“Get out, Rob, before I change my mind.” I seethe through my teeth. His head rears back in laughter and he shuts the door.
My head flips down and then back up.
He’s assuming, right? No way that he had seen under the towel.
Heat travels up my neck, seeping into my cheeks and I’m sure I’m as red as a stop sign right now.
I SPOT THE vacant booth and sigh. None of the girls could make it tonight, all with legit reasons, but standing on this stage, trying to memorize the songs Rob and I have been working on for five straight hours while they move the instruments in, frazzles my nerves. As it is, a friend of Rob’s is now substituting Dex’s position as the bass player.
“You holding up?” Rob asks, chuckling to himself while he carries a drum to the stage.
“Why didn’t you cancel? It’s like The Invisibles with their misfits.” I place the sheet of paper down and throw my head in my hands. I’ll be lucky if I correctly sing the lyrics to one of these songs tonight.
“We were going to.” He plops down on the edge of the stage with me. His eyes light up with delight. “Until I heard you sing.” He raises his eyebrows up and down a few times.
“You mean eavesdropped?” I clarify and he leans back on his hands, a smile in place.
“Potato . . . potatoes. Same outcome.” He shrugs his shoulders and peers out to the empty booth. “Sorry about the girls,” he comments, never turning toward me.
When Roni, the usual waitress, casts a glance to him, he motions her over.
“Usual, Rob?” she asks, not taking out her notepad or pen.
“Please, Roni. Make it two.” He tosses his head my way and she peers over to me and then leers back to him before her sight returns to me.
“Is that what you want?” she questions me, and I laugh at her straightforwardness, disregarding Rob.
My eyes veer to Rob and then back to her. “It’s fine.” I tilt my head in an affectionate manner and she nods sidling up to her next customer.
“She’s always busting my balls. I’ll be right back.” His hand squeezes my shoulder as he lifts himself up and I take a deep breath from the contact. I’ve got to grab a hold of my emotions. Especially since we have the love ballad Brady wrote for Sadie to sing tonight. When Rob brought it up, I fought that we shouldn’t sing it, saying no one else should, but Brady added that it’s the most popular song right now and it’s a must on the list. Sadie seemed indifferent, so here I am preparing to sing side by side in some duet with Rob. That should help us stay in the friend zone—not.
“I’m Roni by the way.” The cute blonde comes over. She’s probably in her thirties and I notice her diamond ring sparkling under the lights.
“Paige.” She places the drinks on the stage and then smiles over to me.
“I think he likes you.” She eyes Rob helping Trey set up the drums and then back to me.
I’m mute because how am I supposed to respond to that? I hope he does, but I’m not completely sure. Even if he is, I’m afraid it’s only my body he wants. “I’m not into the whole one-night thing,” I admit and her hand lands on my knee with her tray tucked under arm.
“Rob’s been coming in here for years and believe me, it’s more than that.” She winks and drifts over to the next table.
I stare down at the shot glasses filled with what I assume is Yeager alongside a bottle of Heineken. As though he heard the glasses hit the wood, he’s sits down next to me and picks up a shot glass. “This is for the nerves.” He clicks his glass with mine and I follow him in downing it. I cringe when the burn of the alcohol coats my throat. Before I have a chance to place my shot glass back down, he thrusts a beer in my face. “This is to keep the nerves numb.” He tips his beer back, eyeing me over the green bottle for me to do the same.
I’m not a beer person, but no way am I turning down Rob’s kind gesture. “I don’t know if I can do this.” I speak truthfully, although Rob’s been inundated with my insecure worries for the past five hours.
“Yes you can.” He doesn’t go overboard on the compliments at all.
“What if I forget a line?” I cross my legs and swivel to face him.
He leans back on one arm, turning his chest to me. The stretch of his muscles arouses me and I wonder what those arms would feel like around me. His blue eyes swim with mine and they give me a belief in myself that I can do this. “I’ll be your savior.” His sly grin comes back into place.
I place my hand over my heart, “Oh my, will you ride in on your white horse, too?” I impersonate my best Southern accent and he rolls his eyes.
“If you’d prefer, I’ll let you sink.” He moves to get up, but I quickly lean forward and yank him down.
“I’m kidding. It’s a defense mechanism.” I divulge before he leaves me. His presence soothes me and I need that until the final second.
He drops back down with a thud and then lifts his ass to rub it. “Shit, you’re stronger than you look.”
“Sorry.” I raise my shoulders, sinking my head in between them.
“Yeah, right.” He takes a long draw from his beer and then Trey and the new bass player, Calen, join us. We move over to the booth and Roni delivers another round of drinks.
Before she leaves after the second time, I gently grab her elbow. “Can I have a water?” I ask and she nods.
“Water?” Rob asks, peering over to me. Trey has his phone out texting like crazy and Calen is eyeing all the girls purposely strutting past our table to see The Invisibles play.
“Yeah, you do want them to understand me, right?” I speak slowly for dramatic effect and he inches closer.
“I was just trying to get you drunk so I could take advantage of you.” His arm moves around my shoulders, resting on the back of the booth. There was something different in his banter tonight until now. He wasn’t cocky or arrogant, just simply a friend. The change I see in him only intrigues me more.
I swallow deep and my eyes ping across the bar, but never to Rob. His finger lazily moves on my bare shoulder and I try to not reveal the blaze that’s running through my veins or the increased beat of my heart. I can sense his vision focused right at the side of my head, but I refuse to turn around because I’m fairly certain if I do, my lips will connect with his. My willpower has been draining all day, but this move might be my complete undoing. I’ll cave if I gaze into those crystal-blue eyes. The only thing that keeps me denying him is the nightmare so many women wake up to after a night with my dad—a bed to themselves.
Trey claps his hands and I’m thankful for the reprieve of Rob’s hand on my skin. “Time!” he yells and flies out of the booth, jumping on stage.
Calen does the same, winking at a few girls in the front row. We step out of the booth, my stomach full of butterflies from the excitement and the fear. I rub my sweaty palms along my black leather pants just as Roni hands me my water.
The chill of the bottle cools down the heat in my body that Rob provoked. Roni places her hand on my arm and I shock back, alarmed from the contact. “You’ll do great. You’re smokin’ hot. These guys will eat you up whether you can sing or not.” One side of her lip turns up and then she weaves through the crowd.
When I flip around, I close my eyes and my free hand covers my stomach trying to calm the flutter down. Mustering up the confidence to perform tonight, I open my eyes and Rob’s perched on the stage with his hand out, waiting to help me up. My heart warms with his act of kindness. I break our distance, grab hold of his hand and step up on the stage. “Thanks,” I murmur and he winks a blue eye at me.
“Knock ’em dead.” With his easy smile, self-assurance arises inside of me. Maybe I can manage to do this.
I’ve been on stages larger than this, packed arenas as a matter of fact, but back then I just spun around my dad in my tutu while he played guitar. Memories float to mind from the summer my mom shipped me off to my dad. She wanted him to see what it was like being a single parent since there were often times I wouldn’t see him for mo
nths. That summer turned out to be one of the best in my life, except for Will overdosing. Luckily, he survived, but he never returned to the band and I recently saw him on one of those reality shows.
When the small spotlight focuses down on the stage, I’m thrown back to the present. The very scary present. The crowd quiets and I close my eyes, sucking in a few long and deep breaths. I can do this. The hammering of Trey’s drumsticks ring from behind me and I open my eyes, praying I don’t screw up.
“YOU DID FUCKING amazing.” I rush up to Paige and scoop her up in my arms. Our two sweaty bodies embrace and she laughs when I swing her around. “I told you. Check them out.” I stop us and point to the jumping patrons of Ace’s shouting for more.
She slyly eyes me. “You want to give them one more?” She bites her lip and I shake my head from her quick addiction to the spotlight.
“What do you say guys, one more?” I fear Trey will be out, I already caught him checking his phone on a song break, but Celan, he instantly gives me a quick nod, eager to play.
“One more and then I’m out,” Trey says as he places his phone back on the ground. “Singer’s choice,” he screams and Paige frantically shakes her head back and forth, making those curls swing in the air. God, I want to twirl my finger around one and tug.
“Do you guys know Dr. Feelgood by Motley Crue?” She cringes like we wouldn’t know one of the top rock-out songs of all time. Not to mention a song about girls, give me a damn break, it’s a garage band’s must.
“Fuck yeah,” Celan yells and I could use him as my prime example since I borrowed him from a garage band.
Trey smiles. Paige moves back up to the mic while Trey and I begin the musical in the first half. Celan soon joins in and Paige glances back to us until I point to her that it’s time for her to start singing. You’d never guess this was her first show; actually you’d think she’s been playing in a band for years. She shakes her ass, pacing the stage in those skintight leather pants. Fuck me, her ass in my face now as she bends down to the crowd with the microphone in her hand. When we hit the chorus, she leans into me and I help her sing it. God, her flowery perfume makes my dick come alive.
She’s hot as hell, and from the amount of guys’ eyes pinned on her from the first row, I’ll have to claim her fast once this is over. She may not be mine, but damn if any of these douches will get a piece of her tonight. As the song dies down, she places the microphone on the stand and turns around, downing the rest of her third bottle of water since we started playing. As if she could get any hotter, she tips her head back and gulps the water down her throat. The only thing better would be if she spilled it.
When the spotlight turns off, the crowd groans before resorting to the bar or tables. Paige darts directly to me. “What a high!” She takes a deep breath and her shoulders jiggle as I swear shivers rack her skin. “Thank you for convincing me to do it.” She leans over and kisses me on the cheek, and then works her way to Trey, who’s already packing up his stuff.
I try to force the jealousy away, watching her hug Trey and Celan, but my eyes won’t stop watching her as she comes down from the high of performing. Makes me think of my first time playing in front of people our freshman year. Man, I was hooked after one taste and that was before the circle of girls that formed around us. After she finishes hugging them, Trey comes over and slaps my back. “Do you mind packing up my drums? Tara has a fever and Kailey’s got a paper due tomorrow.” His shoulders slump and I swear the dark circles under his eyes have sunken in deeper lately, if possible. The demands of parenthood I guess.
“Yeah, man, go. Celan will help.” I wave him off and he jumps off the stage, dodging the approach of girls about to swarm likes bees on honey. Sad really, especially since any true fan knows he’s spoken for. Not like I’m not surprised, if the girlfriend isn’t here, others think it’s free game. Hell, some do it blatantly right in front of the girl.
I pack up my guitar and when I swing it over my shoulder, Paige is bouncing up and down in front of me, clapping her hands. I guess that high hasn’t left yet. “Oh my God, Rob. That was so much fun.” When I see her excitement, all my insides tighten, because I have to ram down these feelings to seek out every damn venue from here to Cleveland just to book a show every damn night just to see that expression on her face. I need to space myself from her, close off whatever she’s shooting to my heart. “What?” Her smile fades while I drown in contemplation of our relationship and I hate when her eyes falter from uncertainty.
“Nothing.” I shake my head. “You did great, Paige.” I go to sidestep past her, but she grabs my arm, swinging me around.
“Rob?” she sighs, silently asking me to answer where my head disappeared to. But I can’t, so I slip on the invisible mask that’s tucked in my back pocket. “Your tits were bouncing, you distracted me.” She huffs and her stance sulks. She’s way more perceptive than others to accept my defense mechanisms.
She stares at me long and steady for a few seconds. Then she claps her hands, forcing the two of us to focus. “What can I do to help?”
“Nothing. Celan and I have it.” I flick my head to Celan, who’s already taken apart the drums. “Sit tight, enjoy the thrill and I’ll be back to buy you a drink.” I hop off the stage and once I reach the archway to the hall, I turn around one time. A flutter of activity immediately envelops her and I shake my head, figuring I should keep close for the rest of the night. Then the evil devil on my left shoulder perks up with an idea to squash this feeling before it ever starts.
Fifteen minutes later, the van is packed and locked up. I head down the hallway, needing a shot now. Numb the pain before it takes over. Over the years I’ve learned tactics to get through times like this. Time where my heart widens a little too much. I stop in my tracks when my eyes float to our booth and I see Paige smack dab in the middle of a group of guys. What the hell? She’s smiling and laughing with them. Then I eye one and I know him from somewhere. “Fuck,” I mumble to myself.
“What’s up, man?” Celan comes alongside of me and his eyes follow mine.
“Shit, I didn’t know Exiled Souls was coming tonight. I heard they’re starting their own label or something. They want to compile more bands.” Celan rambles the same rumors I’ve been hearing. The band circuit around here is small, so news travels fast.
“I’m fairly certain they have their eye on someone tonight?” My eyes never leave the table.
“I’m not sure their interest is only in her singing capabilities.” Celan claps my shoulder and heads over to the table. Probably eager to grab a spot. I can’t blame the kid; he’s been trying hard to find a regular gig after his band broke up. Invisibles sure isn’t where he needs to land, it’s dying a slow death.
When Celan reaches the table, Paige smiles and signals for the three guys to let him sit. As she’s busy being the polite person she always is, she scans the room and finds me leaning against the archway. Her face lights up and she tilts her head in an adorable way, wondering why I’m still over here, watching her instead of next to her. She signals for the asshole next to her to scoot out and the guys all check out her ass as she makes her way over to me.
With my arms crossed, I lick my lips, enjoying the view of her in those tight as hell pants and second skin shirt. She’s the perfect mix of sour and sweet. My own lemon drop. “I thought you were going to buy me a drink?”
She fidgets with her hands, her shyness with me surfacing. She’s confused on where we stand and I’m not sure I blame her. I have no idea what the hell we’re doing tonight, but the fact that her being in front of me makes the pain disappear is a guilty pleasure I’ve been soaking up these past months. Tonight is different; her eyes are brewing like the lava at the base of a volcano before it erupts. She’s ready for more than our usual flirty banter. I run a hand down my face, and my eyes explore her body. Shit, maybe I am, too.
“Yeah,” the word comes out soft and I know I’m agreeing to more than just a drink.
“Let’s
go then.” She bops a few steps forward and then turns around, cocking her head again to see if I’m following.
I press forward off the archway and break the distance between us. When my hand lands on the small of her back, she arches from the contact before relaxing back down. The bar is four-deep at least and Roni is busy shuffling between tables. Quickly, my hand moves across her back and I link my hand with hers, leading us to the side of the bar.
Pete catches my hand in the air and leans close to the girl who’s next. After Pete roams our way, the blonde girl’s gaze travels down to us and she smiles. “Whatcha have?” He inches closer and I shout two shots of Yeager and two beers. He nods and fills our order. I toss him the money and he smiles, and then notices Paige behind me. “Hey, you did great tonight,” he yells over to her and she nods. I see the damn meet me in the backroom eyes he’s giving her and I like Pete, so I won’t punch him in the face.
“Thank you.” She’s polite as always, and Pete smiles before rushing back over and refusing the blonde’s money for the drink. She leans over, her tits practically resting on the bar and kisses his cheek. That guy gets more ass than I do, or used to. I’ve been on the mend lately and can’t really figure it out, except for the spunky brunette stationed next to me.
She reaches across to grab her drink and her back brushes along my chest. I close my eyes, sniffing her fruity scent that I’ve discovered is her shampoo after opening every one of the five bottles she has in the shower. When she returns next to me, I smile and take the shot glass she’s holding up to me. “Congratulations. You did fucking awesome.” I raise my glass and catch the flush on her cheeks.
“Thank you. I had a lot of fun.” She clinks the glass and then tilts her head back, and I stare at the curve of her neck. Swallowing deep, the soft arc is winding me so tight it’s hard not to press my lips to it. I want to lick her neck all the way up to her ear and tell her all the dirty things I daydream about doing to her. When I notice her head coming back down, I quickly down my shot and place my glass on the bar.
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