Dedication
For Trey. RIP, my brother.
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
1. In which Drew learns a hard truth.
2. In which Hannah reveals one secret, and part of another.
3. In which Jordan introduces himself.
4. In which Drew begins to suspect that he may have been misled.
5. In which Hannah learns one lesson, and teaches another.
6. In which Drew skates on very thin ice.
7. In which Hannah makes a new friend, despite her best efforts.
8. In which Jordan provides valuable perspective.
9. In which Drew receives a dire warning.
10. In which Hannah’s social standing continues to deteriorate.
11. In which Jordan experiences a persistent sense of foreboding.
12. In which Drew has management issues.
13. In which Hannah learns things she’d prefer not to know.
14. In which Jordan realizes that shit may in fact be getting real.
15. In which Drew realizes that he’s in waaaaaay over his head.
16. In which Hannah meets Marta, and hilarity ensues.
17. In which Jordan freaks the hell out.
18. In which Drew gets freaky.
19. In which Hannah learns the limitations of amateur crackers.
20. In which Jordan reconsiders his choice of associates.
21. In which Drew meets Devon’s best friend.
22. In which Hannah goes on the lam.
23. In which Jordan enters into the belly of the beast.
24. In which Jordan learns not to fear the reaper.
25. In which Drew becomes the outbreak monkey.
26. In which Hannah misses out on the SZA.
27. In which Jordan witnesses a slow-motion train wreck.
28. In which Drew explores the limits of human kindness.
29. In which Hannah explores the limits of preparation and self-reliance.
30. In which Jordan learns to appreciate the advantages of architectural subtlety.
31. In which Drew reaches the end of his rope.
32. In which Hannah stares into the void, and the void declines to stare back.
33. In which Jordan learns to quit worrying, and love the SZA.
34. In which Drew learns the limits of trust.
35. In which Hannah contemplates her own mortality.
36. In which Jordan loses his phone, and also one of his shoes.
37. In which Drew lives happily ever after.
38. In which Hannah comes full circle.
39. In which Drew puts a bow on it.
Acknowledgments
An Excerpt from Three Days in April 1. Anders
About the Author
Also by Edward Ashton
Copyright
About the Publisher
1. In which Drew learns a hard truth.
I first realized I’d lost my grasp on Hannah the summer she turned fourteen—the summer of DragonCorn, when pretty much everything I’d been building spun out of my control. This was six years after the AIs wiped out Hagerstown, five years after the final, bloody end of the Stupid War, on a Saturday morning at the ass end of June. The sun was just over the trees in the backyard, hot and bright in a clear blue sky, and the air was thick and damp and already smelling like a sticky, sweat-drenched afternoon. I was playing with my simulator, splicing avian genes into a rodent framework—cut the external ears, turn the fur into feathers, stretch out the forelegs and hollow the bones—with the vague idea of testing whether my father had been right in saying that pigeons are really nothing but flying rats, when Kara told me to get up off my backside and take my daughter for a run.
“Make her work,” she said. “She has no idea what’s coming this fall, and she’s not taking it seriously. Embarrass her a little now, and maybe she won’t get humiliated later.”
I gave her a loud, theatrical sigh.
“Really, Kara? I’m kind of busy here.”
This wasn’t, strictly speaking, true. I should have been busy, but I was working really hard to avoid recognizing that the first full GeneMod development project that I’d been tasked with leading was spinning off the rails. The simulator was displaying a wireframe of the thing I’d created. A blinking red icon in the corner of the screen let me know that my baby was not, in fact, biologically viable.
“Yeah,” she said. “I can see that. Is there a big, untapped market out there for rat-birds?”
I rolled my chair back, spun to face her, and folded my arms across my chest.
“Define big.”
She showed me her teeth then, but I’m not sure you could call it a smile.
“I’ve got a better idea, Drew. How about if I use it in a sentence? If you don’t get up right now and take your daughter for a run, I will shove something big up your ass—and not in a friendly way.”
I rolled a little further away from her.
“How do you know this isn’t mission-critical work?” I said. “That rat-bird might be part of DragonCorn. My team might be waiting for my sim results right now.”
Kara’s eyes narrowed, and I suddenly felt like a rabbit under the shadow of a hawk. Discretion is the better part of valor, right? I stood slowly, patted Kara on the shoulder, and walked down the hallway to the bottom of the stairs.
“Hannah!” I called. “Get dressed. We’re going for a run.”
We lived in Upstate New York then, in an old farmhouse just inside the Monroe county line. The heart of the structure was built in 1910, but it had grown like an anthill over the years. When I first saw it, I could barely find the outline of the main house. The interior was a maze of rooms opening onto rooms, with spiral staircases and hallways, bathrooms and bedrooms and solariums in a random-seeming jumble. It reminded me of the haunted mansions I’d read about as a child, and I fell in love instantly.
Kara was pregnant with Hannah when we bought the place, and she stayed with her mother on Long Island for six months while I had workmen crawling over and under and through the house, stripping out lead paint and lead pipes and asbestos, pulling up years of carpet over linoleum over warped pine boards, ripping the place down to its twelve-by-twelve oaken bones before building it back up with EMP-shielded power conduits and green insulation and solar shingles. I even had them put in a minimum-profile windmill in what used to be a soybean field, hooked up to a hydrogen generator and a high-capacity fuel cell.
By the time they were done, we had an off-the-grid castle that hardly looked different from the outside than it had when I bought it—which, if you’re one of the new aristocracy who doesn’t want to wind up on the gallows when the peasantry has had enough of your shit, is exactly what you’re looking for.
Of course, if anyone had realized exactly how much of what went down that autumn was my fault, all the off-the-gridness in the world wouldn’t have saved me from a lynch mob. This was still June, though. Nobody had any idea yet what was coming.
Hannah sat sullen in the backseat as we drove to the Holland Road Nature Preserve. I’d practically had to stuff her into her running gear and carry her to the car. Kara was right. She was lazy, and she had no idea how hard the start of cross-country season was going to hit her.
“You know,” I said. “We’re not doing this as a favor to me. I’ve already had my running career. This is for you.”
“Yeah,” she said. “I’ve heard about your career, Dad. About a million times, I’ve heard about your career. If your career was so great, why are you constantly obsessing about mine?”
I sighed, glanced up and caught a glimpse of her in the rearview mirror. She was glaring at me, pale blue eyes peekin
g out from under just a hint of a brow ridge. I’d done my best to get rid of that, but a bit of it snuck in with the H. erectus genes I’d used to tweak her lung capacity and limb proportions. She always wore bangs, so it wasn’t usually noticeable. When she was angry, though, she tended to tuck her chin, and her eyes seemed to sink back into her head until they almost disappeared.
“Look,” I said. “If you really don’t want to do this, we can turn around. But the fact is, in two months you’re going to be training with some of the best runners in New York, and most of them will be two or three years older than you are. If you don’t put the hay in the barn now, it won’t be there when you need it.”
“That’s another thing,” she said. “What is it with you and hay? Gotta put the hay in the barn, Hannah. You’re gonna need that hay, Hannah. How’s your hay supply, Hannah?”
I rolled my eyes.
“I’ve never asked you about your hay supply.”
“Maybe not in those words, Dad, but you’re all about the hay.”
I slowed, gave a quick look around, and turned onto County Line Road.
“It’s a metaphor, Hannah. That means that when I say ‘hay,’ what I really mean is—”
She cut me off with a groan.
“Yeah, Dad. I know what a metaphor is.”
“Right. So, hay in this case is a metaphor for your training base.”
“I don’t think so,” she said. “I think it’s a fat joke. I think you’re calling me a cow.”
My stomach knotted.
“What? Hannah, no! I would never . . .”
But I caught her eye again in the mirror, and she was smiling.
“I do not think you’re a cow, Hannah.”
Her smile faded a bit.
“I know, Dad. Cows can’t run.”
I turned right onto Holland Road, and then a half mile later pulled into the gravel parking lot at the nature preserve trailhead. This place was one of the things that had attracted me to the area—a dozen square miles of trees and hills, bounded by Holland Road on one side and the old canal bed on the other, and winding through it, thirty miles or more of meticulously graded and maintained hiking trails.
The trails were color coded and blazed, with signposts at almost every intersection, and there was a four-foot-square map at the trailhead showing the length of each individual segment. With a few minutes’ thinking, you could lay out pretty much any sort of workout you wanted, and all you had to remember were the colors of the trails—green to blue to red to orange to green.
Hannah stretched her calves and hamstrings while I studied the map. I grew up in West Virginia, and when I ran in college I prided myself on being able to break the other runners on the hills. The nature preserve had three brutal, tight-packed climbs along the red trail. I called Hannah over, and showed her where I wanted to go.
“I don’t care,” she said. “I’m just gonna follow you.”
“No,” I said. “I want you to look at this. You need to know the course, in case we get separated.”
She looked up at me, eyes wide.
“Separated, Dad? Why ever would we get separated?”
“Well, we wouldn’t, of course, but . . .”
She held up one hand.
“Whatever, Dad. I’ve got it. Green-brown-red-white-blue-green. Let’s go.”
We started out at a comfortable pace. The trail was wide enough for us to run together, and Hannah matched me stride for stride. There’s nothing quite like the feeling of running, as long as you’re in good shape and nothing is hurting. I relaxed into the easy rhythm of breathing and footfalls, and let the trail roll by beneath me.
Here’s a story for you. The summer she turned two, we took Hannah to the beach. It was a perfect day, hot and clear, with an offshore breeze kicking up sharp little whitecaps on three-foot swells. Kara and I took her in shifts, one of us in the water, the other watching her dig in the sand.
After an hour or so, Hannah started getting cranky, and Kara told me to take her into the ocean. I carried her out twenty or thirty feet, to where the swells were riding up my thighs, knelt down and dipped her into the water, let her kick her feet a bit and cool off. Then Kara waved to me, held up her phone, motioned for me to stand for a picture. I picked Hannah up, held her face next to mine and waved. Kara raised the phone. I smiled. I just had time to see Kara’s mouth open in a scream when a breaker hit me from behind like a runaway bus, lifted me off my feet, and flipped me forward. My arms flailed as I spun around. I tucked my chin, and hit the sand hard on the back of my neck. There was a moment of fuzzy numbness. I reached out.
Hannah was gone.
I struggled to my feet as the wave rolled back out, my heart pounding like a jackhammer in my chest. Kara was running toward me and I spun once around, searching . . .
And there, drifting past me on the tide, was a fan of blonde hair. I dove for her, snatched her up out of the water, and held her face to mine. Her eyes were wide open, and she was laughing.
Ever since that day at the beach, I’ve dreamed of losing her. Sometimes it’s in the forest. We’re hiking together, talking and laughing, and suddenly she’s gone. I crash through the trees calling for her, knowing that something has taken her, that if I don’t find her soon, it’ll be too late. Sometimes it’s in the city, in the subway or one of the abandoned neighborhoods. I always wake up soaked in sweat and panting.
I never find her.
Two miles into our run, we turned onto the red trail. A hundred yards later, we started up the first steep climb. I jumped the pace for twenty strides. Hannah dropped a step or two back, then slowly pulled even. I pushed a little harder. My breath was coming ragged as we crested the hill, but it eased up as I relaxed into the descent.
The trail bottomed out into fifty or sixty yards of winding flat before climbing again. Hannah was a stride or two behind as we started up, and I figured that if I was going to break her, this was the time. I tucked my chin and pushed. Oxygen debt came quicker this time, and when I glanced back, Hannah was right behind me.
“You’re trying to ditch me,” she said. I didn’t have the wind to reply. She pulled even with me, ran beside me for a couple of strides. “Well you know what? I think you’re mean.”
With that, she accelerated past me, crested the hill, and disappeared.
I expected her to slow down once she’d proved her point. She did not. I saw her from the top of the hill, and just for a second as I started up the third big climb a minute or so later. After that, she was gone. I tried to pick it up again on the long, flat stretch where the white trail turned into the blue, but it was hopeless. The longer I went without seeing her, the more I felt like I’d fallen into one of my nightmares.
Toward the end of the blue trail there was a three-or four-hundred-yard stretch that curved through an open field. I was sure I’d see Hannah ahead of me when I cleared the trees, but there was nothing the whole way around but waist-high grass. There was no way she could have gotten that far ahead of me. Either she was lost, or . . .
I pushed the pace as hard as I could. Fear and fatigue twisted in my belly as I imagined all the things that could happen to a pretty blonde girl in the woods. There weren’t any animals of any consequence in the nature preserve, but there had been other cars in the parking lot. I pictured Hannah dragged off into the woods, molested by degenerates, murdered by a sociopath, kidnapped by some UnAltered bastard who knew she was the daughter of a Bioteka engineer. I called her name twice, but there was no answer.
The last stretch twisted through dense woods, and the trail was broken up everywhere by roots and rocks. I was almost sprinting, my chest heaving, my eyes watering until I could barely see the trail. I stumbled once, and fell forward, flailing, until I caught myself hard up against the broad trunk of an oak . . .
And there was Hannah, walking back down the trail toward me, grinning.
“Hey there, Dad,” she said. “Where have you been? Did you get lost or something?”
We
didn’t talk much on the ride home. Hannah wore a smug smile, and I was still shaking too badly to trust my voice. She’d just run five miles in under twenty-eight minutes, barely breaking a sweat. It was going to be an interesting year.
2. In which Hannah reveals one secret, and part of another.
I first realized that my father was an idiot the summer I turned fourteen. He and Mom had been bugging me about running ever since the end of spring track—not in the crazy, tiger-mom way some kids’ parents rode them about their grades or music or whatever, but in a mopey, we-hate-to-see-you-wasting-your-potential way that I sometimes thought was even worse. I mean, I’d been running. I had a little loop that went out to County Line Road, down to Plank, and then back up to the house on a private road through the farm fields. It was about four miles, and I ran it three or four times a week, not at a crazy pace, but fast enough to feel the wind in my hair. I knew it wasn’t exactly Olympic-level training, but I was fourteen years old, right?
That didn’t seem to register with my parents, though. I’d be starting at the Briarwood School in the fall. Briarwood was a smallish private school about halfway between Rochester and Syracuse. Their academic programs were kind of crappy, the faculty was known to harbor more than a few UnAltered sympathizers, there were rumors that the whole place was under low-key NatSec surveillance, and the campus looked more like a minimum-security prison than a prep school. Their distance-running program, though, was the best in the state. Their coach was a three-time Olympian, and kids came from all over the Northeast to run for him. He had a streak going back I don’t know how many years of having every one of his varsity runners earn an athletic scholarship. Dad wanted me on the Briarwood varsity cross-country team, and he wanted me there as a freshman.
Not because we needed the scholarship money. Because I was his science project. You see?
So, one Saturday near the end of June, Dad dragged me out to the nature preserve to teach me a lesson about the importance of hard work and diligent training and blah blah blah. He picked out a five-mile course, and made me memorize it “just in case we get separated.” I knew exactly what he was planning, of course. I’d heard Mom putting him up to it before we left the house. I was pretty mad at first, but when I saw the course he’d picked out I got much, much happier.
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