by Joey W. Hill
He muttered an oath. “You’re going to destroy my intent to be a proper groom. I intended to behave as if there were a whole room of witnesses. You kneeling here like every man’s fantasy is not helping. Sit up, sweet nurse, and let me do at least one thing the traditional way.”
She obeyed, and trembled at the look in his eyes, the heat there. Then she realized he was gripping her left hand, and holding something else in the other, something he was slipping onto her finger. A ring with a cool weight to it.
“As one more acknowledgement that you belong to me, then,” he said.
She lowered her gaze and started. He hadn’t bought just a wedding band, but a full set. What would have been the engagement ring had a white gold band, curvy like ocean waves. The center European cut diamond was flanked by a set of three cut diamonds on either side, as well as a bezel set diamond accent. The center diamond flashed with fire. The wedding band had a similar six bead set of diamonds and was shaped to lock up against the engagement ring.
The detail on the ring itself was mesmerizing, tiny silver ridges flanking the diamonds, the setting for the center diamond giving it a rounded square shape. It wasn’t gaudily big, but he’d obviously spent time picking it out. And he’d found the perfect one that she would have wanted for herself.
“It would have been far easier on my nerves if you could have been dreaming of the perfect ring. Had to make my best guess,” he said roughly.
“You did…wonderfully,” she said softly, closing her fingers over it and him, lowering her head to press her cheek to his hand.
Someone had started up music in the dining area. A soft, poignant instrumental of “You Made Me Love You” was wafting up to them, so appropriate it made her smile through her tears.
Alistair’s other hand came to rest on the crown of her head again. When he spoke, he was closer, talking so his breath stirred the hair on her nape, and his voice stroked along her bare spine, a welcome vibration.
“You are my heart, Nina. I spoke that truly. I will care for you through good and bad. And yes, here together where I can speak aloud my mind as I wish, I love you, and will continue to love you, through this life and any other we’re given. And I lied to you, because I could never have given you back to the InhServ program. Never. You’re mine, and I’ll tear through anyone who tries to take you from me.”
She closed her eyes tightly, tight as her grip on his hand and that ring. While the violent declaration matched his world and his way, it was the declaration beneath that meant so much to her.
Only his. Even if his world required times where the body must be shared, her heart and soul would be his exclusively. Remarkably, she could accept that, especially as she remembered their times with both Anahera and Stanley, where he’d shown her, vividly, her body could still be wholly his, even when shared with others. It was not the way of the human world she’d once inhabited. It was the way of vampires and their servants, the world where she belonged now.
When she lifted her gaze, met his eyes, she felt what that truly meant. What was more, she accepted and embraced it. She was the InhServ of Lord Alistair, and she wanted to be that more than anything else in the world.
Because he loved her.
The End
Author’s Note
My humble thanks to Ian W. Shaw who put together the accounts that formed the memoir On Radje Beach. The book provided incomparable detail to bring to terrible life the tragic events that occurred on Bangka Island and afterward, while also painting a vivid picture of life for the nurses before, during and after. Whenever I write a story that includes a historical event, I try to honor the people who were part of that event and avoid giving them words or actions that were not their own. I hope I was mostly successful, but like most events of this nature, I am left in tears and awe, respectively, at what we are capable of doing to one another…and overcoming.
The only deliberate variance I made involved placing a handful of hospital patients on the Vyner Brooke. To my knowledge, that did not occur, but Nate showed up in the scene and I did not have the heart to take him out, especially when he showed such gallantry to Nina until the end.
Another acknowledgement and thanks to Reginald Rigby, who wrote the lullaby “The Night Nursery,” included in his book, The Little White House (music by Claude Arundale). It’s sometimes unnerving, how an author will stumble upon something that fits the emotional needs of a scene as well as this song did. But I learned a long time ago to have faith in the muse. She never lets me down, even if I’m not anywhere near as infallible.
Vampire Queen’s Servant
Chapter One of the book that started the award-winning Vampire Queen series, the story of Lady Lyssa and her servant, Jacob…
Chapter One
Lyssa wanted a meal. Preferably something muscular, a man whose long, powerful body would serve her well as she took his blood. She would hold him down, drink her fill and ride him hard. Take him deep, making him give up his rich blood and hot seed to her body at the same time. She’d push him to exhaustion, beyond rational thought. All those wonderful muscles would be taut and slick as he pounded into her with single-minded urgency, his most primitive instincts making him into a fierce, beautiful rutting animal. Just imagining it made heat shimmer over her skin. As she gazed out the window from the shadows of the backseat of her limo, her lips parted, her tongue caressing the backside of her fangs as if she could already taste him.
For months she’d made herself take blood functionally, letting it nourish her the way freeze-dried packets would keep a lost camper alive. But like most vampires, her desire for blood was intertwined with her need to dominate her victim sexually. Without that, the blood had no taste. No vitality.
She missed taking alpha males. She enjoyed the fight, their resistance, the sweet taste of heated blood. The perception, if only for a moment, that the hunt would be a challenge. A vampire didn’t survive by being ruled by her compulsions, any more than a woman survived by being consumed by her most private desires. But tonight she needed release, and she was feeling reckless enough not to care about the consequences to her fragile heart.
Her nails were just the beginning. A manicure, then a man.
It irritated her that the car in the deserted parking lot of the salon was not Max’s. Maybe her manicurist had experienced car trouble and borrowed someone else’s vehicle. Still, it set off alarm bells in Lyssa’s head. But since her limo was an evening’s rental while she stayed in Atlanta, she couldn’t very well ask the driver to scope out the area for signs of rival vampires. Of course, if she’d had a marked human servant, he could have performed the task for her.
Leave me be, Thomas. I’ve made my choice on that. For now.
She studied her nails by the light thrown into the car from the parking lot lamps. Hellhound that he was, her Irish wolfhound Bran had torn one when she was indulging his incessant need for attention. It had grown back to the half-inch length she preferred in no time, but the glossy burgundy polish could not be regenerated. Perfection was essential, particularly these days when showing any vulnerability could create dangerous situations. Though she easily could afford to pay a manicurist to come to her home, her enemies needed to know she wouldn’t hesitate to go out to seek simple indulgences.
The hell with it. So it wasn’t Max’s car. If it was a trap or trick, she was ready to prove to any enemy or potential suitor foolish enough to challenge her she was not to be trifled with – particularly not when she teetered on the edge of full blown blood lust.
She nodded to the driver, indicating she was ready. Throughout the trip from her mansion on the outskirts of Atlanta to the downtown area, the fifty-something black man had watched her closely in the rearview mirror. From her research into his background and her request from the rental company she knew he was ex-military and used regularly for high risk clients. Add to that, perhaps somewhere in his Southern past he had a grandmother into voodoo or witchcraft, or some other path that believed in the otherworldly.
For it was obvious he sensed there was something different about her. Something that warned him not to turn his back.
Getting out, he opened her door. When she stepped onto the pavement, she noted his large hand tightened on the top of the window as he apparently controlled an urge to draw away from her.
“I’ll be two hours,” she said. “You’re welcome to do as you wish during that time.”
“I’ll likely just sleep in the car, ma’am.”
“No.” His brows lifted as she turned, pointed. “If you do that, there’s a hotel parking deck two miles that way. You’ll go there. It’s not safe to sleep in a car downtown late at night, Mr. Ingram.” It was possible someone might slit his throat and pose as her driver, a twisted attempt to gain her favor or capitulation. The pressure on her to remarry since Rex’s death was fierce, and courtship in the vampire world had all the romance to it of a terrorist cell planning to blow up a pre-school. She didn’t want the driver’s blood spilled on her account. Particularly since blood spilled on the ground was wasteful.
“Do as I say.” Withdrawing some money from her small purse, she handed the folded bills to him. “That’s three hundred dollars. Lock up the car, eat dinner in the hotel and pay for a room to take your nap. Come back for me at midnight.”
He nodded. She could see her actions created many questions in his mind, but she appreciated that he didn’t ask them, choosing to sort them out himself. Perhaps this driver would consider… No, his fear was too palpable.
Hiring staff was something she’d recently shied away from doing, but even as she discarded the idea of hiring him as her permanent driver, her mind was admonishing her as she knew Thomas, her last human servant, would have done. You must have staff. Most importantly, you need a servant. Who will take care of you, my lady?
Only a human servant would ask that question and sincerely mean it when talking about his Mistress, a vampire over a thousand years old. It was moot in this case. Lyssa had no interest in Mr. Ingram as anything but a driver.
A marked human servant was different from an employee or domestic staff person. It was a person who served her by choice, binding himself to her by blood for much more intimate reasons than just to drive her car. One who accepted the demands of the role out of desire rather than fear, a form of submission that brought her a deep, lasting pleasure.
She just hadn’t found anyone yet. A year was not a long time to wait when one had her life span. She still missed Thomas too much. It was that simple.
As she walked toward the high alabaster archway of the Eldar Salon and Spa, the sight of the familiar security guard waiting for her made her relax somewhat. Unless there was serious cause, she didn’t believe in canceling an appointment at the last minute or being significantly late, like a movie or rock star who believed the world revolved around her schedule. People who worked had families, lives. Short lives at that. Rex had pointed out to her more than once that it didn’t matter, since humans frequently squandered the time they had. But that was their decision. Hers was to be reasonably prompt so they would have that choice to make.
She looked back at Elijah Ingram. She supposed most clients who rented a limo for the night didn’t even know the name of their drivers, but she’d known much more than that about him before he’d come to pick her up. Enough to be reasonably certain he’d go to the hotel, pay for parking and take just enough of the change to get himself a soda and a Danish from the vending machine. He’d doze in the car and stash away the rest of the money to pay for his grown son’s many mistakes. Other than purchasing that guilty snack, he wouldn’t spend the money on anything for himself.
Elijah Ingram was a decent, hard-working man. A man who knew the dangers of taking money from the damned.
Her standing arrangement with the Eldar to open for her at ten o’clock in the evening whenever she came to her Atlanta home and requested it had cost her a fortune, giving the proprietors the not unjustified impression she was obscenely wealthy. As a result, the staff acted with the appropriate deference. Not overly chatty, attentive to her moods. They’d always been careful not to surprise her with the unexpected.
For that reason alone, Lyssa knew she should turn on her heel and walk back out. The man who stepped into the foyer to meet her was not Max.
However, she didn’t turn around and leave. She brushed away the warning to do so the way she’d impatiently push a cobweb aside as she passed into a darker, deeper cave where unknown things—possibly treasure—awaited her.
This man did not look the least bit like her manicurist. For one thing, he was blatantly, solidly heterosexual, a condition easily detected by a person with her heightened senses.
His body was a feast. An absolute feast.
Men scoffed at hose, because in the Industrial Age they’d become associated with women’s wear only, but she well remembered the way men had looked in them when they’d been the fashion. She’d favored the short tunics of the Renaissance period, particularly in Italy. They’d allowed a full view of the leggings from calf to groin. When men strode down the cobbled street in them, their swords at their hips, the air ringing with the flowing speech of a language meant to seduce, there was no woman who wouldn’t have felt a stirring in her loins at such a virile sight.
This man wore such a garment easily, without self-consciousness, though she suspected he’d worn street clothes to the salon. He’d chosen a modified version of the hose, no codpiece, so his heavy cock and testicles cambered intriguingly beneath the tan fabric, framed between the columns of his muscular thighs. The top of the hose was rolled down so it rode low on his hips, low enough she could see his hip bones, the diagonal slope of the muscles above them that formed a V as they arrowed toward the genitals. His feet were bare. Since he was drying his hands on a towel, the motion drew her attention to the solid, compact muscle of his bare upper body. The man was a fighter, a cross between an Irish boxer and a medieval knight.
His reddish-brown hair had copper highlights from exposure to the sun. Loose, it fell to his shoulders. A neatly trimmed moustache and short beard following his chin outlined his firm lips. Set well on either side of a nose that had been broken at least once, his blue eyes had fine blond lashes with the same hints of copper. His skin was pale but ruddy, too Celtic to tan.
He’d executed a short bow when he stepped into the foyer, but he’d not yet spoken. His overly firm grip on the towel revealed some tension. When she registered the steady thud of his heart, smelled his heat and the life pulsing through him, a response rippled through her. She countered it with irritation, trying to force herself to be sensible. Careful.
“Are you mute?”
“No, my lady. I would never speak before you gave me leave.”
Despite her intention to remain inscrutable, she couldn’t help the way her interest rose when he spoke so formally. “Tell me who you are,” she said, giving him a mental nudge to ensure a truthful answer.
His broad shoulder twitched, a corner of his mouth curving up. “There’s no need to use compulsion, my lady. I’m Jacob Green. Thomas sent me.”
At that shocking statement, he slowly raised his hand, making it obvious he intended no threat. From one of the display tables, he picked up a small envelope embellished like a suitor’s calling card, complete with a red wax seal and a curl of gold ribbon.
Emotion flooded her chest at the sight of it. For a moment she couldn’t speak, could do nothing but look at something Thomas had touched, recently.
Jacob stepped forward. Most men were taller than she was, and he was no exception at a little over six feet. “He died at peace, with great regard and affection for you until the end.”
Taking the envelope from his hand, she felt the warmth of his skin even though she made sure their fingers did not touch. Somehow she felt reassured by that heat, by him standing so close. Not improperly, just close enough to feel his support, an unspoken offer of assistance. That was what it felt like to have a human servant, to go to ground during daylight and
know he was nearby. Watching over her.
She shrugged off the unexpected thought. Turning the envelope over and over in her hands, she suppressed the sudden need to crush it as if she could absorb the essence of the man who had sent it, feel the way she’d felt when Thomas had been with her. Not completely alone.
He’d been her companion for a hundred and fifty years. Then, after all they’d been through together, she’d abandoned him to die alone.
Aware of her audience, she got a grip on herself and broke open the seal.
As she bent her head over the note, Jacob fought the urge to reach out to her, touch the rippling satin of her straight black hair. Thomas had shown him sketches, a portrait. He’d described her with the emotional eloquence of a dying man, but he’d admitted nothing would come close to meeting Lady Elyssa Amaterasu Yamato Wentworth in person.
He’d pictured her taller, likely because Thomas had told him vivid, heart-stopping tales of her battles with other vampires during the early territory wars. But she’d been born a vampire, and her Asian mother had apparently given her the petite build. Lady Lyssa was considered one of the most powerful and ancient vampires still living, fully in command of her faculties and abilities.
Even while cursing the memory of her dead husband, Rex, Thomas had attributed a portion of her uncanny aptitude for survival to him. An aptitude that had grown exponentially in the last fifty years due to the lessons Rex had taught as well as inflicted upon her.
She looked like a woman in her late twenties, early thirties. That impression vanished the moment Jacob looked into her eyes, a startling jade green rimmed with a solid black line around the irises. Generation upon generation of women were there, layered like rock strata. The energy of it emanated from her, mingling with her other-than-human power to influence and destroy. Despite that, the man in him noticed the bow of her lips, touched and glossed in burgundy, the way her soft black sweater clung to her upper body.