“Please…” I beg of him.
He pulls back while pulling my shorts and panties with him. I should care that I’m completely bare in front of him now, but I can’t find it in me to care. He steps out of his boxers and before I know it his mouth is moving up the inside of my leg. Just watching him has me panting for more. I’m about to beg him again when his mouth slips inside me. I would have cried out in pleasure if it hadn’t been for his hand coming up to cover my mouth. I bury my hands in his hair instead of saying anything. I didn’t know if I control my voice. Just before my world shatters into a million pieces from the way his mouth is working against me he trails kisses up stomach.
I can feel him, hard and ready to be in me and I want it. I want it like I’ve never wanted anything before. His amber eyes lock with mine again. “Are you sure?” he asks and all I can do is nod yes but that’s all the confirmation he needed. Before I can cry out in pleasure from him sliding into me his mouth is on mine. When he starts to move in me at a pace that leaves me needing more. My hands grip his back, my nails digging into his tan skin and muscles, it’s my silent way of saying I want more. His pace increases causing something so intense to build within me. He whispers my name while he thrusts into me, going deeper than before. It hits just the spot, my world shatters and I feel my body rocked with release. I’m sure I would have screamed if I could have but his mouth is on mine only allowing me to moan into his. He whispers my name between kisses and I feel his body tense as he follows me into a land of pure ecstasy.
When I finally come back down from the high he’s still on top of me. He presses a soft kiss to my mouth “You’re amazing” He whispers before rolling over to his side of the bed, but he pulls me with him. My head coming to rest on his chest which is slick with sweat, I can still hear his heart beat as it returns to normal. I’ve never experienced anything like that before. I’m completely ruined because nothing will ever compare to Jagger James.
Chapter 20
Jagger
Londynn’s stirring wakes me up, looking down I see her curled up next to my side, her head lying on my chest. I run hand over my face, I hadn’t meant to let things get carried so far last night but once I had started kissing her I found myself unable to stop. I can still smell and taste her. Being with Londynn was like nothing I had felt since Harlyn. I hadn’t been celibate over the last five years, hell I had been far from that, but nothing had ever felt like last night.
I run a hand through her honey hair. I can feel her breath on my skin, but I watch the rise and fall of her back anyways. If I was worried about my feelings for her before last night, then I knew I was screwed now. There was no denying that I loved her which would be fine, but I couldn’t help but feel like eventually it’d all end. She wouldn’t be satisfied with the mediocre life. No matter what I did I wouldn’t be able to provide for her like she was used to and that made me think that eventually she’d get tired. When she got tired she’d leave and it’d hurt like hell. I already knew what it was like to love and lose, I wasn’t sure I could survive that again.
Londynn stirs again and I hear a small sigh escape her mouth. Her dark hazel eyes look around before coming to rest on mine. A small smile comes across her face. “Good morning boyfriend.” She says quietly. The minute she says it I know I’ve gone too far. I can’t go back, and I don’t want to. I love this girl and it might kill me when she leaves but for the time being I’m going to enjoy this.
“Good morning pretty girl," I tell her while brushing a piece of stray hair from her face. A blush creeps across her cheeks before leaning down to kiss me. “I could get use to this," I tell her.
She giggles “Me too.”
A knock on the door reminds us were not alone. I drop my head back on pillow and let out a frustrated growl. “I swear I’m getting my own place," I whisper to her. Another knock comes from the door “What?” I holler.
“Are you taking me to school?” I hear Jovi ask through the door.
I look at Londynn and the way the stray rays of sunlight coming through the blinds makes her hair shine and catches the smoothness of her tan skin. I want to tell Jovi no, but I know I can’t. Besides I need some space to get control of myself and my emotions. “I should take him," I tell her while smiling apologetically. She smiles and nods. I lean up and kiss her again before telling Jovi yes. “You have plans for today?” I ask her.
“Yeah, I have to go see Farrah since she’s getting back today, and I have a therapy session.” I notice she glances away when she mentions therapy, but I don’t want it to be something she’s ashamed of.
I cross the room while pulling my t-shirt over my head. “You want me to go with you?” I offer her. She shakes her head no which I expected. “I’m proud of you.”
“For what?”
“For sticking with something that isn’t the easiest thing. I’m sure going to therapy and talking about all of your feelings and emotions isn’t the easiest thing, but you do it. It makes me so proud for and of you," I explain to her.
She sits up and wraps her arms around my neck. “As if last night didn’t seal the deal you had to go and say all the right things. I can’t wait until later," she tells me before she starts kissing me. All too soon Jovi is knocking on my door again. She pulls away and I want to protest but she tries to push me from the bed. “Go boyfriend.”
I chuckle and before I make it to the door I glance back at her. She’s lying back on the bed and I’ve never seen a more beautiful vision. “I like that pet name.”
A huge smile breaks across her face. “Good! I do too!” she exclaims with a wink in my direction.
“I’ll see you after work pretty girl. If you get bored stop by later.” I open the door because I know if I don’t then I’ll never get out of this bedroom.
****
On the way to school Jovi couldn’t sit still and then I remembered that he was going starting his Operation Monrowe. “You okay man?”
He wipes his palms on his jeans. “Yeah I’m just nervous.”
As I pull into a parking place I rest a hand on Jovi’s shoulder and give him it a little squeeze. “Don’t be nervous Jovi. You’re a great guy, one of the best I know. You’re smart and you’re a James boy so don’t you worry about anything.”
“There she is," he whispers in awe. I follow his eye line and see a petit auburn-haired beauty. Her hair lay’s in long soft curls and her blue eyes shine from across the parking lot. I could see what Jovi saw in her.
I look over at my little brother and see the fascination on his face and I can’t help but laugh. “You’re in trouble little brother.”
He whips his head back towards me “What? Why?”
“Because I know that look all too well.” I see a look of worry come across his face. “It’s okay. You’re a James boy so being in trouble is inevitable. Now, get out and go to school and start this Operation Monrowe.”
He’s already out of the car when he leans back in “Thanks Jagger.”
I just nod as I watch my little brother cross the parking lot and disappear into the building. When I pull into the shop’s parking lot I can’t help but wonder what Londynn is up to right now. “Good morning little brother!” I hear Bowie holler from across the shop as I enter. I just shake my head and wave. I go into Axell’s office “I should be done with Mr. McAvoy’s car today.”
“Good. I’m sure he’ll be happy to get it back," he tells me without looking up from the paperwork.
I stand there for a little longer, but I might as well be invisible. “Everything okay Ax?”
He takes a deep breath before looking up. “Yeah just had a little argument with Sadie this morning. Fighting with her always throws my day off.”
“Well don’t sweat it. I’m sure it’ll all be okay. If anyone is meant to be together it’s you and Sadie," I tell him and offer a smile before turning around to leave. I work all morning on finishing up the car I was working on. The feeling of being watched is what caught my attention. I roll out fr
om under the car to see Londynn leaning against the tool cabinet. “Enjoying the view?”
“More than you know," she says while biting on her bottom lip. She holds up a bag of fast food. “I brought lunch.”
“Let me wash up and then we can go eat somewhere," I tell her but just as I’m about to walk away I turn back and lean down kissing her coconut glossed lips. “Sorry I couldn’t resist.” I hear her giggle as I walk away.
****
Londynn
Shortly after everyone had left to start their days I got up to start mine. I wondered around the room trying to figure out what was Jagger’s or what belonged to one of his brothers. My phone starts ringing, and I see Farrah’s picture bouncing around. “Hello.”
“Londynn! I’m back!” Farrah exclaimed into the phone. “Meet me at my place ASAP! I have an idea for us.”
“Okay let me get dressed and I’ll be there," I tell her while heading to my suitcases. I pull out a pair of medium wash distressed jeans and baby pink crocheted baby doll top. I have to search for my white tank to go under but eventually I find it. I slip on a pair of white sandals to go with it. Grabbing my purse and sunglasses I head out to meet Farrah.
As I pull up to Farrah’s condo I hear the music coming from inside. She must be in a good mood. Before I could even ring the doorbell, she has flung the door open and pulled me into a hug. “Londynn! I’ve missed you!”
I laugh “I’ve missed you too.”
She pulls me inside and looks at me. I instantly see the change in her face. The happiness is gone. Now, she’s angry. “I’m going to kick Ryce’s ass! You just wait.”
“You might have to get in line.”
She shakes her head “I’m sorry you shouldn’t have had to go through this.”
“It’s okay. I mean not really but it did get Jagger back here and we did kind of get together," I say with a small smile.
She laughs “I knew it! I knew you and Jagger were going to become more.”
“How did you know?” I ask her as she pulls me into the bedroom where she’s still unpacking.
“Are you kidding? I’ve only seen him look at one other girl the way he looks at you. Harlyn. And we all know what she meant to him. I knew it was only a matter of time before he lost that battle," she says, as she flies around the room putting things away.
I have a feeling that Farrah is right but at the same time there is still something that bothers Jagger. I can feel it but until he decides to tell me I won’t know what that is. “Well, I guess we’ll see how it goes.”
“Yes, I’m sure it will. So how was it?” she asks.
I give her a questioning look. “How was what?”
“Oh please! You know exactly what I mean. I know that being with Jagger has to be better than being with Ryce in every single way.”
I can’t help but laugh. “Well, you are right about that. Anyways, you said you had an idea about where we could live when you called.”
“I did, and I do. I think I should put this place up for rent. There’s a two bedroom that’s opened up on the other side. We could split the down payment if you want," she says coming to a stop in front of me.”
I jump up and hug her “Yes! I’d love that!”
“Good. I got the number. I’ll go call then see what we need to do. Did you move your money like I told you to?” She asks while waiting for someone to answer the phone.
I nod “Yes. I did.” She nods her head then walks to turn down the music. While she talks about our new place I try to keep from thinking about Jagger and how all my dreams seem to be coming true.
Farrah returns, and her look is quizzical, “What are you thinking about?” I shake my head, but she keeps teasing me until finally I break down.
“Fine! I was just thinking about how all my dreams are coming true.”
“What about being a ballerina and the ABA and what not?” she asks.
I shrug. “I think maybe that was a childish dream. Kind of how I use to dream about being a mermaid but Jagger…Jagger’s real. He’s the dream that can come true, for someone to love me for me, someone who supports me regardless of everything. Remember when we use to sit around and dream about being an adult and in love. Starting a family and just being happy. Well that’s a dream I could actually achieve…with Jagger.”
Farrah smiles at me but I can see the tears shinning in her eyes. “ I was so worried you were going to keep trying to be little miss perfect that you’d end up like mom. I didn’t want you to end up medicated or unhappy. I love seeing you so happy Londynn.”
“Good I love being this happy. I never knew Jagger James would be my dream come true, but he is," I tell her, and I swear my heart has grown in size and I didn’t even know that it was possible. I get up from her bed “Let me know about the place when you find out. I’m going to go get my boyfriend some lunch then head over to therapy.”
Farrah laughs “I bet you make Dr. Thorton’s job a lot easier now. I’ll see you later and fill you in on my vacay with Connor," she says wagging her eyebrows at me.
I laugh while shaking my head “I’m sure that will be TMI but okay. I’ll see you later.” I was sitting in traffic when I realized I didn’t actually know what Jagger’s favorite food was or what he liked on his burger or if he had food allergies. I was frustrated with myself that I didn’t know these things. However, when I pulled into the drive-thru I reminded myself that we were still new. I shouldn’t know everything yet, just because he emotionally made me feel like I had known him forever, I hadn’t.
I felt better by the time I pulled into the shop. I quickly found Jagger under a car. He must have sensed me watching him because he slid out pretty soon. Damn, he looked good. I couldn’t help but feel that flutter in my stomach every time I saw him. Flashes of last night ran back into my head and I felt the blush starting to form. When he turned back and kissed me briefly I had to control myself to keep from burying my hands in his head of hair and begging for more.
Now were sitting outside on this worn picnic table. “Thank you so much for lunch. I didn’t realize how late it had gotten.”
“You’re welcome," I tell him with a smile. “So, I was thinking today when I went to get this food that I didn’t know if you had any food allergies or even your favorite food…”
He chuckles “No food allergies and my favorite food is a bacon cheeseburger, but I do like tater tots better than fries.”
“Good to know," I tell him, and he looks up at me and I can see him studying me before he speaks.
“You know I think we should go on a date," he announces.
“A date?” I ask, and he just nods. “Aren’t we a little past the dating phase.”
He reaches over and traces my cheek bone with his thumb. “No were never past that pretty girl.”
“Okay. When is this date going to happen?” I ask him.
“How about tomorrow?” I must make a face because he asks, “What’s wrong with tomorrow?”
“Remember when I told you that Farrah had an idea about our living situation. Well, she found us a two bedroom and she was going to see if we could move in tomorrow, so I was actually hoping I could use these muscles of yours," I tell him while attempting to wrap a hand around his bicep.
“You guys already found a place?” He asks sounding a little disappointed.
I nod but I can tell something is bothering him. “That’s good right? I mean I’ll be out of your hair soon.”
He takes my face in his hands. “You are never in my hair and if you are I want you there but yes you can borrow my muscles. We’ll do the date later this week.” Then before I can speak he’s kissing me but there seems to be something desperate and passionate about it. I feel my body start to tingle all over and before we get carried away I pull back and stand up.
“I have a therapy session. I’ll see you at home boyfriend," I tell him before walking away.
“Wait! So, you just eat, take advantage of me then leave?” He hollers at me.
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sp; I turn back and see that trouble making smile on his face and I shake my head. “Take advantage of you, why Mr. James you should be so lucky," I tell him before blowing him a kiss and heading for my car.
Chapter 21
Londynn
When I pulled into Spirit I was unsure of how the session would go. However, it was clear that by the end of it that Dr. Thorton was very happy with me. He said I had grown more in the last month than ever before. It made me feel like I could take my first deep breath. I knew a lot of the changes had to do with Jagger, he made me happy and free. As I was heading back to the car Farrah called to let me know that we were all set to move into the new place tomorrow. It was bittersweet. I loved being in Jagger’s arms at night, his arms keeping me warm and inhaling his smell but at the same time I knew I couldn’t stay there forever. It was too soon for us to more or less live with one another. Not to mention he already had to share the house with other people but I would miss him at night.
As I pulled up to Jagger’s family’s house I knew I now faced a new dilemma. How to get the rest of my things from my parents place to the one I would now be sharing with Farrah. I didn’t want a run in with my parents. I mean I loved them, I always would but being around them set my anxiety into fits and I just couldn’t deal with that right now. I did the last thing I knew to do. Reluctantly I scrolled through my contacts until I saw his name. He answered on the fifth ring and sounded like he was out of air.
“This better be good…” He said.
“I need a favor and hoping you won’t be an ass about it," I told him then held my breath while waiting for his answer.
After what seemed like forever he finally spoke “I don’t do favors.”
I released the air I had been holding. “You know you use to be a good person. You use to do anything for me, for Farrah too. What happened to that guy?”
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