by John Boyne
Closing the door behind him, he turned around with his eyes closed in relief and exhaled.
When he opened them again, he saw that he was in a bedroom. A man was lying in bed next to an open window, sitting up, his pajama top unbuttoned halfway down his chest. He had thin gray hair, although his face did not look so very old. He was staring at Alfie with a terrified expression on his face, his mouth hanging open, his hands pressed to his ears to block out the noise of the whistling kettle, whose scream penetrated even here. Alfie looked at him, aghast, not knowing what to say, and only when the whistling stopped a few moments later did the man take his hands away slowly, very slowly, and let them rest on top of his blanket. He stared down at them then, his mouth still open, before turning to look at Alfie. He was trembling slightly.
In a bed opposite him, a second man was reading a novel. When he got to the end of every page, he ripped it out, crumpled it up, and threw it on the floor. There were dozens of pages down there already. Alfie narrowed his eyes to make out the words on the front cover. Madame Bovary.
“Where’s my mum?” asked the first man, and Alfie turned back and opened his mouth, uncertain what to say. “Is she outside?” he asked finally. “She said she’d come this morning.”
“I don’t think so,” said Alfie. “I haven’t seen any visitors out there.”
“Here, you,” said the second man, waving an arm in the air as if he were a child in a classroom. He held the book up. “She has a fancy man, you see.”
“Make it stop, please,” said the first man, bending forward and closing his eyes.
“Make what stop?”
“Her husband doesn’t know about him,” laughed the second man. “She’s French, though. And you know what they’re like. They’d hop on anything.”
The first man made a sudden lunge forward in the bed, and Alfie jumped in fright, pulling open the door and running quickly back out into the corridor, where he turned a corner and found himself in a ward where ten beds were lined up, five on either side, each one occupied. The moaning sound had been coming from here; each man seemed to be in terrible pain. Some had bandages all over their heads, some had tubes emerging from their bodies with dark-red blood either being put in or taken out of them. He felt his stomach twist in fright and looked at the man in the bed next to him, who had no sheets over his body and was simply lying on top of his mattress, making very slight movements as if he could not bear to be lying down much longer. Alfie stared at him: something wasn’t right, but it took him a moment to realize what. The man had no left arm, just a stump that ended above the elbow, and his right leg had been amputated at the knee. Both wounds were exposed and a trolley holding clean dressings stood next to the bed; someone must have been attending to him and got called away. Whoever had answered the kettle’s whistle, perhaps? Alfie tried not to stare at the angry, pulpy places where the limbs came to an unnatural end, but it was difficult not to. He could see chaotic stitching, and the skin had been folded in upon itself at the center, leaving a wrinkled knot with something resembling a black nail at the center. Yellowing bandages surrounded his skull and an eye patch covered one of his eyes. Alfie looked at him in horror, and the man turned slowly, his one eye blinking as his hand reached out and took hold of Alfie’s. The boy gasped, tried to pull away, but the man, despite his injuries, was too strong for him, dragging him closer, hissing something under his breath. Alfie reached a hand out to push himself away from the mattress, but it landed on something soft and moving—a bottle filled with some dark-yellow fluid that fell over as Alfie’s hand touched it, spilling its contents on the floor by his feet—and as he pulled away from the man, he slipped in the liquid and fell to the floor, realizing that he had landed in a puddle of the man’s piss, and it was all he could do not to scream out loud as he scrambled to his feet and ran from the room.
His father couldn’t be here; it wasn’t possible. No one could be in a place like this and not go mad.
Out in the corridor again, he gasped for air, wondering whether he was going to be sick as he held his wet hands in front of his face before wiping them on his trousers. There was blood there too, he realized—blood from the man’s urine. Alfie turned around, desperate to get away from these horrors, and started to walk down another corridor, confused now, disoriented, wondering why he had ever thought it was a good idea to come here at all. His legs felt weak beneath him, the way they did when he had that dream where he couldn’t run at all and his feet were like ten-ton weights.
He hoped he might find a door that would take him back outside, but instead the corridor led to a nurses’ station and, beyond that, another set of glass doors. He desperately wanted to go through them, but there were two people standing by the station—a young doctor and a nurse—talking in concerned voices. If he went that way they would certainly see him. He crouched low in front of the desk, happy now that he was not tall enough to see over the ticket counter at King’s Cross, for this desk was about the same height.
“Which ones?” asked the doctor, who spoke in a very posh voice. “B wing or C wing?”
“C wing, Doctor,” said the nurse in an Irish accent, and Alfie wondered whether she was the person who had brought the tea towel with the map on it. “Dr. Edgerton says that all four of them are to get their final assessments this week.”
“But what’s the hurry? They have another month of recovery ahead of them at least.”
“They’re wanted back,” she said, and although Alfie couldn’t see her, he knew that she was shrugging her shoulders. “It’s ridiculous, of course, but I don’t see what I can do.”
“I can do something,” he insisted, his voice growing angrier.
“Then do, Arthur,” she said. “Those men won’t survive another month over there. It’s criminal to send them back. My God, if the War Office has no thought for their well-being, let them at least consider the other soldiers whose lives will be put in danger by their presence.”
“You’re preaching to the converted,” said the doctor irritably. “Look, leave it with me, all right? I’ll do what I can. If I have to kick up a fuss, I will. Now, what about those fellows up on the third floor? What can we do with—”
And this was the moment when Alfie, without any warning, sneezed. He froze, grimacing, hoping against hope that they hadn’t heard him, but of course that was impossible. A moment later the doctor and nurse had come around to the front of the desk and were staring down at him.
“What on earth…?” asked the nurse.
“Who are you?” snapped the doctor, who looked furious to encounter a nine-year-old boy sitting on the floor.
“I got lost,” said Alfie.
“Lost? Lost how? What are you doing here anyway? Speak up, boy!”
Alfie said the first thing that came into his head. “My father’s the milkman,” he told them (which wasn’t entirely a lie). “I’ve been helping him with his rounds” (which was).
The pair stared at him, then at each other, then back at him.
“The supplies are delivered around the back of the hospital,” said the doctor, turning away. “As you should know by now. Go back out that way.” He indicated a side door that led to the grounds. “And don’t come back in here again, do you hear me? There are sick men in this hospital. They don’t need a child running around, spreading who knows what diseases. By God, you stink as well. You smell as if you’ve wet yourself. Don’t you ever bathe? Get out, for pity’s sake!”
Alfie turned on his heel and ran through the door, his heart beating wildly. His cap fell off and he ran back to retrieve it, and for a moment he thought that the nurse was looking at him as if she knew he was lying, but he didn’t dare say anything and so turned again and ran back outside.
* * *
It was a bright day, surprisingly warm for early November, and Alfie pulled his cap down low over his eyes to keep the sun out. His hands still stank of piss and he longed to wash them, so when he noticed a fountain in the center of the lawn, he ran to
ward it and thrust his hands in the stagnant water, telling himself that however bad they smelled when they came out, it couldn’t be any worse than they smelled now. Shaking them dry in the air, he considered the long gravel pathway that ran along the side of the hospital and decided to see where it led.
Arriving at a clump of trees, he stared around the grounds and sighed in frustration. If he turned to his left, he would be heading back toward the drive and the front gates, the train station and London, and his secret mission would end in failure. To his right was the hospital itself, filled with its terrible patients, and nothing in the world could have persuaded him to go back inside. He felt sorry for these wounded soldiers, but they didn’t seem human to him somehow; and he wondered why the doctors were not doing more to help them. There hadn’t even been a nurse in the ward, or a doctor to help the poor man who had been horrified by the whistle of the kettle. Didn’t anyone take care of them? Wasn’t it somebody’s job to look after them? Was this what it was like in Margie’s hospital? He couldn’t imagine that his mother would leave patients to suffer as badly as these unfortunate men. If his father really was here, then he would never leave him in such misery.
He wanted to be brave and keep searching, but he began to feel a sense of panic at being so far from home. He’d never ventured outside a few square miles of London before, and now he’d taken a train to another county more than two hours away. And the truth was, he felt terrified. He hated this hospital. He hated the building, the horrible smell, the terrible people, the awful groaning. He hated all of it, and just wanted to go home. For some reason, Joe Patience’s missing tooth and purple, green, and yellow eye came into his mind, and he wondered why he hadn’t cared about what had happened to his father’s oldest friend; why he hadn’t asked whether he was all right. Georgie would have stopped; Alfie had just kept on walking.
He turned around and was about to make his way back in the direction he had come from when he caught sight of an opening in the bushes to his left a couple of hundred yards away. The hedges were all as neatly trimmed as the grass, but there was a gap there the width of a doorway that led to another garden beyond, and something—a spirit of exploration, perhaps—made him want to know what it looked like in there.
The gap led to a corridor of hedges that twisted and turned like a maze. He walked along one, then back up the next, before heading down a third. Only when he reached the end did the hedges part completely, leading to a wonderful flower garden, laid out in formal blocks with paths separating the beds and a small pond at the end. And to his surprise and dismay there was another group of men out here—half a dozen of them, seated in large wheelchairs at some distance from each other, each one wearing a dressing gown and holding a heavy tartan blanket across his knees. One man was quite close to Alfie and the boy looked at him nervously; the farthest was some distance away, his back to him and a sun hat pulled down over his bowed head.
Alfie slipped back in among the hedges as a nurse walked between the men, saying a few words to each one before continuing on her way. She disappeared through another opening in the hedges farther along, and Alfie stepped out again. A small table stood in the corner; on it were some books, a couple of newspapers, a few apples, and a pitcher of water. He walked over and had a look. The front pages had been taken away from the papers so all that was left was some fairly insignificant news about problems with the miners and details of a new education bill that was going through Parliament. There was a picture of King George and Queen Mary at an exhibition, and another of the Prince of Wales giving a speech to a group of nurses. Alfie couldn’t help himself. He was thirsty. He took a clean glass, poured himself some water, and swallowed it down in one gulp, giving a satisfied “Aaaah!” when he was finished.
He turned and looked at the young man seated closest to him, who was watching him carefully. He had greasy black hair, which fell low over his forehead, and a stubbly beard. There was something about his face that made Alfie think that this was what Old Bill Hemperton might have looked like when he was Young Bill Hemperton.
“Wh-wh-wh-who are you?” the man asked, stuttering over the words, looking down at the ground as he said them.
“No one,” said Alfie.
“You must be s-s-s-someone,” he said.
Alfie thought about repeating the line about being the milkman’s son, but something made him not want to lie to this man, even though it wasn’t really a lie, only sort of a lie. “I’m just…,” he began. “I’m just looking for a patient, that’s all.”
The man nodded and beckoned him over. Alfie wasn’t sure. The man put his hand out and waved the fingers casually. “Come closer,” he said. This time Alfie stepped over carefully. “Closer,” repeated the man. Alfie came closer, and again the man said it, in a sort of singsong voice this time. “Closer!” By now Alfie’s face was almost beside the young man’s, and he twisted suddenly in his chair, grabbing the boy’s chin in his hand. “I won’t go, do you hear me?” he hissed, his voice low, spit flying from his lips and landing on Alfie’s face. “I won’t go. You can’t make me. Take one of the others. You can’t make me, do you hear?”
Alfie pulled away, gasping, and spun around, looking for the exit, but the hedges all seemed to have grown closer together now and the sun was shining down with such ferocity that he couldn’t see what he was doing. He turned around and began to feel dizzy, picking a direction and running. He had to get out. He had to get home. He couldn’t stay in this awful place any longer. He ran one way, certain that it would bring him back to where he had started—but no, it took him only to the end of the garden, to the man in the last seat with his head bowed low and the sun hat on. Alfie ran past him, looked ahead; there was no way out. He turned back, and this time he saw the exit in the distance and breathed a sigh of relief, glancing at the man in the wheelchair for only a moment as he passed him, but it was long enough for the shock of recognition to hit him, and he turned back and stared.
The man looked up, and Alfie gasped.
“Dad!” he said.
Georgie Summerfield was sitting in the wheelchair, biting his nails as he looked at his son, his eyes narrowing slightly as if he was uncertain of who he was, before shaking his head and looking down, staring at his slippers. He was thinner than Alfie remembered. His cheekbones were more pronounced, his eyes seemed enormous, and his lips were very white, with little flakes of dryness crusted upon them.
“Dad, it’s me,” he cried, rushing forward. “It’s Alfie!”
Georgie didn’t seem to know him and kept staring at his slippers while shaking his head. He started to mumble, but Alfie couldn’t hear the words. He leaned close, but none of it made any sense to him.
“… in the last one of course, where they kept the tin pots, who was it, it was Humberside, he was always the best of them, no, maybe not, there was Petey too, they got him in the end, he went down with a ship, that’s what I heard, while the rest of us were there doing God knows what. Stay where you are and then leave, that’s what they told us, over and over—what sense does that make anyway? There was a—what was it? A grapefruit? No, of course not, there weren’t any grapefruits there, I’m mistaken—”
“Dad!” cried Alfie, putting his hands on his father’s shoulders, which had lost some of the muscle that had been there before. Georgie used to have such strong shoulders from lifting the milk churns. “Dad, don’t you know me? It’s me, Alfie!”
Georgie glanced up again but showed no sign of recognition. He smiled and looked back down, seemed as if he was about to start talking again but thought better of it and said nothing at all, sitting there immobile, saying nothing, doing nothing, looking at nothing.
“Dad, please,” whispered Alfie. “I’ve come all this way to find you. To save you!”
But Georgie simply sighed. It was as if he couldn’t hear him. Alfie stood up and looked around in despair. He studied the other men, but none of them could help him. He’d found his father; he’d come all this way and he’d fo
und him. He wasn’t on a secret mission for the government—that had been a lie. And everyone knew it except him. But what did it matter? Georgie didn’t even recognize him anymore. He didn’t know his own son.
“Dad,” he pleaded.
No response.
“Dad!”
He could feel tears forming in his eyes but was determined not to cry. Instead, he stayed rooted to the spot, watching the men rocking back and forth, some of them mumbling to themselves, others not, and then noticed the table with the papers and the water on it once again and had an idea. He ran over, picked up one of the newspapers, folded it in half, and reached into his pocket. Walking back across the garden, he stood in front of his father with the folded newspaper before him, and Georgie looked at the boy, staring at the newspaper and then back up at his son with a curious expression on his face.
“Look what I’ve got for you,” said Alfie, opening the paper and showing him the apple drop, the single apple drop that Marian Bancroft had given him in the railway carriage that he’d put in his pocket for later.
Georgie stared at it, his eyes focusing on this little sphere of green, yellow, and red, before the signs of recognition appeared slowly on his face. He swallowed and looked up at his son.
“Alfie,” he said.
CHAPTER 9
OH! IT’S A LOVELY WAR!
Alfie rolled his eyes in frustration as he waited for the speech to end. So many people had been crowded together at King’s Cross over the last hour that it had become almost impossible to shine any shoes. He was barely even able to keep his usual position between the platforms, the ticket counter, and the tea shop with all the pushing and shoving that was going on around him. The crowds were listening to a man standing on a tea chest insisting that the war would be coming to an end soon, that no one should give up hope, and that it would all be over by Christmas. Most of his audience cheered him on; a few shouted abuse, but they in turn were shouted down by the people standing around them.