you think one day somebody’ll come by and say this is a Cherokee child’s grave?”

  “Probably not. Most folk don’t think much about Cherokee being here.”

  “They ought to.”

  Lily went inside to wash her hands of blood and dirt. She dipped out two glasses of water.

  Gabe stood in the front door, his shadow darkening him into a silhouette. “Okay, I’ve waited long enough. No need me driving pillar to post and you living way up here beside yourself. Eli’s not a bit of good. Not with some crazy person shooting about. You’ve dilly-dallied long enough now. We’re getting married.”

 

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