War of Love

by Carole Mortimer

  She had no intention of telling Lyon any such thing. He would learn the truth soon enough, no doubt, but for the moment she needed a little breathing space. Time to get away. Time to get over loving Lyon...

  'What are you doing, darling?' Her mother looked at her concernedly as they sat across from each other in the spacious sitting-room of her new home.

  Silke had called in briefly to talk to her mother before going away; she didn't want to cause her mother any more distress than she had had in recent weeks, by simply disappearing. Obviously Lyon had seen her mother first!

  'Not what Lyon thinks I am,' she answered drily.

  'You and Lyon...' her mother began slowly, a slightly puzzled frown on her face.

  Silke stiffened. 'There isn't a "Lyon and me",' she denied determinedly.

  Her mother looked at her closely. 'Oh, I think there is,' she said knowingly.

  She shook her head. 'No, I-----'

  'Silke, I've talked to Lyon,' her mother put in quietly.

  Silke gave her a sharp look. What did she mean, she had talked to Lyon? What about? Surely he wouldn't have----- No, she didn't believe for one moment Lyon would have told her mother what had happened between them.

  'We've both talked,' her mother corrected herself. 'About the past, about my meeting Henry again after all these years. I think—no, I'm sure Lyon under­stands what happened now.'

  Silke watched her closely. 'And?'

  'And we understand each other better now,' her mother smiled. 'It's because of that under­standing-----' she sobered '—that I don't think history

  should repeat itself.' She gave Silke a pointed look.

  She stiffened, at once on the defensive. 'I don't know what you mean,' she avoided. There was no chance of history repeating itself; she might love Lyon, but he certainly didn't love her.

  'You're running, Silke,' her mother chided. 'Just as I did. Don't you think you should give Lyon a chance?'

  'To do what?' she frowned.

  'Silke, I don't know what this business with James is all about, but I do know you aren't going away with him, as Lyon thinks you are.' She shook her head.

  Silke frowned. 'Lyon told you about that?'

  'I told you.' Her mother nodded. 'We talked. About all sorts of things.'

  'Such as?' Silke was defensive again now; what if Lyon had told her mother about their intimacy?

  'Silke, why did you let him go on believing you're going away with James?' her mother persisted, not answering her question.

  'Because-----' To her chagrin her voice broke. 'Be­cause at the time I just wanted him to leave,' she fin­ished more firmly.

  'Why?'

  'Mummy-----'

  'This is important, Silke,' her mother cut in deter­minedly. 'I wasted thirty-five years; I have no in­tention of seeing you make the same mistake.'

  Silke blinked back the tears, her control going now, her hands twisted tightly together in her lap. 'Because if he hadn't left when he did I would have broken down,' she admitted shakily. 'Because I love him,' she said more forcefully, shaken at putting her feelings into words for the first time. 'Because he doesn't love me!' she choked, the tears starting to fall now, blinding her as she buried her face in her hands.

  'He loves you, Silke,' an all too familiar voice told her huskily. 'He just isn't very good at admitting he loves anyone. Basically because I didn't want to love anyone,' Lyon admitted gruffly.

  Silke had turned, stricken, at the first sound of his voice, staring at him dazedly as he stood in the open doorway. How long had he been standing there? She hadn't even realised he was here; his car hadn't been outside in the driveway when she arrived, and-----

  Had he just said that he loved her?

  'I think I'll leave the two of you alone together,' her mother stood up. 'Thirty-five years is a long time, Silke,' her mother reminded her softly, squeezing her arm as she walked past her to leave the room.

  Lyon watched Silke from across the room, dark and attractive in a navy silk shirt and navy fitted trousers, his expression wary now, a little uncertain. It wasn't an emotion Silke would ever have associated with him!

  She stood up slowly, smoothing her hands down her denim-clad thighs. 'I had no idea you were here,' she said nervously, her eyes wide as she looked at him.

  'I came down with your mother earlier,' he shrugged. 'As she said, I wanted to talk to her.'

  Silke nodded. 'I'm glad the two of you have sorted out your differences, that you've decided to accept my mother in your uncle's life.'

  The two of them were talking to each other like strangers; maybe she had imagined that he had said he loved her?

  'I think it may be a question of the other way around,' Lyon gave a self-derisive grimace. 'I realise now what your mother must have gone through all those years ago,' he explained at her questioning look. 'She had more reason to resent me rather than the other way round. If Henry hadn't been made my guardian the two of them would have been married years ago!'

  Her mother and Lyon had done some talking, hadn't they? 'Possibly,' Silke acknowledged. 'But they both put that in the past, and so I think you should too.'

  He nodded. 'That's what your mother said,' he told her ruefully.

  The two of them continued to look at each other, neither of them speaking, neither of them moving, just looking at each other. And it was killing Silke. Had he said he loved her?

  'Of course I love you,' he spoke huskily—and Silke realised she had said the words out loud!

  Her cheeks felt hot as she stared at him. 'I love you too,' she finally said softly.

  'So what are we going to do about it?' he prompted abruptly.

  Silke gave a shaky laugh, hardly able to believe this conversation was taking place. 'Whatever we want to do, I suppose,' she spoke huskily.

  'I want to marry you,' Lyon told her evenly.

  This was ridiculous! They had just said that they loved each other, Lyon had told her he wanted to marry her—and yet they still faced each other across the width of the room as if they were adversaries!

  'Marriage is a trap,' she said, reminding him that he had once told her it was a trap he had no intention of getting into.

  He shook his head. 'Not when you love the person you marry,' he said firmly.

  'I now know for certain I'm not pregnant, Lyon,' she told him almost regretfully; when she had thought she would be going out of his life for good it had been some comfort to think she might, just might, be ex­pecting his child. Now she knew that was no longer a possibility.

  'Not yet, perhaps,' he accepted gently. 'But we have plenty of time to have children. If you'll marry me?'

  He looked uncertain again—and it was an emotion Silke didn't like to see in him. His arrogance might have angered her in the past, but it was Lyon, and to see him like this was almost too difficult to bear.

  'I might—if you'll come over here and kiss me!' She looked at him teasingly beneath lowered lashes.

  He gave a throaty chuckle, walking towards her. 'I thought you'd never ask!' he groaned as he took her in his arms, crushing her against the lean length of him, burying his face in her silky hair.

  Her arms were about his neck, her body moulded to his. 'You don't usually wait to be asked,' she leased huskily.

  'The new me,' he said with self-mockery as he raised his head to look down at her. 'Will you marry me, Silke?'

  Her face was raised to his, her face glowing; it was going to be all right. It really was! 'You haven't kissed me yet,' she reminded lightly.

  'Once I start I might not stop,' he admitted self-derisively. 'So maybe you had better give me your answer first!'

  'Yes,' she said without hesitation. 'Yes, yes, yes!'

  He gave a triumphant laugh before sweeping her up into his arms and carrying her over to the sofa— where he proceeded to kiss her until they were both breathless!

  'I fell in love with you the moment you removed that ridiculous bunny head,' he told her some time later, Silke nestled in his arms as
she sat next to him on the sofa.

  'You didn't,' she protested, looking up at him. 'You were absolutely horrible to me that day.'

  'I didn't want to love you,' he reminded huskily. 'But Henry has told me that he fell in love with your mother on sight all those years ago, and I'm afraid I did the same thing with you.'

  ' "Afraid"?' she teased, touching the hardness of his cheek with caressing fingers.

  'Hmm.' He gave a self-derisive grimace. 'And if Henry hadn't collapsed in the way that he did, and diverted attention away from the situation I suddenly found myself in, I might have made a complete idiot of myself.'

  'Not you, Lyon,' Silke lightly mocked. 'You're far too controlled.'

  'My control went out of the window that day, too!' he admitted ruefully. 'The Jordan women are pretty powerful stuff!'

  'The Winter-Buchanan men too,' she smiled up at him lovingly.

  Lyon returned the warmth of her smile, smoothing the silky hair at her brow. 'A mutual admiration so­ciety, hmm?'

  'Not to start with,' she reminded him reprovingly. 'You really were awful to Mummy and me.'

  'I didn't want you in my life.' He grimaced. 'I had lived without love in my life for so long, and I didn't want it there then either.'

  'And now?' Silke kissed the length of his jaw.

  'Now I wish we were already married and I could take you away somewhere and make love to you without interruption,' he admitted huskily. 'But I doubt either Henry or your mother would let us get away with that; it will have to be the whole "white wedding" bit!'

  She looked up at him searchingly. 'Not if that isn't what you want.' She shook her head. 'I was going to have that once before, and it isn't important-----'

  'Silke.' He looked down at her intently now. 'I want to see you walking down the aisle to me in a silky white gown, want to watch with pride as you become my wife. Cameron was an idiot,' he grimly repeated the accusation he had made once before concerning James.

  'I was never going away with him, Lyon,' Silke as­sured him. 'I only let you go on believing that so that you would leave.'

  He nodded. 'I realise that now.'

  'James's marriage had been going through a rough patch, and he—well, he thought-----'

  'I don't give a damn what he thought.' Lyon's arms tightened about her possessively. 'Now that I know you love me, he isn't coming anywhere near you ever again!'

  But she would send James his wedding invitation, just so that he would know she and Lyon had 'sorted things out', and that she was going to be happy; she knew James, would have enough sense not actually to attend the wedding!

  'I don't want him anywhere near me again,' she dismissed lightly. 'I didn't want him near me on the two occasions you did see him.'

  'Good,' Lyon said with satisfaction. 'It totally threw me when I realised he was back in your life,' he ac­knowledged ruefully. 'But it certainly took my mind off Henry and your mother.' He grimaced. 'Their re­lationship suddenly took second place in my priorities!'

  'It didn't seem that way,' Silke frowned. Although, thinking about it, perhaps Lyon had become less in­tense about Henry and her mother after seeing James at her flat that evening...

  'Quite honestly-----' Lyon gave a rueful smile

  '—Henry could have married a twenty-five-year-old bunny girl after that and I wouldn't have objected!' He looked down at her teasingly.

  Silke gave a soft laugh. 'You're not going to let me forget that incident in a hurry, are you?' She hugged him for the sheer pleasure of being able to do so; she loved this man with every part of her. And the miracle was, he loved her in return.

  'When I'm Henry's age I'll be telling our grand­children about the way we first met!' he warned her affectionately.

  She didn't doubt he would too. And just the thought of those children and grandchildren was enough to fill her with a warm glow for their future together.

  'Our children will grow up in a loving family, Silke,' he assured her huskily, looking deeply into her eyes. 'There will be none of the loneliness for them that we both knew in our own childhoods. They will have two parents who love them. And, more importantly, who love each other,' he added with satisfaction.

  And they did love each other. Very much. And they would continue to do so. Silke didn't doubt it for a moment, knew that neither of them had fallen in love lightly. And it was a love that would last a lifetime.

  The war was over at last. And both of them had won...