by Sam Crescent
“Because part of me was always afraid of losing that feeling with you, and don’t forget, you walked away as well.”
“I know. What makes you think now is different?” His words lifted her world and brought her down again with a large crash.
“We’ve been doing this for over seven years, Amber. If we were going to fall, it would have happened. Every time feels like the first. My world explodes when I’m with you. Even now, holding your hand, I feel tingles like electricity shooting up my arm. I’ve never felt this with anyone. I love you. I want to be with you, and I’ll date you. I’ll do everything I have to in order to prove to you that I’m not going away.”
His grip tightened on her.
“Oh, I’m also banning sex,” he said.
“What?”
Elijah smiled. “I’ve made myself a promise. I’m going to prove to you we can be together without everything else. The sex is the best I’ve ever had, but for a long time, we’re not going to have it. This is going to be about us getting to be together without any other pressure.”
“I’m not sure about that. I like sex.”
“Then you’ll love it when we get back together after a short break. I’m not fucking you. I’m going to seduce you without all the other crap.”
She sipped at her coffee and watched him. There was something different about him that she couldn’t put her finger on. None of it made any sense to her. Why was Elijah adamant to date her?
“What’s changed?” she asked.
“Last night is what changed my mind. Seeing you in the arms of another man opened my eyes to what I’ve been doing wrong. It’s not acceptable to let another man touch you. You’re mine, and now I’m going to prove it with more than words. There’s no way I’m going to lose you because I was a dick and didn’t give you what you needed.”
Amber couldn’t stop the tears from filling her eyes. “You’re being serious about this?”
“Deadly serious.”
She could live without any sex. Six months prior to him walking back into her life she’d been without.
“All right.” She nodded her head and then picked up the menu.
“I don’t want any bullshit either. If you’re not up to going out or you’re too ill, tell me.”
“I will.”
He gazed at her for several minutes before taking the other menu. “I’m starving. I’m thinking eggs, bacon, and some toast. What about you?”
She agreed with him. They ordered breakfast and ate in silence. The quiet wasn’t tense or awkward. She was comfortable around him.
After they were finished, Elijah led them outside. The city was getting busier as it always did on a Saturday.
“Where are we going?” she asked.
“We’ve got to walk there. I didn’t bring my car.”
She hadn’t driven her car either. Driving around the city was too stressful, and it took too long. It was much easier walking to places.
“Okay, where are we walking to?”
“That’s the surprise.”
He took her hand and headed off up the street. She held her bag tightly on her shoulder, following behind him. The city was too loud and crowded for them to have a real conversation. She couldn’t believe they were doing something in public. Club Kink was not really in public. The customers and owners were very selective on who they allowed into their club. There was no way she’d ever see Heather or Connie frequenting one of the clubs.
Elijah stopped at the opening to the city center. It was full to bursting with different stalls. She saw a huge selection of food, clothing, and wines. Everything her heart desired was stationed at some stall up and down the city town center.
“You’ve brought me to the market?” she asked, smiling.
“Shopping is great way to relieve stress. Also, I’m cooking dinner at your apartment this evening. What better way to kick off dating than starting with fresh ingredients bought today?”
She’d just fallen head over heels in love with him, all over again.
Laughing, she kept hold of his hand as they made their way around the stalls. The scents were amazing. Some reminded her of the comforting warmth of stew, while others were filled with heat and were more exotic.
Amber couldn’t believe she was having more fun right now, shopping in a busy city center, than she had last night, with Dale.
He’s the man for me.
Elijah never once let go of her hand throughout the whole morning. She loved his time and attention, and he made her feel utterly complete.
****
The day he’d planned was the spur of the moment kind of day. Elijah hadn’t known the market was on until he saw it advertised on the café shop window. He intended to spend the whole day with Amber, but doing what, he hadn’t known. The market offered him an opportunity to expand their knowledge of each other. It also gave him an excuse not to let go of her hand.
He needed to wipe the memory of Dale from her mind.
They were carrying up their bags from their expedition around the market. Amber was laughing as he made a joke about her new vases. He’d offered to foot the bill for the two new vases, but she’d refused.
He wouldn’t let her pay for dinner. Elijah bought all the ingredients and intended for Amber to be full and satisfied.
“I noticed those vases are a lot bigger than the last two you smashed trying to aim for my head.”
“I know. Are you worried?”
“Not at all. I don’t intend to be the person you throw vases at.”
She chuckled, digging in her purse for her keys.
“I can’t believe how much fun I’ve had. I didn’t think it was possible to be so happy from just shopping.” She pushed the door open, letting him through.
He went straight toward her kitchen. Elijah started unloading bags as Amber did the same from the sitting room. Looking across the space that separated them, he felt calm. There was no arguing or fighting. They were both getting on with the task of unloading their stuff.
Elijah knew he could live like this. She bent over the coffee table and started to arrange her vases. He admired her full rounded ass and grew hard, staring at her. Diving into his bag, Elijah began to unpack everything. He put the chocolate and butter to one side and then started looking for some flour in her cupboards.
He took the time to spread everything out on the counter, separating the ingredients into the main meal and the dessert.
Amber brushed past him to put the wine she’d purchased in the fridge. “I called Ashley to cover for me this weekend.”
“Heather has plans with Julian.” He couldn’t bring himself to tell her the truth. Her friends knew about them. To her friends it was no big secret. He figured both women would tell Connie when they were ready.
“Yeah. Connie and Ashley usually plan to do something together. It’s fun and always something to do with Wade. Ashley is trying to set Connie up with him. The man is in love with her, but he won’t make a move. He’s driving Ashley crazy.”
“His gaze follows her everywhere.” Elijah had noticed the other guy’s attention toward Connie. He thought it was sweet, but if Wade didn’t get her attention soon, then someone else was going to sweep in and take it.
“I know. He keeps trying to ask her out, but he balks at the last minute. I think Connie’s losing patience with him. She’s eating lunch elsewhere now.” Amber shrugged. He moved out of her way as she put away some jars of coffee.
“It’ll only be a matter of time before she moves on,” Elijah said. He grabbed some measuring cups and bowls to start making dessert.
“I doubt Connie will truly move on. She doesn’t give herself easily.”
He guessed Connie was the most complex member of the group even though Amber had her days in the complex department.
“So, what do you want me to do?” she asked, leaning over the counter to stare at him.
“Nothing. You can sit, chill, relax, and watch as I make you my mean spiced pork casserole and melting chocolat
e puddings.”
“Wow, that sounds delightful. I’m going to leave you to it.”
He watched her saunter off to the sofa. She sat down with her feet underneath her. Clicking his fingers, he got to work in making a dinner that Amber would remember. He’d never really liked cooking when he was younger. Cooking had taught him patience and how best to handle his anger and aggression. Over the years he’d taken several cookery courses and was adept at everything he did in the kitchen. He hoped all those years would finally be put to good use.
Every now and then he’d look up and see Amber either reading or watching something on the television. He couldn’t believe how quickly she changed her mind of what she was doing. Amber wasn’t a one track mind. Elijah watched her pick up one paperback book off her shelf. She’d start reading, but about ten minutes later she put it back and picked up another one. Her mind was never focused on one thing.
Looking through their time together, Elijah realized the only time she kept track was when she was with him. There was no pushing or rushing her. Amber was only ever ready when she was ready.
He’d only just realized how different Amber actually was from what he thought. For many years he’d figured her as woman with a schedule and control issues. He thought that was why she let him take control in the bedroom. It would be the only place where she’d give up control.
She padded toward him. Her shirt was falling from her shoulder, showing off her bra. It was cute and utterly adorable watching her in her own home.
“I’ve never seen you like this,” he said.
“Like what?”
“Carefree and happy.”
“I’ve got a lot to be happy about.” She leaned over and kissed his cheek. “You’re giving us a chance, and instead of doubting everything I’m going to live it up. You never know how long it’s going to last,” she said.
He took her kiss and smiled. She hummed as she grabbed a drink out of the fridge. Elijah continued to make their meal while watching her. Amber was a beauty to witness in her element.
Marry her.
The thought took him by surprise as he stared at her. First he wanted to seduce her, and now he wanted to have her by his side for the rest of his life.
“Are you all right?” she asked, shaking some juice in the carton as she looked at him.
“What? Yeah, I’m fine.”
“Looked like you spaced out there for a second.”
“No, I’m not spaced out. I’m seeing something I’ve never seen before,” he said.
She smiled. “I hope it’s something good.”
Amber left him alone. They were behaving like a couple. No fear came to him at the thought of settling down. It was time for him to be with Amber. She’d been his for so long, and he’d taken her for granted.
No more.
Chapter Nine
Amber pulled her hair up into a ponytail. It had been three weeks since Elijah declared his seduction, and they’d been three weeks of bliss to her. He was attentive toward her, and not a moment went by when she didn’t feel cherished. Ashley was still keeping her secret, and it had been three weeks since she’d seen her friends properly. She knew it was only a matter of time before they all found out the truth.
When she thought about telling Heather the truth she was filled with doubts. She forced herself to push them aside. Elijah hadn’t given her any cause to complain. He’d not even touched her. Their kisses were passionate, but he never took them further than a kiss. His hands would always caress her back or cup her face. Sometimes he’d grab her ass, which was the extent of his passion.
If Elijah stayed over he would sleep on her sofa or wear clothes to bed. He never once strayed.
Dale had been true to his word, and there was no conflict at work. In fact, he asked about her friend, Connie. He’d gone to Wade’s the other night, and Connie had been there waiting for Wade. The two had gotten talking, and Dale and Connie had hit it off.
Elijah was right. If Wade didn’t act soon then Connie was going to be with someone else. She wished her friend all the best and Dale, but she couldn’t help feeling sorry for Wade.
Her cell phone chimed letting her know a text had come through.
Grabbing her cell out of the back pocket of her jeans she pressed the accept button.
Elijah: I can’t believe you cancelled me. I’ve got the latest horror movie!
She’d turned him down. Amber missed her friends and really wanted to spend some time with them.
Smiling, she quickly typed a response.
Amber: Keep your panties on. Oh, that’s right, they haven’t come off. Do you have blue balls yet?
Elijah: You’re a vixen. I’m doing the best I can. Come to me tonight and I’ll give you a release.
She’d fallen for that line once before. He’d brought her to climax with his fingers. Amber didn’t want his fingers. She wanted everything from him.
Amber: I’ve fallen for that line before. You’ll have to wait. I’m going to be with my girlfriends. They all need me.
Elijah: I need you!
Amber: Stop with the !!!!! They’re frustrating. Deal with it.
In his next text he blew a raspberry at her, which made her laugh.
“Are you all right in here?” Dale asked. His head peered around the door. It was the female changing room. She’d already changed into her going out clothes.
“Yeah, everything is perfect.” She pocketed her cell and grabbed her purse. “How are you?”
“I’m great. I’m heading over to Wade’s. I convinced Connie to sing for me. She’s got stage fright and all that, but I’ve asked her to let me listen. Is she good? I mean, I hope she’s good, otherwise I’m in for it.”
Laughing, Amber pushed her arm through his. “Connie could have a record deal she’s that good. You’ll love her singing. I know I do.”
“There’s no hard feelings, right?” Dale asked.
“No, none at all. I’m pleased you’re moving on. Can I warn you that Wade has been crushing on her for some time? Please be careful with her and with Wade.”
“Of course. I’m not that kind of man, honey. How are you and your man?”
She smiled. “We’re doing good. Better, actually.”
“Good.”
They drove together to Wade’s. She left him at the door. The guard letting people in stopped Dale from entering. “I’ve been told to keep you behind,” the man said.
“I’ll leave you to it, Dale. You may have pissed off the owner.” She gave Dale a wink before heading inside.
Ashley, Connie, and Heather were seated in their booth. She looked over to the bar to see Wade heading toward her.
“I take it you’re the one responsible for Dale being left behind?”
“I need to know what his intentions are.” Wade glanced toward Connie. “I’m not letting her get hurt.”
“I believe you.” She watched him leave, and she saw Elijah sat at the bar. He raised a glass to her, and she rolled her eyes.
“Hey, what’s going on with Wade?” Connie asked.
Taking her seat Amber looked at her friend. “He’s taking care of some business out front. He’ll be back in a moment. I’m sure it’s nothing to worry about. He knows what he’s doing.”
“Where have you been?” Heather asked. “I really needed to talk to you, and you’ve always been busy.”
“I’ve been dating, and work has been really crazy. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to abandon you guys,” Amber said.
They all grumbled for several minutes. It was her friends’ way of showing her that they cared.
“Okay, leave her alone. She feels like crap, and now we’ve got to give her the good news,” Ashley said.
Amber smiled gratefully at her friend.
“What’s the good news?”
“I’m having a baby,” Heather said, screaming and covering her mouth.
Amber gasped. “What? Julian got you pregnant?”
“Yes. I can’t believe it. I took
the test a couple of weeks, and then I went to the doctor to confirm it. I’m not far along, but it’s official. I’m going to be a mommy.”
They all cheered. “That better not be alcohol,” Amber said, pointing to the drink in front of her.
“No, it’s not. Julian didn’t want me coming today. I promised him I’d be good. I’d never risk this baby. I can’t believe I’m going to be a mommy.”
Heather looked so happy. Laughing, Amber found herself looking for Elijah. He was sat at the bar watching her. A gentle hum settled over her. She kept her gaze on Elijah, knowing she wanted a future with him. She’d do everything in her power to make him happy. In the last few weeks he’d really showed her what their life could be together.
“I’m going to the ladies’ room with Connie to prepare her,” Heather said.
Amber watched her friends go. Ashley slid closer to her.
“Are you going to give me any juicy details?” she asked.
“About what?”
“About the hot guy staring at you all the time. I never thought Elijah was capable of being a stalker. I think he should win awards for the change inside him.”
Amber laughed. “He’s not that bad.”
“No? Then why have you both kept it a secret all these years?”
There was no answer to that question at all.
“I don’t know what to say,” Amber said, staring down at her hands.
“I’m sorry. I don’t mean to burst your bubble. I know you’ve got your reasons, and I’m sure he’s got his.” Ashley moved away.
“What’s going on with you?” Amber asked. “We rarely see each other anymore. How’s the bar work going?”
“Fine. Everything is fine in my life.”Ashley stood. “I’m sorry to bail. I need to get out of here.”
Amber tried to get her friend to sit, but Ashley wouldn’t listen.
“Tell Heather congratulations and I’m sorry for leaving. I just need to go.”
Watching her go, Amber felt the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end. Turning around she saw Elijah stood at the bar. She smiled, but his attention was focused on something in front of him.
The crowd blocking the person moved, and she saw the blonde from Club Kink.