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by Howard White

It’s the best thing

  about this place.

  They’re quivery, quick

  little things, gone in a flash.

  They’re not here

  right now, but they

  often are. Come back anytime

  for another visit. You’ll see.

  Katherine L. Gordon

  Interview at Eden Mills

  Colourful crowds gathered on a grassy steep

  overlooking the ruins of the storied Harris Woollen Mill.

  Shelagh Rogers sat across from Al for a last interview,

  his manner flinty as the stone

  not accommodating the superfluous or ingratiating.

  He parried with a humour gleaned

  from observation of our fickle species,

  his life already detached from the fray

  but celebrating it as keenly

  as a whiskey at a wake.

  My last encounter, fixed in memory’s favourite corner,

  of a fiercely talented poet seer,

  who shaped a nation’s vision,

  lifted us out of formal connections of habit

  to an appreciation of a raw Canadian perspective

  with the courage to paint it in vivid free verse,

  conferring value on the everyday drama

  transforming it to vibrant art of life.

  Al’s “ordinary” always the undertow of extraordinary.

  Brian Brett

  from Real Life—Can You Imagine It?

  Al Purdy at the window

  looks over the farm while

  the peacock fans a white goose

  and the evening sun flames

  on the burnished leaves of the giant maple.

  Then he turns to me and says:

  “Real life—can you imagine it?”

  Douglas Fir,

  Arbutus,

  Garryana Oak,

  miles and miles of them,

  reaching down to blue ocean

  where illuminated ferry boats

  glow unearthly in a sea mist.

  Can you imagine it?

  Is it real?

  What’s real?

  You couldn’t,

  you shouldn’t,

  you wouldn’t.

  You might get shot in Salvador.

  A redback spider could bite your ass.

  The parrot will say good morning.

  An igneous rock hardens near the earth’s core.

  The aliens are introduced to Elvis Presley.

  Can you imagine that?

  Yes, I think I could.

  Elvis Presley always was an alien.

  For that matter,

  who could imagine

  Al Purdy,

  an ageing poet at the window,

  and is he real?

  Real life—a trick, a joke

  a quest to find what shouldn’t exist at all—

  the spirit?

  The only part of the body which doesn’t

  survive the atomic swirl of chemical

  action and reaction?

  Who could have imagined all of this?

  Not God in a vacuum some place near

  where the Vega galaxy originated?

  It’s too hard to imagine

  a vacuum with imagination,

  and harder still to define

  God as an explosion

  with such creative flare.

  The big bang invented finger painting?

  The lord of the unreal universe

  designed bad porno pictures?

  Encephalitis?

  30 foot long tapeworms?

  What kind of God is that?

  What kind of universe is this?

  Who could have imagined it?

  Linda Rogers

  Famous Last Lines

  I knew how to cultivate asparagus.

  Just like poems, it likes manure.

  Bullshit, the voice of the land said

  when he pulled his famous last lines

  out of the compost. That wild man

  knew he couldn’t force words any

  more than he could grow a turnip.

  He had to find them. Like children

  waiting in the forest to be discovered

  by the right parents, his poems hid

  under cabbage leaves, or dangled

  from the beaks of Valkyries looking

  to reverse the tolls of war and natural

  selection. Verse lurked here and there,

  everywhere the poet searched, from

  the fenced pastures of Prince Edward

  County to the minarets at Samarkand.

  Unlike poetry, which isn’t particular

  whether it grows in sun or shade, in

  the sand around ancient monuments

  or ice floes cruising the Beaufort Sea,

  the wild asparagus called out to him

  from Ameliasburgh ditches as precious

  as the wisdom written in ancient script.

  Then as now, every green stalk an

  epiphany, every mouthful a poem.

  Doug Paisley

  While You Were Out

  Thought I should leave you a note

  I was here while you were out

  I could tell by the furnishings and the magazines

  You’d been gone a long time

  I answered the phone, it was for someone else

  I even saw your tombstone in the cemetery

  I found your leather coat behind a door

  Put it on

  Sat down on the porch to smoke

  I began to creak like an old club chair in your coat

  Later in a photograph of you in the yard

  I saw a sapling at the fence line

  I turned to the window and the trunk reaching out of sight

  When it got dark I locked your door and went to bed

  What was I afraid of?

  I had a dream about a boat in a marsh

  That I nearly missed

  There was something I had to do

  A pump was thumping behind my head

  The shoreline was flooded and water was up against the side of your house

  How nice it would be not to worry about that anymore

  Some friends were stopping by

  Before guests arrive I’m always tense

  Like a fugitive

  Maybe that’s what makes gossip dreadful

  When you’re gone people can only talk about you

  Sadiqa de Meijer

  Ancestor vs. Ancestor

  The darkness then was darker than we know;

  it never left the corners of a room,

  rose velvetly from cellars, where it blinded the potatoes—

  like curd it formed a film on wooden spoons.

  Grains of darkness clustered in the orchards.

  Dark moisture kept the cabbage leaves apart.

  All over the old country, there were nights. No hands, no ground.

  You’ve never really seen the stars.

  And what was in it? Spectres, wraiths—

  they spooked the horse. Some things that people did.

  A continent was dark. It could be what we wanted.

  Animists, ivory, pith of strange fruits.

  We must have been, for all intents, asleep.

  When those nations flickered and were lit,

  there was no fault to speak of.

  And we didn’t speak of it.

  James Arthur

  In Al Purdy’s House

  It is strange, living in the house

  of a writer who has died. I use your cutlery,

  your typewriter. I read your autobiography

  while lying in your bed, trying to imagine Roblin Lake


  and this lakeside piece of land

  as they were sixty years ago, when you and Eurithe

  built the A-frame by hand,

  with no experience of carpentry, using salvaged lumber

  and whatever materials you could find.

  Critics seem to always talk you up or talk you down,

  casting you as the forerunner

  of all Canadian poets who were to follow,

  or else as a roughneck and a clown.

  For me, it’s enough that you were endlessly demoted

  during a war you found unreal;

  that you lived and wrote according to an image

  you had in mind;

  that you called your house A drum for the north

  wind, a kind of knot in time.

  Your mother’s good china

  is still here, asleep inside the hutch. History,

  your personal history, hangs around the record player,

  which I haven’t dared to touch—

  but this year there’s been so much rain,

  Roblin Lake has climbed up fifteen feet on the grass,

  making an island of the short peninsula

  you and Eurithe added to the shore.

  Standing at the window near the kitchen,

  watching a single sailboat pass

  back and forth across a distance

  that couldn’t be more than a mile from end to end,

  I feel a collapse of distinctions

  between the real and the unreal,

  between what has already

  taken place, and what is happening right now,

  as if time had been doubled over into itself,

  like a sheet of folded steel.

  Cottage country becomes backcountry,

  as houses along the shoreline

  blink out and disappear.

  I know better than to make myself at home

  in a house that isn’t mine.

  Soon, I’ll leave the keys

  on the counter, turn the lock

  on the inside, step out, and close the door—

  and from that point forward

  there won’t be any of this, anymore.

  Maybe because I’m left-handed

  I made my way through your collected poems

  back to front,

  so I ended with the love songs of a young man—

  poems for women

  you seduced, or thought you might seduce—

  and I began

  with your regrets, the many places you visited,

  and your elegies for friends

  who during my backward progress

  came to life one by one.

  Grace Vermeer

  Transient

  I was searching for Al Purdy on Dundas in London,

  Attic Books, second floor, poetry section

  when the phone rang. It was Al, calling to say

  he was riding the boxcars out of Winnipeg,

  headed west toward Regina with a drifter.

  This guy wants a handout, but there isn’t

  a sandwich in two hundred miles—just a minute,

  he wants a smoke.

  I stood there and listened, he rustled around

  in his pockets, found a cigarette, then a match.

  That’s the thing about Al, you can stand there

  on the rumbling roadbed while he draws a map,

  you think you’re holding summer in your mouth,

  then you notice—

  no arrivals, no departures,

  it’s just you, standing there, getting old,

  and then older.

  Rodney DeCroo

  Al and Eurithe

  sitting in the vancouver press club

  with al purdy and his wife eurithe

  feeling uncomfortable

  not sure what to say to the man

  whose every poem i’ve read and admired

  whose voice sounding the depths in my head

  has become more familiar

  than those of my friends

  right up there with my wife’s voice

  but there are places in me

  his poems have touched

  marked keep out even to her

  so what do you say to a man

  whose words have opened

  rooms in your head

  you didn’t know existed

  what do you say

  not much

  because there are no words for it

  except maybe

  fireflies sparkling in the brain

  or

  fox fox fox

  which i can’t say because

  he’s already said it

  so i shut up

  grateful he’s more than willing

  to direct the conversation

  yet i sit there feeling like

  a six year old nodding and agreeing

  with everything he says forgetting

  i ever had a thought of my own

  jumping up to get peanuts from the bar

  when eurithe says she’s hungry

  wishing i could stop myself

  feeling like polonius must have felt

  a stuttering sycophant

  fawning and scraping

  at the skirts of royalty

  but they aren’t exactly royalty

  more like an old odd couple

  trying to make an extra buck

  at the local flea market

  hawking al’s books spread across

  the table the prices written out

  in black marker on a piece of cardboard

  al arguing with eurithe about a pen

  he’s lost eurithe says never existed

  cutting him off saying al it’s not worth it

  in a tone my grandmother uses to warn my

  grandfather the discussion has come to an end

  i go to light up a smoke

  and al says eurithe is allergic

  to cigarette smoke cats and him

  eurithe smiling thinly through pressed lips

  al’s getting impatient

  complaining loudly because he wants to read

  so he can get back to the sandman inn

  to watch the news and get some rest

  he stands up a bit shakily

  to go corner the organizer who’s running

  around trying to organize

  not doing a very good job of it

  leaving me to make small talk with eurithe

  who is pleasant enough but she knows this is al’s night

  that’s why i’m here

  so when i botch her name introducing her to friends

  she says bluntly i’m mrs. purdy

  sparing me any further discomfort

  for which i’m grateful

  al’s back

  all six foot something of him

  peanut shells and spittle

  at the corners of his mouth

  i want to wipe it off thinking

  good god man

  you’re a literary giant

  which he is but that doesn’t spare you

  the traits of other mere mortals

  the reading starts

  three local poets on stage

  ten minutes into their reading

  al lurches up nearly knocking

  over the table shouting

  how goddamn long do i have to wait

  then marches out the front door

  with the organizer following

  tailed by eurithe to negotiate

  you can hear al

  bellowing outside on granville street
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  while everyone pretends not to hear

  the poets continuing to read

  tension filling the room

  like when a parent behaves badly

  at the dinner table

  the kids afraid to say anything

  door bangs open as they come back in

  al sitting down his arms crossed glaring

  as if defying me to say anything

  i stare back not wanting to look a coward

  when eurithe says jokingly

  al think sweet thoughts

  or you’ll have a bad reading

  it’s al’s turn

  he’s up there working his magic

  the audience is laughing

  this curious old man

  who’s so much himself

  he fills the whole room

  i’m listening to the poems

  getting lost in that twilight space

  where time stands still or suddenly speeds up

  momentarily glimpsing the hairs of my soul

  in the flux of another man’s words

  my defects forgiven

  in that straining to be human

  a gift he’s given me so many times.

  i’ll never get his voice out of my head

  when i glance over at eurithe and

  she’s nodded off to sleep

  the reading’s over

  a crowd hovering around the table

  congratulating al on being al purdy

  while buying his books i excuse

  myself to go sit with some friends

  saying a quick goodbye promising

  to return al’s letter at which he smiles

  then al and eurithe leave slip out early

  al counting in his head

  the take for the night

  eurithe just wanting to get some sleep

  exhaustion all over her face

  suddenly i’m ashamed of putting al up

  on the mantelpiece of my icons

  making him less than human

  wondering if i’ve ever really read his poems

  i want to run out to the street

  shout wait have a good trip

  hoping al sold enough books

  and eurithe will have a good sleep

  before the long trip back to the island—

  so thanks al

  for the poems

  for being so much yourself

  you had to write it all down

  helping us to see ourselves

  inhabiting eternity and the shining mountains

  in this too brief allotment of time

  where only the saying of things is possible

  and goddamn it

 

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