“You sew that on your coat,” she says.
“Thank you,” Tymko says, “I will.” Taras knows he’ll do that only when he leaves the camp. In the meantime he’ll keep it hidden. Too many things can be taken away in this place.
As he watches the pleasant and friendly Beaver family, Taras feels a sudden certainty that he and Halya will never be together. She has been taken away to a school and married to an Englishman. He will never find her, and even if he did, what would be the use? He takes off the one thing he’s managed to keep from his old life, the sun pendant he made in the smithy in Shevchana. He hands it to the girl who reminds him of Halya. She looks worried, not sure if she should take it. He smiles and makes a gesture to say she should put it around her neck.
Leah Beaver looks at Taras. When he nods at her she tells Frances Louise in Nakodah that she may put on the pendant. The girl flips back the hood of her coat and places it around her neck. “Thank you,” she says in a serious voice.
He nods. He hopes she’ll have a happy life.
Taras feels much lighter without the pendant, and calm.
At the beginning of April, they start Taras working half days. He doesn’t feel ready, but it does help him push away the picture of Viktor in what he imagines as an all-white room, in a white-covered bed, staring out the window at snow. Or the vision of George Luka Budak’s bloody death.
He’ll be leaving soon, but he doesn’t think about it much. He can’t stand to feel anything too strongly. He keeps an image in his mind of thick grass in the hills near Spring Creek, touched only by the trails of wild animals.
One afternoon near the end of April, Taras is sent back to full-time work with a new gang, cutting brush and trying to dig roots in the Banff recreation grounds. Damn stupid thing to be doing when the ground’s still frozen, but he’s stopped expecting his orders to make sense. Luckily they’re close to camp, so he won’t have a long march to and from the work site.
He thinks the guards are going to go easy on him. He sees them talking together, can almost hear their words: “That’s the one who got stabbed.”
He doesn’t know the men in this gang, except for one. God knows why they had to end up together. After an hour or so he finds himself working near Zmiya the snake. He tries to widen the distance between them, although he can’t believe even Zmiya would attack a recently wounded man. Yet why does he now move closer again? Taras stops digging.
“Your wound,” Zmiya says. “Has it healed?”
Taras has a mind to ignore the question but after a time he says, “It’s mainly healed. I can’t do heavy work.”
He’s answered. Some kind of conversation has begun.
“I couldn’t believe it when that guy stabbed you.”
Being watched by Zmiya is like being watched by a wolf, or a fox. There’s always something in the eyes you can’t understand.
“Why not?” Taras asks, suddenly angry. “Isn’t that what you wanted to do?” He pulls at the root but it won’t come out.
“Yes. It is what I wanted to do.” Zmiya moves closer, takes hold of the root and pulls with steady force until it comes out of the cold earth.
“You’re happy, then.” Taras starts in on another root.
“At first I was mad,” Zmiya says calmly. “He took away my chance.”
“At first.” Taras isn’t sure why he’s bothering to keep this going.
“I thought you were going to die. After a while I saw that wasn’t what I wanted.” Zmiya’s pale, unevenly coloured eyes never waver.
“What did you want?” Now Taras really needs to know. This whole stupid thing has gone on too long.
“To hurt you.” The eyes glitter.
“I see. A noble goal.” Taras tries to keep his voice even, but he can’t disguise his contempt. He goes on digging. But he can tell the snake isn’t finished.
“I was afraid you’d die and that I’d made it happen.”
“It wasn’t you. How could you have made it happen?”
“I hated you,” Zmiya says, as if his words are totally reasonable. “I thought he might have caught that from me.”
“Oh, for God’s sake. Viktor hated me from before. From the old country.”
“So did I.”
So. This must be what he’s been wanting to say. It makes no sense. Taras takes a step toward Zmiya. “You’re crazy. I never knew you.”
It’s loud enough to make a guard look up.
Taras makes several quick jabs in the dirt. Zmiya grabs hold of the root and pulls. Surprisingly, it comes out easily.
The guard has already lost interest.
“I knew you. You took my job.” Taras hears anger growing in the man’s voice.
“How could I do that? I only had one job outside the village. I got it because I looked after the colonel’s horse.”
“Tak, I heard you tell the story. To your friends.”
Taras smells a sourness on the man’s breath as if acid works away in his belly.
“Before it was your job, it was mine. I looked after horses in the garrison.” Zmiya cuts a root off below the ground and pulls it out. Goes on to the next. “Then they fired me.”
“Fired you. Why?”
“One day a horse kicked me while I was braiding her tail. I grabbed a chunk of wood and hit her.” He goes on digging. “Krentz saw me.”
“He fired you for good reason, then. And you blamed me?” Now Taras is angry.
“Normally, I’m very good with horses.” Zmiya speaks in a matter-of-fact tone. “But I used to see my father beat our horse at home, and when she kicked me, I didn’t think.”
“It had nothing to do with me.”
“But listen. My job meant everything to me. It got me out of our shithole of a farm. When I lost it, I had to go back. Had to obey my father. And wait for him to die and leave the shithole to me. I couldn’t afford to get married. Finally I couldn’t stand it, so I left.”
Taras tries not to, but he can see it all in front of him. He knows about cruel and bitter men because, again, there’s somebody like that in every village.
“And here in Canada?”
“I worked on the railroad. I was doing all right until I got laid off. I had nothing to live on, so they sent me here.”
“That’s too bad.” Taras speaks without much sympathy.
“When I saw you, it was too much. You took my job.” Zmiya stands still, one foot on his spade. “Krentz liked you.”
Taras remembers a night shortly after he came to camp. “That night at Castle the Germans and the Ukrainians got fighting? I suppose it was you who hit me.” He sees from Zmiya’s face that he’s guessed right.
“Do you still hate me?” Might as well know where things stand.
“Not any more. None of it was your fault.”
Fine, Zmiya admits the truth. It doesn’t make up for what he’s done. “You don’t think this makes us friends all of a sudden?”
“Oh no. Just thought I could clear the air a bit. So I can stop carrying this around.”
He pulls out a kitchen knife sharpened to a wicked point. Never mind how he got it or how he sharpened it. Being a prisoner can bring out that sort of ingenuity in a person.
Taras remembers the ride in the icy water. Zmiya could stab him right now.
Zmiya makes sure the guard isn’t looking, then hurls the knife in a high arc, twisting end to end. It plummets into the trees, flicks against branches, sinks harmlessly into snow.
“I won’t bother you again.” He waits for some kind of answer, but none comes. “I wish I was more like you. I wish I was a better man.”
Taras makes himself answer. “Maybe when you get out of here.”
Zmiya shrugs. “Maybe.”
Still the snake waits. What does he want now?
Taras plants his spade, raises his right foot. A thought flares in his brain like lightning, and before his foot touches the spade it resolves into certainty.
“It was you, wasn’t it?”
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“You killed Budak.” Taras sees the shadowy figure, the sudden movement into the trees. He looks into Zmiya’s marled eyes. “I saw you by the guardhouse.”
Zmiya’s eyes blur with tears. “I only wanted to scare him. I wanted him to know, wherever he went I could find him.”
“You killed him with that knife.” The knife lying in the trees maybe thirty feet away.
“No! The guardhouse door was open. He saw me and he thought I’d come to kill him. He tore his guts out with the straight razor.” Pain twists Zmiya’s gaunt face. This must be what he sees when he tries to sleep.
“I never planned to kill him.”
“You never went for help.” Taras feels as if he’s stumbled back into the icy maze. This is what he’s been trying not to know. “You cut his throat.”
“He was going to die anyway. I couldn’t let him talk.” Zmiya’s eyes gleam in the late afternoon light. He seems to want Taras to believe him. “I get sick when I think of it.”
Budak is dead and buried, and nothing can help him. He should never have been here. But Zmiya should never have been here either. Is it possible Zmiya wouldn’t have hurt anybody if he hadn’t been in this place? There’s no answer to that question.
Another memory presses itself into Taras’s thoughts. “Once, in the bunkhouse, when the heavy snow fell and we couldn’t get out...you touched me.”
Zmiya seems to grow smaller, to wither in his shell of bone and flesh.
“I could have killed you, but you would never have known why. I saw that was no good.”
Taras can’t stop the shudder that shakes his body. The air feels colder. He knows he hasn’t yet recovered from his wound.
“Don’t ever come near me again,” he says.
Zmiya shakes his head. “Are you going to say anything?” He doesn’t speak in a threatening way, but more as if he just wondered.
“No. It wouldn’t help. But when you get out of here...”
“I know.” The cat’s eyes watching Taras still hold some spark of light. “I suppose it’s the last time we’ll talk.”
Taras nods. The light fades. Zmiya turns away.
“When I die, who will care?”
“I don’t know.” Taras tries to force his spade into the cold ground. In a moment Zmiya goes back to work. Soon it’s dark and the guard calls them to march back to camp.
PART 5
CHAPTER 37
Goodbye Bullshit
May, 1917
The bunkhouse already looks deserted, bunks stripped to their frames, stoves sitting cold along the central aisle. Men gather their things and stuff them into knapsacks. They wear new summer jackets and tweed caps and have recent haircuts. They look like a bunch of Ukrainian Englishmen, Taras thinks. He and Tymko grab their knapsacks and head for the door. Tymko sings in his deep bass: “Oh, I’ll be working on the railroad, all the livelong day...” They’re going to Edmonton, where Halya might be, to work as trainmen for the Canadian Pacific Railway. Tymko’s done this before, walking the tops of the cars as they’re shunted around the yards. He says Taras will learn how to do it in no time.
Outside, the sun seems uncommonly bright. All at once they see what people who aren’t prisoners see: a magnificent mountain valley. They have lived in the midst of unfathomable beauty – too cold, too hungry, too sad to notice. Too angry.
Taras remembers Ihor looking for Castle Mountain’s spirit. He thinks the mountains are too remote, too pitiless, to notice the troubles of a few hundred men. Maybe they’ve simply been waiting for the prisoners to go. He used to think that if he got out of this place he’d never go near it again, but maybe he’ll come back one day and climb to the clouds.
Myro’s pale, serious face glows in the sun. Yuriy counts the hours until he can go back to his farm. Ihor’s going to work for his friend, a rancher near Pincher Creek. The fiddle makes a bulge in his knapsack, its neck and scroll sticking out the top.
Sergeant Lake steps forward and takes Taras’s hand in his own with sudden, rough warmth. He’s been standing near the bunkhouse door, shaking hands with each man as he leaves. He gives Taras an envelope with a small photograph inside: Taras and a group of other prisoners sitting on a ledge in the snow.
Men climb into the back of large trucks with canvas tarpaulins on metal frames over the boxes. They’ll be driven to Calgary and sent on trains to their various destinations. The trucks take Taras back to the day the Austrians came to Shevchana. A seed of war planted in every heart. He escaped that war and became a prisoner in Canada. But he’s alive.
Tymko pulls him toward the trucks. “Let’s get out of here.”
Taras takes a last look at the camp. “Goodbye, stinking prison.”
Tymko grips his arm. “Not just prison. Shkola. Here you became a man, a leader. Like Myroslav, you have now been to university.”
“Leader?” says Taras. “Why would I be a leader when we’ve got you?” Laughing, they climb into the truck.
Andrews, Bullard and a couple of other guards stand watching. “Good luck to you,” Andrews calls out and others echo him.
The guards have been in a better mood for weeks as news has come back from the Battle of Vimy Ridge, near Arras in northern France, where Canadian troops have won a tremendous victory. Where before they were parcelled out among the British divisions, the Canadians fought together for the first time at Vimy, under Canadian command. The guards talk of sound battle plans, excellent scouting and effective use of artillery fire to support the infantry. They believe the Canadians have shown up British military thinking as antiquated and inflexible. For the first time they’re happy to talk about the progress of the war.
They seem to have found a pride they didn’t have before. Life is moving forward. The camp is closing, and many of them now seem to believe internment was a stupid idea.
The prisoners have earned twenty-five cents a day. Taras has spent every cent of his. He imagines all the cigarettes he smoked lined up side by side, covering every inch of the bunkhouse floor. Or a model of Castle Mountain made of piled-up candy bars. Nobody’s been able to tell the internees anything about the things the government took from them when they came to camp. Well, he knew from the beginning he’d never see Moses’s watch again. He’s not sure how he knew; he was so much more innocent then.
The trucks roar to life and some of the guards wave. At first none of the men raises an arm. Then, what the hell, Taras and a few others raise their arms. Someone shouts, “Goodbye, Bullshit!” Moments later the guards are out of sight. As they drive out the camp gate, the men cheer wildly. It’s uncomfortable in the back of the trucks, but no one cares. They sing songs about harvest and village maidens.
Taras doesn’t join in. It was hard to learn not to hope. He can’t start again until he’s sure he won’t have to come back here. And if there’s ever another war, will it all begin again?
Alone in the newspaper office over the lunch hour, Halya sits at her desk working on an article about a group of Ukrainian men she discovered almost under her nose in Edmonton. They live in caves dug into the riverbank below the Macdonald Hotel. They take any hourly work that comes along, but there isn’t much of that around. Somehow they have survived there through the terrible winter. People in downtown Edmonton call the caves the Galician hotel.
She has no trouble writing articles for the paper. It’s what she likes best, and although her style is more personal than Zenon’s, Nestor has admitted that she is now Zenon’s equal.
A man enters, stooped, unkempt, in dark work clothes. Halya looks puzzled for a second or two, then runs to him.
“Zenon! Thank God!” She holds him close. Feels how his arms and chest have contracted. As if muscles and flesh have fallen toward the bone.
“Halya! My dear, sweet Halya!” His voice is hoarse. He begins to cough and can’t stop for a couple of minutes. She pats his back until he’s able to bring it under control.
She sees his gaunt face, the shad
ows under his eyes. She also sees something she couldn’t acknowledge before. Zenon loves her. Not just as friend and colleague. He clings to her as if she represents all beauty, all light, all goodness.
She also feels a great affection for him. He’s so like her, with his passion for learning, and for reading and writing.
He’s known all the time they’ve worked together that there was someone she loved in the old country and was searching for. That must be why he hasn’t spoken before.
What will happen if she tells him that she’s finally accepted her father’s word that Taras died in the service of the Austrian army?
CHAPTER 38
What good is that to me?
Their rented room near Edmonton’s Strathcona rail yards is big enough for two beds, a small table, a dresser and a couple of chairs. A sink and a small cupboard with cups and plates. Toilet down the hall. The boarding-house grub is plain but there’s lots of it. Peas are still overcooked, but you can usually tell what the food you’re eating is. And there’s more of it. Taras and Tymko spend extra money to buy things the landlady doesn’t serve. Apples. Loaves of bread and honey to spread on it.
They’ve found a fancy store that sells the things the Alpine Club members ate. Their favourites are greengage jam and jars of sardines in olive oil. Gaston Monac sardines. They keep an empty jar on the table to remind them – they’re making up for almost two years of eating pokydky. The food soothes and strengthens them, takes away a little of the pain. Now and then Taras catches himself laughing and it’s like a sudden break in the weather.
They came to Edmonton in early May, and now, in late July, Taras has learned to be a trainman. He moves along the tops of the railcars, sure-footed as a mountain sheep. Almost back to his old strength. What he needs is a few months at the forge, making iron do what he wants.
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