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JUST how Leslie Ward had drifted into his innocuous affair with the starof "The Valley" he was not certain himself. Innocuous it certainly was.Afterwards, looking back, he was to wonder sometimes if it had not beenprecisely for the purpose it served. But that was long months after.Not until the pattern was completed and he was able to recognize his ownwork in it.
The truth was that he was not too happy at home. Nina's smart littlehouse on the Ridgely Road had at first kept her busy. She had spentunlimited time with decorators, had studied and rejected innumerablewater-color sketches of interiors, had haunted auction rooms and bidrecklessly on things she felt at the moment she could not do without,later on to have to wheedle Leslie into straightening her bank balance.Thought, too, and considerable energy had gone into training andoutfitting her servants, and still more into inducing them to wear theexpensive uniforms and livery she provided.
But what she made, so successfully, was a house rather than a home.There were times, indeed, when Leslie began to feel that it was not evena house, but a small hotel. They almost never dined alone, and when theydid Nina would explain that everybody was tied up. Then, after dinner,restlessness would seize her, and she would want to run in to thetheater, or to make a call. If he refused, she nursed a grievance allevening.
And he did not like her friends. Things came to a point where, whenhe knew one of the gay evenings was on, he would stay in town, playingbilliards at his club, or occasionally wandering into a theater, wherehe stood or sat at the back of the house and watched the play withcynical, discontented eyes.
The casual meeting with Gregory and the introduction to his sisterbrought a new interest. Perhaps the very novelty was what firstattracted him, the oddity of feeling that he was on terms of friendship,for it amounted to that with surprising quickness, with a famouswoman, whose face smiled out at him from his morning paper or, huge andshockingly colored, from the sheets on the bill boards.
He formed the habit of calling on her in the afternoons at her hotel,and he saw that she liked it. It was often lonely, she explained. Hesent her flowers and cigarettes, and he found her poised and restful,and sometimes, when she was off guard, with the lines of old sufferingin her face.
She sat still. She didn't fidget, as Nina did. She listened, too.She was not as beautiful as she appeared on the stage, but she wasattractive, and he stilled his conscience with the knowledge that sheplaced no undue emphasis on his visits. In her world men came and went,brought or sent small tribute, and she was pleased and grateful. Nomore. The next week, or the week after, and other men in other placeswould be doing the same things.
But he wondered about her, sometimes. Did she ever think of JudsonClark, and the wreck he had made of her life? What of resentmentand sorrow lay behind her quiet face, or the voice with its carefulintonations which was so unlike Nina's?
Now and then he saw her brother. He neither liked nor disliked Gregory,but he suspected him of rather bullying Beverly. On the rare occasionswhen he saw them together there was a sort of nervous tension in theair, and although Leslie was not subtle he sensed some hidden differencebetween them. A small incident one day almost brought this concealeddissension to a head. He said to Gregory:
"By the way, I saw you in Haverly yesterday afternoon."
"Must have seen somebody else. Haverly? Where's Haverly?"
Leslie Ward had been rather annoyed. There had been no mistake about therecognition. But he passed it off with that curious sense of sex loyaltythat will actuate a man even toward his enemies.
"Funny," he said. "Chap looked like you. Maybe a little heavier."
Nevertheless he had a conviction that he had said something better leftunsaid, and that Beverly Carlysle's glance at her brother was almosthostile. He had that instantaneous picture of the two of them, the mandefiant and somehow frightened, and the woman's eyes anxious and yetslightly contemptuous. Then, in a flash, it was gone.
He had meant to go home that evening, would have, probably, for he wasnot ignorant of where he was drifting. But when he went back to theoffice Nina was on the wire, with the news that they were to go with aparty to a country inn.
"For chicken and waffles, Les," she said. "It will be oceans of fun. AndI've promised the cocktails."
"I'm tired," he replied, sulkily. "And why don't you let some of theother fellows come over with the drinks? It seems to me I'm always thegoat."
"Oh, if that's the way you feel!" Nina said, and hung up the receiver.
He did not go home. He went to the theater and stood at the back, withhis sense of guilt deadened by the knowledge that Nina was having whatshe would call a heavenly time. After all, it would soon be over. Hecounted the days. "The Valley" had only four more before it moved on.
He had already played his small part in the drama that involved DickLivingstone, but he was unaware of it. He went home that night, tofind Nina settled in bed and very sulky, and he retired himself in nopleasant frame of mind. But he took a firmer hold of himself that nightbefore he slept. He didn't want a smash, and yet they might be headedthat way. He wouldn't see Beverly Carlysle again.
He lived up to his resolve the next day, bought his flowers as usual,but this time for Nina and took them with him. And went home with theorchids which were really an offering to his own conscience.
But Nina was not at home. The butler reported that she was dining atthe Wheelers', and he thought the man eyed him with restrainedcommiseration.
"Did she say I am expected there?" he asked.
"She ordered dinner for you here, sir."
Even for Nina that sounded odd. He took his coat and went out again tothe car; after a moment's hesitation he went back and got the orchids.
Dick Livingstone's machine was at the curb before the Wheeler house,and in the living-room he found Walter Wheeler, pacing the floor. Mr.Wheeler glanced at him and looked away.
"Anybody sick?" Leslie asked, his feeling of apprehension growing.
"Nina is having hysterics upstairs," Mr. Wheeler said, and continued hispacing.
"Nina! Hysterics?"
"That's what I said," replied Mr. Wheeler, suddenly savage. "You've madea nice mess of things, haven't you?"
Leslie placed the box of orchids on the table and drew off his gloves.His mind was running over many possibilities.
"You'd better tell me about it, hadn't you?"
"Oh, I will. Don't worry. I've seen this coming for months. I'm nottaking her part. God knows I know her, and she has as much idea ofmaking a home as--as"--he looked about--"as that poker has. But that'sthe worst you can say of her. As to you--"
"Well?"
Mr. Wheeler's anxiety was greater than his anger. He lowered his voice.
"She got a bill to-day for two or three boxes of flowers, sent to someactress." And when Leslie said nothing, "I'm not condoning it, mind you.You'd no business to do it. But," he added fretfully, "why the devil,if you've got to act the fool, don't you have your bills sent to youroffice?"
"I suppose I don't need to tell you that's all there was to it? Flowers,I mean."
"I'm taking that for granted. But she says she won't go back."
Leslie was aghast and frightened. Not at the threat; she would go back,of course. But she would always hold it against him. She cherished smallgrudges faithfully. And he knew she would never understand, never seeher own contribution to his mild defection, nor comprehend the actualinnocence of those afternoons of tea and talk.
There was no sound from upstairs. Mr. Wheeler got his hat and went out,calling to the dog. Jim came in whistling, looked in and said: "Hello,Les," and disappeared. He sat in the growing twilight and cursed himselffor a fool. After all, where had he been heading? A man couldn't eat hiscake and have it. But he was resentful, too; he stressed rather hard hisown innocence, and chose to ignore the less innocent impulse that laybehind it.
After a half hour or so he heard some one descending and DickLivingstone appeared in the hall. He called to him, and Dick entered theroom.
Before he sat down he lighted a cigarette and in the flare ofthe match Leslie got an impression of fatigue and of something new, oftrouble. But his own anxieties obsessed him.
"She's told you about it, I suppose?"
"I was a fool, of course. But it was only a matter of a few flowersand some afternoon calls. She's a fine woman, Livingstone, and she islonely. The women have given her a pretty cold deal since the Clarkstory. They copy her clothes and her walk, but they don't ask her intotheir homes."
"Isn't the trouble more fundamental than that, Ward? I was thinkingabout it upstairs. Nina was pretty frank. She says you've had your goodtime and want to settle down, and that she is young and now is her onlychance. Later on there may be children, you know. She blames herself,too, but she has a fairly clear idea of how it happened."
"Do you think she'll go back home?"
"She promised she would."
They sat smoking in silence. In the dining-room Annie was laying thetable for dinner, and a most untragic odor of new garden peas beganto steal along the hall. Dick suddenly stirred and threw away hiscigarette.
"I was going to talk to you about something else," he said, "but this ishardly the time. I'll get on home." He rose. "She'll be all right. OnlyI'd advise very tactful handling and--the fullest explanation you canmake."
"What is it? I'd be glad to have something to keep my mind occupied.It's eating itself up just now."
"It's a personal matter."
Ward glanced up at him quickly.
"Yes?"
"Have you happened to hear a story that I believe is going round? Onethat concerns me?"
"Well, I have," Leslie admitted. "I didn't pay much attention. Nobody istaking it very seriously."
"That's not the point," Dick persisted. "I don't mind idle gossip. Idon't give a damn about it. It's the statement itself."
"I should say that you are the only person who knows anything about it."
Dick made a restless, impatient gesture.
"I want to know one thing more," he said. "Nina told you, I suppose.Does--I suppose Elizabeth knows it, too?"
"I rather think she does."
Dick turned abruptly and went out of the room, and a moment laterLeslie heard the front door slam. Elizabeth, standing at the head of thestairs, heard it also, and turned away, with a new droop to her usuallyvaliant shoulders. Her world, too, had gone awry, that safe world ofprotection and cheer and kindliness. First had come Nina, white-lippedand shaken, and Elizabeth had had to face the fact that there were suchthings as treachery and the queer hidden things that men did, and thatcame to light and brought horrible suffering.
And that afternoon she had had to acknowledge that there was somethingwrong with Dick. No. Between Dick and herself. There was a formality inhis speech to her, an aloofness that seemed to ignore utterly their newintimacy. He was there, but he was miles away from her. She tried hardto feel indignant, but she was only hurt.
Peace seemed definitely to have abandoned the Wheeler house. Thenlate in the evening a measure of it was restored when Nina and Leslieeffected a reconciliation. It followed several bad hours when Nina hadlocked her door against them all, but at ten o'clock she sent for Leslieand faced him with desperate calmness.
To Elizabeth, putting cold cloths on her mother's head as she lay on thebed, there came a growing conviction that the relation between men andwomen was a complicated and baffling thing, and that love and hate weresometimes close together.
Love, and habit perhaps, triumphed in Nina's case, however, for ateleven o'clock they heard Leslie going down the stairs and later onmoving about the kitchen and pantry while whistling softly. The servantshad gone, and the air was filled with the odor of burning bread. Sometime later Mrs. Wheeler, waiting uneasily in the upper hall, beheld herson-in-law coming up and carrying proudly a tray on which was toast ofan incredible blackness, and a pot which smelled feebly of tea.
"The next time you're out of a cook just send for me," he saidcheerfully.
Mrs. Wheeler, full and overflowing with indignation and the piece of hermind she had meant to deliver, retired vanquished to her bedroom.
Late that night when Nina had finally forgiven him and had settled downfor sleep, Leslie went downstairs for a cigar, to find Elizabeth sittingthere alone, a book on her knee, face down, and her eyes wistful andwith a question in them.
"Sitting and thinking, or just sitting?" he inquired.
"I was thinking."
"Air-castles, eh? Well, be sure you put the right man into them!" Hefelt more or less a fool for having said that, for it was extremelylikely that Nina's family was feeling some doubt about Nina's choice.
"What I mean is," he added hastily, "don't be a fool and take WallieSayre. Take a man, while you're about it."
"I would, if I could do the taking."
"That's piffle, Elizabeth." He sat down on the arm of a chair and lookedat her. "Look here, what about this story the Rossiter girl and a fewothers are handing around about Dick Livingstone? You're not worryingabout it, are you?"
"I don't believe it's true, and it wouldn't matter to me, anyhow."
"Good for you," he said heartily, and got up. "You'd better go to bed,young lady. It's almost midnight."
But although she rose she made no further move to go.
"What I am worrying about is this, Leslie. He may hear it."
"He has heard it, honey."
He had expected her to look alarmed, but instead she showed relief.
"I'll tell you the truth, Les," she said. "I was worrying. I'm terriblyfond of him. It just came all at once, and I couldn't help it. And Ithought he liked me, too, that way." She stopped and looked up at him tosee if he understood, and he nodded gravely. "Then to-day, when he cameto see Nina, he avoided me. He--I was waiting in the hall upstairs, andhe just said a word or two and went on down."
"Poor devil!" Leslie said. "You see, he's in an unpleasant position, tosay the least. But here's a thought to go to sleep on. If you ask me,he's keeping out of your way, not because he cares too little, butbecause he cares too much."
Long after a repentant and chastened Leslie had gone to sleep, his armover Nina's unconscious shoulder, Elizabeth stood wide-eyed on thetiny balcony outside her room. From it in daylight she could seethe Livingstone house. Now it was invisible, but an upper window wasoutlined in the light. Very shyly she kissed her finger tips to it.
"Good-night, dear," she whispered.
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