Nou returned to the balcony. Didi and Jayne were arguing now, their voices growing louder as they fought to interrupt each other. It baffled Nou the way farangs appeared to enjoy conflict when Thai people worked so hard to avoid it.
He busied himself with clearing away the empty plates and glasses, keeping an ear out for Jet’s motorbike.
‘Oh, Nou, you don’t need to do that.’ Jayne followed him into the kitchen and opened the fridge door. ‘What will you have to drink?’
‘Never mind,’ he said. ‘I’m going out.’
He saw her smile as she leaned down to get the tonic water.
‘Why don’t you and Didi get married?’
‘What?’ Jayne blushed.
‘You’re both getting older,’ Nou said. ‘You should think about having children.’
To his satisfaction, he seemed to have left her speechless. But he didn’t have time to savour it. Hearing a motorbike, he hurried out to the balcony. Didier was sitting on a cushion, leafing through a book.
‘Nong pai tieow,’ Nou said casually, smoothing back his hair.
Didier looked up. ‘Going out where?’
‘With friends, to talk, you know, like you and Jayne.’ He nodded towards the kitchen.
‘Do you want to take the motorbike? It’s OK if you do, I mean, if you’re not planning to drink and—’
‘No.’ He waved towards the front entrance. ‘Jet’s here to pick me up. I won’t be late. But don’t wait up.’ Nou slipped on a pair of loafers and, calling out ‘chowk dee’ over his shoulder, jumped down the stairs two at a time. He skipped to the gate and climbed up behind Jet.
‘All set?’
‘For sure,’ Jet said.
‘This is gonna be our lucky night.’ Nou grinned. ‘Ja pai rew rew!’
But Jet had revved the accelerator and Nou’s words were lost.
Watching Nou sprint down the front steps made Didier feel older than his thirty-seven years. Old and foolish. Nou often withdrew when his farang friends were around, but he thought things were different with Jayne. Didier had hoped the three of them might spend a relaxing evening together.
He knew his life would be a lot easier if he found a partner within Chiang Mai’s community of expatriate gay men, but he hadn’t met any who appealed. It wasn’t merely a question of aesthetics. It was as if the very factors that complicated his relationships with Thai men—the differences in culture and class—were part of the attraction.
Didier had met Nou in one of the bars where he did his outreach work. Nou had sauntered over to his table with an offer to suck his cock for 1000 baht, ‘fixed price’.
‘It’s good to hear you charge such high rates for your services, younger brother,’ Didier had replied in his most polite Thai. ‘That’s the mark of a healthy self-esteem. But I’m not in the market for a blow-job. Ask the other boys about me.’
When Didier returned to the bar three nights later, Nou approached him again, this time with less attitude but with no sign of embarrassment from their previous encounter.
‘Sawadee krup, Khun Di,’ he said, taking an adjacent seat. ‘So you think I have a healthy self-esteem?’
‘Well, the boys here usually ask only 500 baht to samoke,’ he used the Thai slang, ‘and most of them will let themselves be bartered down.’
‘That’s because they have no ambition,’ Nou grinned.
‘And what’s your ambition?’
‘I want to settle down with a nice farang who’ll take care of me.’
Didier had smiled with genuine delight.
Because Nou was up front with him, Didier believed he’d be spared the tortuous second-guessing that characterised his other relationships with Thai men. But despite three years together, Nou’s behaviour this very evening suggested Didier still needed to expect less.
Jayne reappeared on the balcony with fresh gin and tonics and a bowl of peanuts, looking slightly flustered. Didier smiled. Here was one relationship that never disappointed him. Even if the rest of his life was going to the dogs, he could rely on Jayne to make him feel better. When she phoned to invite herself to Chiang Mai, Didier took it as a sign: he’d been meaning to bring her in on a situation he’d uncovered through his work and it seemed like perfect timing. But now that she was here, with Nou gone, all he wanted to do was to forget about his problems, have a few drinks and get on with arguing about books.
They raised their glasses in a toast and both drank deeply.
‘So,’ Didier said, ‘The Big Sleep.’
‘I really liked it.’ She leaned against a triangular pillow and picked up the novel.
‘You sound surprised.’
‘I am,’ she said. ‘This is the third Raymond Chandler you’ve recommended and I’ve enjoyed them all. I’d have thought he was a bit hard-boiled for you, more like the authors I usually read.’
‘He’s not as mindless as that,’ he grinned. ‘Philip Marlowe isn’t just clever at solving crimes, he wants to right social wrongs. I like that he cares about justice.’
‘That makes sense,’ Jayne muttered, adding, ‘The language was great—quite poetic.’
‘And the character descriptions are wonderful.’
‘True,’ she said, ‘though there was one part I thought would put you off.’ She turned to a page marked with a postcard. ‘The bit where Marlowe meets Geiger’s boyfriend. First he calls him a queen and a fag and then—here it is. “I still held his automatic more or less pointed at him, but he swung on me just the same…I backstepped fast enough to keep from falling, but I took plenty of the punch. It was meant to be a hard one, but a pansy has no iron in his bones, whatever he looks like.”’ She looked up. ‘Pretty disparaging, n’est-ce pas?’
‘OK, so Marlowe’s not exactly enlightened,’ Didier said. ‘But remember, The Big Sleep was written in 1939. It’s remarkable there are even gay characters in it. In that sense, Chandler was ahead of his time.’
‘Well, I think you’re being overly generous,’ she said.
Touched by her loyalty, he leaned over and squeezed her hand. Jayne met his eyes and looked as if she wanted to ask him a question. Instead, she freed her hand to sip from her glass.
‘I’ve got to warn you, Didi, just because I like Chandler, that doesn’t mean you’ve converted me. Some of the other stuff on your reading list was a bit much.’
‘Meaning what?’
‘The plot device involving invisible ink in Hidden Meanings wasn’t very convincing.’
‘At least it had a memorable plot,’ he said. ‘I forgot the storyline in your latest Ms Paretsky as soon as I finished reading it.’
‘That’s a bit harsh.’ Jayne extracted a packet of cigarettes from her pocket. ‘Do you mind?’
‘They’re your lungs,’ Didier said, ‘but you’ll have to get your ashtray from the kitchen. Nou actually washed the filthy thing.’
Jayne gave him a withering look and, leaving her cigarettes on the floor, headed back inside the house.
‘While you’re there, can you bring the spring rolls from the fridge?’ he called after her.
Taking another sip of his gin and tonic, Didier caught sight of Jayne’s bookmark, jutting out from the pages of The Big Sleep.
It was a postcard of the century-old trees that lined the road from Chiang Mai to Lamphun. Several years earlier, a prominent city official announced they were to be cut down to make way for a new thoroughfare. But the citizens of Chiang Mai, smelling a rat, had risen in protest, enlisting the help of the Buddhist sangha to preserve what they saw as their heritage. With due ceremony, the monks ordained the trees, transforming each one into a shrine. Not even a corrupt city official would risk the terrible karma from destroying such sacred sites, and the logging order was revoked. To this day, the trees still wear the bright orange and ochre robes of the Buddhist clergy around their majestic trunks.
Didier smiled and had just replaced the bookmark when the phone rang.
Jai yen-yen, Jayne chanted to herself, the Thai eq
uivalent of ‘be cool’. She looked at her watch. Surely Didier wasn’t going to work at 9pm? She’d thought once Nou left they’d finally get some time alone. But as Didier hung up the phone, he tugged at his hair, a gesture she recognised as a precursor to bad news.
‘Jayne, I’m sorry,’ he said. ‘I’d hoped to get this out of the way before you arrived. You know my outreach work with some of the young guys in town? I’ve just got some new material—clear, explicit stuff—and I’ve finally found someone prepared to do the distribution.’
‘Does it have to be tonight?’
She regretted her whining at once. Reducing the spread of HIV among young men in Chiang Mai was a personal crusade for Didier. ‘Sorry, Didi, of course you have to go.’
‘Why don’t you come? It shouldn’t take long. The friend I’m meeting runs one of the bars behind the Night Bazaar.’
‘I didn’t even know there were bars behind the Night Bazaar.’
He heard the curiosity in her voice and played to it. ‘Come on, you’ve got to see this place to believe it.’ He rattled his keys and grinned.
It was pathetic how easily he could win her over. Jayne grabbed her wallet and cigarettes and followed him out—he always left the door unlocked—climbing on the back of his motorbike.
‘The guy we’re going to meet, Deng, used to be a sex worker,’ Didier said over his shoulder. ‘But his German boyfriend gave him the money to start up a bar that he now runs full-time.’
He swerved to avoid a push-cart vendor selling dried squid pegged like dun-coloured socks in lines across the top of the cart.
‘Is Deng’s bar a pick-up joint?’ Jayne shouted to be heard.
‘Not in the commercial sense. There’s a whole strip of bars, meeting places for gay men and kratoeys. Deng still has friends working in the sex industry and I want him to circulate these new materials through his networks.’
Steering the bike with one hand, he took a pamphlet from his bag and passed it over his shoulder. On the cover was an inverted pink triangle above a heading in Thai script: ‘AIDS Prevention for Men Who Have Sex with Men’. Inside were graphic illustrations of anal and oral sex and step-by-step instructions on correct condom use. Jayne wasn’t shocked so much as surprised that he could get away with it.
She slipped the pamphlet into her pocket as Didier parked near Chang Klan Road, the town’s main tourist precinct—or, more accurately, the area where tourists were most tolerated. Foreigners could find the burger joints, banks and supermarket chains they recognised, while Thai village life went on around them. By the entrance to McDonald’s, a plump woman pounded shredded green papaya, chilli and limes in a mortar and pestle to make spicy som tam salad, the fast food of the northeast. A man pushed a cartload of durian through a beer garden, offering a gap-toothed grin to the backpackers who wrinkled their noses at the sour smell. Money-changers clutching wads of baht notes circled the currency exchange booths like sharks, while the soothsayers and amulet traders thought nothing of blocking the entrance to the 7-Eleven by laying out their wares on plastic sheets. Jayne would have stopped for a closer look at the traditional medicine booth—she had a macabre fascination for shrivelled animal parts and desiccated reptiles—but didn’t want to lose Didier in the crowd.
She followed him into the Night Bazaar, a concrete building that could pass for an underground carpark. As they zigzagged along aisles laden with clothing and souvenirs, she wondered who created the demand for stuffed cobras wrestling with mongooses, scorpions in glass boxes and metre-long wooden penises. She paused briefly to feel the fabric of a crimson and black sarong: one hundred per cent polyester.
They took a side exit, ascended a short set of steps and reached a narrow alley running between the bazaar and the next building, the glow of coloured lights ahead. The sound of dance music grew louder as they approached the strip of bars, each separated from the next by bamboo partitions. Between Tarzan’s Vine and Climax was Man Date, where Didier was greeted warmly by the barman. Deng, the man they’d come to meet, was elsewhere and Jayne agreed to wait while Didier looked for him. She took a seat at the bar and ordered a beer.
The walls of Man Date were a patchwork of beer coasters from around the world, interspersed with posters of male centrefolds. There were more photos of naked men on shelves adjacent to the bar, together with a stereo system, a stack of CDs and a display of ornamental fruit—a large banana flanked by two brown lychees. On the top shelf was a small bronze Buddha, respectfully placed above head height. In front of the bar, an ornate water feature contained fresh lotus flowers and a ceramic figurine of a Chinese fisherman. Two young men and a kratoey sipped drinks at one of the club’s three tables, the kratoey’s red lipstick a perfect match for his mules and handbag. A neon tube lit the place, and Barbra Streisand struggled to be heard above the Priscilla, Queen of the Desert soundtrack blasting out from Climax.
Jayne tried to chat with the barman, but he laughed nervously and focused on rearranging the flowers. The three patrons eyed her with amusement, one muttering something behind his hand. When the kratoey responded with a high-pitched laugh, Jayne cursed Didier then herself for joining him on this errand.
She was halfway through her second beer when he reappeared with a young Thai. Smiling through gritted teeth, she returned Deng’s wai and followed them to an unoccupied table. Seeing she had company, the patrons breathed a collective sigh of relief and one even leaned over and introduced himself.
‘Hello. Ex-ca-use me, where are you from?’
‘Australia,’ Jayne said, ‘but I live in Bangkok,’ she added in Thai.
‘You sa-peak Thai very well,’ the young man pressed on in English.
‘No, not really. You speak English very well.’ It was an exchange she’d played out a thousand times.
The young man flushed. ‘Only a little. What is your name?’
‘Jayne. And you?’
‘Mana. Pleased to meet you.’
‘Mai cheua!’ Didier’s voice cut across their small talk. ‘I don’t believe it! I can’t believe he’d be so stupid!’
‘I’m sorry, Mister Di,’ an ashen-faced Deng said. ‘But you know Nou, he’s got a problem with gambling. He owes a lot of money.’
Jayne frowned, wondering how Nou had come into the conversation.
‘But I would’ve given him the money!’ Didier said, tugging at his hair. ‘He didn’t need to go back to Loh Kroh. Why didn’t he just ask me for it?’
‘I don’t know.’ Deng bit his lower lip. ‘Maybe he feels too ashamed…Ah, look, he’s here now!’
Didier leapt to his feet as Nou and Jet sauntered in with two Chinese-looking men. If Nou was surprised to see Didier, he hid it well. Gesturing for his companions to wait, he approached their table.
‘Sawadee krup—’ he began. But Didier cut him off.
‘Nou, what the hell’s going on?’
The young man shrugged. ‘I needed money.’
‘Well, why didn’t you ask me for it?’ Didier’s face was flushed, his hands curled into fists.
‘Didi, please sit down,’ Nou muttered. ‘Jai yen-yen—’
‘I will not be cool!’ His voice rose dangerously. ‘I can’t believe after all we’ve been through, you’d go off selling sex again.’
‘You know I love you,’ Nou said feebly. ‘I was only doing it for the money…’
‘God, you don’t get it, do you? I don’t give a shit about you having sex with other men.’
In the two years she’d known him, Jayne had never seen Didier this angry. Customers were turning to stare and she reached out and put a tentative hand on his arm. Didier glanced down and she felt a slackening of tension beneath her touch.
‘I’m sorry,’ he said, lowering his voice and releasing his fists. ‘Look, I care about you, Nou, about your health, your self-respect. Don’t you understand that?’
‘Yes Didi, I understand,’ he said, eyes downcast. ‘But I thought you’d be angry with me…You always say I should stop gambling a
nd…’ He left the sentence incomplete.
Didier looked away, shaking his head.
When Nou raised his eyes, Jayne saw a flash of steel in them. Deng grabbed the pamphlets and excused himself, and Mana returned to his companions. Donna Summer had joined Barbra Streisand in ‘Enough Is Enough’ and Jayne took it as her cue.
‘Didier, I’d better go.’ She rose to her feet and slipped two hundred baht under her glass. ‘You and Nou have a few things to sort out and you’ll need the house to yourselves. I’ll stay in a hotel tonight and call you in the morning, OK?’
‘But Jayne—’
‘Don’t worry about it.’
She allowed him to kiss her on both cheeks and, with a perfunctory wai to Nou, turned and made her way back out through the Night Bazaar.
She kept it together until she’d waved down a tuk-tuk and given directions to the driver. But once they took off, she fired off a string of expletives under her breath, cursing Nou for having spoiled her evening and Didier for letting it happen.
Jayne was at a loss to understand Nou’s attraction for Didier. Either Nou’s talent in the sack was enough to sustain Didier’s interest, or her friend was like any other ‘rice queen’ who got off on being the wealthy white partner of a younger Asian man. But this didn’t fit with Jayne’s image of Didier.
He should be with someone who understood him, who loved him for his idiosyncrasies—not some little bastard who was more likely to squander large sums of money over a card game than ever to read a book.
And what of Nou’s bizarre suggestion that she and Didier get married? While it might be the done thing in Thailand for gay men to marry to have children, what made Nou think she’d enter into such an arrangement? His presumption unnerved her, as if he’d trespassed into her most private thoughts.
A sudden downpour hit as the tuk-tuk reached the market near Didier’s place. Despite the driver’s attempt to lower the plastic flaps over the passenger tray, Jayne was drenched by the time she reached the house.
She headed for the guest room, leaving a trail of wet footprints on the wooden floor. Flicking on the bedside lamp, she peeled off her wet clothes, wrapped herself in a sarong and set about re-packing. Too miserable to care as water dripped from her curls onto her gear, she vented her anger with more muttered curses.
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