In that moment of weakness, I thought Jelca would save me.
Jelca’s Partner
“Where is Jelca now?” I asked as calmly as I could.
“He went away with her,” Oar replied. She made the word “her” sound like excrement.
“Her?” I repeated.
“The ugly woman who blinks.”
“Ullis? Ullis Naar?” My old roommate with the permanent twitch in her eyes.
“Yes, Explorer Ullis Naar. She blinks and blinks until you scream at her to stop. She is so stupid!”
I said nothing. Ullis was not stupid; she had a good brain and a better heart. In our years rooming together at the Academy, I had never heard Ullis say an unkind word about anyone. Sometimes…sometimes we avoided her, when the stress of our studies exhausted us so much, we didn’t have the strength to put up with her blinking; but she never made us feel guilty afterward. If she had become Jelca’s partner after graduation, he was lucky.
So was she.
I tried not to think of her alone with Jelca on this planet. It gave me a hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach.
Away
I asked, “Where did they go, Oar?”
“Away.” She pointed in the direction of the bluffs—south. “They said they had to join with other fucking Explorers, but that was just an excuse. Jelca left because he wanted to go.”
Other Explorers…Jelca must have contacted some of the others marooned here. He could have cobbled together a radio, possibly by cannibalizing his Bumbler—he came from a Fringe World where children learned electronics from the age of three—and he’d managed to contact other Explorers on the planet.
“Oar,” I said, “you have to believe Jelca wasn’t making up excuses. If he found out about other Explorers, he’d have to….”
I didn’t finish my sentence. Oar’s fierce expression told me she wouldn’t believe a word in Jelca’s defense. “Okay,” I conceded. “Okay.” There was no point in angering her. She sniffed a bit, then went for another handful of pebbles.
Visible Light
In time, Chee’s pockets bulged with rocks. The interior of his suit was less full, but it would do—when I gave his body an experimental shove, I could barely move him. No amount of ballast would weigh him down forever, but we’d done enough to keep him submerged for a good long time, provided we started him out deep enough.
Getting him away from shore was the trick. I could drag the body as far as I could wade, but it was too heavy to swim with—smart Explorers don’t dogpaddle while carrying an anchor. Oar had shown she couldn’t swim at all, and the wrinkled curls of driftwood on the beach were too small for building a raft. For a moment, I considered giving up on the burial at sea and just digging a grave in the sand; but then I thought about Chee’s last desperate attempt at speaking. “Suh…suh…” Although I had no confidence he really wanted to be committed to the water, I wanted to do something that felt like granting his final request.
“Oar,” I said, “do you have any ideas how to take my friend out into the lake?”
She answered immediately, “We will carry him on my boat.”
“You have a boat?”
“It will come when I call. Stay here.”
She walked away down the beach, giving me the chance for something I’d been longing to do since she appeared. Casually activating the Bumbler, I aimed the scanner at her smoothly sculpted back and did a quick run through the EM band.
In the visible spectrum, she was transparent; but at every other wavelength, she gauged very close to Homo sapiens. IR readings showed her body temperature was less than a degree warmer than mine—or what mine would have been if I weren’t shivering on an open beach in a wet cotton chemise. On UV, she looked just as opaque as I did; and on X-ray, she actually showed a skeleton and the ghosts of internal organs. To my untrained eye, the images of bone and tissue looked entirely human…except that none of it showed up with visible light.
An invisible heart, beating in her chest.
Invisible lungs, processing air.
Invisible brain, glands, liver, gall bladder…all wrapped up in a glassy epidermis that let light through unimpeded.
Could she possibly be a machine? Unlikely. Machines tend to have IR hot spots: power packs, transformers, things like that. Oar’s body temperature was more evenly distributed—like mine, to be honest, with head and thorax warmer than the extremities but none of the sharp gradients you see in androids. Organisms also emit waves in the radio band with a completely different pattern from machines; nervous systems transmit their signals in ways wires can’t imitate…not even biosynthetic wires made from organic molecules.
No—Oar was not built on an assembly line. That still didn’t make her “natural”…most likely, she was the result of DNA tinkering. She or her ancestors had been purposely altered. More important, she’d been altered for the benefit of eyes like mine. No other species in the League of Peoples perceived exactly the same set of wavelengths as humans. If other sentient beings looked at Oar, they’d see her IR glow, or perhaps a full X-ray layout. They certainly wouldn’t see the perfect transparence that greeted my human eyes.
The only plausible explanation was that humans had lived on Melaquin, either now or in the past. The planet had worms, killdeer, and monarch butterflies; why not Homo sapiens too? And for some reason, those humans had fabricated this new transparent race…transparent to human eyes, if not to the eyes of extraterrestrial species.
Of course, I had no idea why they’d do such a thing. Why make yourself hard for your fellow creatures to see? Were they trying to hide from each other? But Oar still showed up on IR, UV, and other wavelengths. She couldn’t conceal herself from high-tech sensors…and surely her culture had such gadgets. They were sophisticated enough to engineer themselves into glass; they must understand basics like the EM spectrum.
Maybe turning to glass was simply a fashion statement. Or a religious practice—implementing some teaching that glassiness was next to godliness. No, I told myself, that was too easy: too many sociologists threw up their hands and said, “It’s just religion,” when they found a custom they didn’t understand at first sight. An Explorer doesn’t have the luxury to dismiss anything.
I had to be scrupulously honest: I didn’t understand why people would make themselves glass…and perhaps this whole train of thought was merely jumping to conclusions. Melaquin showed no roads, no cities, no signs of technology—scarcely consistent with a culture that could engineer people into near-invisibility.
Unless…
…at the same time they made a race so hard to see, they also removed all signs of their presence on the planet.
Unless these see-through bodies and the dearth of development were all attempts to hide that this planet was inhabited. Even if they showed up on IR, glass bodies were still harder to see than normal flesh and blood.
And if that was true, what were they hiding from?
I shivered; and this time it had nothing to do with air temperature or damp clothes.
Radio, Boat
Oar walked twenty paces, then crouched beside a shadowed tangle of thornbush washed up on the sand. She glanced back and gestured that I should turn my head away. I complied, but tucked the Bumbler’s scanner behind me so I could watch while my back was turned.
A few moments passed while she checked I wasn’t looking. Then she stretched her arm into the tangle, methodically pushing away one branch after another as she moved her hand inside. I played with the Bumbler’s dials, trying to see what Oar was reaching for; and suddenly, the image glowed with a flare of bright violet.
Hmmm.
On the Bumbler’s current setting, violet corresponded to radio waves. Somewhere in the bushes, a concealed radio transmitter had sent out a signal.
Oar stood and began walking back to me. I clicked off the Bumbler’s display and pondered how long I should pretend to be unaware of her approach. Before I was forced to decide, I was saved by the lapping of waves
offshore— the glass coffin had reappeared, and was slipping in toward the beach. I watched it a moment, then turned to Oar. “Your boat?”
“Yes. It comes when it is wanted.” Her voice had a self-satisfied tone, as if I should be impressed by the boat’s “magical” response to her whim. The magic was surely the radio signal she’d just sent…but perhaps Oar didn’t know that herself.
“It must be good to have a boat like that,” I said. “Where did you get it?”
“I have always had it,” she replied, as if my question was nonsense. “Would you like to ride in it with me?”
“Both of us?” The boat’s size was generous for a coffin, but getting two people inside would be a squeeze. “It’s a bit small,” I said.
“Two can fit,” she started to say…then she stopped, suddenly stiff and distant. “You are right, Festina,” she said in a voice that was meant to sound casual. “The boat is very small.”
Ouch, I thought; and I imagined Jelca and Oar enclosed there together, arms and legs entwined, sailing impassioned through the lake’s silent dark.
Half of me was sick with jealousy. The other half pictured myself in the same position with Jelca; and that half was not sick at all.
The Last of Chee
Oar began to tell me her plan, and in a moment, I collected myself enough to listen. She would board the boat and I would drape Chee’s body over it. At Oar’s command, the boat would sail slowly out into the lake. When they were far enough out, she would tell the boat to submerge and let the admiral slump off into the water. I had a hunch the boat’s glass was so slippery, Chee might slide off sooner than expected. Still, if they only got a stone’s throw from shore, it would be better than I could do wading; so I nodded and complimented Oar on the cleverness of her plan.
She smiled like a queen acknowledging the adoration of her subjects.
After Oar got into the coffin, I was left alone to heave Chee onto the lid. The rocks made him damnably heavy…and he was beginning to stiffen as well. Getting him into position took all my strength, plus leverage from sticks of driftwood; but at last I spreadeagled him face down on the glass, his arms dangling on either side of the coffin and his toes hooked over the forward edge. I wanted to send him out feetfirst, hoping he would stay in place longer—headfirst, there would be nothing to stop him from sliding backward, and the open collar of his suit would catch spray as the boat glided forward.
Oar could never be described as a patient woman. I had scarcely arranged Chee’s limbs when the boat pulled away, backing into the lake. This was the first close view I’d had of the coffin while it was moving; I saw nothing that looked like a propulsion system, nothing that told me how it pushed itself through the water. Whatever engines it had were completely silent. With no exhaust, no bubbling of hidden propellers, the boat quietly withdrew and glided off along the surface.
Soon I could see nothing but Chee’s tightsuit glistening in the moonlight. He lay quite still, his head toward me as he moved away. His thin white hair was slick with lightly splashed water; and I thought of Oar inside the boat, looking up through the glass at Chee’s lifeless face. He was just a stranger to her…. And yet, his death seemed to mean something profound to her.
The moon went behind a cloud and I lost sight of the body. Was that it? Was Chee gone forever? But the cloud passed and the moonlight sparkled again on white fabric far out on the water.
I raised my hand in the only heartfelt salute I ever gave an admiral, and held it there till he was out of sight.
Part IX
ADAPTATION
Seamstress
I don’t know how long I stood there; but I came to myself with a sudden shake, realizing I had been slipping into a daze that could not be healthy. Hypothermia is sly—it creeps in so gradually, you may never realize you’re dying. “And wouldn’t the other Explorers laugh?” I said. “Festina Ramos getting Lost so tamely.”
Then I added, “Wouldn’t my face be red?”
Getting giddy—definitely time for a campfire.
Tinder was easy to come by: brush from the bluffs, dead and dry as straw with winter coming on. Much of the driftwood was dry, too; I chose sticks from high up the beach, on the theory they’d arrived with the lake’s spring peak and had baked in the sun ever since. The hardest thing to find was my jar of matches. They’d been in a pouch of my tightsuit…and since the suit lay in hankie-sized pieces all over the sand, it took time to track down the right hunk.
Five minutes later, I had a fire: warmth, light, salvation. I cuddled up to it till I’d steamed off my immediate chill, then began to make short forays out to retrieve more scraps of my tightsuit.
I had accumulated a pile of fabric beside the fire when I found the pouch I was looking for, impaled on the thorns of a bush whose species I didn’t recognize. A brief struggle pulled the pouch loose, and I opened it immediately. I counted six plastic vials inside, all still intact. “Thank you,” I said to the sky.
The Admiralty loved toys—people in positions of undeserved power always do. And since the Admiralty loved toys, the High Council allocated generous funds to the development of Explorer equipment. Not that the council gave a damn about Explorers themselves; but the demands of Exploration raised fertile engineering challenges that the research department found irresistible. As a result, ECMs were truly equipped to handle almost anything…like trying to put Humpty Dumpty back together again after an emergency evac blew him to bits.
Three vials in the pouch contained solvents. The other three contained fixative.
With work, I could glue the tightsuit patches into a usable garment—not as strong as the original, but better than spending the rest of my life in my underwear. Creative tailoring might even give this new suit advantages over the old; I could, for example, remodel the pants to make walking easier. Blimp-shaped thighs might be best for maintaining positive pressure against incoming germs, but now that I’d been exposed to Melaquin’s air…
I didn’t want to think about that. Concentrate on being a seamstress.
First, the top—that was easy. The breastplate and back had come off as single pieces, simple to fit back together. With the torso reassembled, attaching the arms was no worse than gluing together strips of banana peel. The result was as bulky as a stiff cable-knit sweater, and had the same degree of blessed warmth. There were too many seams now to match the original suit’s insulation to forty degrees below zero; but that didn’t stop me from diving into the garment as soon as it was done, or shuddering with bliss as my gooseflesh started to recede.
The bottom part was more difficult. The basic delta of the crotch hadn’t been damaged, but the individual pouches of the belt had blown away separately. Putting them back together used up most of my chemicals, because I wanted an arrangement that would fit my real waist, not the bulbous girth of the original suit. After much trial and error, I jury-rigged a two-tiered pattern that worked well enough; but that left me low on solvent and fixative, too low for constructing pantlegs. The path of least resistance was to glue my remaining scraps to the foundation of the crotch, building a skirt from a spiral patchwork of cloth until I exhausted my supply of adhesive. The result came just to my knee— higher than I liked with winter coming on, but I had flared the skirt wide to give my legs freedom of movement. Cold knees were one thing; not being able to deliver a good side kick was something else.
I had fabric left over when I ran out of glue, plus a lot of spare gadgetry—air tanks, pressure pump, life-sign monitors, etc. They could stay on the sand where they were; I doubted I’d need them again. Carting them around the countryside would just waste energy…unless, of course, Jelca could strip them down and use the parts for something.
Jelca. Jelca was here on Melaquin.
I might have thought about that for a long time if Oar’s boat hadn’t appeared again.
The Scalpel
Chee’s body was no longer sprawled on the boat…and when the glass lid opened, Oar was gone too. The boat stood e
mpty on the sand like a plundered sarcophagus. I could almost feel it waiting: waiting for me to get in so it could carry me away. It must have come back to take me to Oar’s home—an underwater habitat like the ones on Attulpac, or perhaps something subterranean…a hidden place, undetectable from orbit.
Did I want to board a glass coffin and ride off into dark water?
Yarrun was dead. The admiral was dead. For a moment, I couldn’t think of a reason to move forward or back. Then reflex took over and I found myself packing things into the boat.
Always do the next necessary thing.
The Bumbler had to go, of course…and Chee’s backpack, which I’d removed before sending him off forever. I’d also have to retrieve my own pack, still lying amidst the daisies on top of the bluffs. Oar would be impatient for me to join her, but I refused to abandon things I might need later.
Climbing the bluffs was easier than I expected—Chee’s body had flattened a trail on its way down. The gloves of my tightsuit were still intact, so I could catch hold of weeds and pull myself up, without worrying about thorns and burrs. Apart from a run-in with stinging nettles on my bare right calf, I reached the meadow unscathed.
Everything was where I had dropped it: my pack, my stunner, Yarrun’s helmet…and the scalpel, black now with Yarrun’s dried blood. I didn’t want to touch it. I wanted to leave it there forever, rusting in the rain.
But it was probably made of rustproof metal.
And it would be cruel to leave something so sharp where animals could injure themselves.
And a true Explorer doesn’t abandon a useful tool just because she’s squeamish.
Carefully, I wiped the blade on the grass.
Carefully, I put the scalpel away in the first aid kit.
Then I threw the kit into my backpack and fairly ran back down the bluffs.
Thunks
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