by Grace Draven
He offered her a close-lipped smile, but she was satisfied. Amusement and something else—something hot which brought an equal heat to her cheeks—flared in his eyes. “Regarding the last, mistress, we must disagree.” He gestured with his chin to the hand she held in her grasp. “Are you done?”
Louvaen mentally shook herself out of the stupor taking hold. Annoyed at getting caught up in de Sauveterre’s gaze, she filed the last nail with more enthusiasm than necessary and proclaimed the job finished. Ballard raised his hands to admire the results. “What do you think?” she asked.
He peered at her over his newly exposed fingertips. “You realize once the flux returns they’ll be long again.”
She stood and brushed black dust from her skirts. Magda wouldn’t begrudge her a broom later. “Then we’ll cut and file them again.”
Ballard stood as well. Trapped between him and the stool, Louvaen could count the stitching on his leather tunic and catch the scents of evergreen and smoke on his clothes. The brief smile hovered at his lips. “I’m pleased. You have my thanks, but next time we’ll wait until after I’ve eaten. I’m fond of a hot meal.”
Louvaen lifted her chin and scooted around the stool to put some distance between them before she succumbed to the temptation to reach out and touch his jaw, feel the moving marks on his skin for herself. “No one ever died from eating cold chicken.”
“I’ll let you tell Magda that after she’s worked this past hour trying to keep mine warm.”
She winced. Magda would probably kill her for keeping the master of the house away for so long and her trapped in the kitchen waiting for him. “Come on then. I’ll need my own fork to fend off an angry cook.”
CHAPTER SEVEN
They found Magda at the hearth, stirring the contents of a pot so vigorously Louvaen wondered if whatever stewed inside was actually dead. The housekeeper glanced over her shoulder. “If it took you that long to tup her, then you can take your food with you next time. I’ve better things to do than guard your chicken while you’re flipping a skirt.”
Louvaen gasped and Ballard choked back laughter. Thank the gods Cinnia wasn’t here. All her nagging about reputations and proper courtship would fall on deaf ears if the girl even suspected Louvaen was being less than circumspect and with the master of the house. She smacked Ballard on the arm. “Show her,” she hissed.
Ballard raised his hands to display his short nails. Magda scowled. “I could have done it for you. You only had to ask.”
“Ah, such is the light of Mistress Duenda I think. She doesn’t wait to be asked.” He raised a mocking eyebrow at Louvaen who sniffed and requested a fork from Magda.
Ballard took his seat and eyed the cutlery with disdain. “Useless bit of metal.”
Louvaen passed it to him. “Not so,” she said. “You keep your hands clean and guard against slicing your fingers when cutting meat. And if I chose to ram it into your eye, the tines would do a fine job of blinding you.”
Magda guffawed and slapped the plate of lukewarm food in front of him. Ballard wielded the fork against the roasted bird. “Did you kill your husband, Mistress Duenda?”
“You aren’t the first to ask, and no I didn’t.” She wouldn’t laugh though she was sorely tempted, delighted by his flash of dry wit.
She smoothed her skirts, thanked Magda for her patience and inclined her head toward Ballard. “My lord.” He’d have his privacy tonight, but she hoped tomorrow he’d put aside his trepidation and join them. Gavin would be pleased, and with any luck, Cinnia might no longer flinch at the sight of Ballard’s hands.
“Mistress.” Louvaen paused. Rush light cast jaundiced illumination across Ballard’s pale features, and the black vines seemed to writhe beneath his skin. “My thanks.” She nodded, certain he offered gratitude for more than her care of his hands.
She left him to return to her room and sweep up the remnants of her grooming. Three pairs of curious eyes watched her when she stepped into the solar and took her customary place before the spinning wheel.
“Where have you been?” Cinnia eyed her from her seat at a corner table she shared with Ambrose. Sheaves of parchment shared space with several inkbottles and finely threaded brushes. The two had begun work on a grimoire of Ambrose’s potions. Louvaen hoped the sorcerer appreciated Cinnia’s creation when it was done. She’d been trained by the finest illuminator and binder. Louvaen had no doubt the final product would be a thing of art beyond its more prosaic purposes. Gavin sat on a short stool, almost hugging Cinnia’s knee, and stropped the edge of a knife across a strip of oiled leather with the hands of a lover.
“I was in the kitchen with Magda.” She didn’t lie if one didn’t peer too closely. Unfortunately, Ambrose always did.
“And before that?” he asked.
Louvaen gave him a look she hoped conveyed a very specific, if vulgar message and began dressing the distaff with a bundle of flax tow. “Not that it’s your concern, but I was in my chamber trimming nails.” Again, not so much a lie as a careful play on words that begged assumptions, hopefully wrong ones. Her luck held. The three lost interest. Time spent with Ballard was no secret; she’d done nothing illicit or scandalous. She just didn’t want to answer the many questions Cinnia would ask or confront Ambrose’s suspicious gaze any more than necessary.
She finished dressing the distaff and spun a leader cord of tow over her thigh before threading it through the wheel’s bobbin. The tow was not as fine on the draw as Joan’s marvelous flax tare, but Louvaen had promised yarn for dish towels, rope and aprons. The creak of her treadle harmonized with Gavin’s back-and-forth sweep of his blade across the strop and lulled her into ruminations about Ketach Tor’s scarred lord.
Ballard was nothing like her husband in either appearance or disposition. Thomas Duenda had been a giant of a man who’d earned the nickname Ursus with his unruly mane of long brown hair and an equally untamed beard. He loved to eat, drink, laugh and bed his prickly-tempered wife. He was a wild contrast to the melancholy solemnity of his chosen profession, and Louvaen had adored him. When he died, Louvaen thought someone had reached into her chest, bashed a few of her ribs along the way, and pulled her heart out of her body. Three years on, she still sometimes wept for him.
The lord of Ketach Tor seemed more suited for the role of undertaker. Somber and reflective, Ballard said little but those expressive dark eyes revealed many things. She pictured him at the kitchen table and again in the solar as flax drafted through her nimble fingers, spinning into linen thread with the turn of the wheel and flyer. He gave no indication that the torture he suffered during a flux bothered him once it subsided or that its warping effects were anything more than a mild annoyance. When he asked why she wasn’t afraid of him, she’d sensed only puzzlement in the question. Louvaen knew Gavin far better than she knew his father; however, it was Ballard who drew her, beguiled her with a quiet power and the surety that while the flux might send him to his knees, he’d never break beneath its yoke. In this, he was very much like Thomas. Strength without cruelty, pride without arrogance and an iron perseverance.
A chair leg scraping softly across the floor snagged her attention away from thoughts of de Sauveterre. She caught Cinnia trying her best to inch her chair closer to Gavin so he might rest his head more comfortably on her knee. The strop lay forgotten on the floor, and the knife rested across his thigh. “De Lovet,” Louvaen said softly so as not to startle him. “You cannot sleep with my sister. You can’t sleep on her either.”
For the first time since she’d taken up residence at Ketach Tor, she and Ambrose exchanged a smile that was more than a hostile baring of teeth as Cinnia jerked her knee from under Gavin’s head. He fell off the stool and almost stabbed himself in the foot.
“For gods’ sake, Lou, couldn’t you just ask him politely to move?” Cinnia glared daggers at her sister. “Thank you for embarrassing me!”
Louvaen never ceased her spinning. “Be more circumspect then.” She frowned at Gavin who’d f
ound his feet and hovered protectively at Cinnia’s side . “I think it fair to say she’s the only innocent in this chamber, de Lovet. You know better than to try such foolishness, especially with me here.”
He might not resemble his father, but Gavin had inherited much of his demeanor and confident reserve. He bowed and met her gaze unflinchingly. “A lapse, Mistress Duenda. I meant no offense to you and especially none to Cinnia.” He moved his stool a good distance away from Cinnia and resumed his seat along with the stropping.
Louvaen ignored Cinnia’s hot stare and her efforts to burn holes through her with it. The solar returned to its quiet if not its tranquility, and before long Cinnia excused herself for the evening, promising Ambrose she’d meet with him the next day to continue their work together on the grimoire. She offered her hand to Gavin who kissed it lightly and wished her goodnight. To Louvaen she snapped “Don’t stop spinning. I can find my way to my room without you.” She swept out of the solar on a tide of offended dignity.
Ambrose rolled the loose parchments, tucked them under his arm and rose. Louvaen stiffened at his mocking smile. “Best sleep with one eye open tonight, mistress. The knife in the back often comes from those we trust most.” He bowed to her and Gavin and followed Cinnia into the corridor.
Except for the rhythmic clack of the treadle under Louvaen’s foot and the slide-snick sound of Gavin’s blade on the strop, the room was silent. She’d have to apologize to Cinnia and curb her scolding in the future. Gavin wasn’t Jimenin who needed a club to the head to get the point. Cinnia’s most ardent suitor had always been courteous and restrained, earning Louvaen’s grudging respect. She’d grown to like him when he displayed an interest in her sister for more than her beauty. That liking had been severely tested when he made off with her to Ketach Tor. Even knowing his reasons were noble and the results beneficial to her entire family, Louvaen still found it difficult to warm to him.
Jealousy, a small voice whispered in her mind. You’re jealous. She’s turned from you for guidance to someone else, and you can’t let go. The line of flax drew too long and broke. Louvaen cursed under her breath.
“Mistress?” Gavin halted in his task.
She waved a hand at him and drafted additional tow to twist with the line. “Tis nothing. A broken line and easy to fix.” The treadle took up its clacking tune once more.
“I gave my word, Mistress Duenda. What more can I do to convince you I hold Cinnia in the highest regard?” Gavin’s gaze, no longer yellow now the flux had ebbed, brimmed with frustration.
“Marry her.”
“I intend to,” he said. “If she’ll have me. I don’t think she’s ready yet.”
As much as she wanted to argue, Louvaen had to agree. Cinnia adored Gavin; that was obvious—but enough to marry him? His idea of courtship through the winter was a sound one. He had no competition from other suitors, no distractions from threats like Jimenin and plenty of time to show her his worth, not only in possessions but also in character. Another girl might not wait and leap at the chance to wed such a fine example of manhood as Gavin de Lovet. He was handsome—almost equal in male beauty to Cinnia’s feminine charms. Cinnia, however, had been raised with the guarded Louvaen, and despite a lapse or two, wasn’t hasty with her decisions. Gavin would have to work to win her.
Louvaen spun the new line, watching as it filled the spool. “I’m a merchant’s daughter, so let me put this in merchant’s terms. If I discover you’ve sampled the wares before you’ve bought, I will kill you with my bare hands.” She ceased spinning and turned her full focus on him. “And now you know where you stand.”
His expression solemn, Gavin nodded once. “I’ve always known, Mistress Duenda, and I believe you.” He stropped the knife a few more times before gathering it and the strop together. He stood and bowed. “Mistress, I bid you good night.” He passed Ballard on his way out. “Father,” he said, “I’ll meet you in the morning for sparring. He eyed Louvaen. “I need the practice.”
Ballard watched him leave before entering the room. “Did you two have a good conversation?”
Her foot never broke rhythm on the treadle. “We did. I threatened to kill him if he compromised Cinnia.” She tried not to smile as his eyebrows rose, and he dropped into the chair across from her.
“Ah, you’re getting to know each other better; excellent.”
She did laugh then. “You’ve no regard for your son’s continued health?”
Ballard stretched his legs out in his usual pose and folded his hands across his midriff. “His health is of great concern to me. I also have great faith in his ability to look out for himself.” His gaze sharpened. “Something I think you lack with your sister.”
Louvaen snapped a second line but this time gave up the spinning altogether. “What do you know of it?” she muttered, affronted by his observation.
“Enough to know Cinnia Hallis is as intelligent and sensible as she is beautiful. There’s not a person in this castle who doesn’t believe she can make sound decisions if given the chance—except you.”
“That is not true.” Louvaen stood and shoved the spinning wheel aside hard enough it almost toppled.
Ballard remained in his relaxed position, his expression calm. “Isn’t it? I’ve had bitch hounds guard pups with less ferocity than you do that girl.”
She almost trod on his toes, forcing him to straighten and draw in his legs until she stood at his knees, hands fisted on her hips. “When did protection become a bad thing, de Sauveterre?” Louvaen wanted to strike him, crack his nose a second time for his criticism. At the same time, she wanted to weep at the idea he was probably right.
“When it smothers the one you’re trying to protect.” A pale hand reached out and gently stroked one of the folds of her dress before drawing away. Ballard’s eyes had turned so dark, Louvaen could no longer discern his pupils from his irises. “I can tell you from bitter experience, mistress, if you don’t let her go you’ll lose her altogether.”
Louvaen swallowed hard and willed away the tears. “She terrifies me. All that could happen...”
“But hasn’t.”
“Because I protect her.”
He shook his head. “No, because you taught her well. She told us you raised her since she was five. Acknowledge her judgment and credit yourself for strengthening it so she can hold her own without you holding her hand.”
Louvaen bowed her head before meeting Ballard’s gaze. “I’m not saying you’re right, but I’ll take your words into consideration.”
The familiar tight smile curved his mouth. “Fair enough. Besides, I wouldn’t want to be responsible for you bursting into flame because you acknowledged I might be right.”
She harrumphed. “Very funny.” The offer to read to him hovered on the tip of her tongue and faded as she watched the black vine that had rested below his eye suddenly move. It climbed the outer curve of the eyelid, bisected his eyebrow and disappeared into his hairline. She inhaled a tight breath.
“What’s wrong?” The creases between Ballard’s brow were of his own making, etched from years of habitual frowning or concentration. Louvaen focused on them instead of the serpentine scar that moved of its own free will.
“One of those black marks just slid across your face and into your scalp. You didn’t feel it?”
A hand reached up and touched the spot where her gaze had rested. “No.” He shrugged and his grim expression told her this was nothing new.
The markings were grotesque, macabre and Louvaen wondered how Ballard kept from flaying himself in a bid to dig them out of his body. “They don’t cause you any pain?”
“Not now.” For the first time since she met him, he turned his face away from her. “Only during the flux’s high tide. Then each one makes its presence known.”
She shuddered and fought to suppress the urge to scratch at the crawling sensation that traveled down her arms and legs. No wonder the man howled in his cell like some poor beast being hacked to bits.
“Now you fear to look at me.”
She had a good view of his profile. A hard jaw and long nose, the compressed mouth and high curve of his cheekbone, marred by the deep broadhead scars and raised spirals at his temples. He reminded her of the hermetic monks who lived at Andagora Skete. Austere, reclusive, he would have made a fine monk. Louvaen discarded the notion. The walls of the great hall gleamed from the polished steel of numerous weapons. At one time this man had been a devotee of war, not prayer.
“I’m not the one who’s looking away.” She pressed her knees against his. “May I touch you?”
He visibly jerked in his chair. “What?”
“May I touch your face?” She didn’t think he’d be more surprised if she’d asked him permission to fire a barrage of cannon balls into the castle fortifications. “I promise not to hit you in the nose.”
Her quip didn’t gain her a smile, but Ballard nodded and parted his knees so that she might draw nearer to him. Louvaen leaned in and he closed his eyes. She envied his dark lashes, thick and straight. The black runes and vines twined around his neck and scripted along his hairline. Louvaen touched the one that slithered. The scar squirmed beneath her fingertips, icy to the touch. She crushed the instinct to snatch her hand back and followed the vine’s track across his eyelid and forehead. Her fingers slid into his hair, noting its suppleness as wavy strands caressed her knuckles. She mapped the scar where it crossed with another in his scalp and took its path. Soon both her hands stroked through his hair, over his face and along the rigid tendons in his neck. A pulse drummed a heavy beat under his jaw. Though the scars lay like frozen threads under his flesh, the unmarred expanses of skin flared hot beneath her fingers. He burned as if with fever, and she burned for him.
The sweet tingling from touching his face spread across her body, strongest at her breasts and between her thighs. She traced one of the runic symbols near the hollow of his throat, her palm curved over his collarbone. So beguiled was she by her exploration, she hardly noticed the staccato hitch in his breathing.